Green Apricot

After the college entrance examination, I was admitted to a junior college in Taiyuan.Although it is a specialist, I am quite satisfied, at least I have worked hard.

After the college entrance examination, I have a lot of time, and occasionally go to the Internet bar in the county to surf the Internet.If it is a weekend, Internet cafes are usually full.On weekdays, the Internet cafes are sparsely populated.

I chose a smaller Internet cafe.I accidentally checked the Baidu Encyclopedia of homosexuality.Although it was strange and confusing to find that my eyes were always on men before, I never thought that I was gay.

In the eyes of people around, homosexuality and abnormality mean the same thing.The encyclopedia probably means that people's sexual objects and feelings are devoted to people of the same sex.And also mentioned a few books below.The things described in the article are the same as my feelings and thoughts.And I really realized that I am a real gay.

I started to collect gay qqs online, but those qqs were far away from me.Hebei, Shandong, Beijing.Those QQ spaces have very tempting photos.Looking at those photos I entered a wonderful world.It turns out that many people like the same people and the same things as I do.Following those clues, I entered a foreign website.Looking at those photos, I watched them all night.Download it to your phone and delete it.

My father bought a new mobile phone again.His old mobile phone will belong to me, and that mobile phone can access the Internet.You can also read novels.

After the college entrance examination, there was a long period of rest. I grazed sheep on the mountain every day, turned on five yuan traffic on my mobile phone, and read gay novels every day.Although I know those storylines are all fake, but I still want to believe it is true, because, I know, it is impossible to meet gays in real life, because people don't have it written on their faces, and this thing is avoided Not enough, who will make public?

Fortunately, the storyline in the book may be fake, but the feelings are all real, because a good novel has the author's heart and soul in it.Whether it is a sincere text or whether it is really moved can be seen from the text.

I began to imagine that people of the same sex could not only love, but also be emotional.Move true feelings.

So I began to think, if God allows me to happily fall in love, even if I die, I am willing.

If there is a person I like standing in front of me who can make me love him, I will pour all my emotions into it.I started looking into the distance.Outside those overlapping mountains, there are my stories waiting to take me to create, and my lover waiting for me to meet.

After accepting the fact, the whole person feels much happier.Looking at the sky full of stars, I don't know if the sky in the distance is so clean.I'm leaving soon, I have to take a good look at this village;

I walked to the gate of my uncle's house and saw my sister-in-law sitting alone on the stone bench in front of the house.Watching the carefree little nephew and niece playing with mud at the door of their house.My uncle walked past them and said: "Xiao Su (niece's nickname), do you know where your father has gone?".

The little niece replied without any scruples: "Dead."After finishing speaking, continue to play with her.

And Dasou looked at the front of the house, sighed, went back to the house and brought out a bucket of pig food.It's hard to see her.I suddenly thought in my heart, how old is this? I am a widow with a man and a woman. I am afraid that it will be difficult to remarry in the future.

In the evening, my mother asked me to go to Baishi's house to borrow scissors. When I passed by the back door of my uncle's house, I heard someone talking inside. I was through the door, but I could hear it clearly.It is the eldest son of my second uncle's family, 'Wang Kou'.the sound of.He said: "Do you know how people asked me when I went out?".

Sister-in-law said: "How did you say that?"

"People asked, your sister-in-law is at home alone, do you sleep with her at night? I immediately became angry. I said, if I didn't treat you as a cousin, I would have destroyed you a long time ago."

The sister-in-law laughed at this time and said: "Ah, why didn't you say you were sleeping."I heard this, walked away, and didn't listen any more.

Wang Kou is black and strong. I don’t know how other people look at him. I salivate at him. The more attractive person is the big man below him. When he had guests at his house, he ran away Go to sleep with me, in the middle of the night while he was asleep, I pushed him down, still in a weak condition, it was difficult to hold one hand, thinking which woman would not love him to the death after sleeping with him of?

After I arrived at Baishi's house, I found that he was not at home. When I walked to the dam of his house, I saw that there was light in his hut. Hand punching inside, I was afraid that he would see me, so I quickly stopped talking and hid behind the stone wall, turning off the flashlight.

This guy, I haven't seen him for a few years, how come he has grown so big, even bigger than his brother.I've only seen his pants turn white during the day when he had nocturnal emission.But he didn't expect that his thing would grow so fast in just a few years.In the past few years, he has started to grow stronger, and he has also begun to feel a little fatter. Unexpectedly, that place has grown as well as his body.

I suddenly felt very inferior, and even hated my body a little bit.Nothing is as good as others.And I wonder if half of the reason why I like men these years is because of low self-esteem.I couldn't find my way, I went home.Close the door and don't want to talk to anyone.

At this time, my second mother came to my house suddenly and talked to my mother in the kitchen.The second mother said, "Where are you from this time?"

My mother said: "Ah, this kind of scumbag doesn't know how to hook up with other people. I heard it's from Gaozhai."As soon as I heard it, I knew they were discussing sister-in-law.A few days ago there was a man wearing a white shirt.It looks very tough.One can tell at a glance that he is not a farmer doing manual labor.He picked up his sister-in-law on a motorcycle.From that day on, my sister-in-law continued to gossip.And the words of these gossiping women in the village spread faster than the Internet.In addition, there are some good things that are able to smear the white into black by adding oil and vinegar.This made the sister-in-law's situation even more difficult.

At this time, Baishi came in from the back door of my house and asked me if the notice had arrived. He said that he might have to repeat the exam today.I said that my notice has come out long ago, but the notice will not arrive for a long time.

Then he also started talking about his sister-in-law and said: "This dead bitch has really disgraced our family."

"Leave her alone, I can't manage a lot of things myself."

"You? A lot of things? Is there any?"

"Look, uncle and aunt are in Anshun now. She is alone with two children, guarding those acres of black soil. She is not lonely! Think about it, if she is still alone, it would be easy to get married , now with two children, the children are seven or eight years old, who will she marry, will they treat her two children sincerely?" At this moment Baishi stopped talking.There may be things that didn't happen to me that I couldn't understand.These women and men in the village slept with their husbands and wives every day since they were young.Others are dead men, not only can't understand, but also swear at each other.Others see the appearance and see the heart.

After my second mother left, I went to my mother, and my mother said how embarrassing my sister-in-law was.Said: "If she finds someone to marry well, people won't say that about her."

I said: "It's easy to say that she is married. With two children, who would want it? Unless you meet the kind of man whose wife is dead and has children. Look around here, that kind of man, There won’t be one in 100 years, so how do you get married?”.

"Then she can't do that"

"What happened to him? Let's not talk about how he is now. When my elder brother was alive, who did he meet? Don't talk about him now. Maybe this kind of thing will happen to me one day. I can do better than others. It may be tens of times or hundreds of times too much, you people, if you don't feel yourself, you can stand and talk without back pain."

The next day when I was sleeping, I heard a commotion outside, and the noise was very loud. I got up and asked my mother to find out the reason. When I went to my uncle, he asked my uncle if my sister-in-law was at home. My uncle asked who he was, and he said he was a friend of my sister-in-law. My uncle said, would he dare to come when her husband was around? Be careful of my elder brother. Ghosts haunt him.

The man saw my uncle's bad attitude and left, but the sister-in-law saw her, and the sister-in-law pulled Xiaosu and Xiaoping to close them and wanted to leave.People in the village rushed over to watch the noise when they heard the sound.

The sister-in-law said: "These two babies (local dialect) are raised by me. From now on, we will go out to beg for food, and we will do whatever we want, so as not to embarrass your family."

My second uncle came over and said in his loud voice, "Are you still reasonable? Xiaosu and Xiaoping are the lifeblood of our family, you can take them away if you want!"

And my third mother said in a louder voice: "If you are going to die, you should die quickly, and don't embarrass our family anymore."Xiaosu and Xiaoping.Seeing the grown-ups making noise, you pushing them and pulling them, they all burst into tears in fright.The sister-in-law saw a lot of people and returned home.Close the door, only to hear her crying alone in the room.People go to cool tea, she was still a member of the family when my elder brother was alive, but after that, it will be difficult.

Thinking back, when my elder brother had a heart attack, she did all the heavy work at home, but she never thought much about it, she still cared for her husband and taught her children.

Nowadays, what other people see is not like this. If you are lonely and find a man, you will be told that you are not a woman.