Saying that a gentleman is as gentle as a jade

Vaguely, she also seemed to sort out some thoughts from Wen Zhuxi's somewhat chaotic timeline.

Although her adoptive parents were only hunters and peasant women, they taught her how to live in the world.

Her mother knows how to read and write, and her mother would teach her every day, and would praise her for her intelligence. Once she learned it, she could even write words so well.

But she always felt that this was not something she was born with, someone must have taught her.

In fact, for a long time she was envious of her mother's beautiful handwriting, but after looking down at her own handwriting, she still didn't want to learn from her mother, and she didn't know why.

But after I got the brocade box and saw the things inside, I realized that there were not many of my own things in it, but I could tell that it was very important to me at the first sight.

That was her intuition for no reason, and she was very glad that she followed her intuition to the court, although everything was not easy.

At that time, her mother would always use her father's example to tell her some truths, no matter how innocent the other party looked, she should be careful.

This is what her mother taught her by the way when her father came back from selling meat on the street one day.

At first she was still a little confused, but later she learned from her mother that it seemed that the old buyer that father had always trusted before was short on the meat he took. Originally, father didn't want to believe it when he heard it, but what happened? This is what my mother said, so I paid attention to it, and this time I weighed it and took it, only to realize that my money was really undercounted by more than a star and a half. While being wronged, my mother scolded me for a long time, but my father never refuted , almost what the mother said is what.

At the very beginning, my mother would always suffer from some minor illnesses. My mother said that this was the root cause of the disease when I was young, and she never suspected it.

Later, my mother's health deteriorated and she spent more than half a month in bed. Her father treated her like a day for ten years, and she was too tired to look at her every day.

Her father is a good man, but he will always be deceived, no matter what mother says, it is useless, mother may just be worried about her father, so as long as her health is better, she will always follow him to the street, Because she was worried about her mother's health, whenever she went out, she would follow her, but sometimes it seemed to be a kind of suffering to follow the hands holding each other, but it was indeed a kind of happiness. Her father and Mother is really loving.

Every time Dad went out, he would never be stingy with buying things for mother. As long as mother liked it, he would not hesitate even if it took him a month of hunting in exchange for silver taels. What Dad thought about was probably just wanting mother to be happy.

It's just that my mother sometimes blames my father for buying such expensive things, but she also knows that her mother's words are duplicity, because every time she sees her mother, she will carefully wipe and treasure the gifts from her father. , and the smile on her face couldn't be concealed.

It's just that she doesn't know if her father knows about it.

Sometimes she would go out to buy vegetables and food with her father, but for some reason, every time she returned home, her father and mother always told her that the vegetable prices were higher than the actual vegetable prices.

At that time, my mother would start rambling about Daddy, always reminding him but never remembering.

At that time, she didn't know why her father did this, she only knew that when her father was sitting by the bed and being scolded by her mother, she was still in a good mood, the corners of his mouth were raised, his eyes were crooked, and he looked simple and honest .

So much so that my mother didn't know what to say after she said it, after all, she didn't reach out to hit the smiling face.

Especially every time my mother finished speaking, my father would coax me a little bit, saying every time I would not do it next time, but every time I would ask my mother to say a few more words next time.

Asking why Dad said that, Dad just shook his head and didn't answer her, but the happiness in his eyes was conveyed to her.

She seemed to be able to understand a little bit, maybe Dad just wanted to listen to what Mom had to say.

She actually likes this kind of life very much, hunting and chopping firewood with her father, chatting with her mother, and listening to her mother tell some embarrassing things about her father.

Every time Mother talked about Daddy, her tone was always high. She was obviously weak, but she couldn't hide her joy.

Daddy always listened quietly at the side, letting mother tease him, and finally he would look at daddy and ask him if it was true, and daddy would look at mother, and then he would touch her head and tell her: your mother It's all true.

Later, my mother would tell her secretly that sometimes she would add fuel to the picture, obviously my father was very helpless, but he never refuted.

When talking about Daddy, Mother's eyes always seem to be full of starlight, shining with something she doesn't know yet.

Later, when she grew up, she began to understand that maybe it was affection.

Because the two love each other, that's why they are infinitely tolerant towards each other, they are able to care about each other's everything, and when they look at each other, their eyes reveal emotions that cannot be restrained...

It is precisely because the fetters are too deep and the feelings are too strong, that after the yin and yang are separated, they can no longer cheer up.

Even though they knew that mother's health was not good, the two of them still stayed up all night on the night of mother's death. They didn't want to believe that the person who was talking softly about the past yesterday would leave so suddenly.

She always remembered the last sentence her mother said: If you still want to hear it, then mother will tell you again tomorrow.

It's just that tomorrow never came.

She couldn't accept it, but she had to face it.

It's just that her father is unwilling to accept or face it.

In the past few days, Dad hadn't had a drop of water or eaten a grain of rice. The originally strong man had also lost weight at a speed visible to the naked eye.

She couldn't believe it, the person in front of her had a sallow complexion, black bags under the eyes and sunken eye sockets, thick bloodshot eyes, a face covered with stubble, and thick black hair that had already turned white. Still her strong father.

When he saw her, Dad forced a smile, but his chapped lips were bloodstained because he didn't drink water for a long time.

This may be the first time she really understands a word - heart like ashes.

She saw the man holding her mother's spirit card, and slowly lowered her head, and then she didn't know whether she was talking to her or muttering to herself, when a dry and hoarse voice sounded, "I, actually, can I talk to her?" If we stay together, we should be satisfied. She and I should be regarded as childhood sweethearts. When I was young, I fell into the water accidentally, and she rescued me ashore, because it was winter, and she had menstruation at that time, and she fell seriously ill. I have been taking medicine, but no matter how much I take medicine, I can’t keep my body healthy. Later, it was also because of this reason that it affected my fertility. At the beginning, my family asked me to marry another because she couldn’t give birth, but I didn’t want her to suffer this grievance. It is me who got the source, why should she bear it... I know that the succession of the family is a big deal, but I don't want to delay another woman because of the succession of the family, and I don't want to let her go because of it. I know I am selfish, but I don't want to Regardless of that, so what about my son-in-law, I don't care, she is the only one I want, I don't care about family property and status... It turns out that she always accompanied me to be self-willed, but she compromised that time, and she asked me to marry another She's human, she said she doesn't care that there will be another woman by my side, she said she doesn't care..." As she spoke, she seemed to see a drop of water dripping on the mother's spirit card, sliding along the border, seeping into the In Dad's sleeve.

The trembling voice went on to say: "I know she is for me, I saw that the palms of her clenched palms have been embedded with nails, I don't want her to suffer a little bit of grievance, not at all, so even if it requires me to exchange everything for me Also willing, I know my father must be very disappointed at that time, I did such a thing for a woman, but she is my first wife, I want to spend the rest of my life with her, and I only want to join hands with her, so I I took her to elope to the outskirts, hunting and growing vegetables by myself. Although the life was poor, she was satisfied in her heart. She never complained to me, but such a hard life made her health worse and worse. Sometimes I regret it, but whenever she sees me lost, she will always say that she is happy every day with me...why am I not...she said she wants to accompany me in her limited life In the end, she said that as long as she was with me, she was willing to endure hardships. She said that what she wanted to see most every day was that I ate the food she cooked. It tastes delicious, and I know that she made it for me with all her heart; before she married me, she was also ignorant, but for me, she learned everything, I know, but I also feel sorry... ..."

As if remembering something, her voice became a little more energetic, "I've never praised her for being beautiful in person, but in my heart, there is no one more beautiful than her, and I can't tolerate other people... especially when I come back every day. I can see her smiling at me, and I feel that all the fatigue of the day is gone; she once blamed herself for dragging me down with her body, but she forgot that her body became like this entirely because of me ;I used to think that maybe if I worked harder, I would be able to shut up other people's mouths no matter whether I had children or not, but I was really naive, and the inheritance of children was too important to them; I had no choice but to escape and take her with me At the same time, she once persuaded me, after all, the position of head of the family is at your fingertips, but after I made a firm statement, she still agreed... I knew that no matter how messed up I was, she would be willing to accompany me." Recalling my mother Little by little, the hunched man seemed to have gained some energy.

The man was panting intermittently, and seemed to put a lot of effort into each sentence, "Every time she buys vegetables, she knows that I am expensive again, and she always talks about me, but I just want to listen to her, But she is not in good health, and she may fall asleep every time she talks. Only at this time will she talk so much, even if she said those few words every time, I would like to listen. I think Talk to her more, and I want to listen to her more. I don’t know how long I can hear her voice and how long I can be with her. Every time I go out, I’m not very relieved, but later, you will always take care of you for me Mother, maybe God knows that we cannot have offspring, so we met you, I am very glad that someone can talk to her and take care of her when I am not around..." He raised his red eyes and looked It took her a while before she could utter a few words, "Thank you."

She was about to say something, but a choked voice interrupted her thinking, "I originally wanted to buy a hairpin for her with the money I saved secretly. I have been married for so many years. At that time, because I was busy, I didn't have that kind of leisure time. But when I came here, I don't have enough money, now I have saved enough money and bought the most suitable hairpin for her, but she is gone... In the end, I can't give her anything." Holding the spirit card, he held the hairpin in one hand, The hairpin is wrapped around the whole hand to make it less conspicuous, and the white knuckles reveal how unwilling the other party is, "Obviously the hairpin is in her hand, but she can't put it on herself; she has a child, but she can't Walk with me; obviously she is still so young, obviously she promised to be together forever, obviously she promised me that she would not leave me..."

She looked at the haggard man, and said hesitantly, "Actually...Mother probably knows." Seeing the surprise in the man's eyes, she continued, "Every time Mother finishes talking about Daddy, When punishing daddy to go out to chop wood, he would always say that daddy would never lie when he first met him, and he would pull his clothes with his fingers when he lied. Mother knew that daddy just wanted to talk to her, so every time he stood up and scolded him no matter what Mother said that she was getting tired of talking about it, but father still listened to it over and over again; mother also said that every time father went to town, he would ask the owner of the jewelry store to keep the hairpin, and mother said that the boss Every time I saw her, I would complain to her, but my mother knew that my father just wanted to surprise my mother, so my mother never said anything; my mother actually saved everything my father gave me, and every time my father went out , Mother will always show me, always tell me, when father gave it to mother, mother also remembers all of it; mother always says that the luckiest thing in her life is to meet father, mother My mother said that she never felt how hard life was, because her father always accommodated her... Mother also said that if there is another life, she still wants to be with her father..." At the end of the talk, something blocked her throat He stopped, but couldn't say a word, and the man in front of him was already sobbing.

Obviously he is a majestic seven-foot man, and he always told himself that tears should not be flicked lightly, and that he can cut down a thick tree with a few axes, but he is crying helplessly at this moment.

She knew that her father needed to vent like this, and she would not stop her, but watched her father cry from dawn to dusk, and when the tears dried up, he held her mother's spirit card blankly, with empty eyes, like It is the thoughts that have gone away with the mother.

Another day of no water.

Dad called her to him, looked at her for a long time, and then said, "It's really impossible for me to leave her, these few days are really too long, I often feel that she is still by my side, but when I turn around, there is no A little shadow, I really want to find her, maybe I will be able to find her soon. Now that you are grown up, if you say you want to go to the capital to catch the exam, then go, your mother saved it for you in the cabinet The money you paid, and the things you carried when you brought you back. Daddy knows that you can take care of yourself, but your mother... I have been with your mother for a lifetime. She is weak and weak on weekdays, and she can only bully Bullying me, now that she is leaving alone, how can I rest assured..." Dad coughed a few times, his already hoarse voice became even deeper, and it was a bit difficult to distinguish what he said, "You go to the town Help dad buy something, dad wants to stay with your mother for a while."

She was already sensible, and she had a premonition in her heart that this time she left, it should be the last time she saw her father.

Deeply remembering this person who seemed to have lost her soul, she was grateful to them for taking her in and raising her, envied their feelings that they were not afraid of life and death, and missed their care for her.

Just thinking about it made her eyes turn red, and she nodded stiffly.

She didn't go to town, she just sat not far from home and let herself go.

In the past, she liked this place very much. While calming herself, she could also think about what her lost memory was about, although every time she recalled it, she always ended in failure.

But now, even if the surroundings are silent, she can't feel at ease.

There are dandelions growing by the river in the distance, she knows, because her favorite thing to do every year is to blow away those clumped pompoms.

At this time, she is unwilling to do this anymore, okay, why should they separate.

He got up and walked to the river, squatted down, looked at the dandelion in front of him, and subconsciously stretched out his hand.

But before it touched it, the breeze blew, the water rippled, and the snow-white pompon was blown away by the wind and flew to the distance.

After being stunned for a moment, he felt relieved again.

She may have really forgotten that the fluffy seeds are the continuation of life.

They left, but were reborn in unknown corners.

All daze disappears.

She never believed in the past and present, and she actually prayed that her father and mother would meet and love each other again in the next life, hoping that they would not have so many obstacles in the next life.

Watching the afterglow of the setting sun shine on the thatched cottage where I have lived for so many years.

She seemed to be able to see her father and mother, holding hands and leaving along the light beam.

Going back to the house and lighting the candles, she looked at the ease on her father's face and the familiar curve of her mouth. Presumably, her father must have seen her mother before leaving, so he would be happy even in the face of death.

She has always felt that way, even now.

She has already accepted such an ending, and she will no longer feel sad for their departure, because she knows that they are together no matter what.