old love [rebirth]

Guan Yu didn't realize that the word "willful" would be related to him before. That day, Guan Feng's tone was tough, and he was a little dazed when he finally stamped this word on him, but then he vaguely understood.

If you look at it from the perspective of the adult world, he is indeed willful.Since he was a child, he has been accustomed to living in a smooth flow without worrying about food and clothing, so he is used to spending a lot of money, and he is also used to everything developing according to his own expectations.

But these are all at a price. To put it more closely, his freedom is only based on the support of his family. To put it bluntly, if Guan Feng really cuts off the supply, he can immediately become a pauper with nothing.

He really has no capital. Not to mention from a distance, but close up, he has no financial freedom.Guan Yu wasn't completely ignorant of other people's sufferings, he hadn't thought about this issue before, but now that someone pointed him in the face, the experience of relying on Chen Lou to support him in his previous life suddenly became clear.

Guan Yu recalled Cen Zheng's sigh not long ago, "...get married and have children, support a family...Each needle and line of firewood, rice, oil and salt are expenses. It is better to have money than to have no money." As Chen Lou mentioned when he took the postgraduate entrance examination, it would be better for Chen Lou's major to pass the postgraduate entrance examination. If he lives up to his expectations in the future and comes back with a Ph.D., the two worlds will be turned upside down.

Guan Yu was stunned for a long time after Guan Feng left, and then walked back to the community along the road. After returning, he didn't want to go home. He felt that it was really boring, and he didn't want to go too far, so he found a stone bench anywhere and sat down in a daze.The old grandpas and grandmas in the community began to go to the vegetable market in groups. Occasionally, there would be a woman who came back from work with a bag from the supermarket in her hand, and a man hurried out from the corridor. When leaving home, there are also those who took the opportunity to hide a pack of cigarettes in their pockets, with a contented expression, like a child who has been given a candy bar.

Guan Yu silently watched the scenes, until the sun gradually turned to the west, the places where people came and went gradually became colder, and then the lights of the houses were lit up in the residential buildings, and then he sighed silently.

He thought, what is the future?

Before, he was too self-willed and took it for granted, so he always thought that the best future would be to live the same life as Chen Lou in spring, summer, autumn and winter, but now that he thinks about it, his previous life was not successful, until the He still owes a lot of loans to the bank.He has nothing to do with himself, but now there is a straight road in front of Chen Lou, and he has nothing to rely on, so what right does he have to delay him?

Chen Lou soon discovered that Guan Yu had started to get busy. At the beginning, the two of them took turns cooking on one or two days according to the agreement. In fact, Chen Lou was really impatient with cooking, and the time of the day was only so small, cooking at seven o'clock in the morning. , After finishing eating, I will go to clean up the dishes and clean up along the way. It will be more than eight o'clock soon.After that, I have to prepare lunch at eleven o'clock in the afternoon, and prepare dinner at five o'clock in the evening.

Later, after discussing with Guan Yu, three meals a day were changed to two meals, and in the end they settled for the next best thing, and it became only dinner that the two of them took turns cooking, and breakfast was a takeaway for lunch.Chen Lou was satisfied with this, and saw Guan Yu's expression of anticipation every time he waited for him to cook, but he did it for more than a month without incident.

I just realized that it was Thursday when Guan Yu got busy, and Guan Yu hadn’t come back after Chen Lou had finished dinner, so he waited for a while on the sofa, reciting words, until nine o’clock when no one was there, and the phone was quiet There was no information, so he ate a little first, and Guan Yu took the rest back into the pot.

Early the next morning, when he woke up, he could smell the fragrance of rice again.Guan Yu was stirring a pot of rice porridge in the kitchen as usual. Seeing him look over, he smiled and introduced: "I sent Wuchang Daoxiang rice from a classmate from the Northeast. It's hard to find, so I'll get it for you." Come and taste."

Chen Lou didn't go to bed until 11:30 the night before, and Guan Yu hadn't come back at that time, so he knew that he must have gone to get some northeast rice.It's just that his body is clean and tasteless now, he should have just taken a shower, although he doesn't look very energetic, but his smile is sincere, and his brows and eyes are smudged by the morning light, which is clear and compelling.Chen Lou was silent for a while, then nodded with a smile.

After that, Guan Yu's work and rest went back to normal for a few days, and he came back late again on Friday a week later. Chen Lou went out to the library early that morning, and mentioned by the way that he might have dinner with Xia Mingqi in the evening.At noon, he learned that Xia Mingqi was busy, so he stopped by the supermarket, turned around on the way home, and kindly brought Guan Yu a box of his favorite desserts.

When buying desserts, Chen Lou still hesitated many times, for fear that his actions would appear ambiguous to people's daydreams.Finally, I managed to convince myself when I put the dessert in the shopping bag.However, Guan Yu was not at home that day. When Chen Lou returned home, he found that the house was empty. He shouted twice that there was no one there, so he put the bag aside and sat on the sofa to rest and wait.More than half of the huge bag of things are ingredients, and many of them can be opened and eaten that night.Chen Lou didn't think carefully when he bought it, so he watched those things covered in the bag, and didn't throw them all into the trash can until the next morning when many things turned smelly, including 5 yuan. A small cold dish also includes the outrageously expensive Xue Mei Niang.

Guan Yu also realized that he couldn't get up on time recently, and he didn't explain what he was doing, nor why he didn't call or send a text message, so he discussed with Chen Lou whether he could switch to one person for a week.

He brought it up when the two were eating together, but Chen Lou rolled his eyes and didn't look at him. After a while, he said, "Forget it, why bother. I brought it up at the beginning just because I felt bad because you kept cooking, but now Of course it's better if you have something to be busy with, don't do it, it will save you worry and me."

Guan Yu was silent, and asked after a while: "Otherwise you do it this month, and I will be replaced next month."

Chen Lou shook his head and refused.

Guan Yu said, "This saves money."

Chen Lou said: "Time also has a cost."

Guan Yu paused for a moment, and then said, "You can rest assured that you can do it yourself."

"What's the use of being clean and safe once a day," Chen Lou said this time.Rejected: "The other two meals had a lot of condiments, so this meal is not bad. That's it. You do your work, and I will do mine."

"But you know that I'm not just here for cooking." Guan Yu lowered his head and said clearly, "You said you could accompany me to get used to it for a while, but now the only intersection between us is cooking and eating, so we will separate now. I don't even have a chance to talk to you."

When he said this, he suddenly laughed at himself: "I know what you mean. You mean that if you suddenly withdraw and leave, I can't react and swallow this breath, so I will stalk you. Now you give me a chance Let's talk slowly, to put it bluntly, it's just to give me a buffer of time, and when you get into the graduate school and go to other places for further study, I can't continue to pester you because of emotion and reason."

Chen Lou didn't make a sound, turned the chopsticks slightly in his hand, and finally put them on the table slowly.

"But have you ever calculated that you sign up in September, and you can take the exam in January next year. After you get your grades, you have to prepare for the re-examination and other things non-stop. The time I can be with you is now until before your exam. During this period I can't interrupt you at will when you are preparing for the battle. Occasionally you have to go back to class, and when you graduate, you have to get your graduation certificate, move to your account, and get your files... You can't let me accompany you for these things, and you have a lot of money. The time we are together, one day It will only take six to 10 minutes to come down. Whether you honor your promise or take pity on me, you can't even give me this little time."

"Guan Yu, we are going to break up in the future," Chen Lou frowned and reminded, "Why do you bother me about these six or ten minutes?"

"But I still love you," Guan Yu said persistently, "Six or ten minutes may make me give up, or you may change your mind." After he finished speaking, he stood up and walked to the small balcony next to the kitchen.When Chen Lou turned his head, he realized that there was an extra cigarette in his hand at some point.

Guan Yu's smoking posture looked like a novice, but Chen Lou was surprised and noticed that he had been pinching the filter with his thumb and index finger, but the cigarette butt was facing down.This kind of smoking posture is careful and prudent, it really shouldn't appear on someone like Guan Yu who acts recklessly.Chen Lou took a few glances, and suddenly felt a little annoyed.

He could see that Guan Yu still had some changes. Tonight's conversation was in the past, and Guan Yu would at most express his determination simply and rudely.Chen Lou handles Guan Yu like that with ease, just like dismissing a child who doesn't want to be reasonable. He can even clearly feel the two people's inconsistent communication ideas, and even Guan Yu's follow-up reaction to every sentence.

But Guan Yu tonight has learned to retreat and advance, and his recent behavior has gradually become a little calm and stable.

This is not what Chen Lou wants to see.All maturity needs to pay a certain price. Since he himself decided to leave, he selfishly hoped that Guan Yu would best stay heartless until graduation.

After Guan Yu decided on the shift order of the two, it was the weekend a few days later. It was the end of March. Guan Yu said that he was a little busy this month, and when his colleagues came back next month, he would be able to eat more at night when he went home, so It was agreed with Chen Lou that Chen Lou would cook in one month, and he would come in two months.

Chen Lou didn't express any opinions on this anymore, it was up to him to decide, and at the last moment he suddenly asked: "Colleague?"

Guan Yu's expression froze for a moment, and then he turned away silently.

Only then did Chen Lou think of his recent departure early and late return, and asked in surprise, "Have you been an intern?"

"Yeah," Guan Yu bowed his head and thought for a long time before nodding his head and saying, "I'm an intern. The company is very good."

After he finished speaking, he changed the topic. Chen Lou didn't think much about it. It was only at the end of the month that he realized that Guan Yu's internship was not what he thought. The company Guan Yu said was very good, but there was no bank of 300 taels here. .

Guan Yu came back very late that day, and Chen Lou was hesitating over the dishes on the table whether to pour them out immediately or leave them in the pot for Guan Yu, when he heard a loud noise from the door.Guan Yu was wearing a familiar shirt, and when Chen Lou came over, he was caught in his arms when he was unprepared.In the end, Guan Yu was dragged back to the bed. During this period, he held the toilet bowl and vomited for a long time, and almost fell asleep in the bathroom. When Chen Lou half-dragged and half-carried him back to the bed, he was suddenly caught by him. arm.

"Chen Lou," Guan Yu comforted the last bit of clarity, "Don't worry, anyway, I'm here!"

Chen Lou struggled for a while, knowing that he was talking drunk, he said perfunctorily, "I know, I know, let go first."

Guan Yu did as he said and let go.

Chen Lou went to the bathroom and wiped his face with two wet towels. After wiping a few times in a rude manner, he turned around and looked for a change of clothes for him——Guan Yu didn't know where he was, and he smelled of cigarettes. Stinks like wine.Chen Lou couldn't hide his surprise now, sighed and asked, "What kind of crappy company did you find for internship? Why are you still socializing? Do you know that this hurts your health?"

After he finished speaking, he saw Guan Yu blinking hard, and then hooked his hands at him, motioning to put his ear to him.

Chen Lou hesitated for a moment, then slowly bent down.

Then he heard Guan Yu say, "I'm sorry."