you say, bamboo horse

After leaving, the door opened and closed again, Wang Xian sat on the sofa, not knowing how he should feel.

This year, Wang Xian was 13 years old and Xie Yiyang was 15 years old.For unknown reasons, the two seem to be drifting away like this.Even Xie Yijia, who was keen on matching up, could see that there was something wrong between the two of them, but she tried many ways, but there was no progress.In addition, Xie Yijia also had to prepare for the high school entrance examination, this matter was gradually put aside.

Until Xie Yijia and Xie Yiyang were successfully admitted to the No. [-] Middle School, the relationship between Wang Xian and Xie Yiyang did not change, but became more and more alienated.In addition, after Xie Yiyang's sister and brother were admitted to No. [-] Middle School, Xie's family moved, and the contact between Xie Yiyang and Mr. Wang became less and less.

Wang Xian thought that everything would fade away like this.

Those he thought he liked, his so-called feelings, would slowly fade into nothingness with the wear and tear of time.He even felt that what he thought he liked Xie Yiyang was just a momentary illusion?To prove that this is an illusion, he also made a girlfriend.

He sat on the railing with the seniors to smoke, and sat by the flower bed to drink together, while his little girlfriend was sitting next to him. The cuddling posture seemed to show how close the two were.

Huang Junyi was in the same grade as Wang Xian, and he knew about Wang Xian, persuaded him, and even doubted him.He couldn't figure out why, in less than a year, Mr. Wang had learned to smoke, drink, fall in love, and even form gangs and fight with others.

But since Xie Yiyang and the others graduated, Mr. Wang's temper became more and more strange. Sometimes Huang Junyi didn't want to talk to Mr. Wang.I always feel that the bright and lively Wang Xian who was always full of energy in the past has disappeared, replaced by the current Wang Xian who is smiling wickedly, looks like a fool, and is said to be a gangster.Oh, probably, the only difference between Wang Xian and the gangster is that his grades are still good.Although not in the top three, but at least in the top twenty.

Sometimes, Huang Junyi would think about what to do if Wang Xianlian didn't even have the last grade.

"Is that woman calling you again? Why? Are you guilty? Don't dare to answer the phone?..."

"I told you that there are no women, so don't be suspicious all day long. People in the unit are spreading rumors, and it's not all because of you!"

"I made trouble? I..."

As soon as Wang Xian walked to the door of his house, he heard the sound of quarreling coming from the door.Wang first stopped at the door of the house, loosened his grip on the schoolbag, then laughed at himself, turned around and walked out again.

He has lost count of how many such weekends there have been.At the very beginning, when parents quarreled, they would take Mr. Wang's feelings into consideration. Later, they would quarrel like that whether Mr. Wang was there or not.

At first, it seemed that because Wang's father often stayed out at night, Wang's mother always liked to talk about it.Later, I heard that there was a mistress outside, so Ms. Wang began to question loudly, but Mr. Wang kept denying it.Later, it seemed that Mother Wang answered a woman's call on Father Wang's mobile phone. It was an unmarked number, but there were many call records.As for later... Wang Xian didn't bother with it anymore.

Wang Xian went to the street and sat on the corner, looking a little lonely watching the pedestrians coming and going.

Because it is a monthly holiday on Friday, there are many students on the street.But basically they walked in front of Mr. Wang with laughter and laughter, and occasionally someone even pointed at Mr. Wang and whispered something.

Wang Xian took out his mobile phone, flipped through the address book, and wanted to find someone to be with him, whether it was eating, shopping, drinking or smoking, but he didn't want to be alone.

"Rhubarb, come out and have dinner together."

"Da Xian'er? I just came home, and my mother made soup for me. If I don't eat, I will probably be beaten. I will come to you after I eat. My mother called me, and I will eat later." Give you a call."

"..."

Wang first looked at the hung up phone until he saw the black screen, then reopened the address book and scrolled through the next person.

"Lin Yuan? I, Mr. Wang, come out and have dinner together." Lin Yuan is Mr. Wang's newest girlfriend. She is gentle and polite, and she is good at studying, but for some reason, she fell in love with Mr. Wang.I just heard that Lin Yuan seemed to have praised that Wang Xian has a pair of beautiful fox eyes.Probably, this is why Lin Yuan likes Wang Xian.

"Mr. Wang? Well... I just came home, and my parents won't let me go out at night. How about I come out to eat with you tomorrow during the day..."

Wang Xian hung up the phone after hearing half of it.Anyway, no one will come out, right?

Xie Yiyang...

Seeing these three words in the address book, Wang Xian's fingers froze.

Since Xie Yiyang and the others moved, Wang Xian basically never took the initiative to find Xie Yiyang or Xie Yijia.At first, Xie Yijia would drag Xie Yiyang to find Wang Xian and Huang Junyi together, but later, Xie Yijia no longer took the initiative to find Wang Xian.

In fact, Mr. Wang still hoped that Xie Yijia would find him, because then he could... take a look at Xie Yiyang.Although Wang Xian always feels ashamed when he sees Xie Yiyang, but at least, looking at Xie Yiyang, Wang Xian can always think of his former self.Think of the past self that I was jealous of.

Although later, Xie Yijia and Xie Yiyang seldom took the initiative to find Wang Xian, but in Wang Xian's phone book, Xie Yiyang's and Xie Yijia's phone numbers have been saved and have not been deleted, although... they have never actively dialed out.

Mr. Wang paused for a long time on Xie Yiyang's name. He even expected that Xie Yiyang would call himself suddenly, so that he could...

"Sir?"

It's been a long time since anyone called this name... It seems that Xie Yiyang is the only one who calls himself this way.

Wang raised his head first, and saw Xie Yiyang's beautiful peach blossom eyes staring at him for a moment, with a little doubt and a little curiosity.

"Yo."

Wang Xian said hello with a smile, but for some reason, he suddenly wanted to cry.Wang lowered his head first, adjusted his mood at the moment of standing up, then looked at Xie Yiyang, and said with a light smile, "Let me treat you to dinner."

"Why don't you go home?"

"What do you want to eat? A new restaurant has opened around our school, after you graduate. Let me take you to eat."

"Why don't you go home?"

"By the way, the best food in his house is..."

"I asked why you didn't come home."

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☆, believe

"I heard Huang Junyi tell my sister that you have changed a lot now. I heard that you now fight with people, smoke, drink, and have girlfriends."

Xie Yiyang and Wang Xian walked on the road, one was as warm as sunshine, and the other was smiling wickedly.They walked side by side in the autumn twilight.Two people with very different styles, walking together, seem extremely harmonious.

"Yes, he was right."

Xie Yiyang didn't expect that Wang Xian's simple words would be his answer.He was silent for a while, and couldn't find any other topics, so he could only return to the original question: "Why don't you go home?"

Wang Xian raised his head suddenly and took a deep breath, then said nonchalantly, "It's nothing."

"Then I'll take you back."

Wang Xian stopped and said in a low voice, "Actually, I don't like girls."

"?"

"It's just that everyone thinks I should have a girlfriend, so I have one."

"Who is 'everyone'? Why do you listen to 'everyone'?"

"..."

Wang Xian was silent and did not answer.

Xie Yiyang stood there for a long while, looking at Wang Xian's lowered eyebrows, he always felt unreal.He looked around, and suddenly pulled Wang Xian to a teahouse.

Wang Xian stared blankly at Xie Yiyang pulling his arm, and followed Xie Yiyang's footsteps in a daze, until Xie Yiyang let go of his arm, but he didn't recover.

Xie Yiyang took Wang Xian to a corner of the tea house, ordered a pot of honey grapefruit tea, and then sat silently with Wang Xian.

After waiting for the waiter to bring the tea, Xie Yiyang poured a cup for Wang Xian and himself before he said, "Are you having fun with the 'everyone' you call it?"

"..."

Wang Xian looked at the tea in the glass teapot and remained silent.

"By the way, Huang Junyi said that he also wants to take the No. [-] middle school entrance exam next year. In this way, he can spend a year with us. But he didn't say anything about your plan. Don't you want to talk about it?"

Wang Xian tilted his head and said indifferently: "There is nothing to say."

"If you also come to No. [-] Middle School, the four of us can be like before..."

"Different!"

For Wang Xian's sudden anger, Xie Yiyang's expression did not change, he smiled and looked at Wang Xian: "Why is it different?"

"It's just different... different..."

Xie Yiyang held the teapot and poured some tea for Wang Xian, then put it down without speaking, just looked at Wang Xian.

"Rhubarb doesn't play with me much now. I'm not a good student like you anymore."

Xie Yiyang looked at Wang Xian looking out the window, and listened carefully to Wang Xian's words.He could hear the self-mockery and confusion in Wang Xian's words.

"Sir. Come back. Come to No. [-] Middle School with Huang Junyi next year."

"Do you think I can pass the exam like this now?"

Xie Yijia looked into Wang Xian's eyes, and said word by word: "As long as it is you, I will believe it."

"But I don't believe it myself."

Facing Xie Yiyang's firm and serious eyes, Wang Xian knew that he couldn't refuse.What's more, he himself wanted to get closer to Xie Yiyang.

That afternoon, Xie Yiyang still sent Mr. Wang home.

It's just that he only sent them outside the community, and didn't enter the community.He watched Wang Xian carrying his bag and leaving without paying any attention, but he still turned around and took a look at himself at the end.Xie Yiyang waved his hand with a smile, Wang Xian pursed his lips, and finally left.

When Xie Yiyang went home by car, he kept thinking whether Mr. Wang's current state was in his previous life.Wang Xian should be proud and confident, not what he sees now.In any case, Xie Yiyang felt that he was responsible for Wang Xian's current situation.

Wang Xian said before that if he didn't like it, he wouldn't fight.But now he has completely forgotten.The current Mr. Wang can smoke, drink, and even...even has a girlfriend.Xie Yiyang frowned, a little worried that Mr. Wang would be with that little girlfriend out of curiosity...

In fact, he would come to see Wang Xian today, and it wasn't just a whim.Xie Yiyang himself is a person who never takes the initiative. Before Xie Yijia would invite Wang Xian and Huang Junyi to play together, he would naturally go with him, but after Xie Yijia stopped organizing, Xie Yiyang remained silent.I always feel that I have no reason to go to Wang Xian and Huang Junyi.

However, when I went home last weekend, I heard Mama Xie and Papa Xie mention that Mr. Wang’s parents seemed to have some relationship problems, which also affected their children.Xie Yiyang didn't say a word at that time, but silently wrote down this matter in his heart.That's why he took the initiative to look for Mr. Wang this weekend.But even if he came to find Wang Xian, he dared not mention anything related to Wang Xian's parents.I can only encourage Wang Xian from the side, hoping that Wang Xian will not stay in that state.

Xie Yiyang himself felt a little guilty about Mr. Wang's parents, and always felt that it was his own fault.If he hadn't lived again, maybe Wang Xian would still be the child of that family, a beautiful, self-willed and proud child.But in this way, he will have a reason to come to Mr. Wang in the future.

Now Wang Xian is also in the third year of junior high school, and he will take the senior high school entrance examination next year. As long as he pays a little attention, he can be in the same high school.In this case, at least for Wang Xian's future, it will be beneficial.

After Wang Xian chatted with Xie Yiyang, he really obediently decided to take the No. [-] middle school exam.He took out his mobile phone and sent a text message to his current girlfriend, Lin Yuan: We broke up.not see.

After sending the text message, Wang Xian deleted all the phone numbers in the address book except for Xie Yiyang and the others.

He wanted to escape from here, from this so-called "home".He wanted to be by Xie Yiyang's side, if so, probably, he could go back to the past again.Back to the "Xian Wang" that he himself envied.

The days of the third day of junior high school were actually quite busy.Especially Wang Xian, who decided to take the No. [-] middle school, not only had to be busy with his studies, but also had to deal with his girlfriend who had broken up with him, and the group of "good brothers" from the past.

"Why did you break up with me all of a sudden?"

"No why."

"Are you angry with me because I didn't go to eat with you that day?"

Wang Xian looked at Lin Yuan who was about to cry expressionlessly, and didn't even want to say anything.

"I sent you so many text messages and made so many phone calls, why didn't you reply me? Why did you break up suddenly? What did I do wrong? I said that I really couldn't find you that day, and the next day Come to see you? Why do you..."

"There's no reason, you're fine. I'm going back to the classroom, thank you."

Pushing away Lin Yuan's hand, Wang Xian headed towards his classroom, ignoring Lin Yuan who was crying behind him.

"I didn't expect you to dump such a beautiful girl as Lin Yuan. Mr. Wang, you are really good!"

Standing in the corridor, Lin Haiyang, who had witnessed everything, gave Wang Xian a thumbs up and praised in admiration.

Mr. Wang snorted, shook his head, and said nothing.

"Hey? Tell me, is this the rhythm of changing girlfriends?"

"I'm going to read a book."

Lin Haiyang shrugged, glanced at the history book in Wang Xian's hand, and said nothing.Having been at the same table with Wang Xian for so long, he still knows a thing or two about Wang Xian's temper.Since he broke up with Lin Yuan this time, and rarely went out with those brothers before, it is possible that Wang Xian really wanted to work hard in the remaining time of the third year of junior high school.It is probably about to leave the state of the second year of junior high school.This is also good, it is also convenient for me to study by having a master by my side.Although... there is a little uncle who is a schoolmaster in his family.

"Mr. Wang!"

Lin Haiyang looked up and saw a boy from a parallel class looking at the door of the classroom, probably looking for Mr. Wang.Lin Haiyang glanced sideways at Wang Xian who was still reading, and walked to the door of the classroom to watch.

"Mr. Wang, don't forget the old place on weekends."

The boy's voice was quite loud, and many people heard it, and even stopped their movements, looking at Mr. Wang involuntarily.

Unexpectedly, Mr. Wang didn't even give him a look, and he just said "no" and it was over.

The boy sneered, left saying "you can figure it out" and left.

Lin Haiyang walked up to Mr. Wang and asked him, "Are you going?"

"Don't go."

"Then why do they trouble you?"

"It's your life, whatever you want."

"..."

Lin Haiyang shrank his head, always felt that Wang Xian's voice was too indifferent, indifferent to cold.But think about it, they are all students, so there should be nothing wrong with them, so I don't care about them.

On weekends, Xie Yiyang came to see Mr. Wang as usual.

Although it was really cold in December, no matter whether it was Xie Yiyang or Wang Xian, the two had never been late, and they would always show up near the junior high school library on time at nine o'clock in the morning.Most of the time, they sit in the garden next to them, waiting for Wang to come first before going into the library together.

Many times, when Xie Yiyang went, Mr. Wang might have been waiting for a long time.The morning of Lidong was very cold. When Xie Yiyang went, Wang sat there for an unknown how long, his lips were so cold that they turned purple.Although Xie Yiyang told Wang Xian that it was too early and it was cold, but Wang Xian often agreed with his mouth and ignored it in reality.Xie Yiyang had no choice but to come as soon as possible.

This week, when Xie Yiyang came, Mr. Wang waited for a while as usual.Just waiting for Xie Yiyang to approach...

"First, are you fighting again?"

Wang raised his head first, looked at Xie Yiyang without squinting, and did not speak.

"Didn't you promise me that you wouldn't fight again?"

Xie Yiyang felt a little uncomfortable, and an indescribable anger piled up in his chest.He looked at Wang Xian with some disappointment, at the bruise on Wang Xian's face.

"Where else are you injured?"

Wang Xian shook his head silently.

Xie Yiyang packed up the textbooks in front of Mr. Wang, then took Mr. Wang's hand and walked outside the school.

"Where to go?"

"go home!"

Wang Xian could see that Xie Yiyang was very angry.I promised him not to fight anymore, and with his current appearance, probably, Xie Yiyang is really disappointed, right?

Xie Yiyang kept holding Wang Xian's hand and walked towards Wang Xian's community.After all, he is also familiar with this road.

At home on weekends, Wang Xian is still the only one.Mother Wang and Father Wang were not there, so the room seemed a little deserted.

Xie Yiyang put down his schoolbag, sat next to Wang Xian, and carefully looked at the bruises on Wang Xian's face.

"I'm going to boil some hot water. You need to use a hot towel to apply it. Fortunately, this is just a bruise, and there is no skin trauma. Using a hot towel to apply heat can promote local blood circulation and remove blood stasis."

Wang Xian looked at Xie Yiyang's busy back in silence, always feeling a little acid in his eyes.

"Tell me, why did you fight?"

Xie Yiyang boiled hot water, sat on the sofa, looked straight at Wang Xian, and waited for Wang Xian to tell him what was going on.But Wang Xian lowered his eyes and remained silent.

"Didn't you say you won't fight?"

"I will not do it again."

This time, it should be the last time.In the future, I will never have any contact with those guys again.

"First, I just, hope you..."

"Never again."

Coincidentally, the water boiled at this time.Xie Yiyang went to mix the water, put down the towel, and watched the towel being submerged by the water little by little.

"I won't review this morning, let's go in the afternoon."

Wang Xian quietly looked at Xie Yiyang who was giving him a hot compress, but did not answer.

"Xie Yiyang."

"what?"

"You can……"

"?"

Wang Xian smiled: "Nothing."

Originally I wanted to ask, would you always be so kind to me, but asking this way seemed like begging.

Wang Xian looked at Xie Yiyang's beautiful peach blossom eyes, and suddenly moved closer, and lightly touched Xie Yiyang's lips.

——In this way, it is probably more vivid than words.

Xie Yiyang, I like you.From the first day of junior high school, maybe, earlier?Only you will make me want to involuntarily approach, approach, and approach again.

"First, you..."

Wang Xian looked at the stiff Xie Yiyang, and suddenly smiled brightly: "Thank you, Xie Yiyang."

Xie Yiyang suddenly didn't know what to say.On the lips, it seemed that Wang Xian's cool touch still remained.Thank you...?

"First, you..."

"The towel is cold, I'm going to warm it up, and it should be almost done after applying it for a while. Let's go to eat at noon. We won't go to the library in the afternoon, so we can review at home."

Xie Yiyang didn't agree or object.

For Wang Xian's kiss that seemed to represent gratitude, Xie Yiyang was surprised that he didn't dislike it, and even relished it.

Xie Yiyang is not a brat who doesn't understand anything, he thought about how different his attitude towards Wang Xian was from other people, and he understood, probably, he likes Wang Xian, or in other words, he cares about Wang Xian.Maybe at the beginning, I just wanted to know about Mr. Wang, this past life, people I didn't have much contact with, and what that proud and confident Mr. Wang looked like when he was young.But over the years, this kind of thinking has become a habitual action.

That weekend afternoon, Xie Yiyang didn't know what he had reviewed for Wang Xian.Beneath his calm exterior was a turbulent heart, tinged with suspicion.

When parting, Wang Xian sent Xie Yiyang to the station as usual.

Before Xie Yiyang got into the car, without turning around, he said to Wang Xian: "You are still young, and you don't understand many things. But I believe you."

I believe you.What do you believe?Do you believe Mr. Wang's feelings?I believe that Wang Xian understood the meaning of his words?Or do you believe in something else?

Wang Xian stayed where he was, watched the bus leave for a long time, then slowly turned around and walked home.

No matter what Xie Yiyang believes, Wang Xian has his own belief in his heart, and will follow his own belief and approach his own belief.

☆, um 【修】

The night of winter always comes so early.

When Xie Yiyang returned to Xie's house, it was already dark.

"Hey! You're back! I thought you were going to spend the night with Daxian'er."

Xie Yijia was sitting on the sofa, eating yogurt with a spoon, when he saw Xie Yiyang coming back, he sat up straight all of a sudden, waved the spoon, and laughed incongruously.

Xie Yiyang took the initiative to make up lessons for Wang Xian, and Xie's family knew about it.Mother Xie even sighed and said, Mr. Wang is really pitiful for the child.Father Xie also felt that since Xie Yiyang and Wang Xian played well since they were young, helping make up lessons now can be regarded as brotherly friendship.I just hope that kid Wang Xian won't fall down.

As for Xie Yijia, it seems that she is not as enthusiastic as junior high school when it comes to matching Wang Xian and Xie Yiyang, but she did not stop Xie Yiyang from continuing to get closer to Wang Xian.It's just that he still teases Xie Yiyang from time to time.

"Yangyang is back? Mom has just finished cooking, go wash your hands and eat. Xie Yijia, why are you eating yogurt again? They said that it's time to eat, don't eat so many other things. What should I do if I can't eat later? Really... ...I'm already a sophomore in high school, I don't know how to make people worry..."

Mother Xie's rambling voice, to Xie Yiyang's ears, had a different kind of warmth.Mother Xie in the previous life, because of Father Xie's incident, was depressed and had no way to seek help, and finally passed away weakly on the hospital bed.Xie Yiyang really cherishes hearing mother Xie's energetic preaching to Xie Yijia.

After a while, Xie Dad came out of the kitchen with the dishes.The whole family gathered around the square table, and chatted a few words between meals.

Although it was cold and windy outside, the atmosphere at home was as warm as spring.

In this warm atmosphere, Xie Yiyang thought of Mr. Wang so naturally.

At Wang Xian's house, when eating, it was always quiet and no one spoke.Although, on the one hand, this is a good habit, don't talk when you eat, don't talk when you sleep.But on the other hand, this probably...is another kind of desertedness.

Mr. Wang...

Today, when he was applying hot compresses to Wang Xian, he actually kissed himself.

Xie Yiyang was lying on the bed, tossing and turning, he couldn't help recalling that scene, recalling Mr. Wang's expression at that moment.The kind, with careful bravery, the happiness after a successful kiss.At that moment, Wang Xian, in Xie Yiyang's eyes, was like a noble and lazy fox, with a relaxed and complacent smile after playing a prank.But there was seriousness in those fox-like eyes.

Xie Yiyang knew very clearly that at that moment, he was tempted.

But if you think about it carefully, is it really just the heartbeat at that moment?

When he was in elementary school, Wang Xian was just a stubborn and naughty child.He always appeared by his side awkwardly, and in Aunt Wang's anger, he reluctantly called his brother.At that time, I simply thought, is this the Wang Xian when I was a child?It turns out that a person who is confident, proud and dazzling when he grows up will be so cute in childhood.

He will pull himself to see his secret base; he will also find himself with excitement, and share the treasures he has collected with him one by one; when he is not confident, he will ask himself in frustration, will he really marry wife?In the midst of his stern preaching, he would turn around and leave in anger, and after a few days, he would awkwardly ask for reconciliation and apologize to himself.

In my impression, I seem to have said Wang Xian many times.Especially with regard to fighting, Xie Yiyang didn't even remember how many times Wang Xian had quarreled with him because of this matter.

The time Xie Yiyang remembers most is probably when he was in elementary school, squatting on the concrete platform with a few children in the yard, but he was accidentally squeezed off and fell.At that time, Mr. Wang's face was full of anger, and he started fighting with the other child.And when he asked him why he was fighting, the answer Wang Xian gave was "He pushed you! You are still lying on the ground so uncomfortable, if you don't beat him, who will you beat!".

Later, I and Wang Xian didn't go to school or play together for a few days.Wang Xian took the initiative to find himself and asked for reconciliation.And the first sentence is "Although I don't think I was wrong, but if you don't like it, I won't fight in the future."

Some people care about you and will act differently because of your likes and dislikes. Xie Yiyang doesn't know whether to be happy or helpless about this.It's like, you are teaching a child who doesn't know right from wrong, you tell him what is right and what is wrong.But the child tells you, I don't know right or wrong, but I believe you.If you say it is right, I will do it to make you happy; if you say it is wrong, I will not do it to make you angry.

Probably because of Wang Xian's words, Xie Yiyang felt that he needed more sense of responsibility and more care in dealing with Wang Xian.Therefore, slowly put more attention on Mr. Wang, familiarize himself with his every move, and understand his mood under various expressions.

When Xie Yiyang gradually realized that he was paying too much attention to Wang Xian, it happened to be Wang Xianchu's first moment.At that time, Wang Xian seemed to be struggling with something, and the distance between Xie Yiyang and Xie Yiyang was also fluctuating.At that time, Xie Yiyang couldn't tell what mood he was in.

Xie Yiyang remembered very clearly the afternoon when Wang went home alone after entering junior high school without saying hello.He originally thought that Wang Xian was packing things in the classroom or dormitory, but when he went to Wang Xian's classroom and learned from other people that Wang Xian had left school, the sudden sense of loss in his heart even made him feel at a loss.

On the way home, he kept thinking why Mr. Wang suddenly chose to go home alone.Although he comforted himself, Wang Xian had reached puberty, and perhaps his personality had changed.It's just that this is just comfort, the sense of loss in Xie Yiyang's heart is still so strong.

At first, Xie Yiyang thought it was just because of his habit. He was used to going home with Mr. Wang, he was used to joking and joking along the way, and he was used to the feeling that Mr. Wang was by his side.Therefore, he also tried his best to comfort himself, telling himself that Wang Xian had just grown up, and that he would no longer be the only person to accompany him on the next journey.

But this consolation was of no use.Under Xie Yiyang's seemingly calm appearance, there is a constantly surging heart.He wanted to be the same as Wang Xian and before, and wanted to be close to Wang Xian—not simply by distance, but by heart.But Wang Xian's attitude after the new year made Xie Yiyang stop.

Xie Yiyang could only watch helplessly as Mr. Wang got further and further away from him.

It wasn't until Xie Yiyang graduated from junior high school, left middle school, and moved out of the community with Xie's family that Xie Yiyang slowly figured out during that long summer vacation without Mr. Wang. His desire to keep getting closer to Mr. Wang was the result of Because I like it.

In the darkness, Xie Yiyang turned over.He didn't feel sleepy after lying down for a long time, so he simply got up, put on his coat, turned on the small lamp, and sat at the desk, ready to read some books to pass the time, so as not to always think about Mr. Wang.

Just opening the book, Xie Yiyang still didn't read it.In my mind, it was all Mr. Wang.

After Xie's family moved, Xie Yiyang and Mr. Wang had less and less contact with each other.But Xie Yiyang always silently remembered the news about Wang Xian that he occasionally heard from Xie Yijia, and collected all the information about Wang Xian bit by bit.

Xie Yiyang simply felt that if he couldn't be by Mr. Wang's side, then it would be good to just watch him from afar—even if it was in a corner that Mr. Wang didn't know about, even if Mr. Wang never cared about it.It's just that he has never been a sensual person, and he keeps everything in his heart, so no one notices what he is paying attention to.

Xie Yiyang met Wang Xian only a few times after he entered the second year of junior high school.But just a few times, Xie Yiyang could feel the difference in Wang Xian.But he couldn't find a reason to approach Mr. Wang, so he could only watch silently.Later, Xie Yijia said that Huang Junyi didn't play with Wang Xian much anymore, and heard that Wang Xian is now with those students in the school who are messing around, and has a girlfriend.Xie Yijia looked into Xie Yiyang's eyes when he said that Wang Xian had a girlfriend.However, Xie Yiyang just smiled lightly and refused to comment.

But after Xie Yijia left, Xie Yiyang couldn't laugh anymore.

Girlfriend...

That kid already has a girlfriend.I don't know what kind of girl she is, if she has a good personality, if she treats Mr. Wang well, if she can bear Mr. Wang's awkward temper...

It seemed that after Wang Xian had a girlfriend, he had no reason to be close to Wang Xian.Xie Yiyang knew what kind of dazzling future Mr. Wang would have in the future, so he could bear all the changes in front of him.Even if, this change includes Wang Xian having a girlfriend...

Xie Yiyang told himself, even if you care about Mr. Wang very much, even if you really like Mr. Wang, you can't harm that child.That child will become bright and proud in the future.That child will have a beautiful and intelligent wife and a happy and harmonious family.That child is not yours.

Xie Yiyang thought, probably, it would be better to just bury it in my heart like this.Don't bother anyone, don't bother anyone.Good.Good.

He just made a decision, but when he came home on the weekend, he heard his parents say something about Wang Xian's family.

"...It's because of Wang Xian's child. When I was young, I looked like a very smart and lively child. Now..."

Xie Yiyang didn't pay attention to what Mother Xie said earlier, but raised his head when he heard Mr. Wang's name.I heard Xie's father sigh and say: "Hey, what's the matter. The child is so old that he still goes out to look for it... It's too irresponsible."

"Forget it, let's not talk about this. You pack up your things quickly, you will be on a business trip tomorrow, don't forget this and that..."

Xie Yiyang, who was sitting on the sofa at that time, only paused for a moment before he understood what his parents were talking about.Wang Xian's father found a woman outside, that must be the meaning, right?

At that moment, Xie Yiyang's first thought after he realized it was that he finally had a reason to go to Mr. Wang.After not seeing each other for more than half a year, Xie Yiyang finally, with reason, went to see Mr. Wang alone.

He wanted to do his best to help Mr. Wang.He didn't want to see Wang Xian being so depressed because of his parents.His Wang Xian has always been dazzling and willful, a proud child.So, he is going to find Wang Xian, go, get close to Wang Xian.

During the school's monthly vacation, Xie Yiyang took the bus back to the community and knocked on the door of Wang Xian's house. After waiting for a long time, no one opened the door.Fearing that Wang would avoid him first, Xie Yiyang even held his breath to pay attention to the sounds in the room.After confirming that Mr. Wang was really not at home, Xie Yiyang went to middle school.Thanks to his familiarity with the guard uncle, Xie Yiyang easily entered the school.I found Wang Xian and his classroom, but I didn't see Wang Xian in the classroom.

After Xie Yiyang walked out of the classroom, he looked for Mr. Wang in several streets near the school.Fortunately, there are not many streets near the school. After searching for more than ten minutes, Xie Yiyang finally saw Wang Xian who was sitting on the side of the street staring at his mobile phone in a daze.Xie Yiyang touched his mobile phone subconsciously, and then suddenly remembered that he could have called Mr. Wang.

— But fortunately, I finally found you.Although, long time no see, you are a little taller, thinner, and changed a little, but you are still that Mr. Wang, the awkward Mr. Wang that I know.

Xie Yiyang was very serious when he made up lessons for Wang Xian.He hopes that Wang Xian will not live in the mouth of the so-called "everyone", and hopes that Wang Xian will break away from the state of the second year of junior high school and return to the confident, lively and willful Wang Xian.Because of this, he was so angry at Mr. Wang for still fighting with others.

But looking at Wang Xian's calm eyes, his heart softened inexplicably.Those fox eyes should be smiling, not so calm.

For Wang Xian's sudden kiss, Xie Yiyang felt like a thunderbolt in his heart.

He didn't know what Mr. Wang's kiss meant. If he wanted to say simple thanks, he shook hands and said no.