This sentiment [Xiu Xian]

For a long time, Rong Xuehuai thought she was empty.

He had forgotten when he had last rested—yes, not sleep, not just rest.He sat alone in the long night, with the seemingly endless official documents and various prescriptions he studied in front of him.

Yuzhi Mountain at night is so silent that time seems to have stopped for it.

But even so, Rong Xuehuai still couldn't relax with even a cup of tea in such an empty environment.He always had a strange illusion, as if as long as he lowered his vigilance, something in the void would jump out and give him a sword in the head.

Combining his two painful memories in the past, plus the many unpredictable assassinations before Furongxie was unstable, it seems that there is nothing wrong with this premonition.

Even if some things have passed, the remaining traces of it will be engraved in the bone for a long time.It's like Rong Xuehuai's defensive intention now, it penetrates so deeply, it seems that it will be difficult to erase it in this lifetime.

When Shangguan Haitang arrived, it was a rare moment for Rong Xuehuai to feel relaxed.But Shangguan Haitang would always bring up the past, even if he didn't mention it, he would sigh where Rong Xuehuai couldn't see it.

He asked Rong Xuehuai: "It's not easy to live with only one person in such a big Yingri domain. I know you don't trust others, so let me and Zigui...even if it's Hanmei's iceberg, how many of us Come here in turn, it would be nice to stay with you for three to five months a year."

"How can I bother you so much." Rong Xuehuai smiled and shook her head: "Besides, there is nothing wrong with being quiet. Yingriyu is quiet and clean, and I like it very much."

Shangguan Haitang's heartache was almost beyond words, and the memory of punishing the strong and helping the weak together with the boy in white appeared in his mind again.The excitement at that time was obviously so...

"You don't like to be quiet, you're just tired." He said in a low voice.

"Perhaps." Rong Xuehuai turned her head and smiled at him, stretched out her hand from the small boat where the two were living, and broke off a blooming lotus for Shangguan Haitang.

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"Xue Huai, how long has it been since you went out?" Su Zigui asked him.

Rong Xuehuai did not answer, but said gently: "As long as you have an invitation, I will definitely not refuse."

Su Zigui was not obsessed with the answer, but just said: "Okay."

Then he sent Rong Xuehuai one invitation after another, sometimes it was a gathering of a few musical confidants, sometimes it was a drink with friends from back then, and sometimes it was a place where he was invited to hold a place when Tiancaidibao was born, or A few times it was a big feast with real drinks.

Rong Xuehuai all went as scheduled.

He understands the painstaking efforts of his friend, and he never bears to let him down.

It's just that Su Zigui doesn't quite understand—maybe he understands and is powerless to do anything—Rong Xuehuai didn't cover his ears and eyes and don't want to care about things outside the window, he didn't have social fear, he was just bored.

He watched the world with cold eyes through the white gauze in front of him.

He still appreciates beauty, and he still admires love.It's just that when he didn't notice, many mixed thoughts would come up involuntarily: the movement of turning around just now vaguely indicated that there was a estrangement between the once intimate couple; Some idea of ​​competing with the Piper.

These thoughts are often dismissed by himself plainly: people's emotions are so complicated and so strong.Even if the couple is still angry with each other in their hearts, they will subconsciously reach out to hold each other; the pair of friends will compete and help each other on the road of music, and there will always be a day of great success.

He can see the tacit understanding and cherishment from the two people's touching elbows, and he can also hear the appreciation and joy from the tune of the two people's harmony.Whenever he sees the love and beauty in the world, tenderness flows quietly in his heart, but it's a pity that the guard and anxiety never fade from his heart.

In the end is different.

It's hard to get rid of water, and it's hard to round a broken mirror.And Rong Xuehuai, who had been harmed twice by someone she trusted, would forever be left with scars that could not be healed.

Every time she came back from the banquet, although Rong Xuehuai had seen so many pleasing scenes, she was still more tired and discouraged.

Su Zigui no longer makes such an attempt.He just wanted to help Rong Xuehuai, not make him more tired.

What's more, there are indeed so many people with ulterior motives who want to get close to Rong Xuehuai, some want to get a lot from him, some want to please him in a prepared manner, and some people have pure intentions, but unfortunately they want to kill Rong Xuehuai. he.

Rong Xuehuai could see the desire and desire in these people's eyes.After all, he has already suffered so much because of not being able to see clearly.

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After going out to "clean up" again, Rong Xuehuai thought, he really shouldn't go on like this anymore.

He has lived alone for too long, and he must be bloody every time he goes out.The whole "cleaning" process has always only made Rong Xuehuai sick, there is nothing pleasant about it.

If things go on like this, in his mind, the matter of "going out" will only be associated with endless negative emotions.

He realized that there were indeed some problems in his psychology, and he was indeed trying to change.

Tingmei Pavilion's banquet post was delivered to him—even Tingmei Pavilion master had expected that he would not be able to invite this great Buddha.When Rong Xuehuai's snow-colored figure stepped into the gate of Tingmei Pavilion, he felt countless scrutiny with different meanings, and whispers of whispers.

Rong Xuehuai turned a blind eye.

The veil on the bamboo hat trembled slightly as he walked, perfectly separating him from the outside world.Rong Xuehuai also thought about whether to pick this up, but in this case, it is indeed more comfortable to carry it.

Rong Xuehuai took another two or three steps, and a half-demon kneeling on both sides reached out and grabbed a sleeve.

The body does react faster than the mind.A blue light flashed on Rong Xuehuai's fingertips, and the sleeve had been cut off.After realizing her actions, Rong Xuehuai was slightly taken aback.

But that's all, it's been too many years since a stranger dared to grab his sleeve.It's more worry-free to tear off such a piece of clothing that has been touched by others.

Thinking of this, he turned his head and looked at the half-demon boy lightly through the white gauze.

At that time, he had already gone through countless bombardment-like malice, no matter what the boy's purpose was, he would not be surprised.The half-demon begged almost incoherently, and his eyes were full of despair when he was cornered.

At that moment, Rong Xuehuai's whole body shivered like an electric shock.

This desperate emotion was too strong and too familiar, rushing towards his face without reservation, making Rong Xuehuai's heart, which had been as still as a pool of stagnant water for a long time, twitch slightly.

Rong Xuehuai raised her hand to cover the half-demon's eyes, covering the strong despair under her palm.

He didn't delve into his deepest thoughts, but just did what he wanted to do based on his own feelings.The moment he met the eyes of this half-demon just now, countless pictures of himself flashed in front of his eyes.

Those suffering, struggling, with blood and fire...

Back then he was struggling in purgatory and couldn't save himself, but now he always has the strength to save others.

Rong Xuehuai was surprised to find that her mood at the moment turned out to be a long-lost relaxation.

It was so easy that he still had the energy to notice that the half-demon trembled heavily under his palm—yes, he had forgotten that he didn't have any human warmth on his body, so it must have bothered him.

He casually brushed aside the contending Second Young Master Guanghua, and let go of the young man himself, using the exercises that had been put on hold for a long time to raise his own temperature.When the temperature in the palm of his hand was comfortable enough, he took the hand of the half-demon.

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After a long time later, when Rong Xuehuai recalled the first time she got along with Wen Zhe, she actually felt a sense of wonder in the world.

At that time, he had already walked out of the inner demons, and he also understood what his inner demons were.

On the day when the two of them were honest, Rong Xuehuai once asked Wen Zhe that he and the powerful lover in Wen Zhe's heart might be completely different. Now that you have realized this, do you want to leave me?

Of course Wen Zhe would not leave.

In fact, at that time, Rong Xuehuai still had something left to say.

Shangguan Haitang once had a whim to Rong Xuehuai: "You are notorious, I am paranoid and weird. If there is a day in this life, you and I will not have the slightest chance of finding a lifelong lover. The most ruthless and bloodthirsty Huajun and the most moody Hua If you are a perfect match, you will be able to see those guys who want to have eight mouths to meddle in their own business, stupefied and trembling, wouldn't they be happy to die!"

"If that's the case, within three days, you will think I'm boring." Rong Xuehuai glanced at her friend: "Although I haven't talked about it, I understand it in my heart. You like the kind that is more energetic. People who are more youthful... have bad tastes, Haitang."

"Although I haven't seen you talk about it, I know it in my heart." Shangguan Haitang shook her head, as if she was still regretting that she couldn't see the excitement in the cultivation world: "You like kind, persistent, and clear people. I guess Is it right?"

"Exactly."

After this conversation, Rong Xuehuai was thankful that Shangguan Haitang's proposal was indeed just a whim of a joke.

If he was serious, Rong Xuehuai would probably use a hundred or so reasons to decline each other, and every reason was actually to show that they were not suitable as partners.

At that time, he just thought that the reason he rejected the other party was that they were not suitable.

Until the inner demon broke out, Rong Xuehuai was caught in the gap between "hurt Wen Zhe" and "let go of Wen Zhe", struggling to push away the layers of confusion in her heart, and examined herself like never before.

The real reason why he rejected Shangguan Haitang was that he felt unsafe.

Love and friendship are difficult to confuse, and married couples and best friends you can die for represent two emotions.Rong Xuehuai didn't mind dying for Shangguan Haitang, and believed that the other party would not give him a fatal sword from behind.However, if Shangguan Haitang is his pillow for a long time...

In Rong Xuehuai's heart, the love between partners must be like his parents, representing a kind of extremely gentle, extremely strong, and extremely reassuring emotion.

As for the two injuries Rong Xuehuai suffered, one was from his friend, and the other was from his senior brother.One of these two people is his peer, and the other raised him up. They are both his peers and his elders.

It seems that from the moment he was betrayed, from the moment he was shot down into the abyss of hell, from the moment his trust and warmth were betrayed, the deepest thoughts in his subconscious marked him not daring to face his identity. Those who are at his level, or who are above him, are entrusted with such deep emotions.

Even for him to be so cowardly and so defensive, if the other party hadn't fully confessed to him first, it would be difficult for Rong Xuehuai to plant his most precious love.

However, who would dare to not only be tempted in front of him who is notorious, but also dare to expose his weakness without defense when he has not received a response?

Still there.

When Wen Zhe's snow-white fox tail opened in front of Rong Xuehuai unsuspectingly, revealing the fragile Wen Zhe that could be easily killed; When the person's fingertips touched, Rong Xuehuai was hit on the head by this unreserved pure emotion as if she had stepped on the predetermined track of fate.

Regarding the once weak thoughts of self-protection, on a certain sunny afternoon, Rong Xuehuai was finally able to speak out with warmth like gossip.

But his lover just looked at him happily, tenderly, with endless love, and said with a smile: "But now we have all come out, Xue Huai is obviously so brave."

"You are the brave one." Rong Xuehuai lowered her head and kissed Wen Zhe's fingertips: "Qingqing, thank you for taking that step towards me."

"If you say that, I'd like to thank you for taking me away from my tragic fate." Wen Zhe's whole body leaned over: "Don't thank me, thank you, each of us drew half of it, and we buckle together to form a perfect circle." .”

The author has something to say: This is an unexpected side story, but it is indeed something I really want to write...

The main thread of this article is about falling in love. The characters of Rong Rong and Xiao Wen are also created from the same mud, regardless of you and me. They are the other half of each other.

In terms of secular aesthetics, Xiao Wen may not be worthy of Rong Rong in the sense of common sense, but what Rong Rong needs is actually not worthy of being worthy in the eyes of everyone.If this is a strategy game, there are only two factors that make Rong Rong tempted: 1. The status is lower than mine. 2. Open up to me first and make me feel safe.

Of course, there are a lot of conditions for condition 1, but condition 2 is more stringent (and very difficult to verify).Xiaowen meets these two core requirements by accident, and at the same time, his kind and gentle personality conforms to Rongrong's aesthetics.So in fact, Rong Rong's fascination with Xiao Wen is by no means just letting go.

In fact, I don’t know if the little angels noticed it. The two of them were in a slightly "sick" state before they met.Wen Zhe's psychological damage is more obvious, but Rong Rong has always been more subtle.He has a strong self-healing ability, but he couldn't bear the same heart knot twice.Under such circumstances, he still implements his tenderness and tolerance, and does not become numb to the love and beauty of the outside world, which is the best he can do.

Of course, if there is no inner demon problem, Rong Rong's insecurity problem is slowly smoothed over under Xiao Wen's long love and company, just like the time when his senior brother accompanied him back then.

Rong Rong once defined herself in this way in the chapter where she confessed after the demon. "I'm actually a weak person, and I've always had anxiety caused by the past in my heart." At that time, a GN asked me if Rong Rong used "weakness" to define herself too harshly, but it was not, it was Rong Rong at that time Rong has really realized his own problem.

Of course, he found it difficult to express such delicate feelings at the time.But later, when he really let go, when he was really relieved, he could speak calmly.

Then I will explain another plot about the heart demon...

Readers have been asking me one after another that Xiao Wen ran away because he didn't trust Rong Rong enough.But in fact, the little angels will find that when Xiao Wen didn't know that Rong Rong's demons were attacking, they had already gone back to find Rong Rong.

In other words, if it wasn't for the villain's deliberate calculations, Xiao Wen would go back and face all of this.Although he suffered from PTSD for a while, he still planned to return to Rong Rong's side after his condition recovered a bit.

Of course, if Rong Rong couldn't give Xiao Wen a reasonable explanation, Xiao Wen would rather die in his hands.As I wrote at the time, "He cannot tolerate people who teach him love and respect and trample on them."

In the character design, the core words of Rong Rong are "persevering tolerance and love", while Xiao Wen is "kindness that emerges from the mud but not stained" and "the tenacity in the deepest part of the soul".

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In addition, due to many reasons (mainly too many words, but not enough cherubs), the custom matter probably fell through QAQ, sorry for the GNs who were looking forward to customization.Let the scumbag author speak boldly, and when more little angels like the scumbag author's article, I will make this customized book again.

Ah, this unfinished customization is probably the heart of the scumbag author_(:з)∠)_

There will be another episode in the back, besides the two I promised you, I also forgot the one about Yu Jin’s end... Well, it seems that the extra episode is going to be over the top _(:з)∠)_