sunk into the earth

Whenever Zhang Chen feels that life has sunk to the bottom, he always finds that there are worse possibilities than this.

He and Cheng Sheng ran non-stop from home for 10 to [-] minutes. They didn't even have time to change their clothes. They were still wearing the big T-shirt and vest that they only wore when they were at home, and ran all the way in the wind. to the People's Hospital.

The hospital was small and dilapidated, with dim light shining on the white walls, and two bright red characters "Quiet" painted at the end of the corridor.

But these two words are like a joke, because the corridor is full of chaos, full of family members of the patients who just arrived, some emotional people scolded on the spot for some reason, and they were unwilling to be reconciled to the nurse's fierce words shut up willingly.

It was already eleven o'clock at night, and the lights in the emergency room were still on. A doctor in a white coat came out and asked if the family members were there. Zhang Chen immediately went up to him. Cheng Sheng originally wanted to go in with him, but the doctor stopped him first. Next, "Only one person can come in."

The doctor was wearing glasses, sitting at the wooden table and discussing the situation with Zhang Chen in a business-like manner——Zhang Licheng was the one who suffered the most serious injuries in the bombing, and surgery was necessary, the risk was not too high, at least one life could be saved, waiting for the surgery to come out Stay in hospital for a period of observation.

Zhang Chen asked him: "How long will I be hospitalized after the operation?"

"Let's talk about two months." The doctor adjusted his glasses and told him about the follow-up: "But in your father's situation, even after the operation, the whole lower body can't move at all. You can't urinate by yourself. You have to pretend The catheter needs to be taken care of by someone even after leaving the hospital.”

Zhang Chen straightened his back, and asked again: "Will you never be able to stand up?"

"Maybe technology will develop in the future, but it's not possible in these few years." The doctor took out a stack of papers from the drawer, sketched, raised his head in a small piece of light and shadow cast by the top light, and reminded Zhang Chen: "Wait a minute Go and sign the consent book, go back and buy a wheelchair of better quality for your dad, and pay the surgery fee in full in the past two days. Recently, there are too many patients who have not paid the surgery fee. "

Zhang Chen leaned stiffly against the wooden chair, his whole brain was like a wall in the corridor, whitewashed.He stared at the pen in the pocket of the white coat opposite him for a long time, and Dr. Ren buzzed in his ears without any response.

Zhang Chen suddenly remembered that he was still a student, and he had just passed his 17th birthday for more than two months, but when he thought about the life in school before July, he felt like a lifetime away.In the past two months, he didn't know the heights of the sky and the depths of the earth. When he saw Cheng Sheng circling around him, he really thought he could fly all the way up as he said, but he didn't think that he was an ordinary person who couldn't be more ordinary. God is not happy , With just a wave of his hand, he and his family will fall apart.

Uncle Wei, who called him after he went out, kept holding his hand and crying, "Your father and his gang are obsessed with ghosts. If you are laid off, you will accept your fate. It will be good if you make a living. If you are not convinced, you will be stubborn! If you accept your fate, everything will be fine." No, but they insisted on killing the leader surnamed Hu, and they almost lost their lives in the end."

Zhang Chen lowered his head and leaned on the bench in the corridor, not knowing what to say or what to say, and finally he just asked, "Where is the leader surnamed Hu?"

"In the intensive care unit, he didn't die." Uncle Wei looked more excited than Zhang Chen, and wiped his tears with one sentence, "The firefighters rushed to Sangang just now, and the fourth floor was blown up."

The family members in the corridor huddled under the blood-red "Serenity" sign and started a new wave of disputes. Several people even started to fight, and words like "it's unreasonable" and "who the hell is it" kept popping up. Zhang Chen Leaning on the corridor and listening quietly, my heart slowly sank, and finally fell into a pool of stagnant water.

He considered all the possibilities of his future in such a noisy environment, finally decided on something, stood up with the arm of the chair, and pulled Cheng Sheng who had been leaning against the wall without saying a word, regardless of Uncle Wei's surprised face hand, said to him: "Let's go out and have a few words with you alone."

Cheng Sheng staggered, still wearing pajamas, just following Zhang Chen's back in the chilly evening wind after the beginning of autumn.

The back door of the hospital was facing an old bridge. They walked through the dark corridor, came out from the back door and walked to the bridge before stopping.

Just as Cheng Sheng wanted to ask about the situation, Zhang Chen immediately made a gesture to stop him, and spoke first: "Listen to me first."

He leaned on the bridge, as if he was talking about the most ordinary thing, and continued steadily: "I can't go anywhere now, and I have to take care of my dad for the rest of my life."

Before he finished speaking, Cheng Sheng couldn't wait to take the lead: "I can help you take care of me. I can learn to do laundry, cooking, and other housework. I will take a year off from school and wait until my uncle's condition is stable. go back."

The light from the street lamps illuminated Cheng Sheng's face. Zhang Chen looked at his serious expression and knew that he meant it sincerely. In a dilapidated [-]th-tier town, he took care of his father who couldn't support the wall with him.

Zhang Chen suddenly remembered that the time they spent together this week was very short, but it was all printed in Zhang Chen's mind.Cheng Sheng was running around clumsily carrying a ladder and a toolbox. He could talk to the National People’s Congress about his knowledge of electrical circuits at home, but he was not good at repairing them. At first, he couldn’t even tell the parts that looked similar. Can help Zhang Chen.

Zhang Chen had to imagine his future life again, how messy and messy would it be to take care of patients?To wipe the body, turn people over every few hours, and change the catheter, Cheng Sheng dared to say so openly without even thinking about what he was going to face.

These pictures pierced Zhang Chen completely. He couldn't stand people like Cheng Sheng doing such dirty and tiresome things. He tremblingly took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket, and lit the cigarette several times before lighting it up. I smoked one, and then took out a new one from the cigarette box and lit it. The whole person was submerged in the gray smoke.

Zhang Chen smoked several cigarettes in a row, and finally said again: "I mean, let's not see each other again."

"In the best case, I will go to the provincial capital to study, and it only takes four hours to get to Yuncheng by train. I can come back many times a week. When the time comes, I will ask a nurse to take turns taking care of my dad with me." Zhang Chen continued: "No matter How, I have patients to take care of at home, I can't go to Beijing for university, but you will stay there forever, maybe you will go abroad in the future. And we are all men, and society can't tolerate us, so let's forget it. "

As soon as he finished speaking, he was picked up by someone. As if the man on the other side wanted to kill him, he suddenly raised his fist and almost touched his face. The fingers that were clenched together were trembling, but they still couldn't let go. .

Zhang Chen understood Cheng Sheng's temper, so he was not surprised, nor was he angry because Cheng Sheng looked like he was about to kill himself. He looked down at the man's mandible line that was tense from clenching his teeth, and treated him tenderly Said: "Let's stop here. If we go any further, it's all about life. It's not good to be bored with each other."

"No!" Cheng Sheng yelled at him with red eyes, as if he had finally vented all the bitterness of the two months of chasing and fighting: "Zhang Chen, I did this voluntarily, and it has nothing to do with you."

There were some tears in Cheng Sheng's eyes, but he held back them from falling. He stammered and continued, "Don't think so highly of me. What am I, Cheng Sheng? I'm just better at reincarnation than others. Entering Lao Cheng’s family, from grandparents to parents are all doctors. They happen to be a little clever, and my IQ does not embarrass my parents. Do you think I can be admitted to Tsinghua University if I am not born in this kind of family? The whole China is so big, the most indispensable Even smart people, there are geniuses in every corner, who the hell am I in terms of IQ? None of these things are mine, and I don’t want them now.”

"You should cherish what others can't ask for." Zhang Chen didn't look at him, but looked at the distance across the bridge, at Yuncheng soaked in darkness, and said after a while: "Don't waste it on me, you I also promised your grandma that I will return to Beijing on the 31st."

After these words, Zhang Chen turned around, unwilling to entangle with Cheng Sheng any more, and walked in the opposite direction alone.The road was very dark, and there were not many lights left on the road. Zhang Chen walked along this dark road, and stopped thinking about it.

Suddenly Cheng Sheng shouted from behind, that voice seemed to tear open the night and rush towards him, the voice behind shouted: "I love you, it's all voluntary, no one forced me!"

The word "love" made Zhang Chen stunned for a moment, but it was only for a short second. Soon he came back to his senses and walked towards the main entrance of the hospital without stopping.

The people behind still didn't give up, they trotted behind him, regardless of whether there was anyone around, they chased after him with all their strength and shouted: "We have even worshiped each other and slept on the bed, your mother agrees. Me, you want to kick me, no way!"

Zhang Shen, who was in front of him, ignored it, and walked fast, not even shaking the shadow reflected on the road.

Seeing that he didn't respond, Cheng Sheng continued to shout with a trembling voice: "I love you, if you are a man, don't hide!"

There were a few people who slipped out to smoke at the back door, and they seemed to be the family members of the patients. They just wanted to come out to take a breath, but they just caught up with a big show, and they squatted dumbfounded under the corner of the back door of the hospital to watch the play.

Zhang Chen not only didn't respond, but also walked faster and faster.Cheng Sheng panicked, he clearly realized what he was losing, gritted his teeth, ran after Zhang Chen, panting in the dark night and shouted to the blurry back that was getting further and further away in front of him: "I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you!"

With a sore nose, Zhang Chen took a deep breath.But he had no choice but to blink his dry eyes, as no moisture could be squeezed out of them, Zhang Chen knew that he was crushed and drained.How could a person like him bear the love of others? Such a heavy thing frightened him, so Zhang Chen raised his hand in the dark and covered his ears.