[Comprehensive] Gently walk into that good night

Why did Carlisle kiss him?An Keou sat up and looked at the place where Carlisle had stood under the moonlight.Even though he has never been in a relationship, he understands that such actions can only happen between the closest people.Moreover, he didn't rinse his mouth after being kissed?

why?

Was it because Carlisle was too alluring?His smell and his movements always made him unable to bear to pay attention to them. However, he had always defined Carlisle as a doctor and Edward's adoptive father. Suddenly, the other party's movements exceeded his definition. Let me feel a little helpless for a while.

An Keou turned sideways, and accidentally touched a book with his fingers. He opened the title page, and despite the dim light, he could still see clearly. On it was a preface by Dostoevsky: The world is complicated, and It is not as simple as two two makes four, and there is no all-encompassing and immutable law to follow; people are also complicated... Most of the "happiness systems" drawn up by some people based on scientific and rational principles are mostly utopian...

There are some more in the back, but An Keou directly turned to the part he saw last time.

—I live to satisfy the faculties of my whole being, and not merely to satisfy my faculty of rational thought... What does reason know?Reason only knows what it already knows, and besides that, it probably never will... Human nature... Conscious and unconscious, even if it's doing something wrong, it's still alive...

What does reason know?

An Keou muttered in his heart.These words are really very simple to understand, but who will tell him what to do?Specifically, what should he do if it is feasible?Far from Carlisle?Get away from it all.Uncontrollable factors, just like the last time I went to the hospital?

But he...he seemed to like Carlisle a little bit.

He can control himself to keep a distance from Carlisle, but what if he can't control his emotions?

He thought about it all night, with all kinds of entanglements in his heart, until the dawn was faint, he turned over and sat up, changed into sports clothes and prepared to go for a morning run.As a result, as soon as he went out, he saw Edward, who was looking at him with a smile on his face.

Ankeou glanced at him, "Do you want to go to morning exercise?"

Edward laughed out loud, he heard An Keou laughing at him in his heart, but he didn't mind, he just wanted to let everyone know that he and Bella were back together, so he relaxed his strength and hugged Leaning on An Keou's shoulder, "There is a thunderstorm in the afternoon, we are going to have another baseball game. How about it, do you want to come?"

An Keou wanted to refuse, but before he could say anything, he heard Edward say, "Please, Bella and I want you to go."

An Keou looked at him quite miraculously, "She's going too? Are you not afraid of danger now?"

Edward's expression restrained a little, and after a long time, he smiled wryly, "But I can't stand her not being in my sight. I will go crazy."

It's... the power of love.Ankeou was a little dazed.Even an old man like Edward is still unable to avoid madness and blindness when facing love.If he himself fell into this state... He turned around suddenly, and Marius was standing behind the two of them.

"An Keou, breakfast is ready."

"Sorry, Marius, I have no appetite." He lowered his head and asked Edward softly, "What time is this afternoon?"

"At 2 o'clock, on the grass behind my house."

"I'll be there on time." An Keou agreed, and then asked Marius, "Marius, do you have time now?"

Marius frowned at him, "Of course, you want to..."

"I have something to ask you."

Marius frowned even tighter.

The two went to the study room. Ankeou and Marius sat face to face. Marius looked at him deeply, waiting for him to ask questions, and he would answer according to the situation.

Ankeou pursed his lips, crossed his hands on the table, and asked him in a hoarse voice, "Marius, have you...have you...have you ever liked anyone?"

Marius' mood relaxed.

He leaned back on the back of the chair, and his tone was even a little brisk, "Once, a long time ago, I liked my human wife."

"Then... what do you think about when you like her?"

"What do you think about? Think about her or do you want to do things with her? Ankeou, what do you want to ask?"

"It's nothing..." He was a little discouraged, and felt that it was a mistake for him to ask Marius. The other party was over 40 years old when he was transformed, and he was still a member of the Senate. He must be an experienced veteran in love— — Thoughts stopped abruptly.He seemed to remember something.

He asked the Roman man opposite, "You...you used to be a member of the Imperial Senate? When were you converted?"

"After my 40th birthday, when I traveled to Greece, I met some druids..." Marius spoke vaguely about his experience, and finally said to An Keou, "I like my wife because she She is pretty enough to be worthy of me." Finally, he explained to An Keou very innocently, "After all, we are a political marriage."

"Okay." Ankeou nodded and decided to end this failed chat. Marius might really have been asleep for too long and couldn't give him any advice.And... just talking about looks, Carlisle really has the ability to make people can't help but look at his beautiful face.He stood up and left the study, deciding to put this troublesome thing aside for now.He might, however, seek advice from Dr. Germady.

A quarter of an hour before 2:[-] p.m., An Keou dug out all kinds of casual clothes from the closet, and couldn't make up his mind which one to wear to the game.Marius leaned on the door frame of the cloakroom and folded his arms to watch him choose a difficult attack, until finally he couldn't choose a suitable dress.

Marius was helpless, and there was still some unspeakable sourness in his heart. He thought that he had bought so many clothes for Ankeou and Akasha, but the two still looked indifferent, as if even if the white Qiunik on them They don't care if it rots.As a result, Ankeou has been entangled in this game for so long now?

He walked over and pulled out a black hoodie casually, and told An Keou solemnly, "This one, it will be very suitable."

An Keou glanced at him, put on the plain hoodie with nothing but black, and chose pants and shoes with the help of Marius. Before going out, he thought about whether he should change the earrings Or a necklace strap.

Marius sighed inwardly, but his feet moved quickly. He fetched a pair of ruby ​​earrings for Ankeou to put on, and comforted him patiently, "Relax, you are fine now. The clothes really fit well. "

Ankeou let out a long breath, seemingly indifferent on the surface, but his heart was pounding.

It's really not like him.

He could only say silently in his heart over and over again: I am not nervous, I am not nervous... Unfortunately, the anxiety did not ease at all.He felt that the blood in his whole body began to surge, as if he had used mescaline, and his brain was dizzy.

He could hardly bear to spurn himself in his heart: Haven't you already decided to control yourself?So what's the matter now?He still had paroxetine in his pocket, and he swallowed one, trying to calm down.I don't know whether it was the effect of drugs or psychological effects, but thank God, he finally calmed down a little.

The author has something to say: Typical manifestations of obsessive-compulsive disorder == An Keou, who has a strong desire to control == He tried to control himself, but unfortunately failed, so he was very anxious ==

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