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This is the cemetery, there is no sunshine, no wind and sunshine, everything is so gloomy, just like Gu Jun's state of mind.

Gu Jun didn't know when this happened.

As soon as he lowered his head and raised his head, he was already in front of his sister's tombstone. Gu Jun's longing for his sister seemed to have become a habit, but this time when he saw the word "Gu Woruo" and the smiling face with the same photo as the school badge, he was surprised. Weeping sadly.

The figure of a woman gradually became clear. Gu Yun seemed to be unable to hear the sound of high heels, but he felt it automatically. He could perceive the sharp and piercing regular sound, which was both strange and familiar.

"Why are you here? What are you doing here!"

"She is your daughter, isn't my sister your daughter? How can you be so calm, bring a luxury that is useless to her, and show it to someone? What's the point of you coming to redeem it now? "

"You weren't there when my sister missed you! You weren't there when she was sick and uncomfortable! You didn't even know she passed away! You were still enjoying your life at that time, so why do you come back now?"

"Your decisive attitude and decisive look, are you worthy of her missing? But...you are still the person she misses the most. Sometimes I think about it, are you worthy?"

"She has been away for so long, do you have any reaction? When I went back to that house, I still kept your clothes in it for ten years. She cared about it for ten years, and it was so sad to live with this caring. died."

"But, what about you? You don't know anything about her death, yet you can still calmly listen to every word in court, and it doesn't matter if she leaves, right? If you are calm and natural, are you safe?"

"She was not even 17 years old when she left, and you stayed with her for seven years, and you didn't even take care of her after that, but she missed you for the rest of her life, Xiao Ruo may have been thinking of you before she left. "

"Isn't your life very good? Driving a Maybach, carrying Hermes, and Mrs. Fu can't be free, right? You don't have time to go back and have a look, do you? Even if you go back and take a look, you don't need to care about every detail, go back and take a look Maybe we can know that she is sick, so take some money to treat Xiao Ruo, and she will not be dead now!"

"Even if it's just a glance!"

"Isn't there nothing to worry about in ten years?"

"Are you willing? Why are you willing! Let her miss you and think of death alone, and she still misses you when she leaves."

"Why do you want to be this mother!"

……

A fingertip seemed to gently pick the corner of the eye, and this gentle movement made Gu Jun capture Lin Yimo.

Gu Yun stood up, but found that the pillow was wet with tears, Lin Yimo just gently pushed away the teardrops from the corners of Gu Yun's eyes.

Gu Yun seemed to have reacted for a long time, he wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, and hugged Lin Yimo, his voice was low and hoarse: "Let me give you a hug."

Lin Yimo stroked Gu Yun's back lightly: "Is this a dream?"

"Well, I had a dream. I dreamed that I scolded her for a long time. It seemed that I continued to roar hysterically. My words seemed to be making trouble out of no reason. At that time, I seemed to be venting out of rational thinking."

But no matter how sullen and angry you are, to bring out tears in your dream, it must be very bad, very sad.

"Making trouble out of no reason? This is a bit out of character with your personality, and have you ever yelled? The time at the beginning of the first year of high school was also due to most other factors. In fact, no matter how exciting or broken you are, or things, you The reaction will never be too strong, the collapse is hidden in the bottom of my heart, isn't it?" Lin Yimo responded to Gu Yun's words with soft words.

The yelling at his father in the first year of high school was Gu Yun's plan. He used that opportunity to let the students keep a certain distance from themselves and have no relationship with the students. In fact, the yelling did not come from the heart, nor was it just It's a pretense based on one's own sullenness.

And his collapse, all his strong reactions are just as Lin Yimo said, hidden in his heart, his character is like this.

Gu Jun let go of his hand, the surrounding bedding was messy, the pillow was soaked with tears, the two sat lazily, their eyes met, Gu Jun's eyes seemed to be downcast: "Perhaps, in fact, I also thought about it, wanting to roar."

"Maybe, maybe it's what you want, but when you get to reality, you can't find your mouth for an instant. No matter how bad things are, you can still turn around. You may not know what to do in the future, but you can still turn around." When you turn around, you will cry quietly, but you won't really roar out from your heart."

Gu Jun responded after a long time: "Yes."

After this simple response, Gu Yun was left with complete silence, and Lin Yimo stayed with him to be quiet.

This is still an ordinary and most familiar bed, and the surrounding environment is so familiar, but it makes Gu Yun extremely repulsive. At this time, he is like an outsider, so why should he live here safely, because of friendship?But what friendship did he have with them, the only connection they had in common was their mother, whom he did not accept.

He thought for a long time, and when the words greeted him, he also brought a contemptuous smile, as if he sneered at his own dream, and he continued:

"In my dream, I seemed to be kidnapped by morality, and even my thinking now has the meaning of kidnapping by morality. If she leaves, she has no obligation to take care of me and Xiao Ruo, but I hate that I hate her for not caring, no matter what. Don't ask, use this to abuse her."

"But one thing is very clear to me. In my heart, I hope that she will come back to see Xiao Ruo before she dies. This is indeed an extravagant hope, and I can't use this matter to blame her. Reason says no."

"My sensibility is constantly loathing her, but my rationality keeps letting me understand her, understand her difficulties, and let me talk calmly, but about this matter, the emotion triggered by sensibility always makes me anxious. "

Lin Yimo helped Gu Yun's hand: "There is no absolute rationality in the first place. Everyone is just an animal dominated by emotion. You can understand it, but you also hate it. You should use rational reflection to understand her in all negative emotions." , you've done a good job. There's no such thing as invincible, for an emotional animal."

Linked to feelings, there is no absolute right or wrong, you can judge right or wrong based on the rules from where, maybe there is only relative good and bad.

"Gu Yun." Lin Yimo called softly after Gu Yun's silence.

"Ah."

"Maybe we can talk about it. Don't you think the current situation of not advancing and not retreating is very bad? Maybe the result may not be satisfactory. If the result is bad, then face it and let time slowly polish it. I think This bad thing will not be bad for a lifetime, at worst, we will not meet again for a lifetime, and if the result is good, then I don’t need to say more, I just hope that there will be no regrets, you can decide for yourself.”

"Um……"

The two got out of bed slowly, and the long conversation and silent transition between the two barely managed to catch up with seven o'clock in the morning.

The two went to the bathroom to wash up.

"I want to go to my former home later to have a look." Gu Jun watched Lin Yimo squeeze the toothpaste.

"I'll go with you." Lin Yimo squeezed a portion of toothpaste on Gu Yun's toothbrush.

When the two returned to the room, Gu Jun still calmly and orderly handed out Lin Yimo's clothes and jacket, and handed out the box on the top of the cabinet. Gu Jun took out a single key from the glove box: " Go and try."

Gu Jun was not sure if the house had changed the locks or even changed the owner, but he still wanted to try it out to see the bitter place.

After the two went out, they went to the porridge shop they went to the most. Congee was not the best choice for them to eat, but due to many reasons, maybe it was illness, or it seemed that it was just because of many physical reasons, the two had a disagreement with porridge. Talk less.

The porridge shop is a short distance from the bus stop in front of the school, and the two of them didn't spend a lot of time waiting for the bus.

A section of the way under the bus, the two took a taxi, but Lin Yimo said that just now the bus was tired and took the taxi.

Lin Yimo was so sleepy that he put it on Gu Jun's shoulders. The scarf around Lin Yimo's neck was the one worn last winter until this winter. Lin Yimo's left hand was hidden in his left pocket, and his right hand was hidden in Gu Jun's scarf. Pocket, sleepy nap.

Gu Yun knew very well that Lin Yimo's sleep was all light sleep except for the sleep on the familiar bed. Gu Yun gently put his hand on Lin Yimo's body, and Lin Yimo woke up no matter where he was.

The two communicated as the taxi slowly stopped.

"arrive?"

"arrive."

The two let go of their hands and got off the car. They stayed at the gate of the community, and Lin Yimo adjusted his scarf.

"Very sleepy? Did you not sleep well yesterday? You woke up so early this morning." Gu Jun gently raised the end of Lin Yimo's hair that blocked Lin Yimo's sight with his index finger.

"Well, not very sleepy, a little." Lin Yimo said, "I can't sleep well, after all, my baby has been wronged."

Gu Yun smiled.

Lin Yimo followed Gu Yun slowly into the community. This community is not high-end, but ordinary people.

The green belts and buildings in the community are mixed and scattered. Gu Jun led Lin Yimo to the basement of the corresponding buildings. On the dry lawn, there were sparse sundries, and a row of PORSCHSP letters and all these simple and unobtrusive.

Gu Jun stopped in his tracks. Gu Jun didn't know why he saw the Porsche but thought of her without any hindrance. He stared at the black light of Panamera until it refracted, but he fell into deep thought.

"Xiao Yan, do you have any premonitions?" It is Lin Yimo's instinct to pay more attention to famous cars, but he is not too deep in thought when facing a random Porsche Panamera.

"It's just a random feeling." Gu Jun didn't think until his thoughts were outrageous, Gu Jun's hand was loose and tightened again because of his ecstasy, "Let's go, go upstairs and have a look."

Hunchbacked and carried, accompanied by children.

In just over a year, the slight change in the corridor has filled the strangeness. Gu Jun is even unfamiliar with the people here. At this time, the things and people are not lamenting the time span, but the pair of eyes that have seen the warmth and warmth of the world. The cold eyes of the world, if you look at it again, you really feel that it is extraordinary.

"Xiaoyun."

Gu Yun raised his head slightly in a daze. The door in front of him could not be said to be dilapidated or dusty, but it also described the vicissitudes of life, white clouds and gray dogs.

"Can you?" Lin Yimo asked again.

The two stood at the door for a long time, Gu Yun held the key tightly in his hand, he was noisy and mocking in his heart, but he was indifferent on the surface.

Gu Yun first turned his head and presented the answer with a smile. The key turned two and a half times without emotion, but with a click, it seemed to be bitter.

The haze of dust is brought into the nostrils, and the dim reflection of the pupils brought by the curtains is old.

Gu Jun accurately turned on the dark yellow light tubes around the living room, and the feeling was indescribable and indescribable.

"Just step in, it looks like no one lives there."

"Is it just you and your sister in this house?"

"Originally there were four people, one left, and the other lived a wandering life. His business has been going downhill since then. I heard that he even borrowed money to supplement his living expenses a few months ago. I thought he would After selling the house, it’s a bit unbelievable that the key can open it, but it seems that this house is not often lived in.”

The furniture under the dim light source is indeed old, and it can be seen that the decoration style was ten years ago.

Gu Jun didn't plan to turn around too much. At the beginning, the living room was open to Lengao and loneliness, but Gu Jun's room was locked up to be valuable memories. Lin Yimo also followed Gu Jun into the room in a straight line.

For Lin Yimo, this environment is so strange, but Lin Yimo unexpectedly saw Gu Jun's astonishment, and Gu Jun seemed to be unfamiliar with the environment here.

Gu Jun walked over to the bed.

"Sheets were changed."

"The desk has also been changed."

He walked to the desk again, the desk was bigger, it didn't look like a child's desk before, the small desk that Gu Jun used in elementary school in junior high school looked shabby.

The inner guidance made Gu Ye open the closet, there were sweaters, denim jackets, but also suits, serious black suits, all of which seemed to be Gu Ye's size.

"What's the matter, Xiaojun." Lin Yimo asked, "Is this the clothes you left?"

"I didn't stay." Gu Jun kept giving him answers in his heart, and he couldn't help but doubt in the wrong direction, "Could it be her?"

Gu Jun's panic made him walk out of the door without closing the closet. Lin Yimo walked out and observed that Gu Jun was holding tightly to the doorknob of the other door, he hesitated.

"Don't be afraid, Gu Jun, just open it if you want." Lin Yimo stood beside him, he didn't use his body to help Gu Jun open the door, his words were to help Gu Jun overcome the obstacles in his heart.

Seeing the empty room, Gu Jun was really choked up in his heart. He was not familiar with this room at first, but now it is even more unfamiliar. The room is so empty that only brand new curtains and brand new carpets are left, so strange that it makes one's scalp tingle , no one, no feelings, but there is a suffocation deep in the bottom of the sea.

"What does this mean?" Gu Jun couldn't help but wonder.

"Has that changed too?"

"It's changed, everything is gone." Gu Ye was going to open his sister's room, "Could it be that Xiao Ruo's room has also changed?"

Gu Jun opened the door of the room without fear, but he couldn't face it calmly. It was a curled body, her long loose hair covered her side face, Gu Jun didn't know what he was relying on at this time. Emotions to confirm the face.

She removed that layer of delicate makeup, and her bloodless face revealed her fragility, but Gu Jun could see a bit of her sister's shadow.

Her deep sleep didn't make Gu Jun overreact. Gu Jun persuaded himself to calm down with a heavy heart. He found a half glass of water and a jar of medicine on the bedside table.

Gu Jun is very familiar with this small medicine tube. The label in the white tube has a green edge. Gu Jun saw a clear "□□". Quit, after meeting Lin Yimo, he quit completely.

It is precisely because of familiarity that it is not surprising, and it is also because of ignorance that it is surprising.

Gu Yun was so flustered at this moment that he couldn't even weigh the medicine. He hurriedly opened it and saw the crowding of the pills, so he was relieved.

Gu Jun put down the medicine lightly, and he walked out of the room gently carrying Lin Yimo's waist.

Gently closed the door, and also gently locked the living room door.

"Let's go." The two walked down the corridor.

"What was that just now?"

"Sleeping pills."

Lin Yimo was silent, and the two went down the corridor again, still the bright black Palamela.

The two didn't get into the taxi immediately, Lin Yimo walked along with Gu Yun, and the two remained silent all the way, it was Lin Yimo who didn't interrupt Gu Yun's thoughts.

Gu Jun's pace stopped at a kindergarten near the community. Kindergartens are always so colorful.

In Gu Yun's rare childhood memories, it was his sister and mother who came to pick him up together. Gu Yun also forgot why he was angry with his sister and ignored her.

And the sentence "My sister is so good to you, why are you willing to bully my sister?" suddenly rushed into Gu Yun's mind. What was in his mind at this time was not his sister, but his mother, and it was rare for her to accompany this sentence. Gentle and cheerful, she always weeps weakly.

The two stood outside the railing, Lin Yimo listened to Gu Yun's words and said:

"In the past, I hoped that she would never come back, because she didn't want us anymore. At that time, I was as angry as a child."

"Later, I always found that Xiao Ruo missed her very much. Xiao Ruo would secretly celebrate her on her birthday. Xiao Ruo didn't have other exaggerated ceremonies. She would eat better that day and take me to eat better. There are even cakes, everything is monotonous but also hides the most simple thoughts.”

"Xiao Ruo still keeps thinking about everything about her. After I knew that Xiao Ruo missed her very much, I hoped that she would come back, and I didn't want to be angry anymore. Although I didn't have any feelings for her, I still couldn't wait."

"After a long time, Xiao Ruo also left, and people who were not deeply impressed at first were even more forgotten, but I didn't expect that I would be so repulsed when I saw her again, repulsed because of unwillingness. "

"Actually, I really hope to hear that she came back because of Xiao Ruo. I feel sorry for Xiao Ruo's concern, because I hope that Xiao Ruo's longing for these years will not be let down. I hope that she will be concerned about Xiao Ruo, even if Just a little bit."

"Do you think that what I am doing now is back to when I was a child, I was angry with her and my mind was childish."

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