Green Apricot

When I returned to the dormitory, my heart was still churning. The guy in the lower bunk looked at me and said, "Did you take the wrong medicine today? Are you so happy?".

"I bought a good book today"

"What book? Oh, I see, it must be a gay novel, show me."I ignored his words and handed him the "Ordinary World" directly. He flipped through it and said, you bastard, why did you buy this kind of book again?My fellow countryman came over.Take it over and have a look.

"Wow, such a thick book, I can't finish reading it for a year."

"Just laugh at this"

"No, here is another copy of "A Dream of Red Mansions Poetry Appreciation"" as he spoke, he turned to the poem written by Xue Pan.

The lower bunk took it over and read aloud:

My daughter is worried, and a big horse monkey emerges from the embroidery room.

Daughter is happy, the flowers and candles in the bridal chamber are relaxed,

Daughter Le, poke a few sticks in.

a mosquito humming

two flies buzzing

After reading it, he laughed and repeated it several times.And also repeated those two words very loudly.At this time, other people in the dormitory came in, and when they heard the sound, they rushed to see it.Only then did I feel relieved.I wonder why this guy keeps getting on me.

I found that he had a drive that would never stop tearing me down.This guy, I thought he was a rich boy, but I didn't expect that he was the first in the class after the first monthly exam, especially in English and science, he was very good.It's exhausting to be with such a smart person.

In the afternoon, Uncle Tianming kept appearing in my mind, whether it was in the classroom or the cafeteria, even if I was alone, I would never feel lonely.I wonder if I will feel very lonely if I leave this place one day?I went to the classroom alone, there were not many people studying by myself, and I was alone in the corner. I always felt that I had to write something today.But I am afraid that what I write will be seen by others.But if I don't write, I am afraid that today's things will become blurred with the passage of time.Finally, I took out a few pieces of straw paper and wrote long words on the white pages.There was a burst of relief in my heart.In the evening, it began to rain with a tick-tick sound, and I thought that Uncle Tianming must be watching his favorite football game at home right now.Sit on a soft sofa.

I picked up my phone and sent him a text message: "What are you doing? It's raining heavily outside, how are you feeling?"

"I'm in a great mood at home, how about you? Just tell me if you have something to say."

"It's okay, you know me too, I'll tell you straight if I have something to say"

"Oh, that means you miss me?" I was startled, no matter how Uncle Tianming said it, he still said the same thing.

"No, I'm going to be busy"

"Think about it, think about others and don't break the law"

Just when I was chatting very happily, the guy from my hometown snatched my mobile phone from behind and said, "Who did I chat with, so happy."I got up and ran after him, but he ran faster than him.

"Ah, Tianming? The name is very attractive. This guy is usually honest and easygoing. He fell in love with him not long after he came here."

"Who, who is dating?" At this time, the lower berth also came to join in the fun.

"Qingxing, his partner is Tianming"

"Ah, is that so? Tell me, where did you do it? Is it beautiful? Do you have any photos?" I thought that this was a serious matter, and these guys asked one after another.I put my phone in my pocket and said, "No, no, no".

"Let's talk about it, what era is it, and you're still so conservative" Conservative, I suddenly thought, it would be great if the person I think in my heart can let others know.The guy who was sleeping across from me came over and said, "Don't be filthy, other people have other ways, you guys who are so hungry and thirsty all day long, go out with me this week, and I'll take my wife You do it."

The guy sleeping across from me left school for a while before, and later went to Fujian to work in the underworld, and was imprisoned. It may be that the thing under him is big, and he is very good at chasing girls.The number of girls around him is astonishing.There are high school students, social ones, college students.Usually when he goes out with us, he will take the girls from his class with him.

Once again he told us that he went out and stayed in a hotel with that girl. The girl said she was still studying and would not let him do it. In the end, he still failed and made people in the dormitory laugh.

On the weekend, Uncle Tianming asked me if I wanted to go out for a walk. I said I had stayed in school for four or five days, so of course I had to go out for a walk.He said he was too, and that if he didn't go out for a walk, he would get fatter and fatter.It's not very interesting to go out alone, so you can take me to Wanfenglin to have a look.There is also Wanfo Temple.In the end, I chose to go directly to Wanfo Temple.

I originally wanted him to wait for me in the city and then take the bus together, but he insisted on coming to our school and going there with me.After I made the phone call, I handed the leave form to the guard and came out. When I arrived at the party school, it was still empty. I thought Tian Mingshu must have something to do and got stuck on the way.I was holding the phone and was about to go to the car when I suddenly heard the beeping of a car behind me. I looked back at a small car, the window was opened, and Uncle Tianming got out.

"I said that you refused to meet in the city, so it turns out that you have grown two legs."Uncle Tianming smiled.opened the door for me.

"Then, your family, they won't go out with you?"

"You said, my son and my wife? They are rarely at home. I don't know if they can stay at home for two days a year?" I thought to myself, no, I don't stay at home for two days a year.Are you not lonely?And isn't their relationship good?The more I thought about it, the more I wanted to know about him, but I didn't dare to ask any further.I think if Uncle Tianming wanted me to know, he would definitely say it, and if he didn't say it, he must have his reasons.

"What do you think?"

"No, I'm thinking about it again." I suddenly didn't know what excuse to make, and then said, "I was wondering if we will have something to eat when we get there."

"Ah, you reminded me, I'll be there later to buy."I suddenly felt very uncomfortable. He was with me before, although the expensive clothes were as brand new as if he had just bought them, but now in his car, I always feel that the distance between me and him is getting farther and farther away. up.

"When the busy period is over, and when my wife finishes the busy period, she will be able to go home often. The reason for not going home now is to go home often in the future."

"Then you are home alone"

"It's pretty good. I've been alone for so many years. It doesn't matter if it's a day or two, or a year or two."

Uncle Tianming drove the car to a restaurant on the side of the road. I saw the sign on it, Dog Meat Restaurant, and later bought some chicken, and some noodles. I don't eat much lean meat, and I have constipation all over my body.

"No matter where I go, I can't lack this kind of food. I can bear my heart's discomfort, and I can resist my body's discomfort. But if my stomach is uncomfortable, I can't bear it. I can't resist it, and I still have insomnia."I think it's exciting to mention eating Uncle Tianming.I looked at his swollen belly and neck, and suddenly felt that his words were funny, so I couldn't help laughing out loud.

"Your mouth, it's your mouth that suffers the most?"

"what happened?"

"Look at you, just eating, I'm afraid it's enough for my tuition fees for one or two years, don't you think it's a loss? It's a loss, it's a loss, and it's a loss just by eating."

"If you are with me, you will be eaten into a fat man within a year"

"What about your son? He must be fatter than you"

"Him? Forget it, let's not talk about him. It just so happens that there is a photo studio here. We have known each other for so long. Do you want to take a photo?"

"Ah, take a photo? Yes, yes."

"You see that you are so happy, let's go, are you so happy to take this picture?" I think maybe it's just a whim for you to take this picture, or it's just something you just happened to do, it's as easy as lifting your feet to do it Things, but for me, are too rare. If I was in Anshun, even one photo would turn my sky blue.

When we arrived at Wanfo Temple, the rape blossoms were in full bloom and the wheat was green.Uncle Tianming parked the car on the side of the road and we went up the long stone ladder to the Buddha. The temple in the cave was very clean and quiet, and there were large merit boxes on both sides.I don't know where the music came from, which made people feel peaceful.

The lyrics sang:

Sarira is the empty phase of all dharmas, neither born nor destroyed, neither dirty nor clean, neither increasing nor decreasing.

Uncle, you said that there is no birth and no death, I still understand that there is no dirt and no cleanness, how do you explain it?People want to go to clean places and avoid unclean things, so how come they are not dirty?

"I haven't studied this before. Immortality probably means that people can only be reborn after death, and people can only be clean after experiencing filth."

"Then no increase, no decrease?"

"Well, probably, when a person is alive, no matter what he has done in his lifetime, glorious, shameful, regretful, or unfinished, it will disappear at the moment of death, isn't it also neither increasing nor decreasing? In short, I If you haven’t studied it, then you have an old monk and you can ask him, even if I am your god, I still have something I don’t understand.”

"Yes, in a person's life, no matter what happens at the moment of death, some people live their whole life for others, but others don't know it. Some people live only to show others, even what they need He didn’t even dare to tell others. Then what is he still doing alive? Just to repay the kindness of his parents for raising him?”

"Qing Xing, hey, let's go down the mountain, I think you may jump from here if you stay here for a minute longer, why do you suddenly become so deep? Some things are hard to figure out, it's best not to think about it It, for example, has been asked by many people from ancient times to the present, what is the meaning of life, is there an answer?"

When we arrived at the foot of the mountain, Uncle Tianming took the lunch box and walked deep into the wheat field. The white clouds in the sky covered the sun for a while, and then dispersed again, and the wind blew the wheat gently dancing in the field.

Uncle Tianming said while eating: "There is something that I didn't intend to tell you at first, but I thought about it later, anyway, you have to know sooner or later, and besides, it's so far away, just don't think about it. See if your kid is strong enough inside."

"What a big deal, if something needs to be accepted earlier, or must be accepted, then you can't escape even if you want to."

Uncle Tianming took a sip of water, I thought to myself what could be the matter that made him so cautious, could it be that he found out about me?Or he found my heart for him.No, I have always been like this to him.

"There was an accident in your family. It happened very early. The last time I went back, it was one thing to say that your elder brother was dead. There was another thing. Your father, after you left, he went to the timber business and found a young woman. The man was discovered by your mother, and your mother found many women in the village and beat them up. The other family demanded a compensation of [-] yuan, and your father borrowed usurious loans."

"One hundred thousand?"

"Yes, your family can't get rid of it now. With the combination of debts of favor and usury, there will be debtors in the family every day. There was a divorce some time ago, but now there are no more."

"He is too normal, and he did such a thing just because he is too normal." I thought at first, maybe I can only spend the rest of my life in loneliness.No matter how hard they are, they are still two people, no matter how poor they are, they have never been hungry.They want to commit crimes after living in an ordinary life for a long time.

"You boy, why aren't you surprised at all?"

"It's not that I'm not surprised. I think it will happen sooner or later. It's just my feeling that something will happen sooner or later. In our family, the eldest son born to my second grandmother, who is also my uncle, has children after he fucks his wife's sister." In the end, the family was sold to Wuhan. My third uncle heard that he was drilling cornfields with women in the village, and his relationship with her was rumored by the people in the village. People sleep in the bamboo forest at night, now, it's my dad's turn."

"The people in your family are so strange"

"It's so normal. They spend their whole lives guarding their own wives, and they feel a little bit unwilling. Anyway, I'm old now, so I don't want to study anymore. I will go out to work and support myself in the future."I thought to myself that if I let them live in my life for a day, they will know how happy they are.

"The family must not have sent you money recently."

"Eating is at school. When I come out, I just buy some books and spend some money on the bus. Sometimes the food in the cafeteria is not good. I will buy instant noodles at night and pay some phone bills. It doesn't cost much."

"Then you can't have nothing on your body, just in case something urgent or bad happens."

"No more, last time I asked them to call, they called for two weeks, and finally, finally, they called me [-], and they stopped calling."

"Fifty? Not enough for two days' meals"

“You can eat instant noodles for days”

"Is the food in your school even worse than instant noodles?"

"Very bad, the students are still eating"

"What about you? That's all?"

"Me? No, the guy in my dormitory's father works in the cafeteria, and I have a good relationship with him, so,,,"

"Okay, I'm going back. It made me worry for a long time. I thought you would not be able to bear it. It seems that you are much stronger than before."

"This is not a problem at all. I will pretend not to know about their affairs. As for how they will see their own good fortune in the future, I can only pity my mother. I hope she can overcome this setback."

When I was about to get to school, Uncle Tianming gave me 200 yuan. When I refused, he said that if I really don't want to accept it, I can save it. I may not be here someday, so I can pay him back together.I got out of the car and watched his car go far away until I couldn't see it. I saw a white cloud floating above his car, and that white cloud had been following him.look at him.