this turbulent love

Chapter 27

Gu Yan wanted to ask Jian Mo to eat after finishing dinner, but found that Jian Mo had already fallen asleep on the sofa.He thought about it, like Jian Mo did before, after putting all the dishes away, he then quietly did his own thing, and time seemed to stand still.Thinking of what happened before, he sighed, and stroked Jian Mo's brow that was still frowning even in sleep.

They got together too quickly, so after being together eagerly, they didn't realize how much space there was between the two of them.Yes, he knows many of his likes and dislikes.Gu Yan looked at Jian Mo's closed eyes.But he doesn't know more.He doesn't know Jian Mo's ideal, he doesn't know what color Jian Mo likes, what food he likes, he doesn't even know what kind of activities he likes at all.At that time, the wishful pursuit was at best just a self-righteous understanding of some superficial knowledge.

He will give Jian Mo a lot of time, and also give himself more, and then get to know each other, to fill the gap between them, until their memories are full and colorful, instead of only pale together now '.Gu Yan looked at Jian Mo shaking uncomfortably because he didn't have a pillow, smiled and put his head gently on his lap, watching Jian Mo continue to sleep deeply.

Gu Yan let out a breath and looked at the ceiling. On it, there were the street lights gradually lighting up in the street and the noisy sounds of people who only belonged to late tourists who were gradually bustling outside.He originally thought that just "together" could represent everything, but now he felt that he was really a young boy who didn't know what would happen after being together, and then he was looking forward to the future.He let go of the frown that he didn't realize, then laughed, smacked his forehead with his hand, and looked down at Jian Mo again.

He even passed the most impossible test, but now he is sad because of these trivial things, how can he be worthy of this person he likes?He stroked Jian Mo's soft hair, and said silently in his heart: Even if Jian Mo stops his steps now, he will cross the mountains, cross the sea, go through the twists and turns, and finally stand in front of Jian Mo , opened his hand to him, smiled and said to him: "I love you."

When Gu Yan was immersed in his monologue and felt a little emotional, the heads of his subordinates moved.Jian Mo opened her eyes, took Gu Yan's hand, and put his hand on her lips regardless of the hair that had been touched like a bird's nest, and then gently pressed it.Gu Yan felt that Jian Mo's lips were dry from sleeping, and then wrinkled roughly.He lowered his head and kissed Jian Mo gently.

Regardless of whether he was blank or not, Gu Yan closed his eyes and felt Jian Mo's kiss deepening gradually.He only knows that they can have many futures now, as long as the man in front of him is still there.

Gu Yan Jian Mo was gone the next day, and there was still hot breakfast on the table with Jian Mo's message on it.Gu Yan finished his breakfast, tidied up, and then set off for the part-time job he had contacted yesterday.

The store has just opened, and only the clerks are sporadically exhaling and preparing the drinks to be made today and the meals that need to be prepared in advance.The store manager hadn't arrived yet, so Gu Yan started talking to the store staff first. They were three boys and two girls, none of them were very shy. Because they were all about the same age, Gu Yan talked to them soon. Mixed.When Gu Yan was secretly trying to remember each of their names, the store manager came and saw that Gu Yan had been waiting in the store for a while, and when he saw him coming, he came up to greet him warmly. Nodding with some satisfaction.He doesn't like people with a bad attitude towards work, even if they are summer vacation workers.In addition to explaining some precautions to Gu Yan and the work that Gu Yan should do, he also reminded Gu Yan of what he knows, that he can sing and play on stage, and if the response is good, he can get an extra commission.

Gu Yan is very excited about this, he likes it quite a bit, a little feeling of being noticed, which is what boys of this age hope to get out of their vanity, and also hope to be praised, but the commission is left behind.

Gu Yan, who had changed into work clothes, looked very energetic and handsome, and started his job energetically.The two girls were more reserved because Gu Yan was a handsome guy, and the three boys immediately started fighting with Gu Yan.Because the store didn't have a lot of work in the morning, they taught Gu Yan what to do. Gu Yan was also very smart, and he had relevant experience before, so he would soon be there.

When the number of customers gradually increased, Gu Yan was ready to start, partnering with a boy.Gu Yan has gone through the last 'basketball incident', so he is not as heartless and careless about the distance between himself and the boy as before. Although he chatted with the boy who was his partner very openly, he still pays attention to it. The boy noticed the distance. Although he felt a little strange, he didn't think too much about it. After all, he just came to work.

Jian Mo over there came back from the outside, and saw the neatly packed dishes, the flipped notes and the apparently empty apartment for a moment, was Gu Yan not there?Where did he go?No, where can he go?These questions popped up in his mind one after another. Jian Mo put down the things in his hands, took out his mobile phone and called Gu Yan, and he hung up after a few calls.Jian Mo looked at the gray color that indicated the end of the call, with a look of disbelief on his face, he suppressed his nervousness, and began to slowly recall the place where Gu Yan would go.Gu Yan also went out yesterday, but what was he doing then?Jian Mo shook his head. At that time, he was a little caught off guard by Su Lai's sudden appearance. He was only thinking about his own affairs, and couldn't listen to anything else.

He tried his best to recall for a while, and after confirming that he had no memory of Gu Yan's words, he called Gu Yan's phone again, and the phone there was even turned off.Jian Mo couldn't just sit at home calmly and think about it. He picked up his coat and went outside, while texting Gu Yan. Although it didn't feel useful, at least it was comforting.

In fact, there is no need to worry about Gu Yan, because after all, Gu Yan is also going to college here, no matter how bad he is, he knows that he can go to school, and there is also a taxi as a means of transportation, basically nothing happens.But Jian Mo doesn't have much time to sort out these thoughts right now. He was a little anxious after hearing Gu Yan's cell phone was turned off, and his usual calmness was a bit ineffective now.

I drove to the school and went to Gu Yan's dormitory, but there was no one as expected, not even the whole building.There were still people on the basketball court where Gu Yan came last time, but Jian Mo checked carefully, and Gu Yan was not there.He went to his dormitory and other places one after another, going to everything he thought of or didn't expect, but there was no sign of Gu Yan.He drove to the surrounding places, went to the snack street and the places Gu Yan had told him about, but there was no Gu Yan.

Jian Mo had no choice but to drive back home. He wanted to ask Gu Yan's friends, but when he opened the address book, he found that he didn't even have the number of Gu Yan's friends in his phone. The two people in the last video had never thought of adding them.He sat down on the sofa a little dejectedly, looked at the note he had written on the refrigerator, and signaled to himself that he had read it, and had nothing else to say.Jian Mo clenched his fists in frustration, he hated the feeling of being powerless like this, as if if Gu Yan turned around and left, he would not be able to find Gu Yan.

He recalled that it was Gu Yan who knew his mobile phone number at that time, came to his dormitory, and came to his life.Gu Yan took many, many steps, and then came to his side step by step. Gu Yan cut himself apart and exposed himself in front of him, but at that time, he didn't intend to understand Gu Yan, nor did he have the courage to take the step.

Until the two got together, although it wasn't long before, Jian Mo didn't have the consciousness to take the initiative to understand Gu Yan, like what happened to Su Lai yesterday, he didn't mean to say anything to Gu Yan, so he just let Gu Yan do it by himself. As for my own affairs, I can't even remember where he went now.It's not that he doesn't care, it's just that Jian Mo doesn't realize it at all, he thinks it's his own business, and the matter between him and Gu Yan is clearly placed on the other side, where there are only him and Gu Yan.

He never felt that this was wrong, but now that he thought about it, he realized that when he fell asleep that day, he woke up and saw that Gu Yan hadn't even turned on the light, and was just sitting like this with himself leaning on his lap.Gu Yan shouldn't be feeling well at that time, right?He thought of Gu Yan, who was so simple and straightforward that he couldn't even hide his liking for him, who was excluded from his past but still pretended to be okay, that kind of person who was clearly a lover but didn't know him well. Only the slightly ridiculous connection of the 'lover' pronoun.

When he thought of Gu Yan's bright smile yesterday and his usual movements, he didn't know whether to blame himself or Gu Yan for a moment.Everyone has their own past, and Jian Mo is no exception. Although he and Gu Yan are already very close, they stayed together because they didn't spend much time together.Those seemingly intimate and sweet lives and actions are actually very fragile and have no foundation. It seems that the only connection between two people is their love and tolerance for each other.Yes, tolerance, he suddenly realized.Because the connection is too fragile, Gu Yan will hide his emotions, so he will treat the relationship between them cautiously. He probably does the same, but if it wasn't for Gu Yan's sudden loss of contact this time, he wouldn't have thought of this at all. At this point, he couldn't think of the current situation of the two of them.

He slowly smoothed his train of thought like this, and finally sat down patiently and carefully thought through the fact that Gu Yan wouldn't have anything to do in City X, and then cooked dinner and waited for Gu Yan to come back.There are still too many gaps between them, and he and Gu Yan lack the trust and affection that others have spent time building up. He thinks that since he has decided to be with Gu Yan properly, he must resolve this matter properly.

Gu Yan is very comfortable working in a coffee shop. Probably because of his good-looking face, the people in the shop will take care of him unconsciously. In addition, Gu Yan is also a lively person, so the customers also treat Gu Yan well. Yan likes some girls who are more courageous, and some girls who are more courageous will come up to ask for Gu Yan's mobile phone number with a blushing face. Gu Yan, who was seated, also felt very happy.

Compared to staying at home all the time with nothing to do, Gu Yan still thinks that such a fulfilling but not busy life is really great. He doesn't like himself because he is confined to himself by staying at home all day. He is really a little busy. Well, according to Zhuang Qian's words, ADHD can't be cured and can only be alleviated a little in this way. It probably is true, and he doesn't deny it.He likes to communicate with different people, likes to see different new things, likes the mediocre and busy life that is not so rigid, even if he will become one of them in the future.

In this way, he was full of vigor and vitality to finish a day's work, and he was in a good mood. He brought some snacks, and casually went to Jian Mo's favorite bookstore to buy Jian Mo's favorite books, thinking that Jian Mo saw his favorite books on display. With a happy expression in front of my eyes, I whistled all the way back home.

When he opened the door and was hurriedly taking off his shoes, he heard Jian Mo's deep and hoarse voice inside, "Where did you go today?" Gu Yan blinked and replied:

"I'm off to work, uh, I told you last time." Looking up, Jian Mo saw that it was getting dark but Jian Mo didn't turn on the light, just sitting on the sofa like this, the kitchen was cold when he saw it. long meal.Gu Yan hurriedly walked over to Jian Mo without caring about things big and small. Jian Mo didn't even change his coat, and just looked at himself in the dark.

Gu Yan felt sorry for Jian Mo. He saw that the food on the table was completely cold, and the two bowls of rice were hard. He didn't know when Jian Mo started waiting. It was all his fault that he forgot to write a letter when he went out. Tiaozi, let Jian Mo wait for him at home.He thought about it and took out the books he bought for Jian Mo in the bookstore and the snacks he bought along the way like offering treasures. He was used to buying a book for Jian Mo from time to time.With an apologetic and flattering smile on his face, Gu Yan sat next to Jian Mo: "It's all my fault that I forgot to write a note when I went out. Have you been waiting for a long time? Are you hungry? I bought some snacks, and they are still hot. Let's eat first." Order. I'm going to heat up the food, just wait for me."

Jian Mo looked at the apology and flattery in Gu Yan's eyes, and felt uncomfortable as if something had suddenly tightened his heart. He told himself that, but because he didn't remember clearly, he came to apologize to himself now, watching Gu Yan stand up Come grab your meal and get ready to heat it up.He felt his throat tighten for a while, why couldn't he see Gu Yan's carelessness and confusion?I swore before that I would treat him well, but in the end, when something happened, I completely forgot about Gu Yan, right?

He grabbed Gu Yan's hand with some remorse, pulled Gu Yan into his arms, and hugged Gu Yan like this.Originally, I wanted to say a lot of things, but now after I saw this person, I forgot all the words easily. I only know that there is probably no one who cares about myself so meticulously and wholeheartedly, and likes me like this , what is he like?

Probably because of not paying attention, let these details that you don't care about break in, so easily hurt the other party.He will let Gu Yan know about his past and his future, but it will take some time.

He felt Gu Yan gradually hugging himself tightly and closed his eyes.

The author has something to say: I can’t write today...

Feeling a bit wrong today, but,

Still working hard, I am quite satisfied with myself~