miss me

Xia Xinghe was standing by the window sill in a daze when he received the call from Bai Qingzhou.

The air quality in the north is not as good as that in the south, especially in winter, gas is used for heating.When passing by the heating company, a huge chimney was inserted in the air and exhaled white gas, which merged with the sky. At night, the sky was still foggy, and even the stars seemed extravagant.

It is joyful to be reunited with relatives, and the wandering duckweed has found its roots.My father's condition is improving day by day, and he is able to get out of bed and walk. Relatives often come to visit and connect with each other, and the group of children they bring with them often make people laugh out loud.

The moment of family reunion is always hard to let go, and in this warm and harmonious atmosphere, a few different emotions have been added.

Although Xia Xinghe is full-time, he also knows the truth that he should not be too free and undisciplined. Normally, on the eighth and ninth day of the first lunar month, when his parents go to work, he will return to Liaohu to start making plans for the new year and preparing materials for new articles. When would he leave, he hesitated a little.

Immature when he was young, he rushed to the big city with great ambitions, vowing to create a world. Now that his parents are getting older, his black hair is dyed into white hair, Xia Xinghe is a little homesick again, especially this time when his father is sick, It was more like a bell ringing in his ears, evoking his nostalgia and guilt for his parents from the bottom of his heart.

He is the only child in the family, and his parents gave him all the love. Although he didn't understand it, they also accepted his writing as a job and respected his choice, even though he came out of the closet back then. , his parents cried and scolded him, and finally accepted his different sexual orientation from others, and only said "Mom and Dad hope you are safe and happy".

Xia Xinghe thought that he had nothing to worry about in Liaohu, and now that his parents are getting older, he should probably return to them and fulfill his responsibilities as a child.

At the New Year's Eve dinner just now, Qiu Guiyue asked him when he planned to go back, Xia Xinghe told them his thoughts, and Qiu Guiyue paused for a while: "Really plan to come back?"

Xia Xinghe nodded and said, "Yes."

Xia An Guo asked him: "Have you considered it? Didn't you always want to stay in a big city before? Why did you suddenly change your mind? Then what about your house and things over there?"

"Think about it,"

Xia Xinghe smiled, "I'm also a loner over there, I don't have anything to worry about, it's good to be with you when I come back. Anyway, I'm full-time, so I don't have to worry about work. The house and other things are easy to deal with. I'll take care of it in the next year." Just drop it."

Qiu Guiyue nodded and said, "You can decide for yourself", but the joy in her eyes couldn't be hidden.

Xia Xinghe knew that Qiu Guiyue actually wanted him back all along, and was afraid that he would make things difficult, so he never mentioned it.

Then come back, Xia Xinghe thought dazedly, Liaohu is not his home after all.

After eating, Xia Xinghe stood by the window in a daze, watching the lively and bustling reunion downstairs. After some time, he suddenly realized that it was past midnight.

He took out his mobile phone and sent blessing messages to his friends one by one, paused with his fingertips, and finally stayed on the dialog box with Bai Qingzhou.

Send one, he thought.

Recently, Bai Qingzhou didn't send him many messages, and he didn't send messages with him. At first, he was busy, but later he couldn't find the reason. Maybe it was because Xia Xinghe wanted to leave Liaohu, which made him subconscious. want to escape.

If there is anything in Liaohu that Xia Xinghe can't let go of, apart from things like houses, it might be Bai Qingzhou.

When he graduated that year, Xia Xinghe also thought about going back to his hometown or living in a big city closer to home, but perhaps because Bai Qingzhou's home is here, even if the two broke up, he still chose to stay here by mistake. I bought a house and wanted to integrate into the city.

Hovering his fingertips on the screen, deleting and deleting, Xia Xinghe's heart skipped a beat, and he still sent a message of congratulations. There were only the simplest four words "Happy New Year". After the message was sent, he quickly threw the phone aside again.

At one o'clock in the morning, he never thought that Bai Qingzhou would reply to him so quickly, and it was still in the form of voice, so that the call was connected, and the familiar clear voice was very clear through the receiver, but Xia Xinghe was still a little unreal.

Bai Qingzhou only said one word: "Hello?" Xia Xinghe stammered before saying, "Good evening."

"good evening."

Bai Qingzhou said, and after a while, he added in a low voice, "Happy New Year."

The deep voice fell on his ears, quietly soothing Xia Xinghe's mind.

Xia Xinghe bought his house in Liaohu, and his registered permanent residence is here, but he knows that his home is not here.

Home is where there is family, and he was alone.

He also tried hard, but the pursuit for so long did not warm Bai Qingzhou's heart, so in the end he could only hide every trace of emotion in his heart.

Perhaps this is the end.

Xia Xinghe thought with a wry smile, until now, he still misses Bai Qingzhou, but unfortunately liking cannot be forced, after all, he did not get Bai Qingzhou's preference.

The relationship between the two is not considered intimate, and it is supposed to be the end of it after saying their best wishes to each other, but maybe it was because he was feeling depressed, Xia Xinghe didn't want to hang up the phone at this moment, he paused, and then blurted out: " What are you doing?" Trying to listen to Bai Qingzhou's voice more.

Xia Xinghe knew that Bai Qingzhou didn't like to talk about his own affairs, so he regretted the moment he said it. He wanted to hang up the phone awkwardly. On the other side of the receiver, Bai Qingzhou paused, and the voice came again quickly.

"On duty." Bai Qingzhou asked, "What about you?"

"Me?" Xia Xinghe replied, "I blow the wind by the window."

Inexplicably, the two chatted so casually.

There was no specific topic, and even occasional silence, several times Xia Xinghe thought that Bai Qingzhou was about to hang up, but he continued to talk.

At the end, Bai Qingzhou asked Xia Xinghe: "When will you be back?"

He said: "The film and television contract has been drawn up, and I'm waiting for your signature; you haven't paid for my sofa yet, and I'm still waiting for you to come back to discuss it; Zhuzi hasn't eaten well during this time... probably because I miss you."

The low tone made Xia Xinghe slightly startled, Bai Qingzhou paused, and asked again: "When will you be back?"

Xia Xinghe suddenly laughed again.

Suddenly, he felt that things were not as bad as he thought.

Bai Qingzhou really doesn't like him, but after six months of getting along, the relationship between the two is not as sad and heartbreaking as when they broke up before.

It is impossible to force liking this kind of relationship, but their current way of getting along is not annoying.

Xia Xinghe smiled, and said to Bai Qingzhou, "Go back soon."

"What time is soon?"

Xia Xinghe thought for a while, and said, "It will probably be after fifteen."

"it is good."

On the fifteenth day of the first lunar month, his parents had been at work for a week, and after confirming that his father was in good health, Xia Xinghe also took the high-speed train back.

Dealing with the house is not something that happens overnight, not to mention that Xia Xinghe is an adult, he has to start a family and have his own life, it is impossible to live with his parents anymore, if he wants to come back, he has to look for a house in his hometown first.

On the way to send Xia Xinghe off, Qiu Guiyue said: "You must take good care of yourself when you are alone, don't worry too much, and don't worry too much about us. Your father is fine, and my health is also fine. Parents respect you." s Choice."

Then he sighed softly and said, "It's good to come back, after all, you can't get married and have children, and your parents won't worry about being single over there."

Xia Xinghe said hello and wrote down Qiu Guiyue's words.

When parting, it was inevitable that some melancholy would arise. After getting in the car, Xia Xinghe leaned against the window and watched the scenery along the way. Halfway through the journey, it suddenly started to rain heavily.

When Xia Xinghe was in the north, he had never seen such a heavy rain in winter. The cold rain quickly accumulated water, the train was forced to slow down, and even stopped for a while.

It was the first time to encounter such a thing while taking the high-speed rail. Xia Xinghe stared helplessly at the crackling raindrops outside the window in a daze.

The passengers in the train gradually became a little impatient and shouted loudly. The conductor would call the radio to explain from time to time to maintain everyone's mood. Amidst the commotion, Xia Xinghe's cell phone rang suddenly.

[Bo: Come back today? ]

What a coincidence.

Xia Xinghe smiled, lowered his head and chatted with him.

[Little Bamboo: In the car. ]

[Little Bamboo: It rained halfway, I have been sitting for several hours]

[Little Bamboo: Is it raining over Liaohu Lake? ]

[Bo: It’s down, it’s quite big. ]

[Bo: When can I arrive? ]

[Xiao Zhuzi: It must be dark. ]

[Little Zhuzi: What, you want to pick me up? ]

Since the last New Year's Eve phone call, the two occasionally chatted on WeChat.

The experience that was not common in dating before reappeared four years after the breakup, Xia Xinghe thought, maybe it was because he cared too much about Bai Qingzhou before, for fear that he would get angry, so he was always cautious when talking to him.

But now, probably realizing that no matter how hard he tried, Bai Qingzhou would never like him, Xia Xinghe was no longer as trembling as before, and began to let himself go, occasionally cracking a few jokes.

Xia Xinghe was about to send the last message, and just about to add "I'm just kidding", when Bai Qingzhou's message came back.

[Bo: That's fine. ]

[Little Bamboo:? ? ? ]

[Bai: The main reason is that bamboo has not been eating well recently, so I want you to stop by to see bamboo. ]

Okay, we haven't seen each other for nearly a month, Xia Xinghe also really misses bamboo, so Bai Qingzhou opened his mouth, and he didn't refuse anymore, he replied generously with "Thank you", and continued to wait for the train to start.

eight pm.

Just as Xia Xinghe guessed, when the train finally arrived at the station, it was already dark outside.

Returning from the platform to the waiting hall, it seemed like night had turned into day again. The brightly lit waiting hall was crowded with people, Xia Xinghe immediately noticed Bai Qingzhou standing opposite him.

He was just wearing ordinary casual clothes, standing there casually with his pockets in his pockets, like the brightest luminous body, still so dazzling in the hall as bright as day.

It took a few more minutes to pass through the exit gate, Xia Xinghe pursed his lower lip, and walked in front of Bai Qingzhou.

Maybe he heard the movement, or maybe he felt something, when Xia Xinghe was about to stand still, Bai Qingzhou suddenly raised his head.

The eyes of the two collided unexpectedly, and when their eyes met, Xia Xinghe's heart skipped a beat unconsciously.

"go?"

Bai Qingzhou also seemed to be dazed for a moment, and quickly recovered his usual calmness. He naturally took Xia Xinghe's things, and led him to the underground garage.

Everything is so natural, as if it happened countless times.

The car started slowly, Xia Xinghe buckled up his seat belt consciously, and the silver-white car quickly merged into the oncoming traffic and drove straight ahead.

The car was very quiet, Bai Qingzhou didn't speak, neither did Xia Xinghe, only the slight hum of the engine, and... occasionally, Xia Xinghe's stomach growled.

Xia Xinghe lowered his head in embarrassment, his face was a little hot.

He got on the train early in the morning, but he didn't expect that the high-speed rail ride that had been going for several hours would take him a whole day.

The car was crowded and hot, and I didn't feel hungry. When I got out of the car, probably because my body sensed that I was going home, it started to coo.

But right now, Bai Qingzhou is still there.

In the quiet car, the gurgling sound was exceptionally clear, Xia Xinghe didn't even dare to lift his head in embarrassment, he just wished he could get under the seat immediately.

I don't know how long it took, maybe a lifetime, when Xia Xinghe's face was so hot that he could fry an egg, the car finally stopped slowly.

"get off."

When Bai Qingzhou's voice came, Xia Xinghe immediately put his hand on the doorknob. He glanced out subconsciously, only to realize that the environment outside was a little strange, neither his home nor Bai Qingzhou's.

Aren't you going to see bamboo?

Bai Qingzhou moved?

Xia Xinghe looked outside, and suddenly found that it seemed to be a private restaurant outside.

What are they doing here?

As if guessing what he was thinking, Bai Qingzhou said lightly: "Eat first."

Xia Xinghe's heart warmed up, and the words of thanks came to his lips, and he thought that Bai Qingzhou was quite considerate, before he could say anything, he heard Bai Qingzhou say: "In case you get hungry later and snatch Zhuzi's dog food .”

Xia Xinghe: "...?"

He's not that hungry, is he? !

Isn't it just my stomach growling twice?As for making fun of him so openly and secretly?

Xia Xinghe got out of the car angrily and walked into the store, and was attracted by the strong fragrance wafting in the air.

... Well, although Bai Qingzhou doesn't speak human language, his taste is not bad.

The location of this restaurant is remote and secluded, but the interior decoration style is clean and fresh. There are hand-painted oil paintings on the grass green walls, which brings a bit of spring atmosphere to this warm and cold season.

Sitting on the unique wicker chair, Xia Xinghe ordered the black pepper sausage pasta recommended by the clerk. The meaty aroma of the sausage and the slightly spicy and slightly numbing black pepper exploded on the tip of the tongue, and the chewy pasta was also cooked Just right, the set meal also comes with soy milk, a bowl of hot noodles, and a cup of fragrant black bean soy milk, Xia Xinghe's original anger also dissipated.

Forget it, he thought, it's not that he doesn't know Bai Qingzhou's temper.

After eating and drinking, the two boarded the car again.

Xia Xinghe asked: "To your house?"

Bai Qingzhou nodded slightly and backed the car out of the garage.

Bai Qingzhou didn't like to talk when driving, and there was no music or road radio in the car, only the hum of the engine was faint.After eating and drinking enough, Xia Xinghe was also tired. After a day of tossing on the road, he finally had a moment to rest, and he didn't want to talk anymore, so he leaned against the car window in a daze.

The car was warm, his stomach was full, and the surroundings were quiet. With his eyes closed, Xia Xinghe felt that his consciousness was becoming more and more blurred, and his head was getting more and more dizzy...

……

After half an hour.

The car slowly stopped in Bai Qingzhou's yard.

"arrive--"

Bai Qingzhou turned off the car and was about to tell Xia Xinghe to get off the car when he turned his head, but suddenly fell silent.

Xia Xinghe fell asleep.

He slept soundly.

Those beautiful and lively peach blossom eyes drooped slightly, and the slender eyelashes cast a faint shadow under the eyelids.

The lights in the car were very dim, and the dim yellow light from the roof sprinkled on his forehead, eyelids, and lips, and Bai Qingzhou's gaze also slid from Xia Xinghe's forehead to his slightly parted lips.

His lips are soft and sweet.

Bai Qingzhou tasted it more than once, whether it was light or heavy.

He likes lingering and lingering kisses, and also likes to bite him hard, wanting to leave his own mark on him, so that he can never escape.

At some point, Bai Qingzhou lowered his head.

The distance between their lips was getting closer and closer, so close that Bai Qingzhou could feel Xia Xinghe's steady breathing.

Breathe in.

Breathe in.

The pink lips parted slightly, like a silent seduction, leading people to fall into a deeper abyss.

For Xia Xinghe, Bai Qingzhou was naturally angry.

The unhappiness that year broke up, the heartlessness after meeting, leaving as soon as you say, and too many emotions that cannot be explained clearly.But at this moment, all the pride, resentment, and unforgettable love and hatred have all turned into real desires, wanting to kiss him, and wanting to...

Bai Qingzhou's eyes turned black, and his lips almost touched Xia Xinghe's. Suddenly, there was a rush of dog barking, breaking the charming atmosphere.

"Wang Wang Wang!"

The bamboo was jumping excitedly outside the car, and then rushed to the door, making a "bang bang bang bang" sound, which was loud enough for people ten meters away to hear it.

Xia Xinghe opened his eyes in a daze, sleepy: "Uh... are you there yet?"

"……Um."

Bai Qingzhou moved away suddenly, wanting to throw the bamboo out of the house for a moment.