There is a sick girl before and a ghost after

I am guilty.

Growing up as a tool, I don't know what the correct view of good and evil is, and how to communicate with people correctly, because a tool doesn't need to have its own thoughts, as long as it is sharp enough and strong enough.In the same way, I cannot have my own friends, relatives, or lovers, because it is enough for a tool to have an owner.

But I don't want to be someone else's tool.Since I am not as strong as me, why should I obey another person unconditionally?I'd rather kill someone who tries to control me than protect me.

But I need a chance, a chance to escape from Yupei's imprisonment.

When I saw the boy break into my cabin unsuspecting, I knew the opportunity I had been waiting for had arrived.A child who doesn't understand anything is easy to manipulate. As long as he is allowed to tear off the seal of the Vientiane Huanpei and get his initial approval, it is equivalent to controlling half of me and the Huanpei. I can also get out of this sealed house out.

After that, the child will die, no matter whether he is killed by me or someone who finds out about it, the result will be the same.What is there to care about?My purpose is just to get out of this place, and it's not a big deal to die a person.

Such a stupid and ridiculous idea has brought me extremely severe retribution, and it has also made me bear the guilt forever.

That kid was different from the ones who broke in before, he wasn't afraid of me, he would play with me, he would teach me strange games, he would worry about a small wound on me.

I guess I kind of regret it, but I didn't realize it at the time.I still proceeded with the plan, but I didn't leave immediately after tearing off the jade pendant's seal, but continued to accompany the child greedily.

People from Qian's family came, and the child took my hand and led me out. His hand was smaller than mine, but it was very warm.I find it very strange, this is the first time someone tried to protect me, obviously the other party is much weaker than me.

I was addicted to this strange feeling, and I was immersed in this feeling until suddenly someone pulled me by the collar.

The scene I saw in front of me when I came back to my senses was the nightmare of my life.

The child jumped forward to protect me again, but he was stabbed in the heart by the Qianjia people with a knife.

According to the plan, the recognized master died, and I have regained my freedom. At this time, I should leave immediately.

But I regret it, I don't want him to die, I still want to stay with him, I want him to be my master and be with me forever, I want to protect him with my life.

It was I who killed him. If I had let him leave here before, or had taken him with me immediately after tearing off the seal, then he wouldn't have fallen to the ground like now, and his body was getting colder and colder.

It was the first time I cried, and it was also the first time I knew that death was such a frightening existence.

Those people didn't respond, maybe they thought that after this, I would obediently go back with them and continue to be a tool to be cultivated.

So I kill them all.I want to save my master, this is the first time I have such a strong will, so I do it.

The master is still not dead in the end, but he needs the connection with the Vientiane ring pendant to maintain his life, so I can't let anyone in Qianjia have this jade pendant.I made other remedies, but these can only be maintained until the owner is 23 years old. After the deadline, it is no longer possible to hide the fact that the soul is incomplete, and it will attract evil spirits.

So before that I have to find the master.

In order to solve my worries, I lied that the master died, and the five people died after offending the ghost tree on the mountain. I reattached the invalid seal and stayed in Qianjia.

11 years later, I killed everyone in the Qian family, except the eldest son who survived because of going out.

I want to see my master, think about going crazy, and at the same time, I hate myself for doing that kind of thing.I should kill myself to complete my master's soul, but before that, I want to at least see him again.

When I came to a place where people from the outside world lived, I was very unfamiliar with everything, because I had never been in contact with the outside world before, and I had no concept of money, so I wasted a lot of time on self-improvement. Fortunately, the results seemed to be pretty good.

I know that the master will not remember what happened at that time, so in order to meet again, I tried my best to make myself look like an ordinary person, rather than a dull and cold mechanical existence.

Although more than ten years have passed, when I saw it again, the owner was still as warm as before, which made me even more addicted.

I didn't tell my master the details of the year, because if the master looked at me with disappointment and bored eyes, maybe I would fall into complete madness due to despair.

Because I hope that I belong to the owner completely, I really hate physical contact with other people. After all, personal items will not be shared with others.Also I don't like anyone who comes in contact with the master, I want to kill those people but the master will get angry so I can't do anything.

I am an unqualified tool.

I still exposed my inner darkness in front of the master.If possible, I hope that the master can only see me forever, and only my shadow is reflected in the eyes, but the master is unwilling, so I can't do this.I thought the master would kill me in disappointment, but the master put the knife on his own neck.

At that time, I was so scared that my mind was blank, and I was once again seen by the master in such an ugly state.

The master's hug, the master's kiss, the master's entry, these are more addictive than drugs.

But it was a sinner who had killed his master who was being treated like this. I was more and more intoxicated by this, and I hated myself more and more.

Humans are greedy.

The master still knows everything before.I know that the longer the time passes, the more likely the owner will remember it, but I still dare not say that it was all because of my stupid idea.The master seemed to have been hit hard, but he still didn't blame me, and quickly regained his spirits.

I was an unqualified tool, and I failed to fully surrender and confess. Too many actions included my personal selfishness.My selfishness puts the master's safety and quality of life first, and the closeness to the master on this basis.But in fact, I should give priority to the master's will.

Regarding our relationship, the master should not be responsible for this. If there is a reprimand, then the target should also be me.I knelt down in front of the master's parents and said a lot, but none of these words could express one percent of my crush on the master.

How can ants express their yearning for the world?

My life may end at any moment, I shouldn't say those words to the master's parents, I shouldn't even let them know that I exist, but I can't seem to control myself.

Actually, I deserved to die.If it weren't for my mistakes back then, the master could have lived a stable life like an ordinary person, without having to face ghosts, running and fleeing for his own life, or seeing all kinds of frightening things.Since my death can be exchanged for the peace that the master likes, I can only be happy about it.

So if the owner didn't ask, I don't intend to say that kind of solution.But the master still asked, the master valued my life, and when I realized this again, I didn't know how to describe my mood.

I am not dead after all.

Up to now, I almost can't remember my original appearance. It seems that I was not willing to protect anyone at that time, and I also never valued anyone or anything.And now the master is the only meaning of my existence.

Although I will not deceive the master, I will never take the initiative to tell the master these dark thoughts without being asked.Whether the owner cares or not, I always hope that I can establish a better image.

I am burdened with guilt that can never be erased.

The author has something to say:

I just asked casually, does anyone really want to watch the side story of the puppet girl and the general_(:з」∠)_

Looking at the smell of dog blood rushing towards the face, one should also guess what kind of love and hatred it is ↓ "I heard that the man is stupid, for the sake of the emperor, I will just go and have a look."

"Huh, it seems a little cute and handsome?"

"Male god, you are so cute, marry me! Otherwise, I will marry you~(≧▽≦)/~Don't worry about my brother, he won't accept my rebellion and show him."

General: "(⊙_⊙)?" I was so scared that I hurried to die

"Husband got lunch QAQ I don't want to live QAQ still be an egg man QAQ"

Emperor: "Damn retarded."