octopus don't cry

05 My Way Back then

If you want to talk about what happened five years ago, it is probably a scene that I will never forget in my life.

That was Shen Yi's senior year.Shen Yi is my childhood sweetheart, and also the person I fell in love with in high school, man, I have never liked a girl in my life.

I was looking forward to the life with him after his graduation with great joy, but he told me two months before graduation that his family wanted him to carry on the family, so it was impossible for him to be with me, and he already had a girlfriend.I found out later that the girl was probably the daughter of a professor in a certain department.

In fact, I didn't have a hunch at all. Since his senior year, he has often avoided my eyes, and I have noticed all those unnatural actions.I also know that life in society is very difficult, but I didn't expect that he didn't even have the courage to try with me, so he gave up.

I walked unconsciously in the heavy rain, and ended up sitting in the coffee shop where Qi Ji worked.

I was pulled in by him and sat face to face by the window.Even though it was a high-end literary coffee shop, he brought a bowl of chicken soup, which was stewed very fragrant, and he slapped me. He looked at me with warm eyes and comforted my cold heart.

I think, even if I have a clear understanding of his character later, I still want to be with him so much, and want him to like me, it is not without reason.

Maybe until now, I still remember those beautiful things back then.

When I was planning to sell the bookstore, I met him again.

He heard that I was going to sell the bookstore, so he wanted to borrow a lot of money from me.At that time, he was still gentle, as if he was very embarrassed to speak.I found out later that I was deceived by his appearance.

He was embarrassed to speak, and I half-jokingly said, "I don't have that much money selling bookstores, I can only buy a house, but after borrowing your money, I have to live in your house."

In the end, instead of simply lending him money, I took [-]% of his company's shares. Instead of selling the bookstore, I actually sold the house and lived in his home.

Thinking about it now, I probably fell in love with it at that time.But I was still too young at that time, and obviously I had a lot of time. If I had only developed slowly and got closer bit by bit, even if I could not become a lover in the end, I would still be a very good friend.

Everything is "at that time".

I was too confident, and the blind retreat before made me lose a relationship.I didn't hide my sexual orientation in front of Qi Ji, and the [-]% of the shares in my hand naturally became the best tool to restrain him.

He knows about it and I've been living in it for a month.He probably noticed it and came to test me, so I told him clearly that his face was quite ugly and he didn't come back all night.

But even if he was angry at that time, what could he do?He came back the next morning looking as usual.After all, I still have the [-]% shares in my hand.

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And although I never forced him, calculations are calculations.I thought that if I confessed like this, I didn't ask him to cooperate with me. I just needed an opportunity to pursue. If I treat him well, he won't reject me so much.

I didn't realize until now that I was wrong.

Probably love is more difficult to forget than hate.

-

It was eight o'clock when I got back to the bar.

At this time, the night has not yet fully started to be lively.

The teenagers in my room are all sitting in the lounge.I specially made the lounge very comfortable, with a big and long sofa, a TV for watching football games, a refrigerator and air conditioner.Except for the necessary shopkeepers, the teenagers in my room just sat on the sofa, watching TV and having dinner leisurely.

I went to sit next to Jingxuan, he was probably waiting for me, and there was a piece of fried rice in his hand, I felt at ease immediately, this kid still has a conscience.After receiving the meal and satiated, he lazily squeezed over to let the group of teenagers make room.They are watching TV dramas, and they haven't even finished their daily routine of "disgusting me for being fat".What is broadcast on TV is the recently popular "Killer", which is a romantic drama.

I’m gay here. Most of them are just young people in their early twenties. They can’t go to college and go out to work on their own. The mentality of watching romantic dramas is actually the same as that of girls. The discussion is normal on twitter. Most of them say they like to have the identity of a killer. The leading male lead in this book feels that the cold and ruthless facial paralysis is very handsome, and the seriousness and innocence when getting along with the female lead is also cute.But just like this, "Killer" will not be so popular.

This show not only has a brilliant character as the male protagonist, but also the supporting male characters have the most popular characteristics nowadays, and the most important thing is that they all look good.Even if some girls are not interested in romance, "Killer" can also meet their another need.

I remember that a senior in the entertainment industry told me that it is hard to make money in today's world, and you can get tens of millions by selling rot.

I took a few glances, this is the work of Qi Rui Company.

My expression changed a little.That's right, this is Qi Ji's company.

Jing Xuan has always been expressionless, but I and a few older people just laughed and said nothing, sitting on the sidelines and watching them make trouble.But after sitting for a while, I leaned over.Originally, I never opened my mouth, but today I am not very happy, so as a 29-year-old uncle, I just want to educate people.

I said: "Oh, this female supporting role is not bad."

The teenagers still gave me a lot of face, and they all looked over, and some of them said, "Shop manager, do you like female supporting roles?" I watched TV again, and made a "regretful" expression, "How is it possible that she will not be able to do it again?" Well, I also like heroines."

"Eh?"

"Because the leading actor is hers."

"Oh, store manager!" A few teenagers laughed, and those old fried dough sticks knew what I wanted to say, but they interrupted me with a smirk, "Tsk, the store manager's thinking is too mainstream. Can't catch Kaizi."

Before I could react, the topic was changed like this.

Sure enough, the attention of those teenagers immediately turned, and they began to bombard me repeatedly, such as "I am still not satisfied when there are bars", "This kind of thinking is too money-worshiping, I am so disappointed in you", "The store manager is really no one wants me. You and I will just make it harder for you."...

Although they were no match for [-] ducks, I wasn't someone who would argue with others, so I kept my mouth shut and sat down next to Jing Xuan obediently.

Only he knew that I was offended when I opened my mouth. He looked at me with a handsome and tough face, and said, "You can have some drinks today."

My eyes lit up, and the corners of my mouth curled up in a smile.

He didn't ask me what's wrong, but seeing my happy face, his face relaxed.

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In fact, I have already cleaned up my emotions, and I am not angry.

I can complain to God, complain that the person I like looks good but is really bad-tempered or bored, dragging my sincerity to the ground all day long.

But the last thing I can complain about is that I like him.

No matter how hard and tiring, exhausting everything, it is the path I choose.

-

I followed Jing Xuan out to the bar.Seeing that he is very handsome in drinking and playing, his eyes are focused and serious, and the general eyes in the bar seem to be circling on him.He has obviously received formal training, and every little movement is rigorous and beautiful.He is already taller than me, 25 years old, just a good age.

I put my chin on my arm and lay down beside the table, as if I could already smell the wine.

I actually met him once.

At that time, I was still working as a bookstore owner near University A, and he fainted in front of my store in the middle of the night.The origin of this person is unknown, so I naturally wouldn't bring him into the store, but just woke him up and gave him some food and money.I still remember when he said thank you in a low voice, his face was immature.When I met him again later, he could already mix wine very well, with a strong figure and steady eyes.

For so many years, only this person in front of me would frown because of my casual words, because of what I didn't say.

Such a person once made me feel for a moment that it would be great if the person I like is him.

I looked away suddenly.

He matched the wine, but instead of giving it to me directly, he asked, "What did you want to say just now?"

"what?"

"That's what you just wanted to say to them."

"Oh……"

In fact, I understood the first word he said, just to tease him, because his expression is so funny, or I don’t want to tell him, because he is doing a good job and doesn’t need my help in this regard. admonition.

But he felt that I should speak out and vent, so he wanted to listen to me seriously.

"I just wanted to say...those indifference, sentimentality, and the so-called characters of the male protagonists in novels and TV dramas are actually not worth looking forward to at all. People have to see the reality clearly."

He looked at me very seriously, with a look of all ears.

I blinked and spread my hands, "No more."

He frowned.

"Hey, I'm not a philosopher, you really think I can say something mysterious... You won't be dissatisfied, so you won't give it to me?"

Maybe it was because my expression was sincere enough that he finally handed me the drink and watched quietly from the side.

I sat at the corner of the bar and didn't speak any more.

The drink he served was brown and transparent, a bit like iced black tea, but it was actually a very unique wine, named "drink".I don't know why it's called this, I just drink it very easy to get drunk and addictive, but I like this taste very much.

I took a few small pecks at first, and suddenly poured a whole glass in. He had no time to stop, his brows furrowed deeper, and the expression on his face seemed to want to hit me.But I was never afraid, I squinted my eyes in enjoyment, and then patted him on the shoulder coolly, "It's okay, it's okay."

Little A on the side came out with me, not exactly with Jingxuan.Seeing me sneer, "Drinking a drink is like taking drugs." Then he turned his head and said to Jing Xuan, "I want a drink too."

I just narrowed my eyes mildly and didn't poke his face.

Not everyone can sway those they like, or even fall in love at first sight.How many people can be the protagonist? And the protagonist is so good, so many people like them, how do you ensure that you are the most special?

I've been through something like this.

I fell so badly that I knew I had to turn back.

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There is no doubt that Jing Xuan sent me back in the end.After drinking the drink, I almost fell into a long sleep. I arrived home at about ten o'clock, and he didn't stay long before leaving again.Now he is half the manager of the store. When I am away, almost everything is handed over to him, and the night is the busiest time in the store.He's a bartender with a bit of a tough personality, it's not easy to manage a shop.So I never treated him badly in terms of his salary.

Talent is hard to find these days. In order to keep him, I twitched my head, stretched out a hand while lying on the bed, and shouted boldly, "I'll give you a raise!"