sunk into the earth

Cheng Sheng didn't go home, he squatted on the curb at the entrance of the train station and smoked two packs of cigarettes, looking at the people catching the train coming and going in the dark.He spent the whole night feeling the city, staying up all night, and his mental state was worryingly poor.

The sky above his head turned dark and bright again, and Cheng Sheng didn't feel the time was passing. He didn't realize that a day had passed until the high noon sun almost dried him out.

In the end, he dragged his tired body back home. The taxi driver who finally got a job on the way kept talking to him. The street view is in a daze.The driver talked to himself for a few minutes, and saw that the young man behind him didn't respond to him at all, so he didn't say anything, and reached out to turn up the volume of the radio to resolve the embarrassment.

The hostess on the radio kept reading: "Yuncheng Radio and Television Station will broadcast for you that at 25:17 a.m. yesterday, an accidental collapse occurred in the Ping'an Coal Mine in the eastern suburbs of Yuncheng. So far, 38 people have died and [-] people have been injured. , the number of casualties continues to rise, and the specific cause of the accident is still under investigation..."

The two people in the red taxi listened quietly, and neither of them expressed any opinion on this.

Cheng Sheng originally planned to fall asleep after returning home, sleep with him for three days and three nights, and when he woke up, he would buy a few cases of beer, drink a hundred bottles of him, and then take a photo of himself drunk and send it to himself. Ladies and gentlemen, I enclose a letter by the way, which says: Do you see the ghost of me?Warn you, never taint love!But I, Cheng Sheng, am not an ordinary person. The more frustrated I become, the more courageous I become. I want to die?for?love!

But before he had time to imagine how the boys would respond to him, as soon as he entered the door, he happened to have a face-to-face meeting with his grandma who was sitting upright waiting for him.

The home was still furnished as before, but Cheng Sheng felt that everything had changed. It was as if a layer of fog was covering his eyes, making everything blurry.

He lazily greeted his grandma and walked into his bedroom, but grandma stopped him suddenly: "Cheng Sheng, come here and have a word with you."

Cheng Sheng knew that grandma had found out, so he was not surprised, not to mention grandma, maybe everyone in Yuncheng who knew him at this time knew about his embarrassing incident at Zhang Chen's house a few days ago.As long as you close your eyes, Cheng Sheng can see a mass of people, only the eyes and mouth are exposed, the eyes are full of malicious intent, the lips are covered with fangs, and when he sees him, he grinned: "Hahaha! Disgusting! "

Grandma raised her head, watched him sit down slowly, waved the air in front of her eyes with her hand, and frowned: "Why do you smell so much of cigarettes?" She swept Cheng Sheng's face carefully, her expression suddenly panicked, "Why do you look so bad?"

Cheng Sheng didn't answer, but just stared blankly at the plain wooden coffee table in front of him.

Grandma had nothing to do with him, she couldn't pry his mouth, she sighed heavily, and said, "I went to Zhang Chen's house to chat with his mother for a while yesterday."

Cheng Sheng, who had been silent just now, suddenly woke up, stood up abruptly, his expression changed drastically, he frowned, and asked in a questioning tone: "What are you doing at his house?"

"Can you talk now?" Grandma took off the glasses on her nose, looking extremely tired, "You two children are outrageous, why don't adults wipe your butts?"

Speaking of this, she seemed to realize that Cheng Sheng's state was not right, and then slowed down her tone that had just risen, and reasoned with him in a polite voice: "I went to the vegetable market yesterday morning to buy vegetables, and someone was chatting next to me. Mouth, I didn’t want to hear about my grandson’s head. It’s also my fault. Some time ago, I felt that there was something wrong with you two, and I didn’t stop you. You lived with me for the whole summer vacation. I am responsible for developing like this, but continue to develop I can't explain to your parents when you go down. I called your father in the morning and asked him to take you back as soon as possible."

Cheng Sheng was stunned on the sofa, and for a long time only uttered one sentence: "I won't answer." After he finished speaking, he felt that his will was not strong enough, so he added another sentence: "I will definitely not answer."

Grandma sighed again, "What are you trying to do? You are causing Zhang to sink into their house. I went to see his mother yesterday, and she was very haggard."

These words hit Cheng Sheng's spine, and he immediately retorted loudly with a choked voice: "Why did I harm their family?"

"Why are you so good at me?" Grandma glared at him: "Why are you so ignorant? In September, you patted your ass and went back to university for class. What about other children? When the time comes, all the teachers and classmates will point at him when he goes to school." Point, how to study? If you don’t get into the university, can’t it all be blamed on you?”

There was only a small lamp on the coffee table in the room, Cheng Sheng looked at the dim light, and knew that he was doing wrong things one by one, but he couldn't stop, he insisted on making the same mistakes again and again.

"I'll go and apologize." Cheng Sheng stood up suddenly, as if he was about to go out.Grandma hurriedly grabbed him, grabbed the bag he hadn't put down yet, and said, "Don't go, people hate you to death! Yesterday I rushed to the bank to withdraw 1 yuan to Shen Shen's mother to apologize and they won't accept it. I still hold grudges in my heart!"

Seeing that Cheng Sheng stopped walking outside, grandma picked up the teacup on the coffee table and took a sip slowly, and continued: "When I came out, I met Shen Chen's father, and he took the money after some kind of talk, so I felt relieved."

Cheng Sheng turned his head to the side and watched grandma drinking tea in silence. Her movements were slow, not in a hurry.Cheng Sheng looked at it and suddenly understood, how could grandma apologize to others?He wanted to keep Zhang Chen's parents' mouths shut so that they wouldn't try to blackmail him.

This approach of retreating made Cheng Sheng feel goosebumps all over his body. He frowned and asked, "Are you afraid that his parents will find my dad and affect his work?"

Grandma put down the cup and gave him a reproachful look, "It is imperative to be cautious, you don't know the people here, they will do anything for money, Shen Chen is a good boy, but his parents don't care. It must be a fuel-efficient lamp. Knowing your father’s work, what if you have a bad mood? Barefoot is not afraid of wearing shoes. If he really wants to die with you, even if you make these things to your father’s unit, you will not be you by then Myself, you are going to ruin your parents' jobs."

Before the grandma finished speaking, she saw the expression of the grandson on the other side changed again and again, gritting his teeth, with an expression of being wronged and stubborn.Grandma took advantage of the light to look carefully, and found that Cheng Sheng's eyelids were red and swollen, he looked like he had just cried, his clothes were also dirty, his trousers were covered with dust, and he was very different from the old one when he was carrying the piano and playing the drums. The high-spirited look is like two different people.It was the first time she saw Cheng Sheng so unkempt, she couldn't bear it, she couldn't say any more harsh words, she just held her grandson's hand and patted, "Who didn't do stupid things when he was young? But enough is enough, society tolerates it." Do you want to leave you? Can the family stand up to your tossing like this? When you think about it later, you will definitely scold yourself for being stupid."

Grandma saw that he kept his head down and said nothing, and thought it was a sign that he was going to figure it out, but she just breathed a sigh of relief when she saw Cheng Sheng stood up and rushed out the door without saying a word.

Cheng Sheng still couldn't understand, how could there be such a bad person in the world as grandma said?He just thought it was an excuse to beat the mandarin ducks, the whole world disliked him, and wanted to snatch his love and smash it to the ground.

Grandma's words didn't irritate him, but made him feel that he couldn't do what others wanted. If he wanted to cling to him, he could even elope with Zhang Chen if he wanted to. He has hands, legs and smarts , and saved a large sum of private money, enough for the two of them to live for a while.Cheng Sheng didn't even intend to continue reading, he just wanted to be a piece of rotten chewing gum, sticking to his body, sticking to the soles of his feet, wherever Zhang Chen went.

People are happy to praise love, and such an abstract concept suddenly has an entity here, mountains, rivers, lakes, seas, moths and butterflies, everything can be given meaning by selfish humans.Cheng Sheng has never understood, he sees mountains as mountains, and blows wind only feels the wind, but now he understands part of it through this chaos, love is the motive, is it a hazy veil in front of him, or is he awake to do it? Every reason to go wrong.

Everyone is crowded in a narrow river, shouting to rush into the sea, leaning on the right path, but his water flow wants to go against the direction, even if it ends up in a wasteland that is about to die of drought, it disappears, completely lost. Yes, Cheng Sheng didn't regret it either.

Cheng Sheng went to the center of the city with his bag on his shoulders. There was the only department store in Yuncheng. Although it was simple and incomparable with the ones in Beijing, at least there were a few counters of a slightly higher quality. He wanted to go to Zhang Shen with gifts. The family apologized and begged his family to help him.Cheng Sheng didn't even realize that he was still confident in his bones, thinking that with his conditions, as long as he persisted, others would always compromise first.

He walked back and forth in the department store for half an hour, not knowing what to buy.A kind cabinet lady saw him go to the door of her store several times, so she kindly asked him what he wanted to choose, and finally took him to another counter to pick out a set of high-end cosmetics.

Grandma Li was scared by Cheng Sheng's fiery look. She sat on the old sofa for a long time in a daze. Go against it.Grandma felt a little regretful about reasoning with him—how could Cheng Sheng listen to reason, he was just a dumbass, a machine gun that kept popping, and would shoot forward with smoke even if there was an impenetrable steel plate in front of him.

Grandma hesitated for a while on the sofa, knowing that it would only become more and more difficult to end up with Cheng Sheng's nonsense, and finally got up hesitantly, went to the coffee table and dialed Cheng Sheng's father's long-distance phone.

They chatted for a long time, but it was grandma who came up with the first idea: "Otherwise, you can think of a way, change the child's household registration to the college entrance examination, or send him abroad, anyway, don't let him have the opportunity to run to Beijing... That child's mother is betting all her hopes." With him, it is estimated that this will be done.”

The middle-aged man on the other side of the phone babbled a few words, meaning: My son knows everything very well, everything is hot for 3 minutes, and he will stay home for a few months after the summer vacation. Do you want to go to war?

Grandma Li frowned on the phone, "Why not? Just look at your own son's crazy appearance and you will know that it is not!"

She had a serious discussion with the other side on this matter for an hour before it was over.After hooking up the phone, Grandma Li deliberated over how to cut the rope between the two people completely. After hesitating for a long time, she got up to pack her things and decided to go to Zhang Chen's house again.

But she didn't expect that luck would play tricks on others, and everything would collapse in an unpredictable direction.