Be careful

Populus confessed to Zhong Xinyang, admitting that he really likes the same sex, but Populus could not respond to his further speculation.

Just like he couldn't ask Zhong Xinyang to confirm his guess.

Even if Mu Chi is just a dream in his heart, he still wants to try his best to keep a little dignity for this dream.

For Zhong Xinyang's confession on the spur of the moment, Pu Li naturally tactfully refused.

Because, the softest place in my heart cannot be occupied by another person so quickly.What's more, although Zhong Xinyang was handsome, with a fair and sunny face, he was really not his type.

After Zhong Xinyang explained everything, he was in a good mood, and emptied the refrigerator at Pu Li's house, leaving this topic aside.

Sometimes, Poplar really doesn't know how to characterize Zhong Xinyang. This boy is always wandering between rationality and sensibility, sunshine and gloom, fragility and tenacity.

A week later, Feng Rui received an invitation from Jerry on behalf of Poplar.

Since joining the company, Pu Li has been busy participating in performing arts training. During this period, he also took time to take a few groups of personal photos, and rarely met Jerry.

So he was quite surprised to receive Jerry's invitation suddenly.

That was the invitation to Jerry's wedding, scheduled for a week later.

What surprised him even more was that the name of "Mu Mu" was written in the bride's column on the invitation.

In the past, when he was at MAXIMUM, his makeup and stylist was Mu Mu, a gentle and lovely girl.

Pu Li couldn't help asking Feng Rui: "Is it Xiaomu?"

Feng Rui raised his gaze, and motioned for Pu Li to open the invitation.

Sure enough, this exquisitely designed invitation card has an unexpected mechanism, a red silk thread, which pulls out a wedding photo of Jerry and the bride.

The bride in the photo was indeed the Mu Mu he knew.

Pu Li looked at Feng Ruile: "I heard her say before that she was on a blind date with a tall, rich and handsome man, but I didn't expect it to be Jerry from Xinghe."

Feng Rui laughed until crow's feet appeared at the corners of his eyes: "This little girl is fine, now she has become a golden phoenix climbing high branches."

The situation of Mu Mu, Populus quite understands.The girl was born in the same year as him. Because she liked makeup and styling, she went to a specialized school very early, and has been working hard in the entertainment industry with her master.

In the years when MAXIMUM was popular, the little girl worked tirelessly and followed the world.However, her biggest dream is to find a husband who loves him and have a pair of lovely babies.

"This is a dream come true." Pu Li flipped through the phone's address book, tried to dial Mu Mu's number, and wanted to say congratulations in person.

Coincidentally, Mu Mu happened to be shopping in a commercial street not far away, and it was only a ten-minute walk from Poplar.

The two agreed to meet in a tea restaurant. The window is next to the bustling pedestrian street.

"I guess you'll call me." Mu Mu arrived, her hair was always short with a small knot in the back of her head, and the fluffy white dress was very different from her usual dressing style.

Not long after, Pu Li realized that Mu Mu's lower abdomen was covered tightly, which seemed to be intentional. Only then did he realize that Mu Mu had a baby, and quickly congratulated her on double happiness.

"Don't be so exaggerated," Mu Mu sat down and covered his mouth with a smile, "It's embarrassing to hear."

The two hadn't seen each other for a long time, and they chatted a lot with joy.When we parted, Mu Mu was a little bit reluctant to part: "Remember to come to the wedding, I don't have any friends here, and one more person I know will make my heart more at ease."

Pope readily agreed, anyway, he didn't have a formal work arrangement yet, all he had was time.

However, in mid-October, the next day was the night of Mu Mu's and Jerry's wedding, Pu Li received a call from Zhong Xinyang.

In fact, two hours before that phone call, Pu Li and Zhong Xinyang were discussing the script of "Borrowing Yue" in front of the South Building of the Film Academy.

"He Sheng was originally a swimmer. He loved swimming very much and he also carried the expectations of his coaches, family and friends. However, in an accident at sea, he watched his friends who had been playing with him since childhood being swept away by the waves, and he was powerless. Since then , he never dared to go into the water again.”

Facing the azure sea, He Sheng wept silently. It was obvious that he could not save his friend ashore with his good skills, but he felt a huge betrayal in his heart. They used to be so good and wanted to be together in everything, why death was caught off guard , to tear them apart alive.

"Crying scene?" Pu Li asked Zhong Xinyang.

Zhong Xinyang sat next to Poplar, deliberately keeping a little distance.

"I always feel that I can't handle He Sheng's psychological state well," Zhong Xinyang said with a smile on his lips, but his eyes were confused. "In my opinion, He Sheng's feelings for his friends are not pure friendship. love and dependence. He lost his 'friend', in fact he lost his lover, family and a kind of ability to trust. Then, this affected his feelings for the water. He used to love swimming, but now he doesn't trust it. So there is no way to love again."

Following Zhong Xinyang's explanation, Pu Li read the script several times. He felt that Zhong Xinyang's interpretation was a bit extreme, but it was not incomprehensible.But to him, he could only feel He Sheng's guilt.

Swimming is his specialty, something he is proud of, but he can't use it to save people, he feels guilty.The logic is very simple.

There are not many lines in this paragraph, and the focus is on the expression of emotional drama.

The two discussed repeatedly and had occasional disputes, but they didn't see anything wrong with Zhong Xinyang at all.

Zhong Xinyang lost his mind on the phone and said some nonsensical things.

For a while, he said that he had raised a sparrow called "Guoer" when he was a child; for a while, he talked about being bullied by boys in art school; He was taken to a detox center out of town for treatment.

"Chestnut, have you ever seen that kind of electrode pad? It's cold, with tiny wires attached to it. They put many of these things on the gray helmet. I saw myself wearing it in the mirror for the first time. Looking at that thing, I still think it's quite ridiculous. However, the huge stimulation that followed made me unable to laugh anymore."

"They showed me that kind of film, two foreign men, in the sun, in the sea of ​​flowers, on the trestle bridge. Their eyes are full of each other, so tender and sweet. But when they get close, hold hands, or kiss , the electrodes on my head crackled."

"Damn, that feeling is not pain, it's definitely not pain, or it's not the pain I expected. While comforting myself, it's okay, I can stand it, while vomiting crazily. I'm obviously not in pain, why is it so uncomfortable !!!”

"Lizi, I don't want to be like this, I don't want to, I don't want to be regarded as a different kind, to be looked down upon by others, to be despised by my parents and even my younger sister. I also want to quit, if I can!"

"But, no! Once, I thought I quit, but I just lied to myself. If I hadn't met him, it would have been fine if I hadn't met him... Rather than asking me to quit him, it would be better for me to quit love ability, but then why am I still alive?"

Zhong Xinyang's mood changed drastically following his narration.

Populus shuddered when he heard that!He never imagined that as a gay, in today's relatively open and inclusive environment, he could be so tortured.

Populus clenched his teeth tightly, his five fingers were clenched into fists, and he beat his legs secretly.

He tried to comfort Zhong Xinyang several times, but the other party never gave him a chance to interrupt.

"Lizi, I want to leave, leave this world, and never come back. Never again..."

Hearing Zhong Xinyang's hollow and almost desperate voice, Populus fell into a great panic.An ominous premonition came from all directions.

"Xinyang, what's wrong with you, are you in a bad mood? Or something happened suddenly? I'll come to you, let's talk, let's have a good chat, okay?" Pope tried to calm the other party's emotions.

"Chestnut, hiss..." Zhong Xinyang's voice trembled slightly, and after taking a painful gasp, it became weaker and weaker, "Thank you for playing with me today, I originally planned to leave quietly, but I am too reluctant to let you Friend. I have been very lonely since I was a child, especially lonely. After I met you, I had fantasized that there might be another way of life, but now it seems to be a failure. Chestnut, forgive me for not inviting you to sit at home Sit down, there will be no chance in the future, good night."

Poplar's head was about to explode, and he was disturbed by this sudden phone call.

He didn't know what happened to Zhong Xinyang, or didn't dare to guess what he had done to him.The more he thought about it, the more he panicked, so Pu Li hurriedly called Feng Rui.

At this moment, Feng Rui was in the hospital, and his wife suddenly showed signs of giving birth.Feng Rui on the other end of the phone was both bored and happy.Pope asked him if he knew the address of Zhong Xinyang's house, Feng Rui said he didn't know, so he hung up the phone hastily.

Populus went downstairs and stood on the side of the busy street, looking at the old and new city, annoyed to the point of being at a loss.

He wanted to rush to Zhong Xinyang's side immediately.

However, he didn't even know where that person was at the moment.

Poplar walked back and forth along the road, the headlights of the back and forth cars made his eyes hurt.

He was sure that someone must know where Zhong Xinyang was at the moment, but he didn't dare to think about it.

Pu Li anxiously called Zhong Xinyang over and over again, but after no one answered as expected, he sent him countless voice messages from WeChat, but nothing came of it either.

"Bah..." Accompanied by a sudden brake, an old woman who was about to cross the road was so frightened that she lay on the ground.

Seeing this scene from a distance, Populus suddenly broke out in a cold sweat.Life is so precious, everyone has only one time, and at the same time it is so fragile.

When Pope thought of the danger Zhong Xinyang was facing when he was hesitating, he hated himself for not being decisive enough.

In "Jianyue", did the boy named Chen Sheng ever watch the figure of his companion disappear in the sea like he does now, without using all his strength to rescue him?

In the end, Pu Li pressed Mu Chi's phone number.The only contact he knew must know where Zhong Xinyang was.

After a while, Mu Chi answered the phone, with a little surprise and surprise in his voice: "Pulcus tree?"

"Mr. Mu, Mr. Mu!" Pu Li's anxiety was clearly seen, "Quick, hurry to Zhong Xinyang's place! Quick, he is going to die!"

Mu Chi hesitated for a moment, the background sound of the phone changed from noisy to quiet, and then there was the sound of starting a car.

Pu Li's heart eased a little, and then he heard Mu Chi questioning him over the phone.

"Didn't I warn you last time not to associate with that child again?"

Pu Li trembled, he was not in the mood to answer Mu Chi's question at all, he said "give me his home address", and hung up the phone directly.

Half a minute later, Mu Chi sent a location to Pu Li, who took a taxi on the side of the road and rushed to Zhong Xinyang's place.

Outside the car window, as in the past, the bustling city is like a huge orderly machine, looking indifferent and ruthless.At this moment, how many people are happy, how many people are suffering, there are new lives coming, and some people want to hastily end this life, but all these seem to have nothing to do with it.

The neon outside the window reflected the cheeks of Poplar, he leaned back in the chair tiredly, recalling the "last time" that Mu Chi said.