predecessor "on" position

The black Benz nanny drove steadily and silently.The driver in the driver's seat adjusted the temperature inside the car just right, neither hot nor cold.

After getting in the car, Qin Lan wanted to hold her granddaughter by herself, but Xiao Yinuo insisted on clinging to Qi Yicheng. She tried to pick her up several times but failed, and finally lost to the little guy's coquettish eyes. Looking at Qi Yicheng, Jing Yicheng did not refuse. No, Qin Lan will indulge her.

After sitting down, Qin Lan turned her head several times to look at Qi Yicheng who was sitting next to her and wanted to say something, but she didn't say a word.

Of course Qi Yicheng also felt Qin Lan's hesitant eyes, but she didn't point it out.The passing scenery is very familiar, Qi Yicheng knows... that is the road leading to Jing's house.Ms. Qin's words will eventually come out today.It's just a matter of time.

After calming down on the bench just now, she heard a familiar voice behind her looking for Jing Yinuo, and she also heard the little Yinuo in her arms straighten up and call the phrase "grandma".She even remembered that when she was holding the child and turned to look at Qin Lan, the shock in Qin Lan's eyes and the complex emotions that she couldn't digest for a while.

Qi Yicheng suppressed the severe pain surging up from the right side of his heart, without showing anything on his face, and smiled politely.

Courteous, but also from.

That's what she has practiced for so many years, in the dead of night, when she was awakened, panting and soothing herself, and fantasizing about meeting these old friends in the future.

"Hello, Ms. Qin." The voice was perfectly smooth.

"...Qi Yicheng?" There was a crack on the dignified and elegant face.

"Yes." I'm Qi Yicheng.

Qi Yicheng accepted Qin Lan's invitation to go back together, partly because of Jing Ran, partly because of Jing Yinuo.

She is Jingran's mother after all, no matter how disliked or hated she is, Qi Yicheng still can't refuse completely.

This kind of damn "soft heart", as long as the word "Jing Ran" is touched, it will pop out involuntarily.

The other part is because of Xiao Yinuo's "retaining", looking very much like Jing Ran's eyes, looking at him with expectation, it was difficult for Qi Yicheng to say "no", so he nodded and followed Qin Lan to go up car.

In Qi Yicheng's hand was a child's little hand, a little fleshy and soft, and his little fingers pinched Qi Yicheng's fingers mischievously.Qi Yicheng's eyes flickered slightly, and the upward arc of the corner of his mouth silently indulged Xiao Yinuo's closeness.The little guy also seemed to sense that the atmosphere around him was not right. Since getting in the car, he has been very obedient and quiet.Qi Yicheng raised his other hand and touched Yinuo's head. The little guy felt a strange tremor. Xiao Yinuo held Qi Yicheng's right hand, looked at the trembling palm, and touched the scar on the palm of his hand. , looking at Qi Yicheng curiously, just about to speak.But after seeing Qi Yicheng raised his index finger with his steady left hand and made a "hush" movement in front of his lips, he nodded obediently, as if he felt that this was not enough, and exaggeratedly covered his small mouth .

Qi Yicheng smiled and hugged Jing Yinuo.

Jingran...Yinuo is really obedient and smart.

I just don't know... Will this time, like five years ago, be a grand feast.

Qin Lan was at the side, looking at the quiet interaction between the big and the small from the corner of the eye, her eyes flickered slightly.

When they arrived at Jing Zhai, the car door was opened by the nanny, and Qin Lan got out of the car first.Qi Yicheng hugged Xiao Yinuo and got out of the car after him.The nanny wanted to step forward to take the child in Qi Yicheng's arms, but was stopped by Qin Lan's eyes.The nanny was a little surprised, but she didn't say anything, and followed silently to the end.

"Nuo Nuo, be good, go play with Aunt Yun." After entering the house, Qin Lan turned around and patted Yin Nuo's head.

"Go, dear." Qi Yicheng bent down and put Yinuo down, glanced at the nanny beside him, bowed his head and said to Yinuo the same as Qin Lan said.

After all, there are some words that are not suitable to be said in front of children.

Jing Yinuo looked at the two of them, nodded obediently, let the nanny take them away, and went to another room.

"Come, sit." In the huge living room, without the third person, Qin Lan led Qi Yicheng to sit on the sofa. There was brewed tea on the coffee table. The time was just right, hot but not too hot. "Drink tea."

Qin Lan enthusiastically poured a cup of tea for Qi Yicheng, and handed it to her with a smile.The stunned look when we met in the afternoon was gone from my eyes.

"Thank you." Qi Yicheng took the teacup, still smiling appropriately, but compared to Qin Lan's enthusiasm... he seemed far away.No one could see her tense body except herself.

"Yicheng still likes to drink Maojian now? In recent years, Jing Ran always drinks it, and he often drinks it with me. After drinking it for a long time, he likes it." Qin Lan watched Qi Yicheng sip slowly and smiled. laugh.

"Mao Jian?..." Oh, there is something in the words... It really looks like the Jing family's style. "I haven't been in good health for the past few years. Following the doctor's advice, I don't drink much tea anymore."

Unfortunately, Qi Yicheng is no longer the Qi Yicheng he was back then.

Qi Yicheng's words made Qin Lan's expression change... Ben's smiling face gradually became bitter. "Yicheng..." He put down the teacup that was still hot. "I know you hate us."

Qi Yicheng didn't respond to these words, didn't even raise his head, just looked at the teacup in his hand silently.There is a piece of emerald green hair tip floating quietly in the teacup.

"She hates us too." Qin Lan's tone was very slow, revealing countless sorrows.When it reached Qi Yicheng's ears, it felt like it was going to pierce her heart. "Jing Ran, the past few years...have not been good."

"We were the ones who harmed you all those years ago," the old woman gradually became agitated, "It was our fault."

"That year... we... were the ones who plotted against our daughter. That day, I called Jing Ran and told her to come back and have a meal together..." Qin Lan's voice was choked with sobs.

Those words seemed to reach Qi Yicheng's ears intermittently, but in fact, they seemed more orderly...

In an orderly manner, he told her about those things back then.

Those, what she doesn't know and what she knows, about Jingran.

Those words were like knives, slashing Qi Yicheng's heart, one knife at a time, even Qi Yicheng didn't know whether it was blood or tears that flowed from his heart.

The blood shed for Jing Ran.

The tears shed for Jingran.

"Yicheng, the car accident you had was really not designed by her father..." Qin Lan was crying. "We just want to scare Jingran and make her leave you...but we didn't expect..."

"Do you still love Jingran now?" Qin Lan was asking. "Jing Ran is having a bad time... Please forgive her, okay? It's all our fault... Please don't torture Jing Ran anymore... Let her go..."

Qin Lan's cries and Qin Lan's words silenced Qi Yicheng.

These scenes are very similar to that day five years ago.

But also very different.

Five years ago, it was also in the afternoon, and I was sitting here, but the middle-aged man who was confident was sitting opposite me.

Jing Ran's father.

"Yicheng, you guys won't be able to go on." Father Jing was always smiling.

"She will leave you." The tone was also smiling, no matter what he said. "Or...you left her."

"Don't rush to deny it." Even if it is a threat, it is no exception. "I'll let you compromise."

"Ask me if I still love Jingran." Those memories made Qi Yicheng feel cold all over, she drooped her eyelids, and her bangs blocked her eyes.Slowly put the teacup on the table, the shaking of the right hand made the tea surface ripple a little. "At this point, is there any point in asking this question?"

What will happen if you love?Still the same as before, because of these, those, and then separated?

It doesn't matter because she loves me too much, or because she is threatened.

She will give up on me.

Even if I am willing to lose everything, including my life, for her.

My Jingran will still let go.

If you don't love...

I also hope that I can stop loving.

Qin Lan was stunned for a moment, and didn't speak for a while, as if he didn't expect Qi Yicheng to reply like this.

Qi Yicheng smiled, she didn't expect any answer from Qin Lan, Qin Lan's attitude today let her know that the Jing family is the same as back then.

Whether laughing and threatening, or crying and begging,

They all hoped that Qi Yicheng would leave Jingran.

Unfortunately, neither of us wants to let each other go.

Your daughter told me that Qi Yicheng's life has been a scene of prosperity.

But she no longer told me that Jing Ran loves Qi Yicheng anymore.

Do you understand this feeling?

This kind of feeling that was beheaded by your own hands, but will never be cleansed.

No matter whether they love each other or not, they can only be entangled together, as if they cannot leave each other in order to survive.

You will not understand.

Back then, you didn't understand.

Now, I still don't want to know us.

"I don't hate Jingran. I can't talk about forgiveness or not. I can understand her decision back then." Qi Yicheng slowly expressed her current mood, as if she was talking about someone else's mood. "I don't blame her either."

"Then you now..." Qin Lan looked at Qi Yicheng suspiciously.

now?

Time really changes a person.

Back then, Qi Yicheng, who didn't believe in anything but only believed in Jing Ran, had already been killed.

Now, Qi Yicheng, who is alive, can no longer believe in Jing Ran...

"Mr. Jing..." Qi Yicheng changed the subject. "Are you ok?"

"He..." Qin Lan covered her mouth with sobs. "gone."

gone……?

Qi Yicheng's right hand trembled violently, and then trembled unstoppably.

Qin Lan who stood up sadly did not notice this scene.She walked slowly to the fireplace next to her, and gently stroked a family portrait on it.From under the photo album, pick up a card.

Walking back to Qi Yicheng's side, patted her on the shoulder, Qin Lan took a deep breath, and said softly. "Go...to see him."

Qi Yicheng took the card, without answering, clenched his unnatural right hand into a fist and hid it beside his leg.

gone……

Just, like this, let's go...?

Qi Yicheng, who came out of Jingzhai, declined Qin Lan's suggestion to send her back, and walked slowly by the road alone.

Until now, she couldn't digest the last news.

The person that she can't say she hates, but she can't say that she doesn't complain. Every time she thinks about it, she can't calm down.

gone like this?

On the left hand, there is still the temperature of the last promise,

But in her right hand, there was an unstoppable chill, which emerged from the place where the scar had already formed, and the pain made her tremble uncontrollably.

Qi Yicheng took out his cell phone and made a call.

After a long time, the other side picked up.

"はい (Hey)" the voice on the other side was a bit tired. "Yicheng?" The spoken Chinese had a strange accent.

"It's me..." Qi Yicheng glanced at his right hand.

"what's up"

"It's getting worse." Even clenching his fists, he couldn't restrain his trembling. "Now, not only when I think about those things, but even when I hear those things from other people, I can't control my right hand."

"When she gave me your medicine list, she said, 'There are secret diseases'." The woman sighed, and the person she was talking about was Qi Yicheng's psychiatrist. "I think she also told you about this. Qi Yicheng, you have to understand that the car accident that year did cause a lot of damage to your body, but after recuperation, these problems will not be your biggest threat .”

"Your heart disease is 'thedarknessdreams'."

"...What about another medicine?" Qi Yicheng said in a very soft voice, "Can it be suppressed?"

"Sorry...I can't help you."

There was silence on both ends of the phone.

The woman was silent for a while, then spoke slowly. "Even if there is medicine that can suppress your condition at the moment, I won't go and get it for you." When she heard Qi Yicheng's breathing quicken, she chuckled, "Don't even try to find her, she definitely wants to It’s the same as me. Whether it’s out of the so-called medical ethics in your mouth or out of a friend’s standpoint, she won’t prescribe it for you. Because those medicines will make you dependent and have serious side effects.”

"Psychological problems can't be cured by medicine." Her laughter was nice, deep and sexy. "Want to hear my advice?"

Qi Yicheng didn't answer, but raised his eyebrows.

"Itisdowntotwooptions: H□□INGADRINK~ORH□□INGASEXSEXWITHHER! (Now there are two ways, go for a drink or have a hair with her)"

"..." Qi Yicheng sighed helplessly, "Didn't you say I can't drink anymore?"

"So you have only one way left now."

Before Qi Yicheng could speak again, the woman hung up the phone with a smile.

Qi Yicheng looked at the phone speechlessly, and just as he was about to put it away, the phone showed that he had received an email.

Click to open:

“There is a Chinese saying that 'a heart disease requires a heart medicine doctor'”

The second envelope follows:

"'Your nerves are already reminding you that it can no longer bear those stimuli, and it needs you to face those things. On the contrary, it is also telling you that you can accept any result.' These words were When I was desperate, she said to me. I understand your pain at this moment, but you have to understand that what you do next, no matter what the ending is, is worth it. Don't escape. Nowisthetime, mybuddy. It's time to face it, dear)"

This Chinese email was a bit of a mouthful, but Qi Yicheng understood what she meant.

When putting the phone in his pocket, he touched a card, Qi Yicheng took it out,

Above is an address.

Holding the paper with his fingers, he took a deep breath.

"Perhaps... it's really time to face it."

Raising his hand, he summoned a car. After getting in the car, Qi Yicheng didn't speak, but just handed the paper to the driver. He didn't see the surprised and embarrassed expression on the driver's face after taking it. Qi Yicheng closed his eyes.

In the setting sun, a woman stands in front of a tomb, Yu Yang is very red, but not warm.

"I'm here to see you." Bending down, she placed the flowers in her hand in front of the tomb.

Qi Yicheng didn't say anything else, just stood straight in front of the tomb.

It's getting late,

The figure in front of the tomb did not leave until the garden was closed.

From beginning to end, she only said one sentence.

I dare not say to the dead what I dare not say to the living.

Everyone asked me, Qi Yicheng, do you still love Jingran?

In fact, they must know in their hearts that Qi Yicheng still loves Jingran.

But they are also wondering, why are you not together?

Yeah, why aren't we together?

because of fear.

We are careful with each other, trying to bind each other with passion and hurt, but we dare not speak out what is in our hearts.

One is afraid of being rejected.

One is afraid of being abandoned.

It's time for someone to stand up and break all this.

How could I be willing to let her stand up...

Qi Yicheng was never willing to force Jingran,

Just like back then...

The author has something to say: read this chapter as two chapters~ (Is it cool?

Whether it's due to physical reasons or artificial persecution, in short, when the situation is depressing, someone always needs to stand up.

In some respects, Jing Ran can be very humble in order to save Qi Yicheng

But in some respects, she has her own bottom line, an unbreakable bottom line.

Jing Ran mentioned this bottom line in the first few chapters.

That was the only dignity she had left for Jing Ran towards Qi Yicheng.

It is also her last arrogance. (After all, my family is a queen~

So the one who breaks the situation will be Qi Yicheng...

I understand Jingran's fear very well, because I have also experienced such psychological ups and downs for a while

I also feel sorry for Qi Yicheng, they are not young anymore, and if they are approaching their thirties, if they lose again, they will not only have nothing.

So I think that Qi Yicheng's willingness to take a step forward is not only because of psychological obstacles,

More because she felt sorry for Jing Ran

Because of raising Yinuo alone, because of what Qin Lan said, and because of Father Jing's departure.

Also, in the past few years, Jing Ran lived alone.

Those days without her.

It's not easy for her, so she understands that it's not easy for others.

Besides, that was the person she loved.

Ah... there seems to be a lot of green characters! (Accidentally feeling too much...

In fact, I would like to hear what you think of this chapter.

For example, the last scene where Qi Yicheng stood in front of the tomb.