Time is not alluring

After I decided to choose liberal arts, I felt much more relaxed.

I filled in my name on the liberal arts application form, but Zhu Beibei gave me an application form. I looked at the paper and asked, confused, "What is this?"

"Application form." Zhu Beibei gave me a blank look.

"Didn't I write my name?" I looked at Zhu Beibei's eyes, and my heart skipped a beat.

"I'm just in charge of statistics." Zhu Beibei shrugged, simply ignored me, and gave me the back of the head directly, "After the make-up class is over, I will hand it over to the head teacher."

Before I could finish my thinking, Tai Renbin walked into the classroom, took 5 minutes between classes, and gave a general talk about the non-mandatory make-up class, the cost of the make-up class, the specific time and content of the make-up class.

"Make up classes? Then make up classes. Anyway, there is nothing to do during summer vacation."

This is my mom's suggestion.

I didn't want to go to make up lessons, but seeing my mother's expression, I swallowed the words I wanted to refuse.

Turning around and going back to the room, I was stunned for a while, took out the application form, flattened it, and placed it on the table, unable to write for a long time, just as I clicked a word, Liu Xu turned over from the other side.

I don't seem to care much about my choice of liberal arts and science, but the more I ignore it, the more stubborn I become.

Liu Xu often tutors me until two or three o'clock in the middle of the night, mathematics, physics and chemistry, and sometimes history and politics.

Liu Xu just smiled at this and didn't mind, instead she coaxed me, "It's pretty good, won't this deepen the impression?"

I know that catkins don't need these trivial knowledge. She is the one who conquers the stars and the sea, not the one who stays on the shore and refuses to set sail.

"Axu...you really don't have to do this."

I have already given up on self-salvation, and she still tried to keep me shallow, "An'an, give it a try, just for a while..."

Then, half of the summer vacation is over, and the little stove that Liu Xu gave me is still going on. Sometimes when I feel sleepy and tired, I just fall into bed with me and go to sleep. , feel guilty.

With her appearance, she couldn't say no to me if she asked me to say no.

I tiptoedly turned off the light, and climbed onto the bed in the dark, when Liu Xu, who was sleeping soundly, leaned over suddenly, I was startled, my fingers touched her soft hair and immediately dared not move.

Afraid of waking her up again.

Liu Xu didn't move for a long time, and I was relieved, just lying on the bed, her arms turned sideways again, I turned my head carefully, and looked at her by the moonlight.

Liu Xu slept very restlessly, her brows were furrowed, I stretched out my hand, trying to help her smooth the wrinkles between her brows, I stopped again, put my hands under my head, stared at the ceiling and wondered what kind of dream Liu Xu would have ?

Just as I was thinking about it, Liu Xu's thigh also stepped over, and her whole half of her body was pressed against me, it was so painful, I carefully moved her paw away, and unexpectedly, she woke up and looked at me directly.

"Wake you up?"

"Hmm...no." Liu Xu smiled, as if reminiscing, "I had a dream."

"What dream?" I asked along.

"Really want to know?" Liu Xu asked back.

"Hmm." I nodded.

"Let me think about the content..." Liu Xu pondered for a while, then said slowly, "I dreamed that you wanted to choose liberal arts, but I wouldn't let you choose, but you still want to choose, and you still have to shout loudly, Liu Xu, you Don't worry about me, don't you bother me!"

"Then the dream stopped. Fortunately, you woke me up, fortunately."

She said two times in a row that she was fortunate, and she was as scared as the rest of her life after a catastrophe.

I was stunned and said, "Dreams are all virtual, how could I say these things to you."

Liu Xu agrees, "I think so too, hey... tell me, what will happen if the dream continues?"

"I don't know." I said honestly.

Liu Xu said to herself, "Continue, or leave completely?"

"What is thorough?" I grasped the point at once.

"It's...forever."

"Don't be stupid." I wondered if her head was showing off, "It's just a dream, it's all unreal, don't think about it."

As soon as I said it, I regretted it. At least one thing is true...

I choose liberal arts.With a determination to die.

Liu Xu changed the subject, "An'an, if I help you with tutoring, will it cause trouble to you?"

"Truth or lie?" I asked her to choose again.

"The truth." Liu Xu affirmed.

"Never, I just feel that I can't help you with anything, and I'm still a burden, holding you back. Sometimes when I think about it, I think you're pretty stupid." I was in a daze, "Whether I choose liberal arts or science Well, you don't need to tutor me...wasting time...it's not worth it at all."

"Not worth it." I emphasized.

"I am willing." Liu Xu said, "It's late, go to bed early."

During those days, I was really tired, but very fulfilling, even though we were only freshman in high school.

I often have to study late at night, dragging my body to learn the content again and again. The sad thing is that my grades do not improve, but the prescription of my glasses is on the rise, and contact lenses are useless.

Sleepy bugs soaked in instant coffee and multiplied crazily, adding half a rock sugar, the bittersweet taste made sleepy bugs completely doggy, and chose to sleep forever.

The tutorial book draws inferences and lists more test points, the corners of the paper are wrinkled, but the knowledge in the mind is still as new.The light bulb on the top of the head was replaced by a new one by my father, and the light was so bright that it made my eyes sour.

The notebook on the second drawer has not been opened for a long time, the leaf has not been changed again and again, and the name has not been written again and again.On May [-]st, the potted plants brought back from the balcony by the strong wind and heavy rain began to become sick. I handed them over to my mother to take care of them.

Then throw it away, let it die peacefully, don't stay in this empty and stuffy house anymore, and suffer with me.

I will not take out photos from time to time to review the library, Jiang Chuanfeng in the art room of that year, and my little daughter's thoughts have been left behind by me.

Things that I once thought would be sad for a long time, and people who have been infatuated with for a long time, can't withstand the flood of time, and they suddenly become shaky.

From time to time, you can see the trash cans on the side of the Jiangnan road, with the school's brochures, stained with crumbs of egg burrito, dirty, like a clown.

The big screen at the school learned to be silent, repeated the lines and scenes thousands of times in the promotional video, left the stage hastily, and replaced it with a noble and elegant musical. Hope he can handle it well.

I don’t know if there are still people going to the graffiti wall, but the paint cans piled up in the corner are definitely rusted, and everything has been boiled into a different shape by time. Why can it last forever?

All things, the curtain fell, and we who sat in the audience refused to sing, obviously just an audience, and then slowly fermented in the torrent of time, turning into a soft and delicious dough, which can be squeezed into different shapes at will. shape.

I was running at a high speed at a fast pace, and I lost weight quickly. Xiao Huan said that I look good when I lose weight. I smiled and said that you are too.

I put on a school uniform that became looser, and was blown by the wind, becoming plump and plump. I pretended that the three-year life in Jiangnan was about to expire, and I chose to move forward.

I once said that the learning system in Jiangnan is abnormal. I never thought that supplementary lessons could be so abnormal. After taking the first year of high school, I learned the content of the second year of high school in a simple and in-depth way. Papers are not handed out every day, but there are a lot of homework. Get up, stack after stack, like the height of the new textbooks in the multimedia room last year.

The morning self-study time was advanced by an hour. When we went to school, the sky was still gray and the breakfast stalls on the side of the road hadn't been set up yet. Liu Xu and I stood by the side and waited. Then we walked to school with egg burritos in each hand. .

The evening self-study time was postponed for an hour. For day students like us who come and go in the wind and rain, it has no effect. Sometimes I stand on the balcony and look into the distance, and I can vaguely see the brightly lit Jiangnan. In a closed tavern, warm a pot of wine and keep it cool all night.

The time for make-up lessons coincided with the time for the military training of freshmen.

In mid-July, during the break between classes, I saw a large group of freshmen coming and going, running between each corridor, with expressions on their faces very similar to those of us last year. They nodded and greeted Liu Xu and me.

Hello, senior.

The days were ignorant, and they passed by in a blink of an eye. I came to the second year of high school. I still remember last year, when I was still a freshman in high school, I was mistakenly called a senior sister. Said, good school girl.

Now, I can only reply politely, hello, junior.

The heart is sour and astringent, full of emotions, quite complicated, but I can't tell the reason.

During the meal, the freshman in the first year of high school was as fierce as a tiger, holding the dinner plate and pushing forward vigorously. The catkins who were always good behind her were pushed out of the queue. She took the dinner plate and said leisurely, "Well, that's right , the waves behind the Yangtze River drive the waves ahead."

Xiao Huan didn't like Xiao Huan when he ate. The reason was that Duan Yan and Jian Yu didn't come to class. They went on a trip, and they probably won't come back until the subject exams.

"I'm really envious." Xiao Huan said.

I agree, they are the children of rich people, with high IQ, good looks, capital piled up layer by layer, enough to crush small shrimp like us.

"The food in the cafeteria is really unpalatable..." Xiao Huan said again.

"It's quite delicious..." I teased her, "Don't you eat very happily?"

"It's unpalatable." Xiao Huan emphasized, with light in his eyes, "Why don't we start a small stove?"

I have never discovered that the side door of the garbage dump is a secret passage. When we got there, there were already many people standing there. The people outside passed in through the small door, and the people inside continued happily. This picture No matter how you look at it, it looks like you are visiting a prison.

"No." I paused, and looked at the scent that was passing by, "I'm full..."

Then he pulled up the catkins and ran away.

Afterwards, Xiao Huan said that I was really a freak, so many people like to eat, why do you hate it so much, I said I can't stand the smell, don't you think it's a bit whizzing...

Xiao Huan glanced at his snail noodles with a lot of chili peppers, and there was a layer of chili oil floating on it, and silently pushed it away.

The slogans of the military training in the first year of high school resounded through the sky, and they could still hear their uniform slogans after two sports fields. The students of this year are really... a little bit motivated.

However, I hope that after the first three days, you are still in good spirits and spirits.

The three of us stood at the corner at the end of the corridor, wearing glasses, watching the freshmen wearing camouflage uniforms on the playground, practicing taking a break to stand at attention, counting, standing still, striding and walking in unison...

Xiao Huan watched happily, and said gloatingly, "This sun, after the military training is over, they will definitely be blacked out."

Midsummer borrowed the cool breeze from the blue sky, and the white clouds floated leisurely by. I raised my glasses, and turned my gaze to the new student who was resting under the tree.

Like us last year.

They are repeating our yesterday, and we are repeating someone else's past.

It is not only time that is lost when growing up, year after year, going around and around, but no one can understand.