Small can not bear to sell big cute

Hearing this sentence, Cheng Yingxia was not happy at the time, turned over and pouted Lao Gao: "I am angry, do you hate me, love is gone."

Xiaohua didn't expect her to turn around suddenly, her heart beat twice in fright, she couldn't hold back a laugh when she saw her wrinkled face clearly, the more she looked at her, the more she felt cute, she leaned over and moistened her lips: "Why? Maybe I hate you, but it’s too late for me to like you, of course love won’t disappear.”

Cheng Yingxia was happy when he heard it, but he said unforgivingly: "What you say doesn't count."

She retorted casually, but Xiao Hua's expression was serious: "I have the final say, my love will not disappear."

Cheng Yingxia listened to some eager explanations in his ears, and his heart began to heat up, but the bottom of his heart was not feeling well.

Cheng Yingxia is very coaxable, a hug can make her stop worrying about it, and if she says a few nice words, she may start to feel self-blame and reflect on whether she has gone too far.

Because she can't control her emotions well.

Cheng Yingxia always quarreled with her father when she was a child, and the most frequent sentence in her father's mouth was: With your dog temper, no one can stand you.

Cheng Yingxia thinks that there are still people who can bear it, and her group of friends are.

It is said that birds of a feather flock together and people are divided into groups, and only like-minded people can become friends. Her group of good friends is indeed not a good person in the conventional sense in the eyes of others. With a little family background, he is defiant and spends money like water. He is used to being free and doesn't care much about other people's opinions. After these years, he knows that making money is not easy, so he restrains himself and concentrates on following his parents to learn how to avoid the accumulation of ancestors. The old bottom was defeated.

She who grew up fooling around together is naturally not a good person.

But Cheng Yingxia doesn't want to be the bad guy in Xiaohua's heart.

She restrains herself and restrains herself, sometimes she can't control herself in a mess, she doesn't know when she will sneak out to retaliate against herself, and even hurt the bad mood of the people around her.

She began to feel sour from the bottom of her heart, feeling wronged for Xiao Hua.

There is no need to elaborate on how important communication between people is. After all, no one is a roundworm in someone's stomach. What a person thinks should be said through his own mouth, not someone else's guess.

Knowing is one thing, being yourself is another.

Xiaohua understands Cheng Yingxia, because in those repeated expressions, movements, and repeated inertial behaviors, she has obtained her own subjective conclusions. This kind of conclusion is called understanding.

For example, Cheng Yingxia will show it when she is angry, so she knows that Cheng Yingxia is angry, and Cheng Yingxia often doesn't like to say it directly, she naturally doesn't know what kind of thinking process the other party has gone through in her heart, so she shows it with silent beating instead. Verbal accountability.

Occasionally, Xiaohua also feels a little tired, because after guessing, she is always not so stable in her heart. She is afraid that she will guess wrong, make inappropriate actions, and make others unhappy; occasionally she feels that this is a kind of happiness. , because exploring the unknown itself is full of adventure, the process of guessing is not a process of multi-party thinking, and a process of getting closer to each other.

But as long as the conflict can be resolved, it doesn't matter what kind of communication method, her habitual behavior is to coax, she is used to not delving into the truth behind it, and she doesn't care whether she is at fault or not.

At this time, Cheng Yingxia's heart was in a mess. Facing her were eyes that were more pure than water. Xiaohua was staring intently at her eyes that hid the chaotic emotions. Maybe she was thinking about how to make her happy again, but she never thought about herself. He didn't do anything wrong at all, so why put down his body to make her happy.

Just because she is such a selfish bad person.

Cheng Yingxia turned sideways slightly, and moved forward as lightly as possible to gently put down a kiss, with a correct attitude, intimate and flattering: "I'm sorry I was wrong, I shouldn't be angry with you."

She knows that she is not perfect, and others have no obligation to accommodate her in everything. Xiaohua treats her so well because she loves her, so she is willing. She absolutely should not, and should not use it as a kidnapping to satisfy her own desires.

The sudden bowing of her head to admit her mistake made people puzzled, Xiao Hua was stunned, and put her hand on Cheng Yingxia's face: "Why did you suddenly apologize?"

"It's my fault. I'm too selfish. It's not your fault for being too popular. I shouldn't lose my temper with you." Cheng Yingxia's eyes were full of remorse, "But I can't control it, I'm too impulsive."

Xiaohua listened attentively, and she understood what Cheng Yingxia was thinking, but she didn't think it was a mistake. Instead, she let her know how important she was, and it was worth the other party's fighting because of her.She never cared about the occasional tantrums between the two, but cared that her sister's sulking would make her unhappy, and she would even be wronged in this relationship. How could she let the other party be wronged because of herself.

"Then next time you are angry, please tell me, okay? I don't like you always being sullen all by yourself. If you think something is wrong, you can let me know. We are lovers now, aren't we?"

Lover, what a beautiful word, it is full of sticky sweetness between the lips and tongue.

Because you are a lover, you can ask to know the other person's mood. Because you are a lover, you must take the initiative to let go of some freedom to cater to the other person. Because you are a lover, it is natural to care about and jealous.

Because the relationship between lovers is so magical that two people who have nothing to do with each other can be brought together, beyond blood relationship, and become the only one for each other.

"I promise you, but if I have done something wrong, just criticize me, and I will definitely change." Recognizing that you don't need to go through such a huge change, sometimes it may only be in a tiny moment.

Cheng Yingxia made up her mind to make corrections, one by one slowly.

Quarrels are as emotional as cold violence. Perhaps it is not so easy to communicate frankly and openly, and it is not so easy to lose the trust accumulated for a long time, and it also wears down patience.

Cheng Yingxia recalled all the years he had come all the way, and felt helpless: "I have already learned to be calm, and I forgot all about it when I met you."

"We are human beings, not programmed machines." The corners of her mouth raised slightly, and Xiaohua touched Cheng Yingxia's messy eyebrows that hadn't been repaired for a while, "I like you standing in front of me alive, no Reservation, no suspicion, no forbearance, if you say you are happy, sad or dissatisfied, we can talk at any time, and you don't have to pretend to be relaxed, that's not the you I know."

The next words may be a bit inappropriate, but she will also say: "Even if one day you don't like me anymore, you still have to tell me, don't hold on for fear of hurting me, I can accept any result."

Cheng Yingxia raised her eyebrows, didn't like to hear this, and stared at her with wide eyes: "Are you talking in your sleep, how could I not like you, no one likes you more than me."

"Well, it's a great honor." Xiaohua admitted that she was comforted by Cheng Yingxia's firmness, and if she could, she certainly hoped it would always be like this.

Cheng Yingxia snorted: "Don't say such things in the future."

"Let's not have any more conflicts." Although it is actually unlikely.

In fact, Cheng Yingxia thinks that there is nothing wrong with conflicts between lovers. It is a very normal thing. No one is born to be compatible. What she fears most is that if the problem occurs and is not resolved, it will be dragged on like this until the relationship is exhausted and there is no way to recover. .

There is not no conflict between them, how can there be no conflict when people get along with each other, it's just that Xiao Hua is too tolerant to her, and always follows her heart every time, and someone who can't bear her would have already caused trouble The world is turned upside down - it's just a hypothesis, no one can replace Xiaohua.

The biggest conflict between the two should still be the years when they were awkward. Every time Cheng Yingxia thinks about it, she will regret why she recklessly pierced the window paper and stopped waiting patiently, thus missing her youthful years.

"What have you been thinking about these past few years?" Cheng Yingxia asked suddenly.

It is not even necessary to deliberately explain which period of time the past few years refer to, the two of them tacitly agree.

Xiaohua didn't dare to tell Cheng Yingxia how terrified she was at that time, how afraid she would go on like this until one day the two of them became strangers, and wrote in a few short words: "I'm thinking of you, when will you talk to me."

Cheng Yingxia denied it: "Obviously you ignored me." She thought Xiaohua didn't want to see her again.

"It's you who ignored me." Xiaohua insisted inexplicably on this matter.

Cheng Yingxia wanted to argue subconsciously, but after thinking about it carefully, there was nothing to argue about. They were obviously ignored by each other, and it would be too sad to have to decide who was superior in this kind of matter.

"Why are you willing to talk to me later?" She was more concerned about this matter.

Xiao Hua may have recalled the past, and she was stunned for a while before she came to her senses: "I don't want you to be sad."

During the days when we didn't see each other, Xiao Hua didn't know what Cheng Yingxia was feeling, but every time we met again after a long absence, Cheng Yingxia was as happy as she was calm on the surface.

Several times, she saw Cheng Yingxia first, but Cheng Yingxia didn't see her. The last second her face was full of exhaustion, but the next second she saw herself, her expression was indescribably joyful. From then on, she realized that Now that she is a special existence that can affect Cheng Yingxia's mood, she is not dispensable to Cheng Yingxia.

Xiaohua doesn't regret her decision to reject her at the beginning, but she starts to regret that she didn't understand all this earlier, and that she didn't have the courage to be the one who took a step forward.

There always seems to be a barrier between her and Cheng Yingxia. It is reality that pulls them apart and builds a seemingly invisible wall in the middle, making people wonder how to bump into it.

She bowed her head long ago.

Cheng Yingxia's face was relaxed: "You still know I'm sad. At that time, I secretly went to see you, but I didn't dare to let you know, for fear that you would drive me away."

"Is there?" Xiaohua really didn't know, so she seemed a little surprised at the moment.

"Of course there is." Cheng Yingxia rubbed her cheek with her hand, and chuckled, "It's not peeping if you know."

There are many things that have not been said.Every time she secretly reads it, she always has to drink a few glasses, and then she is drunk and drunk, shouting in the street to fuck sisterhood, who wants to be a sister with you, attracting passers-by to stare frequently, and maybe scolding her in her heart A crazy bitch.

But at that time, Cheng Yingxia couldn't control much, she was already not sober.

It was a very depressing time. The day and night work and the constant longing tormented her, making her breathless. In order to cheer her up, she picked up the cigarette butts that she had quit for a long time. , The consequence of crazy intake of nicotine until the end of excessive intake is nicotine poisoning, which affects health, so it stops.

It was at that moment that she suddenly realized that these things were harmful to her health. She could no longer continue to prepay her life in advance, and in the end she could only drag a broken body to the person she loved, so it took a long time to reconnect. Quit it, start eating three meals a day regularly, go to bed early and wake up early.

Growing up requires a process, but growing up is a momentary thing.

This topic is actually not easy, because it was a period of time when both of them were unhappy, and the last thing Xiaohua wanted to see it repeat the same mistakes. If every day is like this, then the future is worth looking forward to, and there is no need to bring up the past again.

She really wanted to tell Cheng Yingxia: "I hope you will not be sad when you are with me. I don't have much to give you. I just hope you can be happy."

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