gambler

So many things come.Therefore, it is meaningless to find out who is at fault, everything starts because of him, and is born because of him.

So, if I go down to accompany grandma by myself, maybe I can see mom and dad, I'm a little excited when I think about it.There is only one death left and right, but it is much more secure than being in this world.

He typed another line: This was originally my fault.

Qianhe was almost pissed off by him: "So you didn't eat for two days, and you didn't go home and fainted on the stairs. You just want to die, don't you think it's great to take all the faults on yourself? It's obviously mine. Wrong, if you abuse yourself like this, it is better to kill me to relieve your hatred, I am better off."

Han Banqing hooked the corners of his mouth, laughing at Qianhe's exasperated look: "Then you go to die." But he didn't type it out, he used lip language.

If you want to make me happy, then you should die, and go to hell with me.Everyone, it's better to die.

Qianhe was surprised for a moment, her beautiful eyes stopped moving: "You really want me to die." Han Banqing really hated him so much?

"Why, don't you dare?"

Qianhe also replied honestly: "I dare not. As long as you are still alive, I will not dare. I will protect you for the rest of my life."

"Funny." Han Banqing leaned on the pillow, tilting his head to look at Qianhe.Why did he say the four words of fear of death so high-sounding? What he said is that Qianhe is also himself. The abstract noun of love makes him unable to hate Qianhe even if he is in prison. He has countless There are reasons to excuse him, and there are countless reasons to add the fault to himself.

"It's not funny at all. As long as I'm still alive, you don't even want to die. Don't, just try to leave me." He said that, but there was nothing he could do about him.He doesn't eat, so he can't force-feed him with a funnel.He didn't want to live, and it was impossible for him to invade his head and force the consciousness of survival on him.

"You don't care about it." Han Banqing closed his eyes and fell asleep. He felt that the temporary aphasia not only did not bring him any inconvenience, but also solved the trouble that he didn't want to argue with others.

"You coward! What good is death, why do you want to die?" Qianhe was a little incoherent.

I am a coward, Han Banqing thought to himself, this cowardly and incompetent self is afraid to live any longer.No father and no mother, now grandma passed away, even Alipay left him, hated by others, cursed by uncles and aunts... Are these reasons enough, he can't even find a reason for himself to live, this Reason is enough.

"If you don't want to live, then I don't care about you!" Qianhe walked out of the bedroom and slammed the door hard.

As soon as the loud noise stopped, Qianhe immediately regretted what he just said. Why did he get so angry with a patient, and it was obviously his fault.So he opened the door and sat down next to Han Banqing: "I'm sorry, I lost my temper with you again."

Dr. Zhang, who was witnessing the whole process, couldn't stop laughing in his heart, and then walked in pretending nothing happened: "Young Master Qian, he said that you can take Master Han there at three o'clock in the afternoon."

"Oh, you can go out now." Qianzuru realized that it was a bit embarrassing for her to run back to apologize in front of an outsider after being angry and disheartened.

"Oh, good." Dr. Zhang went downstairs, but didn't leave right away. He went to Jia Ma's door and knocked on the door, and then went into her room, not knowing what to do.

However, Qianhe and Han Banqing didn't notice all of this.

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Qianhe continued to persuade Han Banqing in a soft voice: "Ah Qing, think about it, how good it is to be alive, you have so many delicious foods that you have never tasted, and so many interesting places that you have never been to. Where do you want to go and what do you eat? Things, when you are well, I will take you there every day."

It's over, Han Banqing said in his heart.

He didn't want Qianhe to waste his efforts anymore, he probably never gave up on anything he decided except not loving Qianhe anymore.

So he continued to pick up the phone, typed a paragraph, and then showed it to Qianhe: "The meaning of my life is gone. I am different from you. I don't live for being more exciting, chic, and regretless. The days before were too much. Hard work, I think if I can get into a good university and find a good job, then I can buy the best dog food for Alipay, and I can open canned dog food for him every day without being stingy. Grandma can be like an ordinary old man, Dancing in the square, I don't have to worry about how I live, I can feed two people and a dog, and I don't have to sleep all night for money."

Han Banqing's eyebrows trembled inadvertently. He remembered it too clearly, because his grandma had no income, and his expenses in the city were not high, but he still needed money. Tuition fees were extra material fees that the school had to pay, which were countless.The 10 yuan he had saved, grandma has been reluctant to let him use it, saying that it will be left for him to go to college.Of course, the uncle and aunt refused to give the old man money for various reasons, so Zhang Yanfen could only ask others to borrow money with a shy face. He saw her grandma lying in bed all night and unable to sleep when others were demanding debts.

So he took out the 10 yuan and secretly returned it to those relatives, and then warned: Don't let my grandma know that I paid it back. If she asks, she will say that my uncle paid it back.

He remembered that after a while, his grandma said to him secretly: "Your uncle actually loves you very much. He secretly paid back all the money grandma borrowed."

Looking at Zhang Yanfen's wrinkled face with a smile, he just kept smiling.

Han Banqing went on to type a paragraph: "I live so hard just not wanting to make my family suffer anymore. What kind of dream is really not on the table for me." He once said to Qianhe that he wanted to travel all over the world and eat The delicious food there, of course, is just talking.

It's a pity, those motivations that made him persevere are gone...

Although Qianhe felt distressed, he didn't know what kind of life Han Banqing lived in the past. As a person who has never suffered from money since childhood, he couldn't imagine it at all, so he couldn't help saying: "You still have me."

Han Banqing didn't say anything, his Qianhe was always so confident, so confident that he felt that he could live for him alone.He said meanly: "What are you?"

Qianhe was stunned for a moment, realizing that this might be what he had said to Han Banqing before, and sure enough, he still held a grudge.

What Han Banqing didn't tell Qianhe was that he was the one who put Qianhe in the future. He wanted to cook the best breakfast for Qianhe when he could make a lot of money. Without even looking at the lost breakfast, he thought that one day, he would be qualified to stand shoulder to shoulder with Qianhe.

Unfortunately, he will probably never tell Qianhe these words in his life.

Qianhe felt that Han Banqing's behavior of dying and living was so stupid. His grandma was so old that she might die at any time. Isn't birth, old age, sickness and death a normal thing in the world.Why bother.

Han Banqing seemed to see through Qianhe's mind, and said, "You also have to die as a family member." What's more, he has no one left.

Qianhe didn't want to argue with him, anyway, he just thought he was the most reasonable, Han Banqing's childish behavior really made him angry.I checked the time on my phone, it was already 2:47, if this time passed, it should be just right.

The address Dr. Zhang left for Qianhe was in a remote place. Han Banqing hadn't eaten, and now his legs were weak, and he didn't want to cooperate with Qianhe.Qianhe had no choice but to fight him into the car, although it was still not good-looking to be seen by neighbors.

Qianhe quickly found the doctor's clinic, which was a private house remodeled by himself, clean and tidy with its own flavor.Qianhe changed his posture, no longer carried Han Banqing, but hugged him in, and Han Banqing remained very quiet, letting Qianhe play with him.

The inside was empty, without even a shopkeeper, Qianhe put Han Banqing on the small sofa at the door.He called out, "Where's the person?"

Cheng Kong who was inside came out slowly: "What are you arguing about?" Then his eyes swept over Qianhe and Han Banqing: "Which one of you is a patient, or are you both?"

Qianhe frowned: "He."

"Then you go in with me." Cheng Kong walked to Han Banqing's side, saw his pale face, and asked again: "What's wrong? Can't stand up?"

Qianhe hurried over and hugged Han Banqing: "He can't walk, I'll just carry him in."

"Oh, interesting." Cheng Kong smiled: "Han Banqing, did you find a new one so soon?"

"What's new? How did you know him?"

Cheng Kong shook his head, Qianhe walked through the dark corridor, surrounded by extremely strange murals: "The poor don't even have the money to turn on the lights?"

"Yes." Cheng Kong could see right away, Qianhe, the eldest young master's temper, and his demeanor that he hated him a little.

Cheng Kong pointed to an extremely soft recliner in the room, and said to Qianhe, "Just put him there."

Qianhe did as well, and then stood there without moving.

"Aren't you going out?"

"I have to watch." Qianhe saw that everyone seemed to be plotting against his Han Banqing.

"You are here to affect my treatment."

"I don't talk, so it doesn't affect you." Qianhe was still so unreasonable.

Cheng Kong thought about it and asked Han Banqing what happened first: "What's wrong with him, you can go out after you finish talking."

"I'm not going out."

"Strange."

"He couldn't speak. Dr. Zhang said it was because his grandma passed away. Also, he didn't eat and was pessimistic and world-weary. That's probably it."

Cheng Kong nodded: "You can go out, it won't take long. Psychological treatment is by your side.