If you don't speak, you can donate your mouth

A silver gull slipped from the west.

Sometimes a ship, high stars.

Oh, the black cross of the ship.

lonely.

Sometimes I wake up in the morning and my soul is even wet.

Far away, the ocean rings and echoes.

This is a port.

When Jiang Mingyue heard Zhong Zhao say that it was not the first time she had come to this kind of place, she was very calm.He guessed that it might not be the first time for Zhong Zhao to come here. Zhong Zhao and Bai Huan had probably visited this kind of place a long time ago. How could it be his turn?

Jiang Mingyue has been jealous of Bai Huan for three years, jealous that he is Zhong Zhao's first love, jealous that he is the only person Zhong Zhao likes, and jealous that he is the person Zhong Zhao is still waiting for until now.Soaked in jealousy every day, even the bones are softened, maybe it is not soaked at all, but jealousy has already drowned him, so airtight.

However, the current Jiang Mingyue accepted such an answer calmly.

As expected, it makes sense.

On the contrary, Zhong Zhao asked him suspiciously, "Is this your first time here?"

Jiang Mingyue thought it was a bit funny, she gave Zhong Zhao almost all the first time, but Zhong Zhao didn't know anything, it was like making an innocent expression but stabbing a sharp knife into the softest part of her chest, Surprised, "How did you get hurt?"

Jiang Mingyue smiled, "Why, doesn't it look like it?" He recalled the look in Zhong Zhao's eyes last night, remembering that he was a prodigal character in Zhong Zhao's eyes, and said bitterly, "I like What? A veteran in love?"

Seeing Zhong Zhao turned his head and didn't answer, Jiang Mingyue knew his acquiescence, tugged at his ear, and said helplessly, "Blind." A blind man who will never see Jiang Mingyue, nor have Jiang Mingyue in his eyes.

Jiang Mingyue was helpless again, and abruptly pulled out her heart that had been trampled on countless times, seemingly casually but cautiously observing whether the other party wanted it or not.

"You are my first love."

This is a secret that everyone knows, only the person involved does not know.

When Zhong Zhao glared at him, implying that he was not allowed to say such words, Jiang Mingyue received the answer again.

This person still doesn't want him, again and again.

In fact, Jiang Mingyue really came to this kind of amusement park for the first time. When he was a child, his parents were too busy and he never came. When he grew up, he fell in love. Unexpectedly, the other party never cared about him, and he never came again.

He is really happy that he can come here for a date with Zhong Zhao this time, but he dare not show it, he is afraid that if he shows it, Zhong Zhao will be proud of it, and any date he makes casually can make him happy, as long as A little gentleness tied him tightly, and he was afraid that this was just a deception, and that this was just the beginning of his grief.

When she was pulled to the claw machine, Jiang Mingyue also felt itchy, not because of the doll, but because she wanted a piece of evidence that could prove that she and Zhong Zhao had really dated.

It would be great if I could catch that little bear, at least there would be a commemoration.

However, handicap cannot be saved.

Jiang Mingyue couldn't even catch a clever one, let alone Zhong Zhao, who was so stupid.

Seeing that the people around have more or less caught the dolls, the lovers hug and celebrate eagerly, which makes the two of them very embarrassed. Can't catch them all.

Maybe it's because both of them are non-chiefs, and their luck has always been bad.

It's rare to see each other's embarrassment, they looked at each other for a few seconds and smiled, Jiang Mingyue pulled Zhong Zhao to leave, "Let's go."

Watching the bear change positions many times, Zhong Zhao couldn't catch it, "No, I don't believe I can't catch this." He tried to catch it several times, but failed again and again.

"The money you caught is enough to buy several of these, don't catch it, be good." Jiang Mingyue said, "Maybe it's not fate." Although it was regrettable, Jiang Mingyue still smiled at Zhong Zhao and left Got a claw machine.

Forget it, it's okay if you didn't catch it.

It's better not to commemorate it. I've been thinking about this date since it's saved.

Unexpectedly, Zhong Zhao dragged Jiang Mingyue into the haunted house.

Jiang Mingyue didn't like haunted houses very much. He was afraid of the dark and ghosts. What's more, he didn't like the sense of fear that was out of his control. He was used to being rational and trying to save face.Hearing that such a big boy is still afraid of ghosts, how funny it is, Jiang Mingyue shook his head and resisted, then Zhong Zhao grabbed him by the back collar and entered the haunted house like a chicken.

Jiang Mingyue felt very wronged, "I don't want to go to the haunted house." She clearly showed that she really didn't want to go, but she was still pulled in by Zhong Zhao.

"Are you afraid?" Zhong Zhao really didn't feel pain in his back when he was standing and talking, couldn't it be seen that he was afraid?She even laughed at him, "How old I am, I'm still afraid of this."

Jiang Mingyue felt even more aggrieved, and became angry with herself again, yes, why am I still afraid of this, it's so embarrassing.

But even the entrance of the haunted house has a dark and damp atmosphere. The old walls are painted with blood-colored paint and horrible curses. The weird lights and music made Jiang Mingyue goosebumps all over. He strongly resisted going to the haunted house, trying to keep his face.

After a stalemate for a while, Jiang Mingyue had no choice but to surrender again, looked at Zhong Zhao with aggrieved eyes, muttered to herself like a small animal begging for mercy, lowered her head and whispered, "Then I'm afraid."

Suddenly, a hand on the top of his head gently rubbed his hair, and another hand wrapped around his waist, in a posture of completely confining him in his arms, only to hear Zhong Zhao lower his voice and say to Jiang Mingyue ,"coward."

May be an illusion.

This time the voice was extremely gentle and full of security.

Zhong Zhao grabbed Jiang Mingyue's hand, pulled Jiang Mingyue into his arms, buried his head deeply in his chest, wrapped his arms around his waist, and tightly held Jiang Mingyue with one hand. Holding Jiang Mingyue's waist, "Hold tight."

The two were close to each other, Zhong Zhao protected Jiang Mingyue with an absolutely protective attitude, the only sense of security in the darkness came from the strong and warm arms from the embrace of the two, Jiang Mingyue couldn't help but want to get closer With a deep heart, he hugged Zhong Zhao tightly with slightly trembling hands, and even the tip of his nose could smell Zhong Zhao's unique scent.

The rare warmth made Jiang Mingyue's mind empty, and he only felt an unexpected sense of security and warmth. Before he had time to think about anything, he was dazzled by this kind of embrace.

What's ridiculous is that they have done countless more intimate things, but they have never had such intimacy from a hug.

But Jiang Mingyue wanted to let herself be immersed in this short, illusory tenderness.

They advanced quickly in such awkward postures, passing through one intersection after another, hearing the screams of various girls and the ghostly screams of the staff, Jiang Mingyue realized how strange they were.

"It's so embarrassing to walk like this." Jiang Mingyue buried herself in his chest, her voice muffled.

"I don't think so. Besides, other people can't see your face. If you want to lose face, I will lose face." Jiang Mingyue felt relieved when Zhong Zhao said this, and unconsciously grabbed Zhong Zhao's clothes again.

"But it's awkward to walk like this, and I don't even know how to walk."

"I know how to go, you don't need to know."

There is darkness in front of him, half of his body is in Zhong Zhao's arms, even walking can only follow Zhong Zhao's pace, like a koala hugging on a tree, Jiang Mingyue who can't control his posture like this should be the most annoying, but he But he wished that the road could be longer and that Zhong Zhao could hold Zhong Zhao for a longer time.

But the road is so long, and there will be an end after all.

When she came out of Zhong Zhao's arms and saw the light, Jiang Mingyue let out a sigh of relief, thinking that it was over so soon with regret.

A secret little thought ended in the light.

"I didn't expect you to be so timid." Zhong Zhao started laughing at him as soon as he came out.

"It's just that you don't know."

"If you are timid, you are timid. You wait for me here, and I will drive you to the restaurant you have booked for dinner."

After Zhong Zhao finished speaking, he ran outside without looking back.

Jiang Mingyue listened to Zhong Zhao's words and waited for him in place.

Unexpectedly, the wait was half an hour.

For the first 10 minutes, Jiang Mingyue looked at the photos taken today on his phone, all kinds of secretly taken photos, photos that were completely different from usual, and photos of him dating him for the first time.

The date that I thought about countless times actually came true.

What kind of feeling is this, the excitement and joy of getting what you want.

At the end of the day, when no one was around, the face that was pretending to be cold finally burst into uncontrollable sniggering and turned into a piece of unbearably sweet chocolate. Could it be, could it be that Zhong Zhao finally liked me a little bit?

During the 10 minutes in between, Zhong Zhao still hadn’t come back. The parking place wasn’t far away, so why didn’t he come back? Maybe there were too many people. Wait, wait, wait.

In the last 10 minutes, Jiang Mingyue started to think wildly again. He felt like a boudoir who didn't see his husband all day long, so he was full of anxiety and doubts.

Could it be that there was an accident, or there were too many people in the crowd.

Or did he regret coming with me, and ran out and left me?

Or is this simply an illusion, it is impossible for Zhong Zhao to go out with him on a date, everything is his fantasy.

He is going crazy.

He hates his own suspicion and anxiety, he is anxious like a lunatic, this is not normal!He knows, he understands.

But who would have known that this was the stress response of Jiang Mingyue being left behind again and again over the years.

After all, Zhong Zhao is a master.

A master who slaps you and gives you a sweet date.

But when Zhong Zhao came back, Jiang Mingyue breathed a sigh of relief and recovered from the abnormal state.

He didn't dare to mention what he was thinking about just now, Zhong Zhao must think that he was sick, so he turned his head to look at the scenery outside the car, constantly accelerating and switching.

He thought, take it easy on this rare date, and trust Zhong Zhao again.

However, God did not wish.

When Jiang Mingyue saw the car gradually turning to a familiar place, his heart beat violently with the distance until he saw the car drive into the restaurant that seemed to open from the tree.

He already knew it was over.

Zhong Zhao really deserves to be Zhong Zhao, he can always give him a heavy blow when he believes in him the most and is the happiest, when he wondered for a moment whether he likes me a little bit, he hit him viciously With a slap, he told him like a mockery, who would like him.

This is the restaurant he used to propose to Zhong Zhao the day before yesterday.

His face was livid, as if he was about to suffocate in an instant, his head was hit hard again and again, and his heart felt fine and numb, like a needle prick, pain but no blood.

He didn't have the energy to manage his expressions, to laugh, or to maintain his ridiculous dignity.

He will cry or not, laugh or not.

Jiang Mingyue didn't know if Zhong Zhao found this restaurant by himself, or if he knew that Jiang Mingyue had thought about proposing to him and staying together for the rest of his life.

None of this matters anymore.

Because this was enough to make Jiang Mingyue despair to the point of giving up.

If he knew that Jiang Mingyue was going to propose to him that day, and brought him back to this restaurant, what would that mean? Is it pity, is it ridicule, or he put the reality in front of him and said to him with a sneer, look!You can't leave me all your life, you love me so much that you can't extricate yourself.

If he doesn't know, that's enough to show that Zhong Zhao never cared about him at all.

If he cared a little bit, how could he not know what day it was, how could he let him go to see Bai Yueguang openly, and how could he be willing to let him be so sad.

Maybe it was because Jiang Mingyue's face was too ugly, Zhong Zhao was taken aback and asked him, "What's the matter, what's wrong with you?"

Jiang Mingyue gritted her teeth and asked him, "Zhong Zhao."

"Did you find this store by yourself?" He was really helpless, he was in extreme love and pain, Jiang Mingyue just wanted to end this pain quickly.

Zhong Zhao swallowed a mouthful of saliva, and replied, "I found it, don't you like this one, then let's change it."

You really found it yourself, Jiang Mingyue wanted to laugh instead, if laughing could ease his pain.

Jiang Mingyue glanced at him several times, "Are you scared by me?"

Sorry, I was scared by myself too.

Zhong Zhao also believed that Jiang Mingyue just wanted to scare him, so he asked the waiter to serve the food.

"The environment of this restaurant is pretty good, and it's suitable for a date." Zhong Zhao said to Jiang Mingyue after eating some food.

"It's very good. I would also come to this restaurant for a date." Jiang Mingyue glanced at it. He specially chose a secluded and private restaurant. He just wanted to give them a special environment. A few days ago, he personally arranged it In the restaurant, I didn't expect to be left behind that day, and the dinner was canceled accordingly.

Now that the layout of the restaurant has changed back to the original layout, Jiang Mingyue couldn't tell if it was a pity or something else, she always felt that her heart was being discarded indifferently once again, and the person didn't even look at it, so he decided it was Rubbish, it's not worth the money.

"Really, I will bring you to eat next time." Zhong Zhao said with a smile, showing great demeanor.

"You are really romantic." Jiang Mingyue said expressionlessly.

"The desserts here are delicious!" Zhong Zhao said in surprise, "It tastes similar to that shop, delicious!"

Jiang Mingyue looked at the delighted Zhong Zhao opposite, with a very cold and disgusted expression on his face.

Why do they taste alike?It was because Jiang Mingyue specially recruited the chef from that dessert shop to this restaurant for the purpose of proposing marriage, just because Zhong Zhao liked it.

Because Zhong Zhao liked it, so did Jiang Mingyue.

Zhong Zhao likes western food, so Jiang Mingyue eats western food as well. Zhong Zhao likes desserts, so Jiang Mingyue buys them for him no matter how far away. Zhong Zhao wants to eat at home, so Jiang Mingyue went to learn how to cook.

Jiang Mingyue almost forgot what she likes.

Suddenly Jiang Mingyue asked Zhong Zhao another question, "Do you know what I like to eat?"

"Don't you like these, I'm sorry." Zhong Zhao apologized to him.

Jiang Mingyue didn't care much anymore, he knew that Zhong Zhao didn't know what he liked to eat at all, and he had nothing to resent, it was all by himself, so how could he blame others for not knowing.

Jiang Mingyue smiled to herself with contempt.

The author says:

NOTE: A silvery seagull slides down from the west.Sometimes a ship, high stars.

Oh, the black cross of the ship.

lonely.

Sometimes I wake up in the morning and my soul is even wet.

Far away, the ocean rings and echoes.

This is a port.

【I love you here】

I left out the last sentence, which is from Neruda's "Twenty Love Poems and a Song of Despair".