i don't think i will love you

When I went to participate in the dance association forum, I saw my mother who hadn’t seen me for seven years at the venue. She immediately turned black when she saw me. Many old artists were present, and everyone sat with my mother and chatted. There was a stalemate A few minutes later, I walked up to her and called out to my mother, but she didn't respond and continued to chat with the partners around me.

As a new representative, I was the first to stand up and speak. When the words fell to the ground, I heard a snort from my nose. The relationship between me and my mother began to deteriorate as early as when I decided to be with Ruobing, until I was out of her control. After falling apart.In the eyes of my mother, who has not returned or even heard from me for seven years, I may not be as close to her as her disciples.

After the discussion in the morning, everyone went to the cafeteria on the first floor to have lunch in small groups. When my mother walked by me, she said: "My students know more than you." Looking at her proud back, I smiled helplessly. My mother is always so proud and strong. She entered the elevator and went downstairs with the people around her. In the elevator, Ruo Bing stood with the three girls, and it was very easy for them to whisper and laugh.

After a hasty lunch, I turned around and went upstairs to my room. The environment of the hotel was nice and comfortable. I took a magazine and sat on the single sofa by the window to read casually.I don't know if the hotel is a magazine specially prepared for this Dancers Association Forum. There are a total of 48 pages of the magazine, and each page is printed with the biographies of the dancers' careers.

The cover is the beautiful photo of my mother. When I read page by page, Ruo Bing’s magnified delicate face appeared in my sight. I gently stroked the smooth paper with my fingers, and the text under the photo was stung. my eyes.

It is written in the text, may I ask Ruobing, why did you choose to stay away from the dance circle, and why did you come back after three years of silence.

At the beginning I loved the wrong person and hurt myself, then I met the right person, so I came back to life.

Excuse me, do you hate her?

I should be grateful to her, because without her, I wouldn't have progressed on the road of dancing again.

If she says hate, I will at least comfort myself and tell myself that she still cares about me, but if she says she doesn't hate, it means that I have become the past in her life.

There is a good saying, what you miss can never be recovered, even if you find it, it will no longer be the sweet taste of the past.The corners of the mouth sank slightly when I closed the magazine. What's ridiculous is that my photo and name appeared on the next page. The title on it said, Daughter of the famous dancer Wu Yu, Wen Wuyou.

No matter where the crowd gathers, it is nothing more than getting to know each other, staying in touch, and looking forward to cooperation, a few things.During the free discussion in the afternoon, I handed out the business cards I just printed to each of the seniors present, and they accepted me politely. Promising, your mother did not train you in vain, and come to my place with your mother when you have time in the future."

When I walked to my mother's seat, I bent down and put the business card next to her tea cup and said respectfully: "Mom, this is my business card, and my mobile phone number is on it. Just call me if you have anything to do." I said it politely, but thinking about it at the time, I couldn't think of any more suitable topic to talk about. I just sent my business card according to my original plan, and then contacted a few dancers who have been gaining momentum recently and a few respected people. dancer.

In the middle of the night, everyone was free to move around. Standing on the broad coast, a group of young men and women played beach volleyball wildly on the left, and elderly artists were lying on chairs and chatting comfortably on the right.Looking back at the wide blue sea, he turned his back to the sea and walked towards the hotel with his feet without shoes on. The fine sand was left between his toes, which was itchy but not uncomfortable or disgusting.

The two-day forum ended quickly and we went back together at the airport. I sat in the waiting area with a small suitcase and looked at the airport outside the glass in a daze, with uninterrupted laughter behind me.

"This is good, do you want to buy one too?"

"OK"

"I said, you don't sleep at night and get tired of it every day. You still let people live, and you just miss it like this after staying for a day. If it's three or five days, she won't be able to fly over to accompany you."

"Why, you are envious, you should look for it yourself, Ruobing is so charming, no matter men or women, you can be fascinated by it."

"Oh, I'll go, she's the only one, it's all an illusion. If outsiders know that she looks like a woman, they won't be able to spit out a mouthful of old blood."

"Hehe, why, we are loved by someone."

"Yes, there are indeed people with bad brains, and she met them all."

I also know one of the companions who are with Ruobing. We used to be classmates and good friends, but when she saw me seven years later, she automatically chose to block me and pretended not to know me. stranger.

I really want to go back and see the way she joked with her friends, I really want to see her crooked eyes when she smiles, I really want to see her smiling face, but I know that I am just a passerby now, it is impossible Walking into her life and life.

When I boarded the plane, I went in last, and my seat was not close to my mother and her, so that they would not find me peeping.I think maybe I made the wrong choice. Would it be better if I chose to stay at the beginning, but if I do it all over again, I think I will still make the same decision, leave, must leave.

"Wen Wuyou, you are nothing if you leave me. If you want to be independent, get out of here. Once you get out of this house, don't come back. Go your own way in the future. If you don't listen to advice If you want to be with that Ji Ruobing, don't blame me for going all out."

Even if I didn't like me, I never disobeyed my mother since I was a child. Only that time I let my mother down. She listened to me angrily and said: "I never liked to dance, never wanted to practice dance, and never I thought about becoming some kind of dancer, I don’t like dancing, I don’t love it.” She listened to me angrily and said, “Mom, I love Ruobing, please help us, please leave a way for us to survive. I beg you Don't break her way, dancing is her life, her favorite thing, I beg you, don't make things difficult for her, okay?"

When the plane landed, I dragged my suitcase back to the dance troupe. When I entered the door, Hui Wen stepped forward to take the suitcase in my hand and said to me as she walked in: "Luo Bin promised to come to our troupe, but the commission is not Low, what do you plan to do. There is also an invitation letter sent by the city TV station to hold a party, do you want to go or not?"

"I don't have that much cash in my hand. You can ask him if he can pay him when he has money in the future. Please reply me to the TV station's invitation and say that I will come over."

"Okay, you go to the TV station to report at [-] o'clock tomorrow afternoon, and I have to tell you in advance that this is not a solo dance, and you may not be the lead dancer. It’s the first time it’s changed to a pas de deux, so it’s fine if you don’t have a mental gap.”

"No, I'll go to rest first, you go and get busy." Entering the office and locking the door, this circle is said to be big or small, and it will happen sooner or later. Since I decided to come back, I will do it well In order to prepare to face again, I turned out the clothes in the box, then put the clothes to be washed in the plastic basin, bent down to pick up the big basin, and went to the water room to wash it carefully.

The children in the group saw me standing under the sink washing clothes. After saying hello, they went to do their own things. After washing the clothes, they went back to the room and took down the hangers, and hung up the washed clothes and pants one by one. On a string tied over the head of a small balcony.

Lying on the bed in the dark, I unfolded the somewhat irregular paper I had torn. Under the moonlight, Ruo Bing’s smile was so yearning, and the thin paper was pressed tightly to the chest, and the violent heart beat indicated that I still have perception, haven't been completely hypnotized by myself, haven't been finally overwhelmed by time.

One night without dreams I got up early the next day to practice. I arrived at the rehearsal hall on time according to the time notified by the TV station. When I arrived at the scene, Ruo Bing had already started discussing dance with the choreographer. I was taken by the choreographer to meet the director. and other staff.

"Wuyou, this is Ruobing, let's get acquainted with each other first, then let's start working."

"Oh, good."

Then the director asked me to sit with Ruo Bing and wait for a while, and said that when the supporting dancers arrived, let the two of us go over. After the director left, Ruo Bing and I sat down on the left and right. At first, neither of us spoke. After speaking, she was the first to break the silence and said: "Since we are all back, we should go home and explain to Auntie to ease our feelings."

"Wait after a while, my mother is not an easy talker, I have to prepare in advance."

"Are you still used to everything after you come back? It's not as comfortable at home as you are outside."

"It's okay, everything's okay."