Time is not alluring

When I got home, my mother said why I came back so late, washed my hands and ate, and gave me a towel to wipe my hair.

After eating, I took my mother's brain-boosting sleeping soup and walked to the balcony to watch the stars.

After watching for a while, I turned my head to look at the house next door. It was still pitch-black there. I took a sip of Nourishing Sleep, the aroma of malt in my mouth, put down the mug, and turned over from the balcony.

Liu Xu's room is the same as mine, with floor-to-ceiling windows. The curtains in her house are so heavy that even light can't penetrate. I hold my mobile phone and stick it to the glass, carefully looking for Liu Xu's shadow.

I couldn't convince myself to accept the fact that Liu Xu hadn't come to school for a month.

Near the end of the term, I took Liu Xu's math notebook and hurried on the way to class one, waiting happily for her to come out and chat with me.

It's fine to talk about anything, I just want to hear her voice.

During the lunch break, there were not many people studying in the classroom. I looked around the classroom and found that there was no sign of Liu Xu. I regretted that I should contact Liu Xu first.

Just when I was feeling remorseful, Lin Youyang came out from inside, I caught him and hurriedly asked, where did Liu Xu go?

Lin Youyang hesitated to speak, but only said that he didn't know if he wasn't there.

I walked back with my notebook, and the speed of going down the stairs slowed down again and again, but what's the point, I still have to go back to Class [-] of the liberal arts.

I met Yan Lili on the road. She was still the same, wearing thick beer-bottomed glasses, with a simple smile, and her greetings were always friendly.

Yan Lili looked at me in surprise and said, "An'an, why are you here?"

"Something." I pursed my lips, a little embarrassed, for fear that she would see through my little thoughts.

"Ah." Yan Lili suddenly realized, and the moment she passed by her, she said again, "I thought you were looking for someone."

"What's wrong?" I asked following her words.

Yan Lili pushed her glasses and said, "Liu Xu hasn't come to school for a long time, and Xiao Huan has also transferred to Science Class A."

The sound of Yan Lili's footsteps has gone away. The math notebook in my hand became unstable and fell to the ground. Standing in the tunnel of time, she has changed the trajectory of things again and again.

I bent down and hurriedly picked up the notebook. My fingers trembled so badly that the leaf fell to the ground. I couldn't move and didn't dare to pick it up again.

--what is this?

——Yezi, you write the name of your loved one on it and pray for three days in a row, and he will fall in love with you.

In which stage of Xiao Huan's "The Magician in Love", don't you always disdain these random nonsense, why do you take it seriously?

The handwriting on the leaf is very legible, it is catkin's handwriting, and the text on it is also very legible, it is my name.

I took the phone back, put it in my trouser pocket, stretched out my finger, and started writing on the glass window of Liu Xu's house, swipe horizontally and vertically, stroke by stroke.

——When will you come back?

Then erase it and write it again. If I write it a hundred times, will Liu Xu suddenly open the window and yell at me, telling me to go quickly and not stay on the balcony of her house, or she will Call the police.

I suddenly began to look forward to it. When I wrote No.90 nine times, I gave up. This last writing will not be perfect until the room starts to light up.

I started to give myself a deadline again, and I hope this time, it won't be too far away.

No one knew why Liu Xu asked for leave. She seemed to have quietly disappeared from the sight of the crowd. I dared to ask Tai Renbin, and Tai Renbin answered me, Liu Xu's mother.

The fake is called by Liu Xu's mother, the content is very simple, there is something at home.

Later, I went to ask Liu Xu's mother, and she gave me a very reliable answer, Liu Xu went abroad.

I was a little relieved, Liu Xu would go abroad every winter vacation, there is nothing to make a fuss about, but why did I ask superfluously.

"Will she come back?"

Chen Biyun nodded hesitantly under the other party's expectant eyes that couldn't hide their injuries.

I didn't ask Liu Xu again when she would come back, anyway she would come back, but this time, it took a really long time.

It's nothing. Didn't Liu Xu come back to school a week late last year?

On my own initiative, I postponed the date of her return, one week, two weeks, three weeks, one month, one month and one day...

Every time I make a circle on the calendar to make a mark, I will tell myself that if Liu Xu comes back tomorrow, I will forgive her.

If she doesn't come back tomorrow, then tomorrow, it doesn't matter, I still have a lot of tomorrows to waste and wait for.

But if she never comes back for the rest of her life, I really have nothing to do.

I turned to the balcony and went back. The Brain-Breaking Sleeping Soup by the side was already cold. After shaking it, there was still the aroma of malt. I reached out and poured the Brain-Breaking Sleeping Soup into the potted plant, then went back to my room to sleep.

The next day, Qu Xiaoxiao didn't come to class, she was sick, and the heavy rain yesterday completely drenched her.

Qu Xiaoxiao was lying on the bed, sniffling, the wastebasket was full of tissues, her mind was wandering, but when the phone rang, she always picked up the phone immediately to check the news.

Tch, what kind of spam, report it casually, everyone is responsible.

Qu Xiaoxiao started clicking contacts, An An lay there quietly, Qu Xiaoxiao didn't dare to read her reply.

She had the courage to confess to An An, but she didn't have the courage to read An An's reply. There was no contradiction at all. The result she could get was clear from the beginning.

In the end, I made up my mind and cleared all the chat records. The answers to some questions must be heard with my own ears, so that people can completely give up.

Qu Xiaoxiao is very sure that An An will fall in love with her, even if the uncertain factor buried in the middle is a very powerful existence.

But she never thought that just Liu Xu's departure would make An An panic like this.

That's right, panic.

It is different from the panic on the surface, but the melancholy that takes root deep in the heart.

At first, she just thought that An An couldn't accept Liu Xu's departure, but then she gradually realized that An An was not helpless, but just unwilling.

She was stubborn to Liu Xu to such an extent that she didn't even know how stubborn she was.

All these problems, leave it to the great time, one day is not enough, two days, three days, one month... If it is not enough for a lifetime, then no one can do anything about it.Qu Xiaoxiao thought.

Zhu Beibei and I went to see Qu Xiaoxiao with fruits. She seemed to have just woken up, and she was a little dazed when she saw us coming. After realizing it, she slammed the door shut.

Zhu Beibei and I looked at each other, "What's going on?"

Zhu Beibei shrugged and said, "I don't know either."

Within three seconds, the door was opened by Qu Xiaoxiao again. With an apology on her face, she poked out half of her head and said, "Why are you here?"

"Come and see you." Zhu Beibei raised the things in his hand.

"Oh."

When I walked into Qu Xiaoxiao's house, I was a little cautious. I looked around secretly and found that no adults were there, so I took a chance and asked Qu Xiaoxiao, "Where are uncles and aunts?"

"Going out." Qu Xiaoxiao narrowed her eyes, put the vegetables in her hand into the sink, turned on the tap, and said, "Why are you asking this?"

"I always feel that it's not good for me and Zhu Beibei to come in like this."

"What's the matter? I've been to your house for dinner."

"Different…"

Qu Xiaoxiao interrupted me and said, "What's the difference, give me the vegetable basket next to me."

"Oh." I handed it to her, thought for a while, and then said, "I thought about what you told me yesterday all night."

Qu Xiaoxiao responded, motioning for me to continue, but she didn't finish half a word, so she said, "Let's talk after dinner."

"what?"

"Promise you, I will cook for you by myself..."

I fell silent, the faucet was still rattling, and the dishes had already been sucked out of shape by me. Zhu Beibei walked over from the living room, and Qu Xiaoxiao coaxed her out.

"You are in the way here, get out."

Zhu Beibei snorted and said, "No conscience."

"Not big or small." Qu Xiaoxiao cursed with a smile.

There are really many procedures in cooking. In addition to washing, there are also cutting, chopping, peeling, seasoning and marinating, and half-finished products are drained. If one step is not perfect, the whole dish will lose some flavor.

I put the peeled potatoes in the basket, washed them, Qu Xiaoxiao took them over, raised the knife and cut the potatoes into thin slices.

"An'an." Qu Xiaoxiao washed the kitchen knife, the water splashed on her clothes, and said, "Have you thought about volunteering?"

I shook my head and said, "This is only the second year of high school, and the third year of high school is still too far away."

"Tell me."

Suddenly, I remembered that in the first year of high school, the four of us rode bicycles in Beimen Square. When we talked about our future aspirations, we all talked eloquently. The newborn calf is not afraid of tigers, and even Harvard dared to refuse.

"I, Xiao Huan, just don't want to take the Tsinghua University, Peking University, Harvard and Cambridge exams, and I just want to stay in Guangzhou." Xiao Huan said very imposingly, and asked, "What about you?"

"Me too." I nodded and said, "Guangzhou is pretty good."

Now when someone asks about it, I suddenly hesitate to say it. How could the years that should be so exciting and flying become so depressed all of a sudden.

I hesitated and said, "Guangzhou."

"That's very good."

After eating, Qu Xiaoxiao told Zhu Beibei to leave, Zhu Beibei tearfully accused, sister, you really have no conscience, and then left.

After she left, Qu Xiaoxiao took me downstairs, sent me downstairs to the gate of the community, and then went to the bus station after the gate.

"I don't worry about you." Qu Xiaoxiao smiled and said again, "I still remember that day, you held an umbrella and walked in the opposite direction of home, and I followed you, wondering if your head was rusted .”

"Fortunately, you opened up halfway and knew how to turn back, otherwise I couldn't bear it."

I thought about it, she was referring to the umbrella I borrowed from Jiang Chuanfeng, opened my mouth, and wanted to explain to her that I walked the wrong way on purpose.

But think about it, forget it, she knows that I have gone the wrong way, so she should know about Jiang Chuan Feng before and Liu Xu after.

"I'm not a child anymore." I looked at her, paused, and said, "Sorry."

I can't control the people you meet, I can't do anything about what is about to happen, I didn't intend to do it voluntarily, but I still hurt you because of it, I say sorry, I hope you can understand.

"Thank you for liking me too."