sunk into the earth

The news of Wang Li's jump from the building didn't even make it to the local TV station. It only appeared in a small corner on the right side of the newspaper, with a row of headlines in bold and black letters——Death of the Number One Scholar in Yuncheng No. [-] High School.There is no beginning and no end, only a cold result that smells like a corpse.

Grandma Li was wearing presbyopic glasses, stroking the newspaper she had just bought from the newsstand, and asked Zhang Chen beside her, "Wang Li is from your school?"

The news was broadcasting on TV, and the whole country was celebrating Hong Kong's return. Zhang Chen glanced at the frame of the newspaper in his grandma's hand, and replied, "Yes, I've seen it before."

Grandma Li just sighed and said nothing.

In the evening, Zhang Chen cooked the meal, shredded pork with hot pepper and cold jellyfish. When he was washing the vegetables, Cheng Sheng squeezed into the kitchen and insisted on helping him. He volunteered to turn over the chopping board to help him cut the peppers, but the cuts turned out to be in strange shapes and extremely ugly. , and shed tears because the pepper foam burst into his eyes.

When Zhang Chen turned his head to look at him, he happened to see him wiping his tears with his shirt sleeve, and asked him, "What's wrong with you?"

Cheng Sheng wiped his face with his head down, and answered irrelevant questions, "I have never seen how people disappear, fell like that, and fell to the ground bleeding, I have never seen so much blood, not bright red but black , At that time, I thought I was going to die too."

Zhang Chen took the chopped chili and put it aside, went to the refrigerator to get the tenderloin, and asked him when he came back, "Never seen it once?"

"I saw it when I was a child, but I forgot about it long ago, and I didn't bleed that much." Cheng Sheng wiped away the tears with chili juice now, paused for a while and asked hesitantly, "Aren't you afraid?"

Zhang Chen was skillfully cutting the tenderloin with a kitchen knife, and said in a normal way, "I'm afraid, of course I'm afraid."

But he only said these few words, not even a single extra explanation.

After a while, Grandma Li smelled the fragrance and found her. As soon as she opened the kitchen door, she saw her son and grandson standing against the wall, staring seriously at the back of Zhang Chen cooking.

Cheng Sheng's eyes couldn't restrain himself. The moment Grandma Li opened the door and walked in, she felt an intuitive sense of unease. Fortunately, this unease quickly disappeared. Grandma Li walked into the kitchen, helping to fill out the rice in the pot, and It was pouring soy sauce and vinegar for cold dishes, and when they left the kitchen, they joked: "Do you think the three of us look like a family?"

Unexpectedly, no one answered the joke. After a long while, the atmosphere became more and more uncomfortable, and Cheng Sheng dared to speak: "Like, very like."

During dinner, they deliberately relaxed the atmosphere, and no one mentioned the latest news. The three of them gathered together, talking about things floating in the air, music, dramas and movies while picking up vegetables.

No matter how painful the stories of other people are, they are easier than the disasters that fall in front of your eyes. They are obviously talking about serious literary works, and the whole story is about death disasters, but the degree of shock is far less than that of a person lying in front of his eyes and bleeding continuously.

Cheng Sheng and grandma had been arguing endlessly over several issues. If it wasn't for the tens of years of age gap, the grandparent and grandson would have to fight to determine the outcome.

Zhang Chen was very interested in the things they were willing to talk about. He was holding a glass of iced orange soda beside him. I feel that I am filled with an unreal sense of satisfaction at this moment, as if I have set up a fictional world in the real world. The real world is Yuncheng, and the fictional world is grandma and Cheng Sheng.

After the meal, the three of them ate popsicles and chewed gum, and waited until the taste was gone before moving on to the next activity.The next activity is to learn the guitar. Cheng Sheng went to the corner of the living room to pick up the guitar. He thought about it on the way back two days ago with Zhang Chen. He carefully selected an English song, chords Simple and easy to use.

Cheng Sheng hadn’t touched a guitar for several months. He first held the guitar and tuned it one by one, and introduced it to Zhang Chen when there were no major problems. “Have you heard of flyto?the moon? Song to the Moon."

Zhang Chen neither said he had heard it nor said he hadn't, he just said, "Go ahead and play."

Cheng Sheng pretended to "tch", and then scolded him: "Virtue!"

Grandma Li was about to teach him as soon as she heard it, and slapped him on the back, "How do you talk? If you two don't deal with each other, go out and fight. Xiao Zhang doesn't like to talk to you, or you are so small. , people can call you directly back to your father's courtyard in Beijing."

Cheng Sheng has been in Yuncheng for as long as he has had deep resentment towards his grandma's eccentric behavior. He refused to accept it and said, "Why do you keep turning your elbows? Am I your grandson or is he your grandson?"

Grandma Li patted him again, "Hurry up, don't talk so much."

Cheng Sheng shut up after humming. He honestly hugged the guitar, went through the fingering in his head, and then thought about the ambiguous lyrics. He was a little nervous. Without starting, Cheng Sheng took a deep breath and struck the string for the first time.

Cheng Sheng's singing is good, at least better than his guitar skills that can't be put on the stage, and he has almost no English accent. As long as he doesn't make mistakes, this set is enough to bluff laymen.He hugged the guitar, put away his usual indecent appearance, and sang very seriously.The lyrics of this song are really ambiguous, and there are several straightforward I?love?you in the middle, which anyone can understand.When Cheng Sheng sang these few lines, he couldn't control himself, and kept casting his eyes on Zhang Chen, which was almost a physical instinct. Once he lowered his head, within a few seconds, he scratched his head and wanted to look up to see what expression Zhang Chen was looking at at the moment. he.

Zhang Chen was also looking at him, but it had a different meaning from Cheng Sheng's staring eyes. He looked at Cheng Sheng playing the piano and singing quietly, and tilted his head thoughtfully.

The grandma hummed along with Cheng Sheng, and went to see her grandson while humming. At that time, Cheng Sheng was staring intently at Zhang Chen who was sitting opposite. Grandma hummed along with him naturally. His eyes moved over, and finally found that the end point turned out to be Zhang Shen's face.

Grandma Li was stunned for a moment, and followed this gaze back to look at Cheng Sheng. This time, she saw a big deal from the secret spying. She saw an obsession that was hard to conceal in the eyes of her grandson who had been generous since childhood.Grandma Li looked back and forth between the two of them for several times. Once the two sticky eyes collided, the surrounding air instantly became sticky. Suddenly he shivered, straightened his body, fell silent, and never hummed along with his grandson again.

After Cheng Sheng finished playing, the first thing he asked was not grandma's opinion, but Zhang Chen's first question. Zhang Chen couldn't say anything too nice, and he could only reduce it to "almost", "It's not bad", but this time he broke the rules and gave Cheng Sheng's performance that just passed the passing line a "good" evaluation.

Cheng Sheng immediately let out a "Yo", and said proudly, "You can say something good? Then I am an artist."

"I said the song is good, not that you are good."

Cheng Sheng languished, and let out a sullen "Oh".

He is wearing a heavy shirt today, which is bigger than his usual size, and it looks baggy when hanging on his body. He is pulling the hem of the shirt, cursing in his heart as he pulls it: I will tell you not to talk, and see if I don’t tear your clothes off. rotten.But he was only talking halfway, and Zhang Chen had already packed his things and was saying goodbye to grandma with his bag on his back.

Grandma's reaction was very strange. She stared at Zhang Chen, looked him up and down, went back and forth several times, and finally said "be careful on the road" in a low mood.

Cheng Sheng was strange, but he didn't think much about it. Seeing that Zhang Chen was about to leave, he hurriedly took out a sheet of music from the coffee table, ran to stuff it into his schoolbag, and said seriously, "This is homework. I'll recite the whole piece, and I'll write the fingering for you. Learn by yourself, and I will teach you next time!"

Grandma looked at the two worriedly, tried to say something several times but stopped temporarily, and finally couldn't hold back a word.

After sending Zhang Chen away, the atmosphere at home fell instantly. Cheng Sheng was overwhelmed by the weird atmosphere, couldn't let go, and asked grandma, "What's the matter with you? It seems strange since just now."

Grandma waved her hand, looked very tired, and walked back to her bedroom alone without saying anything.

Cheng Sheng was inexplicably flustered. He stood under the incandescent light bulb in the center of the living room for a long time, sweating constantly.After about 5 minutes, he suddenly picked up his wallet and keys, and chased in the direction Zhang Chen left.

*****

When Zhang Chen walked halfway, he heard someone calling him from behind, and he knew it was Cheng Sheng without even turning his head.Sure enough, within a minute, the man trotted up and caught up with him, holding his shoulders and panting, "I'll walk back with you, and I'll come back later by myself, and I'll take a walk to digest my food."

Along the way, the two of them talked about the guitar. They walked slowly and talked about very basic things. Cheng Sheng deliberately dragged on slowly. Zhang Chen had already seen his intentions, but he didn't say anything more.

Opposite the unit building of Zhang Shen's house was a row of trees, they tacitly did not enter the door, but stood under the tree, no one spoke.

The leaves were so dense that the person opposite could barely be seen under a few rays of moonlight. Cheng Sheng touched Zhang Chen's hand. He was wearing a shirt. Cheng Sheng started touching from the back of his hand, and his hand got into his shirt cuff until it got stuck. I can't touch it anymore, so I give up.

Occasionally, there were a few cicadas chirping nearby, which disturbed people's mind even if they were noisy. Cheng Sheng's hand was still in Zhang Chen's sleeve, tightly grasping his forearm, and he said before he even let go: "Goodbye .”

Zhang Chen also said, "Goodbye."

As a result, neither of them moved, and the sound of cicadas around them became more intense. Cheng Sheng was still holding onto Zhang Chen's arm, and his five senses expanded infinitely. The body of the cicada was expanding, and the sound became sharper. , Cheng Sheng suddenly said without beginning and end: "Your arms are so slippery."

Zhang Chen said: "Naturally."

Cheng Sheng added: "Your nose is pretty, you should have a nose stud, it must be cool."

Zhang Chen's tone remained unchanged, "That thing is useless."

Cheng Sheng continued to talk nonsense: "Would you be afraid if I die someday? The kind of fear you show, such as not thinking about food and tea, washing your face with tears every day."

Zhang Chen said, "What exactly do you want to say?"

Cheng Sheng seemed to be waiting for this sentence, and immediately blurted out: "Can I kiss you again?" He felt that this was not enough, and continued to add chips to himself, "It's been too sad recently, let's kiss you and encourage each other one time."

Cheng Sheng waited for a long time and there was no answer from the other side. Half of his arm was still in Zhang Chen's sleeve, and the hand holding him became colder and colder with the waiting time.Cheng Sheng told himself in his heart that shame is a class enemy, throw it away as soon as it should be thrown away, and step on it as soon as it should be trampled on.He resisted the growing disappointment, thinking about kissing him directly, or being pushed away and beaten.

Just two seconds after he thought of this, he suddenly felt a pain in his wrist, and then his back hit the tree behind him, but it didn't hurt at all, and there was a hand behind him.

Cheng Sheng soon felt a gust of air approaching him, and before he had time to react or close his eyes, his lips were gently blocked.

Cheng Sheng's eyes were still open, and the moonlight slipped through the gaps in the leaves. He used this faint light to see clearly the appearance of the person opposite him at the moment. He still had no expression on his face, but with his eyes closed, his eyelashes trembled slightly.They were too close, their foreheads were touching, the tips of their noses were touching, and their breaths were intertwined, almost as one.Cheng Sheng was staring at the person opposite him. He hadn't closed his eyes yet, and he was reluctant to close them. He knew that he was the only one in the world who had seen Zhang Chen like this, so he wanted to see him for a while longer.

But they were too close, Cheng Sheng looked at each other, which was really disappointing, so he was reluctant to close his eyes and concentrate on feeling the temperature on his lips.

This is their second kiss, not as intense as the first kiss in the closet, this time it was very gentle, like the wind blowing on them at this time, but the heart was beating fast, Cheng Sheng kissed for the first time on this sweltering summer night. Once, he clearly felt that something as ethereal as love was coming towards him, even though he still hadn't figured out what love was.

The surrounding air began to heat up gradually, and the two had no choice but to separate for a while. Cheng Sheng went to see Zhang Chen, and found that he didn't show any shyness at all. He stared at him calmly and asked nonchalantly, "Okay ?

Obviously not.While panting, Cheng Sheng put his arms around Zhang Chen's neck. The height difference between the two was six or seven centimeters. That, the one from last time."

"Which one?"

Cheng Sheng bumped his forehead with his forehead, "You asked knowingly, um... um! Don't you know? You almost bit my mouth open last time! Don't let me say it, I'll be ashamed."

These words actually made Zhang Chen smile a little, instead of answering him, he asked, "Are you not worried at all?"

Cheng Sheng immediately became unhappy, and retorted righteously: "Yes, there are too many. Don't look at me as a fool, but high school is very hard. Every day I worry about what to do if I don't pass the exam and I will embarrass the old Cheng. From my grandfather As far as my parents are my alumni, if I am the only one who fails the exam, I will be ashamed and thrown to my ancestors."

After he finished speaking, he found that the words seemed a little arrogant, so he immediately re-spoken, "Don't talk about the past, now I have a lot of troubles! For example, I want to go with you. If I don't go to Beijing or stay in Yuncheng, I will find someone who is alone." No place, neither my parents nor your parents, it is better to be an uninhabited desert island, just the two of us, I will move the whole family there, we will go fishing and reading every day, or go swimming in the sea, and die in the sea together when we are old. Nobody can control us."

Cheng Sheng just said what was in his heart. The truth is more embarrassing than the nasty words. After he finished speaking, he felt ashamed of being so thick-skinned, and said: "There is another trouble, I want that, hurry up and get that I!"

He is playing a one-man show here alone, one comes and one goes, of course Zhang Chen knows what it is, he lowers his head and leans close to him, when he touches his lips, he sticks out his tongue and licks it, then asks him with his eyes closed: "Is it all right?" ?”

This made Cheng Sheng very courageous, and he immediately posted himself on it, yelling "No" while actively kissing him.It's a pity that his skill is really mediocre, and he rushed up while screaming, but he was kissed a few times until his legs and feet became weak, and he had to rely on someone to hold him to barely stand upright.

The sound of cicadas around became extremely sharp, and his vision began to lose sight. There was a lingering sound of water between the two of them. Soon Cheng Sheng realized that something was wrong with him, but when he was dizzy, he put his head on Zhang Chen's shoulder and panted for breath. Only then did he realize that his blood was rushing downwards.

The originally chaotic brain instantly woke up, and Cheng Sheng leaned stiffly in Zhang Chen's arms. He guessed that the person opposite must have sensed it, and pushed himself away from Zhang Chen bravely, scolding himself for nothing, and said embarrassingly: "I'm not a pervert, this is a normal physiological reaction, I can't control it myself."

Cheng Sheng thought that Zhang Chen would probably push him away with disgust on his face, if it wasn't for being born gay, which man wouldn't be disgusted with another man's thing?Guaranteed to take this opportunity to draw a clear line with him, secretly kicking him, this thousand-year-old clingy bastard, kicked him away, but he was completely wrong, Zhang Chen not only did not show a disgusted expression, on the contrary, he was even more disgusted than usual. Calm, he glanced down and said, "Go to my house."