Bandit Shi Xianyu

Time flies, and the novelty of Dad's return passes quickly. One reason is that adults always need a job.During this month, he witnessed his father stepping out of the house again and again, and returning disappointed again and again. The room he saw that day with no lights turned on quickly became the norm.

In all fairness, grandma never urged Pei Yueshan to find a job, and Pei Cangyu didn't have this awareness, but Pei Yueshan seemed to be more decadent when he came back every time he went out. This "layer" does not mean adding a layer of haze , on the contrary, it is more like a layer of calm has faded away, and many self-deceiving peaces have gradually disappeared.

Pei Yueshan became silent gradually, he no longer had the mind to get into a parent-child relationship with Pei Cangyu, he always sat at the table frowning, with a bottle of beer and a plate of side dishes, sitting gloomy by himself, as if thinking about something.

And grandma, in fact, has already started to do some small inspection jobs in the community, earning some pocket money of a few hundred yuan, and always takes off the inspector's work badge when entering the door.Pei Cangyu noticed this, and it made him feel a little complicated. It turned out that after the reunion of parents and children and the family reunion, people still face so many difficult dilemmas.

One day, Pei Yueshan tore off all his certificates in the room, turned them into waste paper, tore them into pieces, threw them on the ground randomly, and scattered them all over the place.

Pei Cangyu came back first, and when he saw it, he squatted down to pick up the shredded papers in surprise, and gathered the shredded papers together. His heart ached, he didn't know if he could glue them together.

Pei Yueshan put down his wine, walked over, stepped on Pei Cangyu's hand, bent down: "Release."

Pei Cangyu clenched the paper in his hand tightly, not letting go, and looked back angrily: "No! This is grandma's, not yours."

Pei Yueshan let go of his feet and squatted down: "You don't know how to read? Isn't my name written on it?"

Pei Cangyu stubbornly clenched the waste paper in his hand: "It's not yours, it's grandma's."

Pei Yueshan looked at him for a while, and stopped talking. He stood up, unzipped his zipper, and started urinating directly on the ground with his award scraps.

Pei Cangyu was stunned.

The urine hit the ground, picked it up, and almost threw it on Pei Cangyu, who was so shocked that Pei Cangyu fell backwards, turned over suddenly and stood up, angrily, and swears at her own father: "What the fuck are you doing? "

After peeing, Pei Yueshan shook the bird, zipped up the zipper, and kicked the debris on the ground: "Sweep it." Then he turned and left the room.

Pei Cangyu grabbed the paper in his hand, looked at the muddy floor, and trembled with anger.

But there was no other way, he could only sweep away the crumbs on the floor before grandma came back, and mopped the floor several times. Every time he washed the mop and passed the living room, he would stare viciously at his old man who was drinking , but Pei Yueshan didn't react at all, and didn't even look at him.

Pei Cangyu procrastinated and scolded, feeling that the prison is really harmful, no wonder his grandma told him to study hard. Fortunately, he found out in various street fights that this profession is doomed to no future, so he was determined not to engage in such a high-risk career Otherwise, sooner or later he will grow up to be his old man...

Pei Cangyu washed the mop angrily, and went to cook again. He didn't plan to make it for his father today. Although his grandma would tell him, he didn't care. If he couldn't do it, he would fight. As the saying goes, all grown-up sons beat me... ...There should be such a saying... Anyway, that's what it means.

Because my heart was suffocating, my movements were so large that I felt like I was going to smash the dishes when I washed them, and there was a lot of jingling in the kitchen.

He was washing celery, and he grabbed the root viciously, when he saw his old man slip into the kitchen and stand at the door for a while.Pei Cangyu pulled the celery as hard as he was pulling his old man's hair, relentlessly.

Then he threw the washed celery onto the plate, nearly knocking it over.

Pei Yueshan caught the plate that was about to fall to the ground, and put it back on the table: "Why are you smashing it?"

Pei Cangyu didn't even look at him, and walked straight in front of him, bumping him backwards. Although Pei Cangyu almost fell down because of her poor physique, as long as she could shake his old man, it would be considered a success.

Pei Yueshan took a step back, crossed his arms, and watched Pei Cangyu skillfully open the hot pot, holding the oil pot, ready to pour oil into it.

Maybe it was too angry, Pei Cangyu was about to throw the celery just after putting in the oil, the water-soaked celery jumped like an explosion in the oil pan, Pei Cangyu hurriedly looked for the lid of the pot, his exposed forearm was burned, and his hand flinched .

Immediately afterwards, he felt someone pulling him by the back of the collar, pulling him to the back, and then the person stood in front, and started to turn it with a shovel, and the splashed oil droplets scalded his skin, which had no effect at all.

Pei Yue didn't look back: "Go out."

Pei Cangyu stood there for a while, looking at his tall father's back, and suddenly became angry again.

Think about it, my father just came out of prison, and his job search was not going well, so it's normal to be a little bit worried, and seeing how outstanding he was when he was young, he felt even more unbalanced, which is really normal, very normal.

Alas, it is a pity that his father made some mistakes when he was young, and he will be middle-aged when he comes out. It is really embarrassing to waste a good time in prison.

Pei Cangyu found many reasons to sympathize with him, and then convinced herself.Especially looking at his father's back, this kind of back that he never looked at when he was growing up, and the place he never avoided, he has to admit that even if he doesn't need it in life, Pei Cangyu still wants a father, if possible , and a mother.

But one cannot be too greedy.

Pei Cangyu stood there for a while, then walked out.

His dad is cooking in the kitchen.

Today, my grandma inspected the three campuses to see if the garbage is properly put away. This job requires the elderly to go to the trash cans and garbage stations in the community, looking at each of them. Grandma came back today with that smell.

But as soon as grandma saw the back in the kitchen, she smiled on her tired and cautious face. She looked at Pei Cangyu in surprise, as if asking.Pei Cangyu forced a smile as a response.

In this way, grandma can be happy for at least a week.

Pei Cangyu looked at that figure again, and felt that this figure really had too much energy entrusted to it.

Pei Yueshan is still like this, his state is good and bad, and there are more bad times.

***

"What's bothering you?" Shiraishi asked him.

Pei Cangyu was startled, and raised her prostrate head from her arms: "What?"

Baishi smiled: "You sighed nineteen times in last class."

Pei Cangyu was a little embarrassed: "I also listened to the class for a while." Then she reacted, "Why are you counting this?"

Baishi kept smiling: "Because the voice is loud."

"Did it bother you?" Pei Cangyu's voice was a little softer, a little apologetic.

"No."

"That's none of your business." When Pei Cangyu heard that he didn't disturb the good students' studies, he immediately became confident.

Baishi hesitated for a moment: "Actually, it's a bit noisy..."

Pei Cangyu smiled, and stepped on the rung under the white stone stool: "Pull, keep going, I'll see if you can pull out something."

The rung he was stepping on was the side rung, and it happened that Baishi also had one leg on the front rung, so Pei Cangyu's knee pressed against Baishi's calf, and Pei Cangyu swayed her leg while laughing again, and his knee was on Baishi's. Rubbing back and forth on his legs, Baishi lowered his head to look at Pei Cangyu's knees, but couldn't hear what Pei Cangyu said.

Pei Cangyu patted him on the shoulder: "Why are you running away? Someone is looking for you outside."

Baishi followed Pei Cangyu's gaze and saw Lu Mingpan standing at the back door.

Pei Cangyu looked at it for a while before realizing: "Hey, I didn't write this to you before..." He suddenly stopped talking, looked around, and made sure no one was listening, so he lowered his voice and moved closer to Baishi's ear, " The one with the love letter?"

As he spoke, he winked triumphantly with an expression of "see if I'm loyal enough".

If it was the old Baishi, he would have to say something to piss off the overly happy Pei Cangyu, but the new Baishi couldn't do that, he smiled, stood up and walked back without saying anything.

Pei Cangyu originally thought that Baishi would say something, no matter how bad he was, he had to talk about when the two of them became acquainted, and they already went to each other's classes to find each other?

He watched Baishi walk up to Lu Mingpan, and the two of them walked towards the corridor together. There were girls talking about them besides Baishi, and they even talked about Lu Mingpan.

Pei Cangyu thought about it for a while, and it seemed that it was indeed.Lu Mingba seems to have changed a bit, how should I put it?Not so obscene, and he seems to be a little taller than Shiraishi...

The girls' comments were even more generous. Pei Cangyu felt that it was a bit too much. After all, there is still a big gap between Lu Mingban and Baishi...

Then the girls suddenly said: "...this pair is so eye-catching..."

Pei Cangyu suddenly turned to look at them, stared at them with the two girls, and stared together for a few seconds, then the girl laughed and threw the eraser in her hand: "What did you look at suddenly, it scared me."

Pei Cangyu was caught clumsily, stood up and sent it to others, the girl looked at him with a smile, reached out and patted his arm: "What's wrong with you? Do you know Lu Mingba?"

Pei Cangyu thought for a while, then shook her head: "I've seen it."

The girls laughed and said that Lu Mingban is pretty good now, he knows how to dress up, and Pei Cangyu, you can learn too.

Pei Cangyu burst into anger: "What am I learning? He dresses up because..."

He bit off the "fag" that was about to blurt out, and swallowed.

The girl became interested: "Why? Because of what? I knew you boys must know each other a lot... Does he have a girlfriend? I heard he has a very old girlfriend..."

Pei Cangyu thought to himself that this is where it is, he doesn't know this.But the girl kept asking questions, Pei Cangyu gritted her teeth: "Because he's handsome, okay?"

The girl's expression was wonderful, mixed with doubts, curiosity, disgust and a little bit of excitement: "I thought boys wouldn't praise boys for being handsome."

Pei Cangyu nodded: "Of course, there is still a certain gap compared with me."

The girl smiled and patted him. As soon as the plane came in and saw Pei Cangyu talking to the girl, she came over happily: "What are you talking about? Take me one..."

Pei Cangyu pushed him away, walked back with his arms around his shoulders: "Do you understand the monthly exam?"

The plane patted Pei Cangyu's chest: "It's too much brother, you secretly talk to girls and don't let me listen..."

Baishi didn't come back until class was over, Pei Cangyu raised his head from the table, and while packing up his books, he asked as casually as possible: "Hey, where have you been, how long have you been?"

Baishi turned his head to look at him, Pei Cangyu's face still had marks from sleeping, half of his face was a little red because of being pressed under it, his hair was upturned, and the three books in his hand were stacked up and down meaninglessly, as if He asked casually, but kept glancing over here.

Bai Shi turned to look at him, propping his chin with his hands: "He lent me gay movies."

Pei Cangyu choked on her own breathing, turned her head and coughed for a long time, and even suspended the class for a while.

Baishi reached out to pat him on the back, but Pei Cangyu dodged for a while, and Baishi's hand froze in place.

Pei Cangyu scratched her hair in a panic when she saw it: "Hey, I didn't mean that, the main thing is that I'm afraid you have strong hands..."

Baishi lowered his head, blinked his long eyelashes, nodded obediently, and showed a bitter smile that I still feel pity for.

Pei Cangyu sighed: "Then why don't you take pictures, you can take pictures..."

As he spoke, he rushed his back towards Baishi, covering his forehead in such annoyance, Baishi was too troublesome, it was troublesome when he was not gay, and it is just as troublesome now.It can be seen that a troublesome person has nothing to do with whether he is gay or not, he is a troublesome person, or his troublesome gay.

Bai Shi patted him: "He asked me to borrow homework."

"Ah? Oh." Pei Cangyu turned around, "Finished?"

"if not?"

"I thought you would definitely take the opportunity to get revenge." Pei Cangyu squinted at him, "Your boy is very vengeful, I see through you."

Baishi smiled: "I've changed, really."

***

When Pei Cangyu came home today, she was actually in a good mood.

But his father, it seems that another day is not going well.

No lights on.

When he came in, Pei Yueshan said not to turn on the light.

Pei Cangyu hesitated for a moment, gritted his teeth, and decided to turn on the light.It's always dark without the lights on.

But the switch is broken.

Pei Yueshan waved at him, Pei Cangyu stood there for a while, then walked over.

He sat down, and Pei Yueshan poured him a glass of wine as before.

Today's Pei Yueshan is even more decadent. He wears a vest, which makes the bulging muscles on his back more obvious, and the scars on his back are more shocking, and Pei Yueshan keeps coughing.

Pei Cangyu held down his cup: "Why don't you drink some water."

Pei Yueshan took the cup out of Pei Cangyu's hands: "It's not about this." He turned his head to look at the sky, "It's the weather."

"what?"

"I can't take it on cloudy days, my lungs hurt." Pei Yueshan shook hands, making a joint noise, the sky outside was getting darker, and a rainstorm was brewing.

Pei Cangyu asked cautiously, "Why?"

Pei Yueshan suddenly raised his head and met his eyes, with a deep voice: "Why? Why else?"

At this moment, Pei Cangyu suddenly became a little scared.This is the strong sense of strangeness and oppressive violence he felt when he first saw Pei Yueshan, like a hurricane about to squeeze into ordinary people's homes. The problem is that their home is so small that the hurricane cannot be accommodated.

Pei Yueshan licked his lips and stared at Pei Cangyu: "Do you know what we do?"

Pei Cangyu couldn't move his eyes, so he swallowed dryly.

Pei Yueshan grabbed his hand, and even the palm of his hand was callused, which almost hurt Pei Cangyu.

"Grinding plasterboard. I have been doing this for three years. I heard that this one will get pneumoconiosis - the one who used to oversee it. But what if he gets it, he can't work anymore, but [-] a month is not enough to support a family of three. The problem, as for us, the workers didn't compensate, damn it, we don't treat them as human beings." Pei Yueshan spat and vomited on the ground. "It's all fucking useless, what are you pretending to be awesome, a tall piece of trash, there used to be someone who got sick, didn't he die outside after going back and forth three times? It's useless, it's the same when you go in and out. From the moment I met your mother, I was really unlucky."

Pei Yueshan pinched Pei Cangyu's chin: "The bitch runs fast, what is she, she has a little money at home, she is stupid as hell, knows nothing, is bullied by girls all day long, is looked down upon by others, I borrowed her A pen, with me every day, want to give me this, give me that. Damn, she insists on letting me fuck her on her birthday, crying, saying that she has nothing. Then she said she wanted to give birth, said she wanted to elope, said I want to get married. I'm fucking sick, I actually believed it, I should do what they said, let her knock you out, so that I can still be my good student, and she will go back to be her eldest lady."

Pei Yueshan patted Pei Cangyu's face lightly: "Only at this time, you will understand that it doesn't cost a lot of money for a rich person to make a mistake, and she still has a place to go and return to her life track. We didn't, we didn't make a mistake opportunity, we cannot afford the price."

Pei Yueshan wiped the redness from the corners of Pei Cangyu's eyes: "Don't cry Pei Cangyu, think about it carefully, she is really a bitch, I say she is gentle, have you ever imagined that even once, your mother will come and see her?" You, or ask for your news?"

Pei Cangyu's mind went blank.

"But don't think about it, you should know that there are such people in the world, she is just selfish, she calls it 'smart', but Pei Cangyu, do you think this is smart? Think about it with your orphan life, and praise her This is called 'people do not kill themselves for their own sake'. Try it? Can you boast?"

Pei Cangyu stood up to leave, but his father grabbed his shoulders, pulled him back, and pressed him on the chair: "Why don't you blame her, you should blame her, don't be foolish enough to think that parents love their children." He stood Get up and look down at Pei Cangyu, "Your mother is a slut, she is a slut in personality, it has nothing to do with gender, it has nothing to do with age, it has nothing to do with you, it has nothing to do with me, she can sleep with whoever she wants, give birth Child, you talk about love, love, and responsibility, but when you turn around and run thousands of miles away, you will never find it."

Pei Cangyu lowered her head and didn't want to listen, struggling to stand up, Pei Yueshan sighed.

Pei Cangyu struggled harder, he punched and kicked, and growled to ask Pei Yueshan to let him go, he pushed Pei Yueshan away with red eyes, he didn't even want to know if there was a father and mother who came here like this, why teach him now No matter how love and hate, people can survive without distinguishing so clearly, why bother to find it hard.

He wanted to go back to his room.

He was thumping, but he couldn't escape Pei Yueshan's hand. Pei Yueshan just looked at him, hugged his head, stroked the back of his head, and comforted him gently: "Okay, okay... good……"

Pei Cangyu was tired, his eyes were red, his teeth were gritted, without saying a word, he stubbornly pushed Pei Yueshan's abdomen hard, but he didn't push.

Pei Yueshan touched his head: "I see, I won't talk about her..."

Pei Cangyu's struggles were slowly extinguished, he was gasping for breath, his eyes were dry, and he wanted to cry aggrievedly, but he didn't remember that he had cried, even now his eyes were only red, like a small animal with flames out.

Pei Yueshan looked down at his hair: "How can someone not want you?"

Pei Cangyu lowered his head and let Pei Yueshan support him, feeling that the world was spinning. He smelled the smell of wine on Pei Yueshan's body and the fragrance of his clothes, which mixed together strangely.