Time is not alluring

Liu Xu didn't get on the bus, she stepped down, walked away from the bus slowly, and stood there with a silent expression. This kind of scene was very similar to the farewell staged at the train station all the year round, but she didn't wave.

She quietly watched the crowd rush towards the sunset like an ebb tide, away from her, the dirty glass surface reflected her figure, which was a bit too miserable in comparison.

"If you don't get in the car, let it go."

An aunt came from behind, with great strength, she stretched out her hand and pushed, Liu Xu staggered and turned to one side. When she stabilized her body and realized it, everyone around her was complaining about her.

"She's standing here! She won't get in the car again! She's in my way!" The aunt snorted with reason, twisted her waist and got into the car.

The people around were chattering and complaining about the quality of the aunt. No one paid attention to the expression on the face of a strange girl, prying into the sadness deep in her heart.

That aunt was right, standing here without getting in the car and blocking the way, she should be pushed away.Liu Xu thought sarcastically.

Even she herself didn't understand why she let go, she just wanted to try, would An An get out of the car to find her.

but.

She seems to have lost this gamble, and she has never won it before. In such a situation, can it be considered fair and make her feel better.

Liu Xu stood there for a while, people around her came and went, and those who waited for the bus with her left early.

She should be home safe now.Liu Xu felt a little sad

When I got home, I immediately took out the charger, charged it, turned on the phone, and sent a text message to Liu Xu, asking where she was?

Liu Xu looked at this text message and thought almost sadly, her disappearance was finally discovered 45 minutes later.

And within 45 minutes, she missed five buses going home, 31 people around her left, and eight came, and the aunt at the mobile stall came to five customers, sold three fried tofu, four Skewers of squid, ten skewers of gluten.

Her observation was a bit boring, just to not miss that person's arrival in the vast crowd.

Only now do I realize that all my attachments are about not letting myself go.

Liu Xu moved her finger and sent a message.

—Still at the bus station.

I looked at these words, the bus station, with a dazed expression, and the strings of memory were repeatedly plucked.

It seems that time has gone back to the bus station 45 minutes ago.

It wasn't Qu Xiaoxiao's words that convinced me. At that time, I could have yelled 'Master stop', and then rushed to the crowd and got out of the car, but I didn't.

I don't know why, maybe...pissed off?

At that time, Liu Xu and I squeezed into the car with the crowd, Qu Xiaoxiao walked over from there, and Liu Xu, who had been beside me, suddenly let go of his hand, a very subtle moment, but I could catch it.

I wanted to turn around to find her, but there were many people behind, and Qu Xiaoxiao held me back here, unable to find Liu Xu.

I stood on the bumpy car and looked at the men and women standing outside the window. The sweet potato grandma was pulling the oven, and the aroma wafted through the window.

The little girl handed over the money, took the sweet potato and left me happily.

Will she meet a person named Liu Xu, knowing that I am looking for her, if she meets, Liu Xu will not stand there, will not let go, because she is never willing to let me wait for her.

Later, I often wondered, Liu Xu would let go of my hand this time, and next time, and the next time, so if she let go, I would let myself go, walking towards her and turning my back.

Looking at this text message, I felt a little blocked, and deleted and deleted the text, and finally didn't know what to say.

Simply throw the phone aside, bury your head in the pillow, and don't think about anything.

Facing the paintings on the wall in silence, she turned her back to the distant scenery outside the curtained balcony.

I wasn't sad, maybe I was a little bit, I just couldn't let go of Liu Xu letting go, silently retreating to the outside of the crowd, sad that she turned her back, and came without saying goodbye.

I finally understand that Qu Xiaoxiao's mood, even if the pull hook is stamped, there is always the possibility of an accident in the middle before the dust settles.

But, Liu Xu didn't need to explain anything to me, she just left if she wanted to, and she made an appointment to go home together, and she didn't have a seal on her hook or a promise on her chest.

Also, if Qu Xiaoxiao kisses me or not, can she just let it go with a smile?

After all, I was the one who broke the appointment first, and I didn't refuse when she said she wanted to kiss her. The reaction afterwards was too stupid, and I didn't show any displeasure. Anyone can call this tacit consent.

So, my ups and downs later on might have hurt Qu Xiaoxiao?

Maybe, I should apologize to her?

Picking up the phone, typing a few words, and suddenly remembering what I'm doing now?

Apologies... Ha... Just kidding... I didn't do anything wrong... I just feel guilty for Qu Xiaoxiao's last expression.

But... what if... Qu Xiaoxiao was really hurt by me?

But I will never understand that a month ago, Liu Xu quietly leaned against the edge of the balcony, looking sideways at my room.

The coolness of the night covered her hair layer by layer, she lightly tapped the railing with her fingers, restraining her momentarily beautiful and floating thoughts, resisting the thought of looking for someone through the window.

This kind of pain comes fiercely without warning, and after a long period of illness, it will become a disease.

Who can guarantee that I will not lose control under such circumstances, my reaction is still within the normal range, and I am not overly aggressive.I console myself so much.

Closing her eyes, the dream from that day suddenly reappeared, she smiled idiotically, and repeated it over and over again, just look at who I am...

Then it turned into Qu Xiaoxiao's endless face.

I turned over and tried my best to control myself, don't think too much, and don't mess myself up.

The more you don't think about it, the more you think about it...then just think about it thoroughly.

Relying on such a rebellious psychology, the things in my mind have become very vague, floating on the surface of light sleep...

The phone rang at this moment, and I took it to see that it was Qu Xiaoxiao's message.

bother!Qu Xiaoxiao's face appeared again.

I didn't go back, I threw the phone aside, and after three seconds, I picked it up resignedly, probably, it would be very rude not to reply when I saw it.

--uh-huh.

I answered two words very coldly, which can definitely reflect my very angry but slightly exposed mood.

And the last sentence is Qu Xiaoxiao's news, are you back home?

It took about half an hour before I got Qu Xiaoxiao's reply.

Qu Xiaoxiao thought that the other party would not reply, after all, An An's attitude was there.

When I came out of the shower, I saw her message. I was a little surprised, but I couldn't help being happy. Looking at the reply time, the difference was not very big.

When Qu Xiaoxiao thought of An'an on the other side of the screen, holding the phone, scratching her ears and cheeks at the screen, hesitating left and right, beating her head and pinching her thigh, and finally lost to the appearance after 3 minutes.

Thinking about it, I feel happy. An An's reply was short and clear. She is too soft and a little arrogant, and her anger has probably passed.

Or, An An has never been angry, she just needs some time to buffer and accept this matter.

Qu Xiaoxiao touched her chin, water dripped from her undried hair, and wet her pajamas, thinking, should she not send An An home just now, the effect would be much better?

The human heart is as weird as the wind and the cloud, the weather is still forecasted, and the human heart is the most unpredictable.

Qu Xiaoxiao gave up empathy and imitated An An's state of mind. As far as these two words are concerned, has she won a little bit of victory so far?

After thinking about it, I still reply with a sentence in the past. The injury disguised by words will definitely win An An's guilt.

Qu Xiaoxiao thought so.

—Sorry, I just saw it now.

Her reply was polite and polite, like two strangers talking, cold and lifeless.

When I looked at these two words, I felt my head was big. People nowadays like to be serious and serious when chatting...

Or what I did just now really hurt Qu Xiaoxiao, making her erect a transparent wall, it is impossible for her to cross this wall and keep a distance from me.

As I thought about it, I felt that the friendship between people was getting weaker and weaker. After all, I was being wronged and showing my temper after being kissed by Qu Xiaoxiao, which was too fragile.

Or Qu Xiaoxiao...

I was very distressed, and when I was distressed, I walked into a dead end, and I still couldn't persuade myself with the indifferent attitude of "If you kiss me, what's the big deal?"

Because... This is not a question of kissing or not at all, but a more serious question.

Qu Xiaoxiao kissed me?

Kiss.

How could Qu Xiaoxiao kiss me?

Why can't she kiss you?

These all wind up as the most serious problems, all pointing to problems that are hidden behind the scenes.

——Why did Qu Xiaoxiao kiss me?

Reason!

Why did she kiss me? !

I breathed out lightly, I couldn't get around the word Qu Xiaoxiao, but I was able to get out of the dead end. It's a good thing, the only thing I have to do now is.

Find answers.

As if taking a math test, I became extremely nervous, my palms were sweating, and the casing of the phone was wet, and the text on the screen began to distort into different shapes.

I typed a string of words and pressed send without hesitation. If... I don't ask, I will die.

But everything has to pay attention to a process, I can't go straight to the point, ask a big question, why do you want to kiss me, Qu Xiaoxiao?

A question that is too straightforward has a very straightforward answer.

I don't ask this question because the damage caused to me by the too straightforward answer is also straightforward and irreparable.

Therefore, I want to test and test Qu Xiaoxiao's reaction first.

——The thing you just...kissed me...I just pretended it never happened...

Qu Xiaoxiao looked at this sentence, and the smile on her face gradually froze. Those strings of ellipses, like needles and threads of extremely poor quality, mended her wounds, and she couldn't tell whether they were The treatment is still getting worse.

She felt that when things reached a certain point, they should maintain a kind of hazy beauty, reserved and graceful, so there was no need to declare this matter in the open.

The most beautiful things are described in vulgar words, which is a kind of trampling, liking or love, which cannot reflect one ten-thousandth of the thing itself.

She yearned for, and hoped that the person she yearned for would yearn for.

But Qu Xiaoxiao forgot that no matter whether it is her or others, they are too young and too youthful, without the refinement of years, they cannot withstand the sudden thrust of liking and love.

What followed was not the joy of tacit understanding, but the confusion of bewilderment.

Qu Xiaoxiao looked at this sentence and replied with one word.

--Oh.