[Hao Ye] I am not me

"It's the first time I've had such a peaceful conversation with you. It's just the two of us." I didn't have a chance to have a good talk before, and I was spoiled by my own irritability when I was in the hot spring, but fortunately, the man didn't care.

"Ah, there's been no chance. I thought you wouldn't come to me." Since birth, Ma Cangye had been in a protected state, so he was a little surprised.

"I thought about the previous conversation. You have given up on establishing the kingdom of psychics. I can think so?" Ma Cangye looked cautious. He didn't understand why he was so careful. Could it be that he was afraid that he would get angry? ?

"It can be said that the establishment of a kingdom of psychics was not my goal from the very beginning, it was just a temporary excuse." It is a pity that no one has ever asked him what he really wanted.

"May I ask your purpose?"

"Hehe, don't be so careful. It's not something important. It's okay to tell you." He raised his hand and pinned the long hair that covered his eyes behind his ears. Beyond the pale and slender neck, a few witty strands of hair were hidden in the open placket, and some lay quietly on the plain white bathrobe, forming a stark contrast. "Since thousands of years ago, I have always wanted to find a person, or a soul."

"So did you find it?" As soon as the words came out of his mouth, Ma Cangye regretted it. If he found it, would he still be here?But what he said next surprised him.

"I found it. In vain I have searched hard for thousands of years, but I have found it long ago, but I have not found it. I didn't realize it until not long ago. Isn't it ridiculous?" He smiled silently. He himself is still laughing at Makura Ye's rich and funny facial expressions and mental activities.

"..." Ma Cangye suddenly felt sad, and also found it unimaginable. Can a person really persist in searching for another person's soul for thousands of years?But King Ma Cang Ye did it, how important is that person to King Ma Cang Ye?love?Can such feelings be called unswerving?

"No, you guessed wrong, it's not love."

"Hey, how do you know what I'm thinking?" How come there is a feeling of déjà vu?

"Well, because I have spiritual vision, that is, mind reading skills, so I know what you are thinking."

"Reading, mind reading?!"

"Even if there is no such thing, Ye's mind is easy to guess, and he puts everything on his face."

"Yes, that's right... ahahaha..." Is he being played for fun?

"So, Ye, do you want me to continue?"

"Yes, please continue." Unconsciously, he became respectful to Hao.

"Maybe not many people will believe it, but it's really not love." How could a person like him have love, even he himself didn't believe it. "That person is my mother. It was the mother who gave birth to me and raised me when I was King Ma Cang Ye, but died young. I was still very young when she passed away, and I didn't know any yin and yang skills. I thought she had already passed away. Entering reincarnation, if I keep pursuing power, I should be able to find her."

"That's why I keep reincarnating with my memories... So that's how it is..."

"If you think I'm such a sentimental person, you're totally wrong, Ye." He got Ma Cang Ye's dumb look as he wished. "Finding my mother is indeed an important factor in my reincarnation, but the motivation that supports me to keep searching comes from my self-esteem and guilt towards my mother."

"What does this have to do with pride and guilt?"

"Because my mother died to protect me. So I have always been brooding about why I am so weak, why I don't understand anything, why my mother and I were forced to die when we did nothing. , Is it just a relationship with psychic power?" He resented his own weakness, resented the ugly heart of human beings, and resented this ruthless world, but it was precisely this resentment that made him brilliant.This is fate?He never believed it.

Ma Cangye couldn’t say words of consolation. He also experienced the days of being rejected. He didn’t make friends until because of the psychic competition. He also resented him. Well, he will also follow the path of King Ma Cang Ye.

"Later, I suddenly understood that it is the instinct of creatures to reject aliens, and humans are the same, and the rejection of humans is more serious than that of other races. Rather than spending countless hours on transformation, it is much easier to destroy in an instant."

"Won't it be very hard? And what you want to do is not only destroy, but also want to create a new world after the destruction?" God, if this is the case, isn't it troublesome? If it is, he won't waste his time In such a thankless task, Hao really is not an ordinary person...

"It's hard work, okay. Destroying worlds and then creating new ones sounds crazy and it's not too difficult to do. As long as you have determination, nothing is impossible. Basically, I'm just passing time."

"To pass the time? Doing such horrible things to pass the time?!" Who are you lying to!He doesn't believe it!

"Really, I'm really bored. Only when I have nothing to do will I have the idea of ​​creating a new world. People always think about it when they are free."

"..." This kind of nonsense words made him unable to complain, "You should give up in the end, otherwise you won't be fine."

"Yeah." It wasn't something I was very persistent in the first place, but when I gave up, I was very straightforward and never dragged my feet.

"So what is your wish now? After becoming the Shaman King, what will you do?" Ma Cangye became embarrassed, waved his hand and continued: "So many people want me to stop you, but let's not talk about my blood relationship with you The relationship is impossible in terms of strength alone. I don’t know what grandpa and the others think, but I always find it incredible.” In terms of qualifications, asking him to compete with a [-]-year-old monster for a fourteen-year-old young man is not looking for death what? !The gap is too obvious, even a few lifetimes can't fill the gap between him and Hao.

"Oh, Ye, you are still too naive, so there are some things that you can't understand with your current mind. Let me talk about it from the most basic point. Why did you choose you when there are so many psychics who are stronger than you? Do you know why?"

"...Because you and I are twins, because my soul and yours are originally the same person..." The light in the young man's eyes gradually dimmed, and he never really thought about the reason. unwilling to admit it.

"Let you and I fight each other, it's best if you win, and if you lose, there will be thousands of people to replace you, and you are the chess piece that plays the biggest role in breaking my strength. The Ma Cang family will not cut off , Abandoned a chess piece, they have other chess pieces that are better controlled, a lot of money, don’t they.” Since Ma Cangye didn’t stop him, he continued to talk, even if he didn’t mention these things, after a while Ma Cangye will still figure it out, looking stupid doesn't mean he is really stupid.

"I know." He was born in the same family but he is not the heir, but the people who teach him are always selected through thousands of choices and even taught by his grandfather himself.Even though they have parents, their feelings are terribly alienated. Even strangers are more familiar than them, and they have never felt the so-called family affection.There were many, many other instances where he forced himself to stop recalling and bring his thoughts back to the conversation. "You and I can only live one. It seems that I am bound to die. Ah, life is too short, it will end all at once, without giving me any time to react."

"Although I don't want to hit you, it's a pity that it's not a choice, Ye. That's too easy. If it was so easy, I would have taken action instead of wasting time chatting with you here. Otherwise, you think I will let these ants in here I'm alive and kicking in front of my eyes until now?"

"Wow, so I don't have to die?"

"Hehe, no, you guessed wrong again." He looked at the boy's bluish face with a smile, and blurted out the cruel words that the boy was afraid of mockingly, "It's all gone, no matter how Deduction, there is only this ending. No matter who wins or loses between you and me, the result is the same."

"Impossible, even if I was lucky enough to win you, how could I die?!" If he let him go, what else would force him to die?

"Again, you forgot that you and I have the same soul. Even though I have completely different personalities and growth environments from yours, you are always a threat to the so-called righteous side. What does it matter if you win against me? As long as you pose a certain threat to them, they will kill you, and they can't guarantee that you will become another Leaf King one day."

"I will never become King Ye!" Ma Cangye replied extremely firmly.

"Don't be in a hurry to deny it. Only you know whether this conjecture will become a reality, but others don't know. How are you going to explain it clearly to others?"What's more, there are also some double-faced people, who say one thing and think another way, how could Ma Cangye, who has no spiritual vision, know it.

"In the end, I still can't live a leisurely life...... Heh."

"Are you afraid of death?" It seems that the young man is not a person who is greedy for life and afraid of death, but every line in his words is full of desire to live.

"I have never faced death directly, but I am not afraid. What I am afraid of is that I will no longer be able to be with my friends, watch the stars leisurely, listen to my favorite songs, play and laugh. I am reluctant to live like this. Even if it's plain, it's what I've been looking forward to. After all, if you die, there's nothing left, right?..."

Having an ordinary life is difficult and elusive.However, there are still people who will be fascinated by it, and die like moths in the flames.