Saying that a gentleman is as gentle as a jade

Yan Yihua looked at the candied haws in her hand, and then raised her head to look at the other person. She never thought that she would still be thinking about herself at such a time. She thought selfishly, if in this deep palace, there would be such a person It doesn't seem bad to stay with me all the time.

But this kind of thought is just a flash, after all, I can't be so selfish and hurt others.

As soon as he thought that the other party might suffer something that he shouldn't have suffered because of himself, he suddenly made up his mind.

He took a deep breath, sighed again, and spoke after making sufficient mental preparations, "Actually, you don't have to come here again."

She herself is not sure whether she is a dull person or not, but this time she can completely see Yan Yihua's disobedience.

After watching Yan Yinghua quietly for a while, she asked, "Why?"

"There's no reason, I just think it's good to be alone." If I tell the other party that I am worried about her, maybe she will continue to visit me regardless of her safety.

Keeping looking at Yan Yinghua, she naturally saw the unconcealable loneliness on her face and hid it in her heart.

When Yan Yanhua hugged her just now, the temperature on her body might have been so low because she had been waiting for her outside, but since Yan Yanhua has said so, she can't refute the other side too much, so she simply responded, " I see."

Seeing that this person actually agreed in this way, Yan Yihua felt more and more depressed. It seems that she didn't want to be with her that much...

Obviously, when I said such words, I had already thought about the ending, but no matter what I thought at the time, once it really happened, my emotions would still be out of control, and my heart would still be uncontrollably sad.

It seemed that they could clearly feel the loss of strength from their bodies, and even the candied haws in their hands almost fell off.

Fortunately, the person opposite had quick eyesight and quick hands, and took Yan Yanhua's hand, allowing the bunch of candied haws to stand up firmly again.

The warm temperature on the back of her hand brought Yan Yihua back to reality, she raised her head to look at the other party, and the concern in the other party's eyes was undoubtedly revealed to her.

Even if this person is the person closest to me now, but I won't see you again after tomorrow...

Withdrawing his hand slowly, he issued an order to chase away the guests, "Go back quickly, you don't have to come back tomorrow."

He obviously wanted her to be with him, but he couldn't put the other party's safety aside for his own sake.

The man didn't answer, just bowed his hands and bowed before retreating.

It wasn't until the man's figure completely disappeared from her eyes that Yan Yinghua turned her attention to the candied haws in her hand, and took a bite. It was really as the man said, sweet and sour, very delicious.

Obviously, when I ate the candied haws that the maid brought back from outside, I thought it was too sweet, even a little sticky, and the taste was just so-so. At that time, I just tasted it and threw it aside.

What's the matter today... It's still a little salty after eating?

She casually touched the corner of her mouth, it was wet, Yan Yanhua felt a little strange, could she still cry after eating candied haws?

Yan Yanhua laughed at herself, but the tears really couldn't be stopped.

After the mother and concubine were buried, she looked at everything that happened, no matter how depressed she was, she never shed a single tear. The mother and concubine once told her that no one in this deep palace would protect her for the rest of her life, only by herself...

However, relying on myself is really too hard...

The wind blew in the courtyard for a long time, until the tears were dried and my heart gradually calmed down, then I walked slowly back to the bedroom.

The haggard back makes people feel distressed.

I knew that that person would never come again, and I didn't even want to leave the house again.

Leaning on the bed and thinking about everything that happened in the past few days, can I just live like this for the rest of my life?

She is really not reconciled... But with the current she is really helpless.

There is absolutely no way to change the status quo. I can't even see my father's face now, and I don't know other people well. At that time, my mother and concubine told me to look out for someone to make friends with him. If there is anything in the future, someone can Taking care of it, now she finally understands.

It's only too late to realize now.

The door of the room was gently pushed open, maybe the nanny came to deliver lunch again, just now I have been prevaricating to the nanny, now even if I really can't eat, there is no reason to refuse, I sighed and said: "Put it there. "

He heard the sound of things being put down, but did not hear the sound of closing the door and leaving.

I don't want to pay attention to it, and cover myself in the quilt.

"Don't you want to eat?" The familiar voice can be heard clearly even through the quilt.

The voice rang in his ears, Yan Yanhua sat up suddenly, and looked at the person sitting at the table.

It was still the same face, but at this moment he was looking at himself with a smile on his face.

Suddenly her eyes were moist, she didn't care why she came into her room, but said against her will: "Didn't I say that I don't need to come again?" Although I said this, my voice became lower and lower, and I was almost at a loss in the end. Can't hear what she's saying.

It's just that not being able to hear clearly doesn't affect the other party's understanding. She naturally knew what Yan Yanhua wanted to say, "You have said it before, but I have nowhere else to go except you."

He took out a small package with few items from his arms, and forcibly settled down.

Such a tough attitude made Yan Yihua feel at ease, but she still couldn't help asking worriedly, "Are you planning to go back?"

He didn't answer, but started to unpack the small package on his own, just took out all the things inside, and asked himself: "You should have extra bedding here, right? Where is it?"

Although it is a question, it looks like occupying the land is king.

Fortunately, Yan Yihua didn't mind, but actually went to get a new bedding for her in person, and wanted to help her move out and live alone in another house.

Unexpectedly, I was stopped by myself.

"You don't need to change places, I'll just sleep here too." She said it so naturally, but Yan Yanhua was stunned.

It wouldn't be so good if we just shared the same bed like this.

She seemed to know what Yan Yanhua was thinking, and added, "I'll just sleep on the floor." She also heard that Yan Yanhua couldn't sleep well at night, and she didn't want to be accompanied by the nuns, so she made such a decision. The big deal is not to use myself to change places to sleep.

Although she was also a woman, Yan Yihua didn't know about it, and she didn't care, she just thought that Yan Yihua was not used to sleeping with people.

Even if Yan Yihua didn't know that she was a woman, she didn't intend to let her out again.

Even by default.

Yan Yihua is also very clear about her recent state. It's fine when someone is with her, but when they leave, she will find it difficult to fall asleep when she is alone at night. There is no way to relieve it. It's almost light before you can fall asleep.

Try it tonight, maybe someone can accompany me, it will really be better.

Keeping a proper distance, she made her own bed in front of the cabinet where Yan Yihua took out the bedding.

As Yan Yanhua thought, she just wanted to give it a try, if she could really make Yan Yanhua sleep well because of herself, that would be great.

If not, she doesn't care where she sleeps.

After the bed was made, she even lay down and tried it out. After all, the quilt was made of better material, and it was much more comfortable to lie on.

Seeing that Yan Yanhua had been looking at her, she didn't know what she was thinking, she sat up from the bed, looked up at Yan Yanhua who was standing next to her, "If you think it's close, I can move it a little further. "

"It's okay, it's fine like this." Yan Yihua shook her head. To be honest, she even felt that it was a little far away, and this person slept too far away, but she couldn't say anything else.

For some reason, Mingming said that Yanhua didn't say anything, and she didn't show any superfluous expressions, but she could feel that the other party seemed a little wronged.

He stood up, smiled and raised his hand to stroke her hair, without saying anything, just to make her feel at ease.

It's just this kind of behavior that almost made Yan Yihua lose control of her emotions. When the mother concubine was still there, she would often coax herself like this...

Obviously still suppressing my emotions, who knows that the other party hugged me directly, muttering, "I thought you really didn't plan to care about me anymore, if you don't care about me, I can only sleep on the street Well, now I only have you."

Hearing the last sentence, Yan Yanhua really couldn't bear it anymore. She has been holding on for the past few days to prevent herself from collapsing, but now, I'm afraid she really can't bear it to the end.

The hand holding the other party's clothes tightened and tightened, and he relaxed and approached her arms.

After a while, I could feel the sobbing of the person in my arms, but the sound was getting louder and louder.

Probably because I really cried and cried and released it.

He patted Yan Yinghua's back lightly to comfort him.

She didn't know how long she stood there, but she only knew that the skirt of her chest was already wet with tears.

After finally recovering, Yan Yanhua straightened up and saw that the clothes on the other party's chest were wet. She was very embarrassed and said softly with some sobs: "I'm sorry..." It seems that this is the first time she has had a relationship with her since she was born. The person apologized, but if it was with the person opposite, she didn't mind.

She patted Yan Yanhua's back lightly, shook her head with a smile, she didn't mind such trivial matters, as long as Yan Yanhua's mood could be relieved a little, it didn't matter if she got soaked.

He opened his mouth to call out the other person's name, but suddenly realized that he didn't even know her name until now, "What's your name? We've known each other for so long, and you never told me your name."

"I don't have a name." The surprising words were said in a flat tone.

She didn't have a name, and no one gave her a name, so she didn't care, so it has been until now.

This is something that Yan Yihua never thought of, now even she doesn't know what to say, at least she can't ask what people call her, she doesn't even have a name, what else can she call her?

Seeing that Yan Yihua seemed to be a little worried because of this, she somehow said, "Perhaps, you can give me a name."

Tried to ease the atmosphere, but successfully made the atmosphere freeze there.