sunk into the earth

It was raining heavily in Yuncheng, and Zhang Chen met Li Xiaoyun who came to look for him at the head of the Old Bridge in the steel factory.

The bloody steel rod in his hand had long been thrown on the road, but the blood on his face hadn't been wiped off, so it looked a little scary.

Li Xiaoyun was holding a black umbrella and a pair of red high-heeled shoes on her feet. She trotted over to put Zhang Chen on, and blamed him, "Where have you been? Why is there blood on your face? I thought something happened to you." Halfway through the sentence, But she didn't intend to continue talking, and temporarily changed her mouth: "Forget it, there is nothing to say, remember to look under the pillow when you get home."

Li Xiaoyun was wearing lipstick, and Zhang Chen could tell that he was still immersed in the pleasure of venting and fleeing not long ago, and his whole body seemed to be floating. Instead of answering her words, he grabbed Li Xiaoyun's shoulder and said, "I hit you!" That man was hit with several sticks, and he's going to be disabled."

Zhang Chen can still recall that feeling. He picked up the rusty steel rod from the ground, and the touch in his hand was numb. He hardly thought about it, and subconsciously swung it at the mine owner, with selfish intentions. , with emotions that overwhelmed him.This wave made the whole world flash with light. Zhang Chen originally thought that the whole place was gray, but at that moment he saw a golden light flashing in front of his eyes, like tinfoil flickering, and it continued to spread into the distance.

He hasn't recovered yet, just kept saying to Li Xiaoyun: "Mom, I'm so happy, are you happy?"

Li Xiaoyun held the umbrella in one hand, reached up to touch his face with the other hand, wiped off the blood, and asked him: "Is it because your parents and the family make you feel uncomfortable?"

Before Zhang Chen could reply, Li Xiaoyun handed him the umbrella, and couldn't help but stop him from pushing it back. She just said, "It's fine if you come back, mom is going to be scared to death. Okay, go back quickly, I'm going to buy vegetables." , there are no tomatoes and green peppers at home."

Zhang Chen felt that something was wrong, but he couldn't tell what was wrong. Maybe it was because his mother wore lipstick and high heels today, or maybe it was because she looked at him so calmly that she couldn't even find a little bit of eagerness.But 17-year-old Zhang Chen couldn't figure out why. He just pushed back the black umbrella Li Xiaoyun handed over to her forcefully, turned around and ran towards the house. Make shredded pork with green peppers."

Mom said "yes" to him.

The clothes that were drenched by the torrential rain were sticking to his body, but Zhang Chen felt so happy, if only people could be happy like this forever.

There is a small shop at the end of the bridge, with only a small storefront. There is still some money in Zhang Chen's schoolbag, and he wants to spend it all.

Just as he was hesitating about what snacks to buy, there was a sudden commotion among the passers-by on the other side of the bridge, and several people in bright raincoats ran to the side of the bridge one after another, grabbing the fence and looking down.

The owner of the small shop put down the newspaper in his hand, opened the plastic curtain, and went out with an umbrella to watch the excitement for a while. When he came back, he sighed with Zhang Chen, "Tsk, there is a woman jumping off the bridge ahead, and a group of people gathered around to look down. , Just a kind girl called the police. The woman’s umbrella is still on the bridge, don’t look back for a while, bad luck.”

Zhang Chen was stunned for a moment, and his body began to tremble uncontrollably. He wanted to ask one thing, but after thinking about it for a long time, he didn't know where to start. The last thing he said was: "What color is the umbrella?"

The boss put on the glasses he had just put on, glanced at him, and said, "The black ones, and there are a pair of high-heeled shoes on the bridge." He gestured with his hand, and then said, "The big red high-heeled shoes, so high."

Zhang Chen, who had just floated up, fell to the ground suddenly, and the world in his eyes became gray again.He swallowed, took out a crumpled note from his pocket tremblingly, and dialed the number on the public phone in the small shop according to the number on it.

It only rang a few times and the other side picked up.

Zhang Chen held the red telephone pole, his lips trembled violently, and said to the other end: "I am Zhang Chen, and I am on the Sangang Ping'an Bridge. Someone jumped from the bridge here. Is it big news?"

He called the police again, and the police told him that a girl also reported the crime just now, and now they have sent someone to the scene.

After the phone call ended, Zhang Chen asked the boss for a bottle of wine, and then he lay down on the table in the small shop and poured it non-stop.The boss looked at him with a frown, a little worried: "If you drink so hard for a while, you won't be able to walk home!"

Zhang Chen ignored him, put down the money after filling a big bottle, bought another bottle, and walked back into the rain.The spirit of the alcohol gradually came to him, he was dizzy, and he walked aimlessly for a long time, maybe heading in the opposite direction of home, maybe a little further ahead and he would fall into the river.

Zhang Chen lost his sense of direction and knelt down in any direction.There was rain on the ground, and sand was buried in the water, and Zhang Chen's knees were hurting. He poured this bottle of wine on the ground mixed with rain and sand, and kowtowed his head like worshiping something.

A few people looked at him on the road, thinking he was insane, but Zhang Chentong didn't know, and just kept knocking, saying "I'm sorry" non-stop.The blood on the cheeks was wiped away by Li Xiaoyun, and fresh blood gushed out from the forehead again, mixed with the pouring rain.

It was not yet completely dark, and there were occasional flames dancing, but Zhang Chen's eyes were dark, and he couldn't see anything, only the rumbling thunder and the piercing sirens from far and near.

Suddenly someone is calling his name, is he calling him?Zhang Chen was not sure.But that person actually ran over and grabbed his hand, asking him, "Where did you go? Why is there blood on your face?"

The man touched his neck, and asked him anxiously: "Why is your forehead full of injuries? Where have you been? Auntie and I are in a panic!"

Zhang Chen blinked, the world slowly became clear, and Cheng Sheng's anxious face gradually appeared in front of his eyes.

The voice was annoying, Zhang Chen pushed him, "Didn't I tell you to go? Why are you still here?"

Pushed by him, Cheng Sheng staggered and almost fell into the puddle. He stood still by holding onto a nearby tree. He lied: "I, I didn't make it. The train ticket is gone." He was anxious to help himself He argued, and said, "Why do you hold grudges so much? My aunt forgave me, and she showed me your childhood photos this afternoon..."

Zhang Chen interrupted him: "You like me that much, don't you?"

Cheng Sheng didn't expect him to speak so bluntly, but he immediately realized, "Is this question worth asking? Anyone can see it."

Zhang Chen nodded, said "OK", and pushed Cheng Sheng hard the next second, "Are you out of your mind?" He pointed his finger at himself and asked in the rain, "Where is my whole body?" Is it worthy of someone like you?"

Zhang Chen pointed to the ground, "I am here." Immediately afterwards he raised his finger to the sky, "You are there, we are not people from the same world, you tell me what is there, but I have to go back to the original place. "

It was the first time for him to talk so much, but he couldn't stop, and wanted to spit out all the words in his chest with the strength of alcohol, "You don't like me, you like hunting novelties, chasing, and things that are different from yourself. I It’s the ant under your magnifying glass, who will be burned to death someday, is it fun?”

There was a thunder in the distance, and white light hit the sky. Zhang Chen could see Cheng Sheng's wet eyelashes trembling. He couldn't bear it, and shook his head, "Forget it, what am I talking to you about, let's go."

Cheng Sheng suddenly rushed over and hugged him, rubbed his wet hair against his neck, shook his head and said, "If I don't leave, I'm a scumbag! It's just wishful thinking! People say that they don't know where it starts and goes deep, and they say that it's settled at a glance. Life and death, I used to think it was all fucking nonsense, but it was my turn to find out that it was true. In the past ten years or so, I have not suffered, but today I fell on you. , My parents can't stop me, your parents can't stop me, and you can't stop me either."

It was uncomfortable to be pressed against a drenched person in his arms, but Zhang Shen did not push him away, just staring at the rain falling in front of his eyes in a daze, "You really live like a movie, you are not crazy, you can't live, it's tempting I can't stand it."

Cheng Sheng poked his head out of his arms, put his hands on Zhang Shen's face, and said, "Stop talking, let's go, come home with me."

Zhang Chen asked: "Where is home? How can I have a home? I don't have a home anymore."

Cheng Sheng didn't understand the meaning of the words, took his hand, and stumbled out.

Both of them walked down the street in the rain without an umbrella.Zhang Chen only had the siren buzzing in his head, he didn't dare to turn his head back, and he didn't have the courage to go to the police station, his whole body was shaking.Cheng Sheng seemed to feel it, but he didn't say anything more, just firmly inserted his fingers between his fingers.

Passers-by all looked at them strangely, and when they saw the two holding hands, they trembled, mumbled a word, and rushed past.

The two of them had nowhere to go, and couldn't go back to anyone's home, so they found a hotel nearby.

The two receptionists were chatting idly, and when they saw two boys holding hands coming in from the door, they gave each other a teasing look—what kind of strange people have you never seen at the hotel reception?One of them tapped the headphone, and the other asked: "40 for a standard room, 35 for a double bed, which one do you want?"

Just as Cheng Sheng was about to open his mouth, Zhang Chen took the lead: "Big bed."

The front desk opened the room without even needing an ID card, collected the money and handed over the key, and reminded them later: "The set is on the second floor of the bedside table, and there is a fee."