love like a shooting star

20.

They did AI on the bed in the bedroom that night.Concerned about Shi Jin's getting worse and worse health, Gao Cheng wanted to stop after just touching and kissing at first, but Shi Jin refused. He pressed against Gao Cheng's fiery chest, panting lightly and said, "Be gentle, it's okay." Gao Cheng had no choice but to follow him.

It was quite restrained at the beginning, and it was fully lubricated with lubricant before it went deeper and slid in very gently.Shi Jin tried his best to relax himself, and with Gao Cheng's movements, the soft mattress began to rise and fall.Gao Cheng, who was wrapped in warm and humid heat, really wanted to vent, but he didn't do so. He tried his best to restrain the rushing and clamoring feeling in his body, and patiently grinded and contradicted him, allowing Kuai Gan to climb step by step.The long process, the endless in and out, Gao Cheng's tenacious persistence finally brought about an uncontrollable spasm in the lower abdomen, and immediately felt the lower abdomen was hot and sticky.Shi Jin was panting, his eyes lost focus, as if his soul was flying nine days away, Gao Cheng looked at Shi Jin's expression, and released himself amidst the contraction of the people below him.

They only did it twice that night, and Shi Jin faintly woke up after a brief faint.With something stuffed in his mouth, the sweet and greasy aroma of milk slid into his throat, Shi Jin smiled weakly.

"Company commander, what's the matter? Use the big white rabbit as ginseng and hang me for life?"

Gao Cheng lightly kissed Shi Jin's sweaty forehead, teasingly said: "What hanging, it's so ugly to say, it would be nice to eat candy afterwards to replenish your strength." He ate a piece of it himself.

"...In the middle of the night, how can you sleep with such sweetness in your mouth?"

"Are you sleepy?" Gao Cheng restlessly rubbed Shi Jin's waist with his hands, his tone was meaningful.

Shi Jin's small eyes immediately flashed a warning light, and begged: "Company commander, please forgive me."

Gao Cheng chuckled: "I'm thinking wrong, Comrade Shi Jin, I mean can you sleep with this sticky body? Take a bath."

Gao Cheng helped Shi Jin to the bathroom and cleaned him carefully, then Shi Jin wrapped himself in a towel and watched Gao Cheng tidy up the messy bed.After re-laying, Gao Cheng smiled at Shi Jin: "Okay, it's so comfortable, you go to bed first." Then he kissed Shi Jin's forehead, and then walked to the bathroom, "I'll wash it too."

It was already past three o'clock in the morning when Gaocheng got out of the shower. I thought Shi Jin was asleep, but the bed was still neatly made. After putting on his pajamas, Shi Jin stood in a daze in front of the huge glass window.The moonlight shone on the thin back, and Gao Cheng suddenly felt sad, and couldn't help but walk over and hug him from behind.Shi Jin turned his head to look at Gao Cheng, showing a leisurely and peaceful smile.

They embraced each other in silence.

There was a burst of waves outside the window, and the waves were churning.

The affectionate wind rolls the tide, and the tide returns mercilessly.

……

In this paradise far away from the hustle and bustle, Gao Cheng and Shi Jin really lived a happy life.They nest in the villa during the day, go out for a walk occasionally, go to the beach to watch performances at night, and have sex at night.The lover is by his side, the years are quiet, Gao Cheng almost thinks that this fairy-like life will continue forever.

People are always unwilling to face reality, or even if they know that the result will be a dead end, they stubbornly refuse to think about it. They just hope to see more scenery along the way, and this life is not in vain.But the end point is there, and it is getting closer day by day. Standing on tiptoe, you can even see the pale claws of death, but there is nothing you can do.

On a sunny afternoon, when the two of them were walking in the yard, Shi Jin suddenly had a sharp pain in his chest. Gao Cheng hurriedly helped him to sit on the bench.Shi Jin's face was terribly pale, and he still coughed up two mouthfuls of blood after enduring it for a long time. Since then, his illness has become severe and serious, and it's getting worse and worse.Gao Cheng had to face the reality, the lover he found after searching for thousands of times, his today, will leave him one day.

Shi Jin became weaker and weaker, often coughing up blood, and fell asleep for most of the day, unable to go downstairs or out of the house, and going to the beach to watch performances became a luxury fantasy.Gao Cheng accompanied him, feeling extremely sad, but in front of Shi Jin, he could only stand upright and force a smile.

They still slept together, but there was no excessive intimacy.One night, Gao Cheng held the sleeping Shi Jin in his arms, but he couldn't sleep all night. Shi Jin suddenly woke up in the early morning, buried his face in Gao Cheng's shoulder and said softly, "I've dragged you down, company commander. If you're so sick, you can't do anything." I can't do it for you..." Gao Cheng felt his shoulders wet, and he knew that Shi Jin was crying, so he hugged Shi Jin silently and said softly, "You don't need to do anything, it's fine like this."

One day, Gaocheng received an email from Beijing, the sender Ji Rou, the content of the letter is as follows:

Gao Cheng, the child was born, she is a lovely daughter.Everything is fine with me, you don't have to worry about it.How is Shi Jin?Is your body better?Thinking that the environment in the resort is much better than in Beijing, his illness should have improved.You have to take good care of him.

Our school will recommend a group of young teachers to go to Canada for further study, leave next month, and come back in a year.I think this is a good opportunity, and I should learn more.

Before I leave, I want to settle one thing.So Gao Cheng, let's get a divorce.After thinking for a long time, I still made this decision.Maybe such a decision reflects the irresponsibility of a mother, but since the marriage was a mistake from the beginning, why not end it as soon as possible?They can still be friends without being husband and wife. Facing each other in different identities may make them feel more relaxed.I sincerely hope you and him can be happy.

The child is with my parents, you can visit her anytime.I will mail you the divorce agreement, and you will sign it and send it back to me.

Wish everything is well.

Gao Cheng sat quietly in front of the computer, his eyes wandering between the lines, and after reading for a long time, he clicked close to disappear these words into nothingness.He looked calm on the surface, but the deep guilt in the amber eyes betrayed his mood.In the final analysis, I was the most responsible for this failed marriage. Ji Rou was hurt and an innocent child was involved.Gao Cheng was in a gloomy mood, and in a trance, he didn't realize that Shi Jin, who didn't know when he woke up, propped up half of his body, leaned against the head of the bed and looked at him blankly.

"What's the matter with you, company commander?" Shi Jin's voice was not loud, but he spoke clearly.

Gao Cheng suddenly came back to his senses, and was overjoyed to see Shi Jin wake up at first: "Today, how long have you been awake?" Will wake up, no wonder the tongue is a little knotted when I am happy at the moment.

Shi Jin smiled slightly: "I've been awake for a long time, but you didn't notice, are you in a bad mood?"

"No. It's just that you've been sleeping and I'm a little worried. How do you feel now? Are you dizzy?"

"It's okay." Shi Jin shook his head, "Company Commander, I want to go out for a walk, you can accompany me." As he said that, he lifted the quilt out of bed, took off his pajamas, went to the closet to find a piece of clothing for going out, and began to dress. Put it on, and put it on very neatly.

Gao Cheng's eyes widened in surprise, and he froze for a moment.You must know that Shi Jin is extremely weak these days, not to mention changing clothes by himself, even walking on the ground is a problem.Gao Cheng walked up to Shi Jin, held the thin shoulders and looked at him carefully, Shi Jin smiled and let him watch.

His face was still bloodless, but his eyes were exceptionally bright and shining, which had never appeared in Shi Jin's eyes since he was seriously ill.Gao Cheng felt that the pupils of the eyes were dark, and the pupils were deeper and darker, as if they could suck people in, and his mind was a little wandering.

"Have you seen enough, Captain?"

Shi Jin showed a bright smile, and Gao Cheng's mind became more erratic. Shi Jin said let's go, and Gao Cheng followed.They came to the beach, walked slowly along the coastline, and sat down when they were tired. Shi Jin suddenly felt a little cold, so he snuggled his body into Gao Cheng's arms.

It was completely dark, there was no wind tonight, and the sea was very calm.The quiet sea, the lovers embracing each other, they had a long and deep kiss under the witness of the sea, and they came to the back of a huge reef tacitly. face, and then took the initiative to take off his clothes and gave himself to Gao Cheng.

"Company commander, you have to remember me..."

"I will never forget it in my life."

"Company commander... company commander... um... um... ah..."

"..."

After the rain, the breath is not calm.Gao Cheng put on clothes for Shi Jin, and Shi Jin's body was held limply by him.After an unknown amount of time, a dazzling arc of light suddenly flashed across the pitch-black sky.

"Today, look!" Gao Cheng pointed to the sky, excited and somewhat regretful, "It is said that when a shooting star passes by, a wish will definitely come true, but it's a pity that it's too late."

Shi Jin raised his face, watched the arc sinking into the darkness, and smiled: "You're a foreigner's way of saying that, our ancestors didn't say that." Before Gao Cheng could react, the low voice in his ear continued to say , "In ancient times, meteors were also called broom stars, which were ominous omens. It is said that every time a meteor falls from the sky, a life in the world will disappear..."

"Bastard bastard, you have to curse yourself to death to be happy?" Gao Cheng laughed and cursed angrily.

"Oh...not...the company commander, I'm cold, can you hold me tighter?" Shi Jin's voice was as weak as a mosquito.

"Well, let's sleep for a while." Gao Cheng silently tightened his arms when he was tired.

……

After a long time, they still maintained their hugging posture, and Gao Cheng sat stiffly by the sea, like a statue, but the body in his arms had lost the warmth.

"Today, you fell asleep, when will you wake up?..."

"Today, it's too cold here, can you go back to sleep?"

"Today, you talk to me..."

"Today...today..."

"..."

Gao Cheng murmured this name, over and over again, lower and lower, and finally turned into a mournful sob.The sea was no longer calm, and waves rolled to the shore, covering up the whimpering.

……

Gao Cheng was preparing to return to Beijing on the third day after Shi Jin passed away.When packing up things alone in the villa, he had a trance feeling that Shi Jin was still by his side.There are traces of the two people living together everywhere in the house. There are not many things from the past, but they are all well placed there.

——He is just not in the house, he is probably basking in the sun in the garden... Gao Cheng told himself so.But looking down from the balcony, the garden is as beautiful as before, but the chair that Shi Jin usually sits on is empty.Gao Cheng squinted his eyes and thought, where did he go?If you are not in good health and still running around, you have to be fined at night.Thinking about it, the corners of his mouth moved slightly, as if he was about to draw a trace of laughter, and then he reacted suddenly, and his amber eyes were instantly filled with sadness.

When he was folding clothes, he had hallucinations again, and Gao Cheng said softly, "It's cold outside, put on this coat to go to the show tonight." No one answered for a long time, turned around and wandered around the room, his eyes fell on the black man by the window sill. On the urn.In the photo, Shi Jin had a dignified expression, but he couldn't hide the narrowness in his eyes, as if he was saying to Gao Cheng, Company Commander, you are so stupid.Gao Cheng was stunned, and sat down on the bed.

No matter how unacceptable it was, the fact was cruelly there. The man he loved so much, today, had left this world forever.He dug out half a bag of white rabbit toffee, peeled one and stuffed it into his mouth. This is the candy he and Shi Jin both like. Before, every time he was sad, he would feel much better if he ate one, but this time Gao Cheng only tasted bitterness.

A few days after returning to Beijing, Gao Cheng went to the camp to spend his vacation.Exercises, experiments, and endless reports, Gao Cheng paralyzed himself with busy work, so that he had no time to miss that person.The comrades really couldn’t stand it anymore, and advised him not to work too hard. The health is the most important thing. Gao Cheng said nonchalantly every time, I’m fine. what he said.

Gan Xiaoning is one of the few remaining members of the Seventh Company who are still in the army and can have close contact with Gao Cheng. There is an inexplicable subtlety, especially at the party on the eve of the Spring Festival, this subtle feeling seems to be stronger.

Gan Xiaoning only heard about Shi Jin's death recently. He didn't dare to ask his battalion commander face to face, so he hid in the dormitory and cried all night.His most beloved squad leader was the kindest person in the world, Gan Xiaoning couldn't accept it, that good squad leader who smiled like a warm spring breeze and cared for every soldier meticulously, had left forever.And even Gan Xiaoning can't accept such a thing, one can imagine what kind of heartache Gao Cheng will experience!

And time is the best elixir for healing. No matter how deep the sadness is, it should be able to slowly alleviate with the passage of time.After a period of painful days, Gao Cheng was finally able to bury that person and everything about him in his heart, at least he regained his calm on the surface.Even if someone mentions Shi Jin to his face, Gao Cheng can still control himself, the expression of regret is like remembering a lost comrade in arms.

Head Wang came to see Gaocheng, and looked at it for a long time with anxiety, and finally heaved a long sigh of relief, and nodded with a smile: "It's okay, it can last." Gaocheng suddenly became unhappy: "Why can't it work? I'm not paper." Head Wang was stunned for a moment, wanted to mention it but was afraid of making him sad, so he hesitated and said, "That history..." Gao Cheng turned his back suddenly, and the lines of his shoulders tightened before he could speak. Relaxed again, sighed softly: "He is a good soldier, what a pity."

After Commander Wang left, Gan Xiaoning murmured to Ma Xiaoshuai in private: "The company commander's reaction doesn't look too sad." Ma Xiaoshuai was silent for a long time, and said quietly, "It's not that I'm not sad, but I just hid it too deeply."