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Strongly recommend: The Gate of Creation Perfect World Infinite True Immortal Demon Tianji Confucianism, Taoism, Supreme Sage, Great Song Dynasty Wisdom Emperor Yushanhe Three Realms Blood Song Ultimate Cultivation Powerful Young Master Only My God Respects Manghuangji I want to seal the sky I am the will of God The honor of Korean entertainment The Road to Awakening Wu Zundao Invincible Yao Zunyan is a homosexual, he has mild autism, he was born in a single-parent family, his mother died young, his father was an alcoholic, and later he suffered from depression, perhaps because of the hardships in his childhood, coupled with Autistic, so the themes of the films he shoots are very different from others.

Ash is one such film.

Even though the movie died before it was released, Yan Zi thought it was the most satisfying one of his works.

Many people say that this movie is actually a portrayal of Yan Zi's own life.

It starred the famous movie star Yu Jinghe. After the filming of this movie, Yu Jinghe died unexpectedly, and Yan Zi was even more reluctant to make this movie public.

This is a very dark movie.

The opening scene is a black and white world, with only a blue butterfly floating in the picture.

The butterfly rests in a pair of hands, and the camera slowly zooms in. It is the hands of a young man.

Those hands were long and slender, with distinct bones, the butterfly was in his hands, and then left him.

The background music sounded at the right time, but it was a very monotonous piano sound.

Lin Nai didn't see any way.

There was a knock on the door.

Lin Nai thought to himself, let’s read it next time when I have time.

She put the phone away and opened the door.

It was Pei Jiahe outside the door, and the makeup artist and stylist also came together.

Seeing that Lin Nai was already waiting, the makeup artist and stylist were embarrassed and started working immediately.

When she finished styling and went out, Ling Yijing was already taking his own solo photo.

Pei Jiahe looked around and asked softly, "Where's Director Cen?"

"Oh, she's back."

Pei Jiahe seemed to be relieved, it seemed that she was really afraid of staying with Cen Ruxi.

She whispered, "You know what?"

Linnai: "...I don't know."

Pei Jiahe: "..."

"How would I know if you don't tell me." Lin Nai was very innocent.

Pei Jiahe silently rolled his eyes: "Did you know that Qin Chuan is going to make a new movie, and the script has already been finalized, it's a martial arts movie, and he has posted a message on Weibo that he wants you to be the heroine."

Lin Nai: "Oh, I know this, don't you already know it too?"

Pei Jiahe: "He didn't communicate with us at all! He decided on the female lead without authorization!"

Lin Nai: "..."

Pei Jiahe: "This is really great. It proves that Qin Chuan trusts you very much. You are college classmates, right? It's really great! Linnai, I feel that you will definitely win an actress with Qin Chuan's movie."

Lin Nai raised his forehead: "Qin Chuan is not a god."

"Don't be discouraged, the possibility is still very high," Pei Jiahe patted Lin Nai's shoulder, "I'll talk to Qin Chuan about a film appointment in a while."

Lin Nai nodded.

In just a few minutes, Ling Yijing had finished filming, and Lin Nai went up to prepare for the filming.

"Miss Lin," Ling Yijing smiled at Lin Nai, "I have received the film, thank you very much."

Lin Nai waved his hand, "Actually, it was sent by Gu Hailan, I didn't do anything."

Ling Yijing smiled, "Then Miss Lin, have you watched the movie?"

Lin Nai frowned: "I only watched a little bit, I haven't finished it yet..."

"Really," Ling Yijing laughed again, "You should take a look, it will be of great help to you."

At that moment, Lin Nai felt that Ling Yijing's expression seemed strange.

"what……"

Ling Yijing smiled, leaned over, and whispered in Lin Nai's ear: "You will get what you want, in this movie."

Suddenly, he straightened up again and asked, "Miss Lin, do you still remember Yu Jinghe?"

Lin Nai nodded.

He has filmed scenes with Yu Jinghe, so he must remember it.

Ling Yijing laughed: "You ask him an important matter, now, in this movie, you will see his promise."

Lin Nai was completely stunned, she had no idea what Ling Yijing was talking about, "You..."

The impression Yu Jinghe gave her was too shallow.

Yu Jinghe became famous at a young age, and his star journey was smooth. Like Lin Nai, he was the youngest actor at the Palme d'Or, but his fate was ill-fated. He died in a car accident when his career was the most successful, just like the music superstar Chu Tianyin, Become a shortcoming in the entertainment circle.

Lin Nai felt that Yu Jinghe was very far away from her, and she couldn't figure out what entanglement she had with Yu Jinghe.

"I'll see," was all she could say.

Ling Yijing smiled: "Fulfilling the promise to you, then all the wishes of Yu Jinghe's life will be fulfilled."

At that moment, Lin Nai felt that the expression of the boy in front of him seemed to overlap with someone in his memory.

But who is that person, Lin Nai has no impression at all.

The costumes used for shooting are costumes, very simple black vest and white shorts. When shooting the second set, the director asked Lin Nai to change her makeup. Interestingly, the makeup artist painted Lin Nai a smoky makeup.

"This seems to be the first time I have done this kind of makeup in a play." Lin Nai looked at the small mirror.

Pei Jiahe looked at Lin Nai and shook his head: "You seem to have painted before, don't you remember?"

Lin Nai frowned slightly.

Pei Jiahe explained: "Have you forgotten? When you participated in a Golden Deer Award or something, you had smoky makeup. At that time, many people on the Internet said that you were not suitable for you--well, but now this is super suitable. It seems to be a problem with the makeup artist."

When she said this, the make-up artist laughed.

The makeup artist said: "It's not a makeup technique problem. Lin Nai has lost a lot of weight now, there is no flesh on his face, and if the bones protrude, it is more suitable."

Has she lost a lot of weight?

She always thought that this was a natural change of growth, and she would lose weight naturally after her body matured completely, but she didn't expect there was a turning point?

She looked at herself in the mirror carefully - pointed chin, deep eye sockets, protruding cheekbones, no flesh on her cheeks, she looked a little thin indeed.

When I was in middle school, some people said that Lin Nai had a sweet appearance, and it was not that no one said that he was cute.

Looking at her face now, she didn't feel any sweetness at all.

Completely the face of a mature woman.

"But Lin Nai," the makeup artist said again, "how did you lose weight? You lost so much all of a sudden. I'm so envious. It's not because of diet pills."

Pei Jiahe shook his head: "It's not good to be that thin, it's a bit scary, but I think it looks better now."

The makeup artist nodded, "Yes, that's really scary."

Lin Nai was full of doubts. What do you mean? In this way, she seems to have lost a lot of weight suddenly?

But she didn't have time to think about it, so she was called up to shoot.

This group of photos was posted on Weibo soon, and Pei Jiahe asked Lin Nai to forward it as usual.

The photos are beautifully taken, with a psychedelic atmosphere, which complements Han Wei's movies.

Lin Nai looked at it for a while, and didn't know whether it was because of the post-editing or the makeup. She always felt that this kind of makeup was a bit strange to herself.

And she didn't forget what Ling Yijing said.

Yu Jinghe's promise?

What else do you want?

what do i wantLin Nai asked herself.

Almost immediately she thought of what Sormine had said to her.

She also said that one day she will get what she wants.

Lin Nai clicked on the video.

"What do I want, why I don't know myself..."

She clicked on the video, and the video automatically played according to the last viewing record.

According to the biography of director Yan Zi on the Internet, Lin Nai found that this boring movie really reflected Yan Zi's life.

Yu Jinghe is worthy of being the youngest film king, he has fully represented this character.

And Lin Nai's performance in this is not inferior to Yu Jinghe at all.

This is a very masterful movie, and the youngest actor and actress play perfectly in the film.

Lin Nai plays Yu Jinghe's younger sister. She is a schizophrenic. She went crazy when she saw her mother hanging naked in the kitchen when she was young. Unlike her autistic brother, her madness seems to be exactly the same as her father.

At night, the drunken father would indifferently watch his sister commit suicide. He was so drunk that after his wife died, he couldn't even distinguish day from night, and which was his wife and daughter.

After being raped by her biological father, the younger sister cut her arm with a blade as if she felt no pain.

But she won't die.

After she was injured, her brother would wash her wound and bandage her.

Such days are repeated monotonously, again and again.

For them, home is like a dilapidated cage.

Everyone is living in despair.

It's like the butterfly at the beginning of the title, which may have brought a little color, but it dissipated immediately.

In the film, Lin Nai is skinny and her limbs are slender. Yu Jinghe holds her in his arms as she is bleeding profusely. He has no way to save her sister. She has lost a lot of blood and her wound is seriously infected.

Maybe he thought about taking her to the hospital, but he couldn't step out of that house.

Perhaps death is a kind of relief for my sister.

It was a very hopeless feeling. Even if you were not involved in the shooting, just being rendered by the depressing, almost silent sound effect, you would feel that it was difficult to breathe.

Yu Jinghe raised his head and looked at the camera.

Those were a pair of indifferent eyes.

Lin Nai looked into those eyes, as if all the memories were coming back.

That feeling of chills all over the body, that feeling of despair.

Lin Nai took a deep breath.

She couldn't control the shock in her heart, she understood why this movie couldn't be released, it couldn't pass the review at all.

If someone with a little shadow in their hearts reads it, they will be unable to extricate themselves from indulging in despair.

She remembered that Shen Yi strongly opposed it when she wanted to accept the movie.

But Yan Zi approached her many times and thought she was very suitable for this role.

His original words were: "You have a sad temperament, I think you are very suitable for this role."

At that time, all discussions were harmonious, and my state was not that bad.

But after filming, Yan Zi told her: "Lin Nai, the worst decision I ever made in my life was to invite you to participate in this movie."

"Linnai, I ruined you."

Lin Nai looked at the screen, and Yu Jinghe's cold eyes were frozen in the picture.

Lin Nai wiped his face, which was full of tears.

She trembled and said: "...It's not you, it's me who destroyed myself with my own hands."