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Cheng Yingxia clutched her chest, the beating frequency there was different from the usual one, indicating that some thoughts were just about to move.

From Xiaohua's abnormal behavior, she felt that she had discovered some secrets, but why was her own abnormality?Is it the same reason?

She, Cheng Yingxia, fell in love with her sister?

As soon as this thought came up, Cheng Yingxia gasped, feeling that this matter was extremely absurd, so she raised her hand and patted her forehead, trying to wake herself up and not fall into such blind guesses.

How can people's thoughts be controlled?

Cheng Yingxia can't help but think that the relationship between her and Xiaohua has been intimate from the beginning to the end, and the element of dependence is a little bit bigger, but whether it is Xiaohua or herself, she can't be sure that that kind of emotion is a kind of love.

Love is so complicated, how can it be said that it is.

Cheng Yingxia suddenly began to doubt herself, what if she guessed wrong?What can be done?She can only pretend not to know, this is clearly not something she can speak out about, and she can't confirm that her feelings for Xiao Hua are just liking, so it is extremely irresponsible to speak rashly.

She tossed and turned for a long time that night, thinking about a lot of things that might happen in the past, present and future, and she couldn't close her eyes until dawn.

Because she spent a lot of time thinking about the consequences of being exposed, Cheng Yingxia finally decided to pretend that she didn't know anything, and acted as a conscientious and good sister. To a certain extent, she had to keep a little distance from her sister. psychological and moral distance.

In that way, she may not have the same illusion as she is now, and can understand whether her true emotion is the dependence on family affection or the longing for love.

This is something she can't figure out now.

In any case, Xiao Hua's admission to C University was a foregone conclusion. By accident, Xiao Hua became Cheng Yingxia's junior, who belonged to the same department as her.

Cheng Yingxia is gradually implementing the "estrangement" policy according to her own ideas, while observing Xiao Hua's emotions, but no matter how she changes, Xiao Hua's reaction will always be the same, always smiling at herself, and unconditionally tolerant of everything about herself. Nothing has changed in the past.

So she doubted even more that her conjecture was wrong, maybe Xiao Hua didn't think so at all, and everything was her own arbitrary judgment.

The relationship between the two seems to be normal, but in fact a pimple has formed quietly, and it was unilaterally formed by Cheng Yingxia. The most conspicuous thing is that she no longer "bosses around" Xiaohua.

Without Cheng Yingxia's paging, and without her having to take care of everything, there are many irrelevant people around Xiaohua.

Because she was admitted to University C with the No.1 grades in the school, Xiaohua was selected as an outstanding student representative to give a speech at the opening ceremony of the freshmen, and most people have the impression that the academic bully is not very handsome. Yes, I suddenly met such a beautiful woman at the ceremony, I couldn't help but take a second look, and listening to her logical and clear speech, I became even more interested.

So as soon as Xiao Hua entered school, she became a celebrity in the school. There were many people who were curious about her but regretted not seeing her real face. They rushed to watch her, and after reading it, they had to say something nice, and then arranged her into the C University flower list. inside.

Many people are coveting her.

When the routine meeting of the student union ended and was stopped by someone, Xiaohua could only apologize and said, "I'm sorry, I already have someone I like."

The girl on the opposite side was obviously very disappointed after being rejected, and she was also a little bit unwilling, and asked the bottom line: "Can you tell me who it is?"

Xiaohua smiled, and apologized again: "I'm sorry, it's not convenient."

"Okay, I won't bother you anymore, go back early." The other party should know that he has nothing to do and is planning to leave.

"Goodbye." A simple exchange ended here, and Xiaohua said goodbye to her politely, then packed her things and rushed outside.

Walking on the tree-lined avenue of University C, the friends who were walking next to me recalled the scene just now and couldn't help but admire: "Our flowers are so attractive. Didn't only boys rush to express their love before? Now girls can't hold back too? "

The one who blocked the way just now is also a member of their student union, but she and Xiaohua are not in the same department. They have been in contact with each other in normal work, but they are not very familiar with each other. They only know that they are very capable at work.

The other party is still a beautiful young lady. After being rejected, she didn't stalk her. Instead, she said goodbye graciously. This kind of free and easy style easily made people like her. She suddenly felt that the other party and Xiao Hua were quite a match, and couldn't help it. Yy in my mind for a while.

But Xiaohua shook her head and smiled helplessly: "Don't be joking." She didn't want to be liked, these would only cause her troubles.

My friend took a peek at Xiaohua after hearing the words. Her face is not so stunning, but her temperament is very different from others. It is rare that people can't help but want to get close. It is normal to be missed by many people. She and Xiaohua As we got closer, I couldn't remember the first time Xiao Hua refused others.

Every time Xiao Hua said "I have someone I like".

My friend was a little curious: "You said you have someone you like, are you lying to them or do you really have someone you like?"

"It's true." Xiao Hua didn't want to hide it.

"It turned out to be true! I thought you were just finding a reason to reject them. Which guy is so lucky to be treated differently by us? Can I know?" The friend's expression was unexpectedly shocked.

Xiao Hua's reply was the same as before: "It may not be convenient."

"Oh, okay." Xiao Hua's words were politely rejected, and her friend heard that she didn't want to answer. It seemed a pity that she didn't get the answer to the question, but since it was a private matter, it was not good to ask further, so let it go.

Xiao Hua smiled at her, as if she was sorry that this matter could not be shared with her.

The two walked together to a fork in the school, and Xiao Hua stopped in her tracks and said goodbye to her friend: "I have an appointment for dinner with someone, you should go back first."

The friend also stopped, and looked at her suspiciously: "Someone you like?"

Xiaohua didn't say anything for a long time, neither saying yes nor no, her friend took her as acquiescing, and teased, "Go, go, then I'll go first, bye."

"Goodbye." Xiaohua waved goodbye to her friend on the spot, and watched her go away.

Finally regaining her space alone, she couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief, the corners of her mouth flattened, and she became visibly tired.

very tired.

Whether it's studies, or the interpersonal relationships that need to be maintained, or Cheng Yingxia's attitude towards her.

Cheng Yingxia has been avoiding her recently.

It seems that since the day she came to this school, Cheng Yingxia has intentionally or unintentionally alienated her, and deliberately reduced the time they spend together. At first she thought that she made the other party unhappy, but the other party did not have any emotional fluctuations, so she just He just slowly distanced himself from her.

It's not the reason why Xiao Hua understands Cheng Yingxia.

Later, she thought that maybe Cheng Yingxia was in love and no longer had so much time with herself, but there was no other close contact with Cheng Yingxia around her, which cut off her pessimistic thoughts in the bud.

Then it can only be because Cheng Yingxia has already discovered some unspeakable thoughts in her, and she can only tell herself in this way if she wants to refuse but can't.

Sure enough, it was still discovered?The dirty thoughts that have been buried for so many years are nakedly exposed in the field of vision, disgraceful and very cheap, beating Xiaohua's vulnerable heart.

Maybe she shouldn't reveal too much from the beginning, she should stand within the safety line and stick to her position, and just concentrate on being an obedient younger sister, but she just can't help but want to get closer, wanting to know everything about Cheng Yingxia, sometimes she will Stupidly, he didn't know how to grasp the measure, and accidentally crossed the line.

What should I do, what can I do.

Cheng Yingxia's attitude made her sad, she obviously just wanted to stand by the other person's side as a younger sister, but she would occasionally have evil thoughts of wanting to possess him forever, it shouldn't be like this, she couldn't let her go without restraint like this flood.

This feeling of wanting to control yourself but being powerless is exhausting and powerless.

Xiaohua didn't know how she survived these days, and she didn't know what kind of state she would get along with Cheng Yingxia in the future.

She only knows that she doesn't want to leave her sister's side, even if Cheng Yingxia finally falls in love, gets married, and has a child, she no longer needs her so much, and she doesn't want to be absent from any moment of the other's life, so humble and longing for an opportunity to stay within her sight The place.

So let's pretend that I don't know anything now, or my sister will put away her guesses and doubts, and continue to treat her as a younger sister, and they can go back to the past.

Before parting, she told her friend that she had dated someone, but it was not an excuse but that Xiaohua really had a date with someone, and that person was Cheng Yingxia.

The meeting time was seven o'clock in the evening, and Xiao Hua rushed over to a Japanese grocery store off campus, but arrived half an hour early.

Cheng Yingxia brought Xiaohua to this restaurant more than once before, just because she really loves the ramen here, and every time she couldn't even drink the soup.

Xiao Hua picked a seat where she had sat before and sat down ahead of time, waiting for Cheng Yingxia to come over.

She recalled that Cheng Yingxia used to sit in the same position across the way, holding a bowl and concentrating on drinking soup. After a while, the sound of soup gurgling could be heard in her ears, so she covered her mouth and snickered, in exchange for Cheng Yingxia's shy words: " why are you laughing".

At that time, she was infected by Cheng Yingxia and felt that the ramen soup was delicious, so she couldn't help but drink it too, but she had a small appetite, and she was full after eating the noodles, and couldn't drink any more soup. Later, she thought of a way, Deliberately eat less noodles, just to save some stomach to drink soup with Cheng Yingxia.

How could Cheng Yingxia know about such a secret and strange little thought, she only thought that she likes to play around, imitating her own unsightly eating movements to make fun of herself.

The scene in the memory is still being staged, but the figure in front of her has gradually changed from illusion to reality. It was not until someone flicked her forehead with her fingers that Xiao Hua blinked and saw the two figures blend together, and then she knew that Cheng Yingxia had arrived.

Apparently they haven't seen each other for over a month.

"elder sister."

Xiaohua didn't know if her voice was trembling at this moment.

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