Time is not alluring

The school day is coming soon.

The Jiangnan school has been established for many years, and the world has long been full of peaches and plums. City leaders and representatives of all kinds, as well as prominent people, have come, and the first three rows are full. Their names are pressed on the red silk cloth, like a signboard.

The salute was very loud. I don't remember how many cannons there were, but I only remember that the ribbons all over the sky were falling down like snowflakes, although it doesn't snow in Guangzhou.

The whole school sat in the vast and endless snow, quietly waiting for the wind and snow to pass, forgetting about this short carnival, and then continued their journey.

The school celebration in my memory is very cheerful, presumptuous, and indulgent. It seems that on this day, as long as it is not too much, I can choose to forgive.

It is not as dull as it is now, it is suffocating, like a ball of cotton stuck in the throat, dry and unable to make a sound.

The classmate Yan Lili in front is holding a small physics handbook and secretly watching, and the classmate Zhu Beibei in front is holding an English vocabulary book,

While silently reciting, many students are squeezing every minute and every second of themselves, using it wisely to challenge the final exam.

Although the midterm exam was still last month.

Their unwavering aura scared me. Sitting in the area of ​​the first class, I instantly felt that I was out of place with the surroundings.

Maybe you didn’t feel anything before, but once you leave the big team, no one will accompany you to quarrel with you, cheer with you, and there will be no fireworks around you. As long as you let yourself go, you will feel as if you are falling into an ice cellar, terribly cold.

Liu Xu and Xiao Huan hadn't said a word since the day they broke up. Neither of them was willing to bow their heads first and say good things, but I stood in the middle, neither on the left nor on the left.

I don't know what they are insisting on, for a point of view?

Who should the princess be with?

If possible, I would like to write to change all the plots, overthrow all the settings and conjectures, and don't get a glimpse of the finale. However, fate will not be influenced by others. He has already ambushed the road ahead and followed all the way.

The words that day were like touching a certain switch on their bodies, becoming very mechanical and numb, becoming more and more indifferent and unfathomable. This kind of change made me very strange.

I am even afraid that this transformation will become a fixed trend, and it will never be reversed.

The way the three of them got along was back to before school started, and Liu Xu acted as if nothing had happened, and continued to help me with tutoring and eat together, but I couldn't.

If I'm lucky, my high school years will come to an end in one year.

You should suppress your own nature, get rid of distracting thoughts, run all the way silently, don't linger on the scenery, pass by passers-by, and give up everything, just to touch the end.

If you are unlucky, it will be over now, before it even begins.

I thought I was going crazy, so I ran to Jian Yu and told the ins and outs of the incident, scratching my head and asking her what to do.

Jian Yu was leaning on the railing of the corridor, lowering her head and fiddling with the SLR in her hand. The school uniform wrapped her thin body, which made her look a little loose. She was obviously very close to me, but she felt a sense of distance.

Sometimes, I think Liu Xu is a low-profile version of Jianyu. Sometimes it is very transparent and demure, and sometimes it is naive. Liu Xu is so contradictory that I almost think she is schizophrenic.

"An'an, how do you think two people can become friends?"

I shook my head, it's not that I don't know, but I haven't thought about it. To be friends, there is no need for any additional conditions, as long as two people want to, it's fine.

"Eat together, do homework together, go to the toilet together, fight against enemies together, do the same things, have the same hobbies?"

Jian Yu was leaning on the railing, and the bird was lowly passing over the roof of the opposite building. Her voice drifted with the wind, and I felt very stable.

For her words, I choose to agree. It is too easy to be friends with someone.

"It's just one person accommodating another person, one is in charge of singing, and the other is in charge of clapping and applauding. This kind of friendship is very fragile, like paper bracelets connected together, and it will be broken with a light pull."

I suddenly turned my head away and didn't look at her. Jian Yu's demure demeanor and indifferent tone seemed to see right through me, making me feel like a clown.

The leader’s speech came from the radio in the distance, and the clarity gradually became blurred. I stroked the cold wind at the end of December with my fingers, and said, “It’s not that complicated to be friends…”

I say it like this, but I am a little bit lacking in confidence.

"Actually, you don't like Xiao Huan's actions very much, especially the fact that she likes Shen Shen. Does it make you feel particularly incomprehensible?" Jian Yu smiled.

"How come?" I retorted subconsciously, but my fingers were firmly on the iron railing.

"But most of them, you choose to go along with it."

Jian Yu's fingers were resting on the iron railing, reminding me for no reason that I went to the multimedia room with her to move books on the first day of school.

Four months later, it is still so beautiful.

I thought about it, still shook my head, and still insisted on my point of view, "Having a disagreement on the same matter, this matter itself does not prevent them from becoming friends, does it?"

"Look, they are like us at this time. You stick to yours and I stick to mine. Do you still think there is a reason to be together?"

"Isn't the most important thing to be a friend is to be honest?" Jian Yu asked me.

It seems that when Duan Yan came, Jian Yu followed, leaving me alone, standing there alone, no matter how I looked at it, it was a bit bleak.

It was very cold in Guangzhou at the end of December. I pulled the sweater on my body and squatted down to avoid the cold wind coming from all directions.

I used to think that Jian Yu and we were four good friends, but I was wrong.

This kind of friendship is only solid in my fantasy, and it has become my consolation under the high-speed operation in the south of the Yangtze River.

Jian Yu is ruthless enough to puncture her heartlessly, even reluctant to give me a fig leaf. She doesn't understand how precious this hard-won friendship is.

I was not likable since I was a child, my grades were not good enough, my mouth was not sweet enough, not many people like to be friends with me, Liu Xu is an exception.

Later, I discovered that as long as you obey others, it is tantamount to pleasing others in disguise, and catkins are an exception.

I squatted in the corridor, with the cold December wind passing through, and the metallic voice sounded in my ears, like the old principal's kind tribute speech at the opening ceremony.

A lot of things just came in without warning.

Turning back again that day, I stood at the top of the lecture theater, like an audience, witnessing the whole process of the play.

Similarly, Xiao Huan stood at the side door of the lecture theater, looking at Liu Xu and Shen Chen on the stage with cold eyes.

The truth of the matter seems to be like this, Xiao Huan became friends with us to beware of Liu Xu, and she got along with Shen Shen behind the scenes, completely reversed her appearance at that time.

Be careful and follow suit.

Is the communication between people so complicated, always approaching with selfishness and purpose?

I know that my thoughts are despicable, and I can't stop thinking about these outrageous thoughts. People who can be admitted to Jiangnan, do they still have so many thoughts to play around with you?

I even wondered if Xiao Huan's eight-point math score was intentional?

His uncle's...

I took out my phone from my trouser pocket and wanted to send Liu Xu a text message. I typed the words one by one, and then deleted them one by one. I repeated the whole process of this action over and over again.

Then it's just bits and pieces of punctuation, and I can't quite figure out what I'm going to say.

Back in the area of ​​class one, I was gently reprimanded by the head teacher Tai Renbin. I always thought he had a good temper, but he didn't have much affection for class one. He came and went like a routine.

But at this time, there was a bit of humanity for no reason.

On the side of the rostrum, Shen Chen and Jiang Xin were sitting together, presiding over the opening ceremony of the school celebration. Shen Shen was holding a cardboard in his hand and lowered his head. I don't know what he was thinking.

I have never had any contact with him, but because of Xiao Huan, I have more unilateral connections involved.

Shen Chen walked up to the rostrum, his voice was like the wind at this time, and it was so cold. I subconsciously turned my head to look for Xiao Huan, but suddenly met her gaze, and felt a little guilty because of the thought just now.

Liu Xu tugged and told me not to turn my head.

Then I saw Jian Yu and Duan Yan, who were sitting in front of me, as if they were back on the first day of school, everyone was still the same, and they were all in the same position.

After the opening ceremony of the school celebration, I followed the crowd to the No. [-] teaching building, and as I walked, there were fewer and fewer people. At the back, only me and Liu Xu were left.

I don't know why, the silence at this moment made me feel a little strange, and I couldn't even breathe heavily, and a thin layer of sweat oozes from my back.

"Are you hot?" Liu Xu suddenly asked me.

I shook my head.

The two stood in the corridor, as if Jian Yu and I were standing here just now.

I turned my head to look at Liu Xu, who happened to be looking at me too.

The school celebration performance started at five o'clock in the afternoon. Tai Renbin wanted to see the rehearsal effect. He searched around but couldn't find me. Finally, Xiao Huan found me.

"The head teacher is looking for you."

Xiao Huan walked over, and I noticed her words, 'you', not you.

The three of us walked to Zhiyuan Building. In the past four months, the three of us walked side by side countless times, but now we are separated by a river that cannot pass.

The three of them had nothing to say, and after thinking about it, I forced out a sentence, "How are you doing recently?"

I... rub!

Xiao Huan was stunned for a moment, then said, "What else, it's pretty good."

I don't know if it's my illusion, but her tone is a bit sullen, I think Xiao Huan still cares about our friendship, not because of Shen Shen at all.

"Then... when are you going to reconcile?" Some parts of my body seemed to be broken, and I kept saying something strange, "It's been a month."

"Have you gone to Jian Yu?" Xiao Huan managed to squeeze out this sentence.

I nodded, and then felt something was wrong, it was she and Liu Xu who were arguing, why did it seem like she and me?

"Sorry, I shouldn't have said dirty words to you that day." Xiao Huan said suddenly, "Actually, I haven't had a good time this past month."

I was stunned, I didn't expect Xiao Huan to be worried about that swear word for so long, I thought it was because she and Liu Xu didn't get along, so my friends didn't want to do it.

But thinking about Jian Yu's words, I felt something was wrong.

Then I feel ashamed of my own dirty little thoughts, actually so despicable to speculate on others, "Actually, there is something wrong with me..."

"Come on you." Xiao Huan patted me on the shoulder and glared at me, "Maybe you are still so happy in your heart!"

I giggled straight.