I heard you miss me

Cheng Jin felt the soft touch of his mouth, and his pupils trembled.

Lu Yang stood on tiptoe again and kissed him twice on the lips, Cheng Jin came back to his senses, held him down and said, "This is not how we solve problems."

"Don't you want me?" Lu Yang didn't understand, could it be that Cheng Jin didn't even want to kiss him?

Cheng Jin frowned, and dark feelings brewed in his brown pupils: "Go out."

"I'm not leaving." Lu Yang took his hand, shook it, and said flatteringly, "You can do whatever you want, as long as you can calm down."

"Senior, you..." Cheng Jin looked at his deer-like wet eyes, pink lips, and an inexplicable heat rising in his lower abdomen. Damn, why does this guy always have a way to make me obsessed...

After a while, he cursed in a low voice, supported the back of Lu Yang's head with one hand, put his arms around his waist with the other, and squeezed his lips tightly, and put his tongue into his mouth, wrapping around and caressing him.

The bathroom was surrounded by mist, the temperature kept rising, Cheng Jin's embrace became tighter and tighter, and the panting sound in his ears became heavier and louder. Lu Yang felt that his waist was about to be broken, but he didn't mind at all, he was full of heart and eyes now. Just thinking - Cheng Jin is still willing to kiss him, which means Cheng Jin is not angry.

Great.

He closed his eyes, enduring the stormy kiss.

After an unknown amount of time, the long and intense kiss finally came to an end. Lu Yang panted heavily, and after a while, raised his eyes to look at him, and asked cautiously, "Are you not angry anymore..."

Cheng Jin's eyes were still a little blurred, but when he heard this sentence, his body froze suddenly, and he looked at Lu Yang in disbelief: "You think this is what I want?"

"...No, it's not..."

I know what you want is more than these, but I can't think of any way to calm you down...I'm so stupid, and I can't explain clearly...What can I do?What can I do?

Cheng Jin pushed him away: "Senior, what do you think of me in your heart?"

"...I..." Lu Yang froze for a moment, then waved his hands again and again, "I just don't want you to be unhappy."

"Then when do you think I'll be happy?"

"..." There was an expression on Cheng Jin's face that he had never seen before, which made him at a loss as to how to answer.

"Do you think that when I'm with you, I just want to have sex with you?"

Lu Yang shook his head: "No, I know it's not..."

Cheng Jin laughed at himself: "Go out."

Lu Yang stood there for a while, then whispered, "Cheng Jin...have I made you angry again?"

Cheng Jin looked at him for a long time, then sighed: "Are you so uncomfortable with me?"

"Ah?..." Lu Yang's eyes widened, "Why do you ask such a question suddenly?"

"I don't want you to be with me, the most common thing to say is 'did I make you angry', and I don't want you to be with me. The most common thing to worry about is whether you have been photographed by fans that shouldn't be photographed Photo. During this time, I didn't make you feel comfortable in love, sorry."

Cheng Jin reached out and touched his head lightly.

Lu Yang felt the warm palm touch his head, then brushed across his cheek, and finally left, with the little body temperature, he pulled away together. For some reason, his eyes began to turn red, and his voice became choked up. Almost a sentence came out of his throat: "You just don't believe me... No matter how many times I say it, you don't believe me!"

Cheng Jin froze for a moment, watching his tears roll out of his eyes.

Did it still make you cry in the end... He raised his hand and gently wiped away his tears with his thumb, and his heart throbbed: "It's my fault, it's my fault."

Lu Yang's chest rose and fell violently, and he said: "I like you, if the highest value is [-] points, I like you [-] points, but you always feel that I like you only [-] points, why do you think so in your own heart? Deduct those [-] points? That's my [-] points!"

Cheng Jin smiled wryly, and replied lightly: "Well, I know, it's my problem that made it so hard for you to fall in love."

Lu Yang held his hand and said unwillingly, "Cheng Jin, don't take away my liking for you, okay? Don't think that everyone will abandon you just because your parents once abandoned you. .I will always be by your side, can you trust me?"

Cheng Jin's expression froze: "How do you know about my parents?"

Lu Yang was also taken aback, he didn't want Cheng Jin to know about this, he was afraid that he would think too much, but just when he got excited, he blurted it out.

Facing Cheng Jin's questioning eyes, he had no choice but to tell the truth: "Didn't you meet Ji Shuze when I took you to interview Director Lin that day? Ji Shuze told me something about your family, and I really cared. The next day I went to find Ji Shuze and asked everything clearly, I know that you didn't finish your studies in your third year of high school, and your parents didn't take you with them when they went abroad to avoid debts..."

"You went to ask Ji Shuze, and then you came to me and made friends with me..." Cheng Jinwu read this sentence to himself, and then his whole expression changed, and he became a little depressed, "Senior, you have been in love with me from beginning to end." You all think I'm pitiful, don't you? A child who is extremely insecure after being abandoned by his parents, is this how you see me?"

Lu Yang quickly explained: "I never thought you were pitiful, let alone because you were pitiful that I stayed with you."

"Enough, you go out."

"Cheng Jin..."

"I want to be alone for a while."

"..." Lu Yang was so wronged, but the more anxious he became, the more his head went blank, and he couldn't say anything. In the end, he could only lower his head and slowly exit the bathroom.

After closing the door, he caressed his numb lips, feeling as if someone threw his heart into a huge blender at this moment, which made him ache...

He slid down the bathroom door and squatted on the ground, hugging his knees and burying his head in his arms.

Across the door, Cheng Jin watched the slender figure slowly squat down and shrink into a small ball, and the self-loathing in his heart became stronger and stronger.

After a long time, Lu Yang's voice came through the crack of the door: "Is it harder for the person you fall in love with first?"

"..." Cheng Jin opened his mouth, but couldn't answer.

"It's really unfair, because I chased you first, so I have to bear this?" Lu Yang clenched his hands into fists unconsciously. "I just want to have a good relationship. You can't treat me like this just because I like you. What do you want me to do to feel safe? Do you want me to carry your photo in my arms every day, or handcuff me with chains feet?"

Lu Yang's tears splashed on the floor, and he gritted his teeth and said, "I said I would never leave you...why don't you believe me?"

Cheng Jin's hand was gripping the doorknob, and his veins were bulging. Almost in a second, he couldn't help but rush out and press the person outside into his arms...

But before he could make a move, Lu Yang moved first. He got up from the ground, grabbed his phone and ran out of the room.

With a "bang", the door was slammed shut, and Cheng Jin stood in the foggy bathroom, sleeping weakly on his arms.

You always feel that you chased after me first, so you must love me deeper than me, right?Senior.

Those three years in high school, thinking about it now, are a very ancient time.

To be honest, until the end of the second semester of high school, Cheng Jin's life was smooth and smooth, and he never expected any earth-shaking changes.

The playground in the afternoon was extremely lively. It seemed that the third graders were holding a mobilization meeting for the college entrance examination. On the green grass, a group of students in blue school uniforms lined up neatly.He was lazily lying on the desk, looking out the window, and happened to be able to see the playground.

He braced his head and thought: Which row will Lu Yang be in...

The math teacher's voice was so hypnotic that he fell asleep after a while.

I don't know how long it took, but half asleep and half awake, I felt someone pushing him.

"Cheng Jin, Cheng Jin!"

"Huh?" He opened his eyes in a daze, and saw a fat girl wearing glasses at his front desk, looking at him and saying, "Look out the window, someone is looking for you."

Cheng Jin looked around and saw Lu Yang standing in the corridor, waving at him vigorously.

The class exploded, especially the girls—"Wow, Cheng Jin, your senior is looking for you again!"

Those girls didn't know what kind of novels they were addicted to during that time, and they were always inexplicably excited when they saw the interaction between two men, especially the good-looking boys.

They deliberately added the word "your family" before the word "senior", and smiled ambiguously.

"My home"...well...

Cheng Jin tasted the word repeatedly in his heart, and slightly curled up the corners of his mouth, extremely satisfied—yes, Luyang belongs to my family, and he will be registered in my family's household registration book in the future.

He walked to the window, and before he could open his mouth, Lu Yang began to talk endlessly: "Hey, I just started the pep rally! It's super hot outside, and the principal is talking too much nonsense!"

"Well, I see it."

"Eh? You can see the playground? Are you looking for me?"

"……No."

"Okay... you really don't care about me at all..." Lu Yang's face fell down, he was a little depressed, and immediately changed to a new topic, "I'm going to take the college entrance examination soon, and I'm nervous just thinking about it ah."

"You still know you are nervous, so can you throw away those danmei comics in your schoolbag first?"

"That can't be done, that's my baby." Lu Yang reached into the window lattice and grabbed Cheng Jin's school uniform sleeve, "Tell me, if I pass the college entrance examination, what reward will you give me?"

"Why should I reward you?"

"That way I'm more motivated!"

"Hmm..." Cheng Jin thought for a while and said, "Well, if you get admitted to Benyi, we will get married in the future."

"Eh?" Lu Yang was taken aback, his eyes blinked, and it took him a while to digest the words, "What?! You want to marry me? Really?!"

"fake."

"No, I heard it, you said you want to marry me, I heard it!" Lu Yang smirked and danced happily.

All the classmates in the class were amused by him, everyone thought they were joking, only Cheng Jin knew that he was serious.