lucky life

Li Yu was not originally called Li Yu, but his surname was Li. He was born in a scorching afternoon with a sudden easterly rain.So it was named Li Yu simply and rudely.The simple and straightforward induction of this rural man revealed the doom of life in a single word.

In the second year of his birth, the natural climate made the local people proud and confident: no drought, no flood, no earthquake, no pest disaster.It was raining continuously, and the bags of potatoes in his field were about to soak and rot in the ground. His father was wearing a straw hat and was about to run out with a plastic sheet on it. His mother was distressed and told him to put on a coir raincoat. The coir raincoat was extremely heavy when it got wet, and his father was sucked into the raging river before he had time to struggle, leaving nothing but bones along with the branches, sticks and crops.

In this way, his mother remarried for some unknown reason, perhaps to stay away from the sad place, so she left Li Yu and his grandma behind, and went to the township police station to change her name to Li Yu before her uncle's house, and "Li Yu" This ominous title took a backseat to the former name.

After finishing the elementary school in the village, he entered the middle school in the village, received a nine-year subsidy to graduate and entered the high school in the county, and passed most of the high school by patchwork, and only worked hard when there were three months left before the college entrance examination. a handful.He had already decided not to go to university before the senior high school entrance examination, just like other people swore to death that they would not take the postgraduate entrance examination for a job after graduating from university. After all, going to high school had already killed him, no, it was his grandmother's old life.

Uncle has been considerate since he was still in elementary school and has prepared a farmer for him, with a shoulder, sickle, chopping firewood, and said: If it doesn’t work, come back and plant crops, just like a real kind parent arranges everything for his children, solves it. Like worries.But he never looked at his grades. When Li Yu was still young and innocent, he got his report card at the end of the semester, received the certificate and rushed home, showing him ecstatically in exchange for a cold glance. , he began to be confused about what can be called "doing"?

But no one has ever answered these doubts for him. He doesn't know how to ask people from his uncle's family, but he often sighs back when he asks grandma - he subconsciously feels that grandma is not a family with him and uncles.

He learned to be full of troubles but not to find out. What really taught him these worldly skills is time. With the passage of time, many problems can be solved by themselves.

So he learned from a young age not to force, some gains and losses are not a matter of hard work and gain, but a more fundamental but elusive problem or a problem of human nature.

After the high school entrance examination, before the results were announced, he had already started to use his personal tools without any suspense, and waited for his middle school head teacher to come to him during the labor of leaving early and returning late. He had just put down the firewood and squatted under the faucet in the yard that day. , washing his head, face and arms with the light from the door of the kitchen, it was getting dark, when the rural people started to enjoy the shade after eating, grandma stood by and waited for him to finish washing, handed him a face towel, turned to give him After serving the meal, the class teacher came from afar, smiling all over his face, saying that Li Yu did well in the exam and could go to the best high school in the county. He probably thought this was good news.

Li Yu sat on one side, uncle and aunt sat opposite, and grandma stood far away from the kitchen door. She had never had a say in these issues.The teacher in charge sat aside after finishing the news, slapping the blood-sucking mosquitoes that kept coming up in the silent atmosphere from time to time, the uncle wiped his face a few times, and said: "If he really does well in the exam, he wants to continue studying, of course It is to be sent."

Aunt: "Did he do well in the exam? He doesn't usually put much effort into his studies."

"It's not bad, at least it's pretty good in our township. If you go to County No. [-] Middle School, you can also enter class B, which is a middle class."

The aunt was silent for a long time, and said in a tone that was extremely difficult after careful consideration: "Well...it's just a middle class and it's not good, and the conditions at home are not good. Only his uncle can do small jobs to earn some money when he is free. , my eldest is almost in the third grade of junior high school, and the younger sister is also in the sixth grade of elementary school. It is really unaffordable for all three children to study. Besides, we can’t accompany him to the county. It’s not good if no one cares about him. Three or five It is easy for children to learn to be bad when they mix together, and there is no one to take care of them in life..."

After talking eloquently, the head teacher seemed to feel something, put away his smile and said seriously: "The middle class is not the best, but our place is small and the development is limited, the education can't keep up with the outside world, it is far behind, and the students are big. Studying multiple times while helping the family, the time spent on study is limited, so it is very good to be able to get such a result in the test, and the person is smart and has great potential. Besides, isn’t there a nine-year compulsory education now? Elementary and junior high school I can’t even spend a few dollars. The difficulty is that every family has difficulties. Do the children of the poor have a home early? No. [-] middle school is a boarding system, so you don’t have to worry about food and lodging. It’s not easy to be bad.” After a moment of silence, he continued: “It’s up to you whether you learn to be bad or not? Some children still learn to be bad even if their parents are with them. Li Yu is an obedient and sensible child. You know everything by yourself. You have an independent personality, and you should be able to take care of yourself after you graduate from junior high school, right?" After speaking, he looked at Li Yu, as if waiting for him to confirm that he could indeed take care of himself, and the latter lowered his head and looked at himself His toes scratched the dirt.

Reminded by his aunt's elbow, the old uncle scolded again: "The difficulties at home are real, but we still have to see what Li Yu thinks." Looking at Li Yu's hair, he asked with concern: "Do you want to read it?"

After hearing this, Li Yu began to ask himself: Do you want to read it?He knew that this was just the hypocrisy of his uncle and aunt in front of others, but he still started to think about it unknowingly.The answer is yes, but he can't say it in person, and he will never say no to it, which means that there is really no turning point.So he said in a low voice, "I don't know."

Everyone talked a lot later, but Li Yu didn't listen to it. Many things can't be changed with just a few words.Before leaving, the teacher said: "You guys think about it carefully. If you are sure to go, report it tomorrow. Go directly to a teacher surnamed Zhao in the teaching office. Just say that I notified you, and we will contact you and make a deal."

When the people dispersed, Li Yu walked into the kitchen, and suddenly felt that the [-]-watt light bulb was dazzlingly bright, and under the yellow light, the leftovers had an attractive luster.He got into a quarrel outside before he finished eating the two bowls. Of course, at this time, grandma would fight for him without exception, and then became the punching bag for the two of them without exception.

Huddling the weak into a group is nothing more than becoming a vulnerable group. Li Yu put down the bowl and dragged grandma into the house. Outside, the aunt's sharp scolding and angry curses came from far and near, like a raging beast howling around the enemy. , Feeling like coming in to fight at any time.

As for what?Li Yu thought: it hurts my liver to always be so angry at people I don't want to see.

Anyway, in the end Li Yu went to high school and continued to receive poverty subsidies in high school. He has always been competitive in this respect. Who can easily have a tortuous life experience like his?

Grandma slept halfway that night, got up, packed things overnight, and moved back and forth to the old house. The wooden house was so old that the beams were crooked, and the wood close to the ground was rotten and black, as if a blown It looks like it will collapse in one breath.The old man woke up Li Yu when he had finished moving his things, and packed him up. Some of the best clothes and trousers that he thought could make people lift his head a little in the school in the county town, and a few dozen dollars were given to him. He is a passbook of a rural credit cooperative.

Li Yu refused, saying that he didn't want to go, that studying was too hard, and the strong and flexible old man burst into tears. He talked about Li Yu's father, his remarried mother, the importance of studying, and his long-dead mother. How grandpa was knowledgeable, and finally talked about how he was the captain of the production team when he was young, how he was quick and straightforward, and stood alone.

Walking on the way to the old house in the dark night, listening to the old man rambling about these illogical words that have long gone, it seems that the days have returned to the moment when the family was broken and the two depended on each other.

He knew that all ways of retreat were exhausted. If grandma moved out overnight, it would be impossible to go back. The whole family would be torn apart, and the uncle's family would become a joke that did not want to support the elderly, and would be condemned and criticized by everyone.With no room for maneuver, they are on their own.

"I'll help you fix the house first, and go out to work with them after the Chinese New Year."

"I want you to work?! Who wants you to work as a teenager? Do people dare to take you there? Am I exhausted or the coffin is half-covered and I'm about to die? Do you worry about me? Worried that I'll starve to death without food?!"

"I would starve to death. There is no oil, no salt, no rice, the fields are planted by uncles, and there is no money. Do you think people can't die of starvation?"

"I want you to teach me life, I don't know?!" The captain of her production team began to show the momentum, and shouted loudly, "I didn't plan to do it for so many years?! I just stayed like this?! You uncles I still don’t want to have another meal after eating that ghostly look?!” The conversation between the two echoed on the quiet and deserted village road, and there were occasional barks of dogs everywhere.

Later, he got on the bus to the county seat, and his old and aging body was standing alone on the side of the road.

Grandma's figure quickly faded away, and Li Yu clasped his palms against the passbook, his eyes were sore and his nose hurt like he had choked on water.Except for the driver and the driver, the car was silent. He leaned against the window with his eyes tightly closed. When he opened them again, tears still flowed silently. "Hey, it's too fragile." He sighed softly with a smile.

The mountains and fields are so dark that they are soaked in ink. On the rugged mountain road, the headlights of the car cut through the night, bumping forward, and the centripetal force of constantly changing direction makes people sway and drowsy.

Because of this, he felt that his hope of going to college

Very slim, he didn't want to cause any more pressure on grandma.I have not been very dedicated in my studies, I only want to be average, not outstanding enough to attract attention, and not to be underestimated by others.

Others are trying to create their own extraordinary life, Li Yu is desperately maintaining his life as an ordinary person.

However, someone who loves oneself without asking for anything in return is already a kind of great luck.He is very satisfied.