I thrived on straight balls [entertainment]

The location of the barbecue restaurant is good, but time was delayed just now, and there was a traffic jam. When the two of them sat in the private room, they accidentally missed the first wave of diners.

When the dishes were served and they were the only ones left in the private room, Leng Xiaoyang said: "Ah Ruan, can you tell me the reason why you are unhappy? There are too many things involved in his words, I want one by one. Help you analyze, but I don’t know which one is really touching your minefield.”

Ruan Youtian thought for a while, "When he said that the waiter didn't resign because he was afraid of taking responsibility."

Leng Xiaoyang turned over the barbecue with his hands and asked, "Then do you believe what he said?"

Ruan Youtian put his arms on the table and rested his chin on it, rarely showing childish behavior.

"To be honest, I'm shaken." Ruan Youtian sighed softly, "No matter how upright I said when I refuted that person just now, I know in my heart that I'm really scared."

"I'm afraid that the person in his mouth is the one I don't want."

Leng Xiaoyang didn't make a sound, letting Ruan Youtian continue.

Ruan Youtian recalled: "I seldom have friends. It's like the feeling of a few new shoots suddenly growing out of a dry forest. It's very novel, very disturbing, and also worrying. In fact, I am very contradictory. Keep saying that it doesn't matter and that doesn't matter, but it's not..."

"I also have something I really want to grab, especially after I suddenly get it..."

Leng Xiaoyang took the grilled meat to Ruan Youtian, "The problem now is that I haven't confirmed whether that person is the one you think of. So let's put this question aside and don't worry about it. Next, I will start spreading the word." Le|Tianpai's little solar energy!"

Ruan Youtian was infected by his tone, and also cooperated: "Then please hurry up and illuminate me, little sun!"

"Dry this piece of beef first!" Leng Xiaoyang hastily turned over the roasted meat, "After a while, the meat will be too old to chew, and it will be wasted."

After laying a new layer of vegetables, Leng Xiaoyang finally started his little sun intimate class.

"Although I haven't socialized much in the past few years since I debuted, I still know some hidden rules or gray|color|zone|zones in the circle, but don't worry, AY will never let us do these things, it's just too sticky It's impossible to be blamed, this is AY's bottom line!"

"Well, first of all, there is the issue of eating. There are some starlets who have been chased away by their managers. Basically, they are regarded as mascots, commonly known as selling face. The price of a meal varies, but there are also thresholds. , It’s not that if you have money, you can sit at the same table or something. If there is a market, there is a price. If you can open a shop in a place where every inch of land is expensive, you must have connections and capital. The boss’s words just now are half true and half false, saying that he is a broker I believe in having friendship with him or having a meal with him, but if it is really a meal with a serious celebrity, he is really not qualified, but if there are other secrets, it is another matter, we don’t know anything now, Let’s not delve into it further.”

"The more powerful ones are purely for people's entertainment. You should be able to know this. It's just that, money|sex|trading, there are short-term and long-term. I don't know much about the market. Anyway, there was a front-line boss before It ended after three months."

Leng Xiaoyang started to feel shy while talking, "Oh, skip this paragraph." After speaking, he quickly drank a big mouthful of orange juice, trying to suppress his blushing.

"The last one, which is the least popular, is a pure transaction, using each other as a tool. You take money from me, and I rely on you to attract business. It's either soft promotion and soft marketing, or it's a last-ditch effort to make a comeback, celebrities and merchants Take advantage of each other. Anyone who wants to gain face in the circle or have a slight improvement in their career will not do this kind of thing. Money is also short-term, and prestige is also temporary, and this is purely an initiative to give people something. Next The worst policy."

"However, this involves the second possibility of what the person said."

Ruan Youtian answered, "It's a pure transaction."

Leng Xiaoyang let out a "hmm" and said, "That's right. So A Ruan, although you didn't say it, I should be able to guess that you don't want to lose that friend. I'm not analyzing these things for you today to provoke relations, but I just hope you can do more. Be careful."

"Being defensive is indispensable, especially in the entertainment industry. Because people's hearts here are more complicated than we imagined."

"I suggest you report this matter to your agent, and leave the professional matters to professional people. Although it is cool and cool to face the maliciousness on the front line, I don't want you There may even be more and more distractions in the future.”

Leng Xiaoyang said sincerely: "I hope you are the most dazzling and coolest kid on the stage, and your focus in life doesn't have to be giving a lot of attention to people who don't deserve it."

Leng Xiaoyang put both hands on the table and leaned forward slightly, "Ah Ruan, before the matter is settled, I hope you will be affected as little as possible. I am not a few years older than you. What you are going through now I have also experienced these, so I know that there were many conflicts and struggles during this period. During those days, my whole person's emotions were not right. , Even if things have passed for a long time, it will still be a hurdle in my heart."

"I am not obsessed with the experience of being betrayed, but I can't help but look back and feel sorry for the time I was ignored. Because when I was depressed and depressed, I also missed the kindness and help."

Recalling the past, Leng Xiaoyang was touched for a moment, and Wei Yin couldn't help trembling, "Nevertheless, I don't seem to regret getting acquainted with the person who betrayed me, because I have a sincere friendship and I am worthy of the time I have passed."

Leng Xiaoyang took a deep breath and continued: "So you see, don't get too entangled, because you are worthy of your own conscience and worthy of this friendship, especially when it comes to making friends."

"I'm worried that others will harm you, and I don't want you to be hurt. Because you are my friend." Leng Xiao smiled, "Similarly, don't be unguarded towards me, because when you let your guard down, That’s when others are most profitable.”

"People who are close to you are more likely to hurt others." Leng Xiaoyang said seriously: "Your character is very direct, you don't know how to bend around, and you are not tactful. I appreciate your sincerity and integrity, but there are two sides to a thing, a beautiful thing, Some people want to protect, and naturally some people want to destroy."

Leng Xiaoyang said emphatically: "Do you remember? If one day I try to harm you, you will cry miserably!"

Ruan Youtian crossed the table and pinched Leng Xiaoyang's cheek, "Don't make trouble, your acting skills are too fake."

Ruan Youtian withdrew his hand and clinked glasses with Leng Xiaoyang, "I don't know why, but I believe in you and believe that you are trustworthy. Although this does not match my style of conduct, I am willing to gamble once."

Leng Xiaoyang held the cup in both hands, "You trust me so much, I'm so happy! No, I'm touched again, Ruan, you are so kind!"

Ruan Youtian didn't know whether to laugh or cry, handed Leng Xiaoyang a tissue, and continued: "As you said, I fall in love with you, but in fact you also fall in love with me~ Thank you for telling me this, I live so big, No one has ever spoken to me so openly, thank you, Xiao Yang, I understand your concerns, and I hope you can rest assured, because with your help, I have already thought about it a lot."

"It's just that when I received this news all of a sudden, I couldn't react. I was blown by the cold wind, and seeing that person was not pleasing to my eyes. Those words are worrying."

Ruan Youtian said helplessly: "If what he said is true, then I will take it as a lesson and count it as my ignorance. If what he said is false, there is no loss for me, and he wasted his words .”

"As for the person mentioned by the owner of the hotpot restaurant..." Ruan Youtian smiled, "Frankly speaking, he has a different value from you in my place. Don't compare him like this, because you are my 'person'."

Ruan Youtian grew up with a standard scale, but now he has also fallen into the vicious circle of grading friends.He smiled wryly in his heart, he didn't expect that one day he would become a person who judged others from above.

After being touched, Leng Xiaoyang returned to his optimistic personality, holding his face happily, "Really?! You look at me like this! I'm so happy! It's good to have good friends!"

"Well, it's really good." Ruan Youtian also said, "I'm very happy to make friends with you!"

After the unhappy topic passed, Ruan Youtian was also relieved. Until the two of them returned to the company dormitory after the K song, took a shower, dried their hair and climbed into the bed, he was still immersed in this novel, exciting and enthusiastic experience. inside.

As he said, whether it's childhood curiosity, teenager's confusion, or the distress in his heart, he has never had anything to say, and no one to enlighten him.

His growth anxiety and performance pressure are like the sword of Damocles hanging over his head (Note), lingering and irresolvable——

"Mom, why haven't you come back?"

"It's okay, I can play with toys by myself."

"Mom and Dad are not at home, so I turn on the lights, so I won't be afraid of thunder!"

"I won't cry in the future. I will be obedient and never make my mother angry again."

"Woooooooooo don't ignore me, don't want me..."

"Mom and Dad are just too busy, it doesn't matter, what if they want to wait until tomorrow to surprise my birthday? Dad promised me to come back and buy me a cake."

"Mom is right. I'm in junior high school and I'm a big kid. I have to be sensible."

"I'm done, I can take care of things by myself."

"Actually, I was alone a long time ago, Ruan Youtian, don't you admit it?"

……

Over time, Ruan Youtian persuaded himself to let go through repeated self-comfort. He locked these dark fragments in a corner of his heart, locked the lock, and dared not look back, nor could he let go.

The past youth is not like the good wine of his peers. His bitter past has become a painful growing pain. The thread of friendship seems to be absent. It is so loose that it cannot be seen clearly but it is not relaxed for a moment. Unable to hold it firmly, the sword of Damocles was finally cut off the rope on this day and fell in response. The anxiety hanging over his head and the past that he dared not look directly broke through the imprisonment of the heart lock, broke ground.

——The sword blade pierced his pretended tranquility, and finally gave him a true tranquility.

The author has something to say: Note: The sword of Damocles here refers to the anxiety and restlessness behind tranquility, which is not the original meaning.