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The two siblings talked intermittently about the whole past.

There was a dead silence in the living room.

Jian Ze'an looked at the young man with his head down in a daze, feeling very complicated in his heart.

He hated Xu Changjun for three years, hated him so much that he would recall his collapse every time he mentioned it.

But now, he suddenly learned that there was another hidden story behind that irresponsible escape.Everything that Xu Changjun endured was tantamount to heartache for a young man who was just 20 years old at the time, and it was the collapse of the whole family.

When he was ambitiously looking forward to the world finals, he suddenly learned that his sister was almost insulted by his stepfather, and his mother committed suicide after stabbing someone.

But he, because of training and preparing for the battle, missed the last words his mother left in the world.

How did the young Xu Changjun prepare for the final due to the sudden disaster?

Jian Ze'an couldn't imagine the mood and state of the other party at that time, so he just had to substitute himself for a little bit, and imagine that his brother was horribly injured, and his mother crossed the line to protect his brother and then committed suicide...

He just let it go for a while, and he didn't dare to continue thinking about it, only thinking that it was the most desperate and utterly devastated scenario he could think of.

Jian Ze'an felt very uncomfortable. He was so angry in the past, but now he can't hate him anymore.

He is not a taste:

"You... I'm sorry, I said that you said too much. I don't know. But you—why don't you explain? Why do you let everyone scold you?"

Xu Changjun smiled wryly.

Xu Mengran shook her head with a pale face:

"My brother is afraid of hurting my mother's reputation, and I'm afraid of hurting me. The e-sports circle... Since you have been a fan of the team, you should know what the media and self-media, including fans, are like. Winners brag about losses I scolded, sometimes even extreme. My brother gave up the game because of his mother. If he told the truth... Then? Those reporters would go to our hometown, ask the police, ask the neighbors, ask the medical staff, and ask everything we might have done. The people I know have messed up our circle of acquaintances. Mom's death... It's quite complicated, involving domestic violence, involving that man's infidelity with me, but in the final analysis, it is intentional murder. If this kind of thing spreads, there can be There are so many points of discussion, what will it be like if it spreads out? My mother was such a well-behaved person when she was alive, and she felt ashamed when she got divorced. If she knew that the whole country was discussing that she became a murderer..."

Xu Mengran couldn't continue, she choked up, and she let out a sob clearly.

Xu Changjun held her hand distressedly and whispered something in her ear, but Xu Mengran shook his head and insisted on continuing:

"It's not only for my mother's reputation. My brother is also for me. Lu Dawei didn't succeed in doing anything to me, but with so many media, there are always some malicious people who want to attract attention, spread rumors, who knows what they will say... my brother put He has seen my photos, so he has so many fans, and many people have seen my photos. Most of the fans in the e-sports circle are men, and it is easy to have some nasty guesses about this kind of thing. If those who watched the excitement The media and e-sports fans who don't think it's a big deal are talking nonsense... My brother is afraid that after the truth is revealed, some people will spread it, online or even in reality, others may criticize me behind my back."

At the end of the girl's speech, her voice was completely hoarse.

Xu Changjun hugged her into his arms with red eyes and patted her on the back.

Listening to the girl's crying that she tried hard to suppress but couldn't hold back at all, Jian Ze'an felt sore and swelled in his heart.He looked at Xu Changjun's side face, looked at the other person's red eyes, and felt that the world was impermanent, and this matter was a complete mess.

Who is to blame?

Except for the adoptive father of the two brothers and sisters who is not as good as a beast, who can be blamed?

Blame their mother?The dead are the most important, she has all gone, and no matter how many people are wrong, her determination to protect the child in the end is undeniable.

Blame Xu Changjun?But suddenly such an accident happened at home, forcing him to continue playing, is he still human?

With a lot of thoughts in her heart, Jian Ze'an could only say in the end:

"It's right not to involve your family members... But even if this is the case, at least the statement should be more serious. From the beginning to the end, Chaoge Team's official bib issued a cold announcement saying that you missed the game due to personal health reasons, and then directly Announcing your retirement from the game, you didn't even say wish you a speedy recovery or miss the past few years of cooperation, etc. Afterwards, media interviews were not accepted at all... This made fans suspect that it was fake, because you did too much to make The team didn't even bother to cover it up. If the team made a statement and said it wasn't your fault, they wouldn't scold so fiercely."

Xu Changjun shook his head:

"Don't blame them. At that time... I knew something was wrong, and I had to go back to my country regardless. The passport was in the hands of the team manager. The coach and the manager refused to let it go. They said that I would talk about it after the game. I broke my face with them. I said that. What the hell is my mother gone? If you force me to compete in any competition, I dare to lose on the field....The team let me go back to China, and asked me how to explain before I left. I said that the responsibility is all on me Yes, just one thing, don't involve my family members. The team has been looking forward to the finals for so long, because I ruined it, they know I didn't mean it, but they still can't help but blame me-everyone will complain, I understand. Coaches, teammates, managers...everyone has put in so much hard work, but it was all ruined because of me. They didn't speak up for me afterwards, it was normal, and they could promise me that my family members were not involved in the announcement. For the sake of three years of friendship."

Xu Changjun paused, let go of his younger sister in his arms, sat up straight, and looked at Jian Ze'an:

"I, I have always wanted to say sorry to those who supported me. After I calmed down and logged on to the scarf, the login was stuck. The private messages were full of insults to me. I was too cowardly to face it. In the end, I still didn’t say anything. Seeing you today... I’m actually a little relieved to say all of this.”

His expression slowly became a little dazed, and his eyelids drooped:

"I'm sorry. Really, really sorry. Thank you for supporting me. I have always owed my fans an apology, but I can't tell the real reason. Once I say it, my mother will be involved. Although I may not be qualified to talk to you You have apologized. My mother...I have blamed her for several years, blaming her for being cowardly and unclear. However, people die like lights go out, people are gone, and all resentment is gone, only the memory is left. She wants so much I can't tell the face of a person, and I can't let everyone talk about her attempted murder and committing suicide...

I thought about the last three calls she made to me, and I thought, if I answered, would it be possible to persuade her?Is she not going to commit suicide?As long as I think about it, I feel like I can't face it.When I was young, I wanted to protect her and be worthy of her. Later, I wanted to play well, be worthy of the team and the fans.In the end, no one deserves it. "

As Xu Changjun spoke, his voice became softer and his tone became like he was talking to himself.

Maybe he wasn't apologizing to Jian Ze'an, but to the ashamed fans he imagined, but he felt ashamed to even apologize.

So while he was talking, he didn't dare to look into the boy's eyes.

But Jian Ze'an was just dumbfounded.

He didn't know what to say about such a tragedy.

In one night, a woman lost her life, two young people lost their mothers, a team's hard work was in vain, and the expectations of fans across the country came to naught...

too heavy.

All of those are carried on the young man in front of him.He is the one who suffers the most.

Jian Ze'an was worried when he heard it, and couldn't imagine what Xu Changjun had endured in the past few years.

He wanted to say "I forgive you", but Xu Changjun was not speaking to him, but speaking to his former fans through him.

Jian Ze'an is not qualified to say that forgiveness on behalf of other fans.

So he could only be silent.

The whole living room was dead silent.

Until the person beside Jian Ze'an who had been silent all this time made a move.

Jian Zeping got up from the sofa, walked around the coffee table, and walked to the opposite side.

He bent down slightly and hugged Xu Changjun.

The latter trembled in his arms, his face pressed against his chest, and he made a startled and vague voice: "You—"

"Shh."

Jian Zeping tightened his arms and held him in his arms, and whispered simple syllables in Xu Changjun's ear to make him quiet.

He didn't say any comforting words, his words were too light and irrelevant, he just hugged the person in his arms hard, as if he wanted to transfer strength to the other person through the hug.

Xu Changjun stayed quietly in his arms for a moment, and then slowly, a weak and suppressed voice came from Jian Zeping's arms.

——It was the cry that I tried to suppress but couldn't.Very low, not even daring to indulge in crying, with choked sobs desperately trying to recover, just listening to such a thin voice, one can imagine how this young man has been carrying a huge pain that can almost annihilate him all these years , gritted his teeth and lived, but didn't even dare to indulge painful emotions.

Jian Ze'an stared blankly at the scene in front of him, and then suddenly woke up. He got up, walked around the coffee table from the other side, walked to Xu Mengran who was also blankly watching her brother crying in another man's arms, and patted her. shoulders.

As if waking up from a dream, Xu Mengran raised her eyes and looked at him in a daze.

Jian Ze'an gestured for her to "enter the house".

Xu Mengran stood up and led Jian Ze'an inside.

"My brother...in the past three years, I have never seen him cry. Including my mother's funeral."

She spoke in a low voice.

Jian Ze'an was silent for a while, and said, "Maybe he wants to protect you, so he must be strong."

Xu Mengran pushed open the door of her room, invited Jian Ze'an in, and said in a hoarse voice:

"Am I useless? I have been protected by my brother and let him comfort me, but I can't comfort him when he is sad..."

She was so sad that she shed tears again.

Jian Ze'an was not familiar with her, and he didn't know how to comfort the girl, so he could only silently take out a tissue and hand it to her.

Xu Mengran cried for a while, and forced a smile:

"Is my brother willing to cry now because he has someone who can protect him?"

Jian Ze'an thought about his brother's expression just now, and nodded.

He doesn't know Xu Changjun, but at least Jian Zeping must be willing to protect him in his arms.

The author has something to say: Thank you Xiaoyezi for mine! ! !