Bandit Shi Xianyu

Pei Cangyu woke up once during the night. He probably drank too much water. He kicked off the quilt and got up to go to the bathroom. When he sat up, he saw Baishi sitting by the window first.

Their bedroom is not small. There is a carpet in front of the big bed, and the end of the carpet is next to the floor-to-ceiling window. There is a small bamboo table and two armchairs by the window. Baishi is sitting on the armchair right now, holding a cigarette between his fingers. No dots, bare feet, bright moonlight sprinkled on his feet.

When Pei Cangyu woke up, she suddenly looked over and thought it was someone, and was shocked, but the key point was that Baishi sat there without making a sound, like a ghost.

Pei Cangyu rubbed his eyes and got out of bed: "You don't sleep, my God, are you insomnia?" He squatted on the ground looking for slippers, stepped on them and walked outside.

Baishi turned his head and glanced at him, but didn't answer, watching him go to the bathroom.

After a while, Pei Cangyu came back, he was drowsy, walked up to Baishi and patted him: "Then I fell asleep?"

Shiraishi nodded.

Pei Cangyu walked towards the bed and found one thing, there was nothing on the floor, where did Baishi sleep these two days?

Thinking of this, he woke himself up. After standing for a while, he turned his head to look at Baishi, and asked tentatively, "Well, have you put away your sleeping things?"

Shiraishi moved his neck and turned around, a posture that was a little stiff after a long time: "No. I haven't slept. Now that you're awake, can I smoke?"

Pei Cangyu reacted for a while, then walked over with a frown: "What do you mean 'haven't slept'?"

Bai Shi raised the cigarette in his hand and lit it up: "It's just that I haven't slept yet."

Pei Cangyu was taken aback, he looked carefully at Baishi's face, only under the light of the moon did he notice the thick blackness under Baishi's eyes, which he didn't usually notice.

"That is... how many days? It's been a few days, right? You haven't slept in the past few days?" Pei Cangyu waved his hands exaggeratedly, "Aren't you sleepy?"

Bai Shi glanced at him: "It's okay."

Pei Cangyu sank into the chair with emotion: "Mom, you are so awesome, although you used to say you only slept four or five hours a day when you were in school, but you haven't slept these few days... Hey, are you the kind Someone who doesn't need sleep?"

Bai Shi smiled and shook his head: "How is it possible."

"Then why don't you sleep?"

Baishi looked up at Pei Cangyu, and smiled wryly: "I can't tie you up."

Pei Cangyu froze for a moment.

Oh, kidnapped.Almost forgot again.

He lowered his head and said nothing.Bai Shi silently smoked across from him, and the smell of smoke wafted over.

Pei Cangyu raised his head.Noticing his gaze, Shiraishi also turned back his eyes looking out of the window.

Always gentle and calm, no intentions can be seen, and it is impossible to earn it.

Pei Cangyu suddenly asked: "Then what were you thinking when you were sitting by yourself?"

Baishi lowered his eyes, as if he was thinking: "Maybe I'm thinking of you."

Pei Cangyu is used to such words, and now he doesn't feel embarrassed. He just feels strange: "What are you thinking? I don't even think about food when I eat."

Baishi smiled because of his metaphor, flicked the cigarette ash: "It happened in the past."

Pei Cangyu snorted, scratched her hair, and smiled with the corners of her mouth: "That's right, we haven't seen each other for so many years, if you have any obsessions, it's probably because of the old me. I've changed a lot. "

Shiraishi looked at him.

Pei Cangyu turned to look out of the window: "Occasionally, I also feel that I used to be pretty good, motivated, popular, optimistic and cheerful, willing to try everything, and never sullen with others." He looked at Baishi with a smile, " You know? No one talks to me in the class I'm repeating now."

He played with the ashtray on the table: "Yes, I'm much older than them, and I'm always too fierce. Speaking of which, it seems that I haven't chatted with anyone for a long time..."

Baishi looked at him, put the cigarette out in the ashtray, and sat forward, in a position where he could see Pei Cangyu's hair when he lowered his head: "Where are they? Your friends?"

Pei Cangyu shook his head: "It's over, everyone is busy." He frowned and scratched his forehead, "Because I didn't bother to apologize, it was like being angry, and I felt that it would be a big deal to leave..."

"How about high school, didn't you make any friends?"

Pei Cangyu quickly raised his head to look at Baishi, then lowered his head: "No..."

"Because of me?" Baishi asked him.

"Ah?" Pei Cangyu panicked, "With you..."

"Because I killed him. His body is still hanging on the wall, so there must be a lot of trouble." Baishi looked at Pei Cangyu, "I heard that your grandma passed away the next year."

Pei Cangyu smiled wryly: "You know a lot."

Baishi acquiesced, staring at Pei Cangyu's ear for a while, stretched his hand forward, his fingers almost touched Pei Cangyu's hand clutching the ashtray, but he still retracted it.

"do you hate me?"

Pei Cangyu shook his head without hesitation.

Baishi's eyes lit up, but Pei Cangyu couldn't see it with his head down.Baishi paused and asked again: "Then... are you grateful to me?"

Pei Cangyu still shook his head.

Shiraishi wanted to smoke again.

"I don't know when I started to feel that I am no longer growing." Pei Cangyu was a little lost in thought, "Do you understand that feeling, that is, watching the people around you leave in batches, and they all have places to go, but I don't. Like ants getting lost, only getting older. Because I'm always alone, I hardly feel the passage of time, I'm almost alone at school, and I'm almost alone at home, there is no difference between yesterday and today, I left in the morning without washing If I don’t talk to anyone one day, it’s as if I’m invisible, have you ever been in the water?” Pei Cangyu made a gesture, “But you have to wipe it to throw it away. If I throw it into deep water, there will be no reaction, I am that kind of stone.”

Baishi opened his mouth, wanting to say something, but his words were poor.

"Later, I also lost contact with my former classmates. I probably felt that it would be better if I didn't go to see others. I didn't know what to do. I used to know that I should study hard, but suddenly one day I felt that There is no difference in anything, and every time I sit down to write, if I can't write much, I will think of the time when Pei Yueshan said he would buy me a desk lamp, the tone, the picture, I don't want to write anymore." Pei Cangyu licked He licked his lips, "I'm too naive, I don't want to think about the future anymore... Going to school, a different place, and a new environment all make me feel uncomfortable. Thinking about it makes me uncomfortable. I don't have anything. The only thing I'm familiar with is me. My home, if I have to leave my home, I'm afraid I'll drown outside, that is... drowning... yes, it's the feeling of entering water..."

"I always feel..." Pei Cangyu stared at the ashtray, her voice was very low, "I'm very lonely."

Bai Shi looked at his face: "I know."

Baishi said these three words in a very soft voice, a little hoarse, almost blowing into his ears with a sigh, Pei Cangyu didn't dare to raise his head at all, since he sat in front of Baishi, people are always easy to talk to each other in a room with no lights on.

Pei Cangyu looked down at his own fingers, and Baishi's hand, which had never approached after a distance.The moon was so bright that it made people blush, blue veins were throbbing in Baishi's hands, and his fingertips were glowing red. Pei Cangyu thought for no reason, if Baishi stretched out his hand now, it seemed that he would refuse no matter what he did.Probably the real Stockholm.

Bai Shi didn't move, just looked at him: "Then how can you be happy?"

Pei Cangyu raised her head when she heard the words: "What?"

Bai Shi looked bewildered, with a soft light in his eyes: "I'm thinking, but I don't know what to do."

Pei Cangyu's heartbeat suddenly accelerated. In this ambiguous atmosphere, he felt that if he asked to go back at this time, Baishi might agree.

He looked at Baishi's eyes full of repressed emotions and his haggard face, and thought, if he said something wrong and angered him, it would be like throwing away those books by the river, he wondered what Baishi would do.

Besides, Pei Cangyu pursed her lips, Baishi looked very tired, just holding on.

Baishi was like a lamp god waiting for Aladdin to make a wish, waiting for Pei Cangyu to speak.

Pei Cangyu took a deep breath, and was about to speak, but the curtains were blown up, and suddenly floated among them, Pei Cangyu's eyes suddenly turned blue, and he could hear the sound of chairs over there.Shiraishi stood up, pulled up the curtains, closed the gap left by the window, and sat down: "Sorry, let's get some ventilation." He pointed to the ashtray.

Pei Cangyu said, "Go to sleep."

Bai Shi didn't understand: "What?"

"You are too tired, take a rest." Pei Cangyu looked at him and said.

Bai Shi stared into his eyes: "Did you just want to say this?"

Pei Cangyu stood up: "Sleep, Baishi. I hate using my brain." He walked to the edge of the bed and threw himself on it, burying his face in the pillow and making a muffled sound, "To be honest, if everything is arranged for me, I will It’s okay to play dumb.”

He heard footsteps approaching and stopped beside him, Bai Shi leaned over and asked in his ear: "Can I sleep on the bed?" Then quickly added, "I won't do anything."

Pei Cangyu laughed. He had seen this kind of dialogue in various movies, and it was quite amazing to hear it so formally.He rolled to the side, and Baishi lay down beside him.

"White Rock."

"Ok?"

"Do you like me?"

Baishi didn't answer, but glanced at him and smiled: "Go to sleep."

"What about you? Where did you go after that?" Pei Cangyu didn't intend to sleep.

Baishi looked at the ceiling: "I...well, I've been to many places."

"Is it here?"

"Here, other places, follow Ding Chuan."

Pei Cangyu raised his eyebrows in surprise: "That man...how did I remember that he was a gangster..." He didn't finish speaking, and looked at Baishi.

Shiraishi turned to look at him, his eyes acquiescing.

Pei Cangyu swallowed dryly: "Then what are you going to do in the future? You might be wanted now."

"Don't worry." Shiraishi answered him affirmatively, as if he was very sure, and then said after a pause, "I think the current living conditions are very good, and this is a place where I can live for a long time."

"really? Why?"

"Don't you think?" Baishi asked him back, "The environment here is very good, the community atmosphere is very good, the neighbors around will leave for a while when they are busy, we will not be suspected when we come and go, and everyone will not interfere with us, the community The police relationship is also very close, and the facilities are also…”

"It just so happens that I don't understand anything, I can't talk to people, I can't run away." Pei Cangyu answered his words.

Bai Shi looked at him, paused and said, "You can think so if you want."

Pei Cangyu turned around irritably, he found the trick, as long as this topic is not brought up, Baishi is still the same Baishi who wants and wants, Pei Cangyu has an intuition that Baishi may do anything for him, as long as he abides by his rules.

Bai Shi approached him, and asked behind his back: "Can I touch you?"

Pei Cangyu sneered, then turned to look at Baishi's face who was close at hand: "What is this? Don't you know what dating is?"

Baishi told him: "I understand."

"Oh, then when do you usually want to touch other people?"

What Pei Cangyu wants to prove is that people only want to 'touch' the people they like.

Baishi answered him solemnly: "Now."

Pei Cangyu failed in teaching, gave up on herself, turned around, and muttered: "Whatever you want, I give up, gay dies, anyway, I don't care."

Baishi's arm slowly stretched out from behind, wrapped his arms around his waist, and just touched the rolled skin of the pajamas, Pei Cangyu tickled, moved, and Baishi got closer.

Pei Cangyu didn't move, Baishi's breath blew against his ear, shaking his broken hair.

Pei Cangyu thought, I am the only normal person in this house.I believe that murder should be punished by law, and crime should be judged. If you like someone, you will do a lot of things for him. You want to keep him by your side. If you like someone, you have to say it clearly. There is no result for ambiguity, and there is no good end for usurpation. .

Too bad he's the only normal guy.

Bai Shi kissed his ear, tightened his arm, very happy: "Just this house, we can die here in the future."