love like a shooting star

2.

He remembered that when Shi Jin was discharged from the army, Xu Sanduo hadn't gone to Old A yet, and the well-known top soldier in the regiment was lying on his squad leader's luggage, crying so badly.All the soldiers in the squad cried, and Shi Jin, who was already soft-hearted, cried so hard that he couldn't make a sound.Wu Liuyi still remembered that he was holding back his tears at that time, and he couldn't hold back his tears in the end.In his blurred vision, he caught a glimpse of a vertical line between the eyebrows of their company commander, but he didn't shed tears.

Later that day, he and Gao Cheng sent Shi Jin to the train station together.When parting, the three looked at each other, with thousands of words on their hearts, and for a moment they didn't know where to start.After a long silence, Gao Cheng held Shi Jin's hand and called out "today", Shi Jin suddenly trembled, his face turned pale.Wu Liuyi sighed. He remembered that the strings in his hands were so tight that he was staring at the two people who were holding each other, and he didn't even dare to breathe.He had been Shi Jin's shift assistant for several years, and he had difficulties in keeping the dormitory synchronized. He knew exactly what Shi Jin was thinking.Although Shi Jin never admitted it, he could see that Shi Jin's friendship with Gaocheng was not just the squad leader's comrade-in-arms affection for the company commander.And this unspeakable feeling, as time goes by, sinks deeper and deeper.

Gao Cheng looked at Shi Jin with a confused expression.The station service staff began to urge the train to start soon, and passengers were asked to hurry up and get on the train.

"Company commander, then I'm leaving." He opened his mouth slowly, with an expression that belonged to Shi Jin's seriousness. Wu Liuyi was standing on the opposite side and saw a flash of light in those small eyes, which was fleeting. .Wu Liuyi felt that the apex of his heart had been pricked, and it hurt.For history and present, perhaps also for myself.

Gao Cheng was still in a daze, but Shi Jin had already freed himself from his hand, turned and walked into the carriage, his slender back was very chic.Gao Cheng came back to his senses and shouted at the carriage: "Today, take care all the way, remember to write a letter!"

Shi Jin waved his hands vigorously, tried to make a smile, his eyes and mouth were crooked. "Goodbye company commander! See you on June [-]st!"

With a long hum, the train roared and sped away.Gao Cheng frowned, and there was a sense of lost doubt in his eyes, Wu Liuyi only felt pain in his heart when he saw his expression.Squad leader, I'm afraid he still doesn't understand what's on your mind, but how much do you understand what's on my mind?  …

How much do you understand about my thoughts?Wu Liuyi turned over on the sofa, opened his eyes suddenly, and stared straight at the dark nothingness outside the window.well!Still can't sleep.

The memory went back to the night when Shi Jin was sent away.Wu Liuyi walked out of the dormitory building and sat alone on the stone table beside the grass, smoking a stuffy cigarette.There is still an hour before lights out, the most leisurely hour of the day.Usually at this time, the soldiers of the third squad would lie in their respective quilts and chat with each other. If they wanted to chat, they would join in, and if they didn't want to talk, they would close their eyes and listen.

But today, due to Shi Jin's departure, the atmosphere is obviously not right, and no one speaks in a deadpan manner.Xu Sanduo had stopped crying a long time ago, his eyes were staring straight at him as if he was stupid, and it made people feel angry just looking at it.Wu Liuyi turned over in anger and got out of bed, took a pack of cigarettes and ran downstairs.

"We are a soldier. A soldier doesn't have much money. Can you save some money? I beg you."

"What do you mean by smoking that cigarette? You have one on the left and one on the right..."

Shi Jin's deep voice seemed to echo in his ears, and Wu Liuyi deliberately opened his mouth and exhaled a round smoke ring.The smell of tobacco fills my chest, sour and uncomfortable. No one will nag me anymore after you leave, monitor...

A stalwart figure appeared in the bright place on the ground, and suddenly came into his eyes, Wu Liuyi was taken aback at that moment, Gao Cheng stood in front of him at some point.

"...Company Commander." He looked at Gao Cheng probingly, unable to determine what Gao Cheng was going to tell him next. Anyway, it was definitely not the company commander who blamed his soldiers for smoking here after they were about to turn off the lights.

Gao Cheng slowly sat on the stone bench, and the vertical lines between his eyebrows appeared again. "You and Jiner, you two have been together for several years..."

Although he understood what Gao Cheng meant, Shi Jin and his squad leader and deputy had been working together in Class Three for several years, Wu Liuyi was still agitated when he heard this, and secretly despised that he really had a ulterior motive.

Gao Cheng didn't see Wu Liuyi's discomfort, and continued to say what he wanted to say. "You should know Shi Jin better than I do. I always feel that sometimes something is wrong with him. He seems to have something on his mind. Has he mentioned it to you in private?"

Wu Liuyi laughed twice to hide his embarrassment, and said in a very sure tone: "What's on his mind, no, nothing. Besides, what's on his mind so he can't tell you?"

Gao Chengyuan looked at Wu Liuyi with his eyes open, and smiled self-deprecatingly for a while. "Maybe I'm thinking too much. I, I just think, sometimes he is too active in front of me, his smile looks like a neuropathy, and sometimes he is too serious. I don't call him and he doesn't talk to me, he is silent. A bit melancholic. Especially these days, I have seen him in a daze more than once."

Wu Liuyi flicked down the cigarette ash, and said in a tone of emotion on purpose: "I have been a soldier for nine years, and I left as soon as I said it, no one can bear it."

After Gao Cheng thought about it, he nodded in agreement: "Company, comrades-in-arms, I wouldn't want to leave everyone."

"Yeah." Wu Liu took a look at Gao Cheng, and immediately turned his eyes away. ...Companion, comrade-in-arms, besides these, he still has you in his heart, company commander...Thinking like this, but didn't say it out.I can't say it, because I understand Shi Jin's thoughts, walk away cleanly and thoroughly, and bury the feelings that shouldn't be there forever in my heart.

Later that day, Wu Liuyi chatted with Gao Cheng for a long time, but I don't remember what they talked about now.The topics of the chats from all over the world were randomly thought up, and they had already broken through the limitations of the company commander and soldiers' conversation content.The reason why they can chat together is because they are eager to dispel the depression in their hearts and pass the time when they don't want to sleep, although they are unwilling to admit this reason.

Finally, we talked about the lights-out time.When the inspector came to question him, Gao Cheng only said to talk to the soldier.The inspector looked at the seventh company commander in front of him inexplicably, said "Lights out, pay attention to discipline", then turned and left.

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Shi Jin didn't sleep well, and started dreaming in the middle of the night.

In the dream, he returned to more than ten years ago, when he lived in a remote mountain village in the northeast.

The family was so poor that they could barely maintain food and clothing.The heavy burden of life caused my father to age prematurely, and his temper became more and more bad-tempered. He had a slumped face all day long, and he was not pleasing to the eyes of people who opened their mouths to eat.

The three older brothers are all grown-ups. The eldest and the second brother married a wife to live in poverty. The third brother works outside the home to fill his stomach anyway. Only Shi Jin still needs money from his family to support him.Relying on beatings to barely finish junior high school, high school is impossible to study no matter what.The reason could not be more realistic, the family has no money.

Whenever it was time to eat, his father's gloomy face made Shi Jin unwilling to look at him, and could only stare at the rice in the bowl.Once my father got angry and slapped his hands: "Look at how promising you are! What can you do if you are so thin? You have ruined all the good food. I can feed it to pigs and grow fat!" The sister-in-law also He chimed in on the side: "Fourth brother, you are not young anymore, don't make dad angry all the time, what kind of high school do you want to go to, give up as soon as possible!" The eldest brother bumped his sister-in-law with his elbow, and stared: "No one will treat you if you don't talk." You're dumb." The sister-in-law snorted and continued to cook with her head down.Shi Jin was stunned for a while, then put down his bowl and walked out of the yard silently.The voice of my sister-in-law came from a distance: "It's best not to eat, save some food for the family."

Shi Jin walked forward slowly, and he didn't seem to hear anyone greeting him on the way. After a while, he came to the dirt slope at the entrance of the village, and he sat down.

His heart was empty, and his mind was a little messy. The red sunset reflected the lone figure, and he gradually cleared up his thoughts.This is the first time he has the intention to leave home.Leaving the house, going out, doing whatever, is better than bearing cold eyes and beatings from his family, he doesn't want to be a burden to the family.But where can I go?Shi Jin, who is only 16 years old, knows nothing about the outside world. The world is so big and the sea of ​​people is vast, where is the place to live and work?I thought that he didn't go home until very late that day, everyone in the family was asleep, and no one cared where he went and when he would come back.

The next morning, the whole family sat around the courtyard for breakfast, and Shi Jin went out without saying a word.The elder brother couldn't bear it, he stood up and wanted to chase him out, but his sister-in-law grabbed him and stared at him, so he sat down again.The old father looked at the empty door, and said for a while: "So stubborn, it looks like me."

For several days in a row, Shi Jin went to sit on the dirt slope at the entrance of the village.The sadness of being forced to drop out of school and the bewilderment of the future entangled his heart. Sitting on this bare dirt slope and thinking about it, even if he couldn't think of anything, he felt better.To this day, Shi Jin is grateful for his father's slap and his sister-in-law's sarcasm, because the act of self-abuse directly caused by it changed his fate.He walked out of the mountain village into the military camp and met the most important person in his life.Everything seems to be destined.

The author has something to say: After writing this chapter, I watched a few classic episodes of the original drama, and I have memorized the lines fluently.Ten years, ten years, ten years... Suddenly, I am full of emotion.