love not love

Shen Yi*Lin Xin

The most memorable thing is the heartbeat when I first met you

The hardest times are the times when you don't hear from me

You are the color of my fading years

I'm just an accident for you

The difference between young and mature

meet again i already know

The end of Sweet Cake House is a wait

You have rushed to the feast, I also want to work hard to get out

But you are a dream within a dream that I can't wake up from

Even if I'm covered in bruises, I still indulge this love

I think you're also an infatuated person

It's just that your infatuation is not for me

obviously do not love

Fate will continue to be entangled

give me hope

Take away the ability to love again

You hurt me in and out of dreams

I am willing to be for you in dreams and dreams

love not love

I am your love prisoner

Shen Yi didn't go home, nor did she go back to the hospital, she just walked to the bus stop she had to go every week without knowing it, and got on the No. 6 bus.This bus is still as crowded as it was eight years ago. This bus is bound for the university town, so Shen Yi can see many immature faces like her back then, eyes full of longing for the future, and Or the confused college students, let her suddenly feel that she is back in the past, and they still have a lot of good times.

Shen Yi looked at the couple sitting in front of her leaning together listening to music, the boy who used his body to create a quiet space for his girlfriend, and the girl who peeled oranges for her boyfriend.Shen Yi vaguely felt that Lin Xin had done these things for her, but it seemed that she hadn't done them.

In such a crowded space, a person full of love in his heart will not always think about complaining, but create romance in this irritating space, and Lin Xin happens to be such a person.

I still remember that when Lin Shen was about to leave, Lin Xin accompanied Shen Yilai to take the bus for the last time. That day, Shen Yi heard Lin Xin's confession for the first time. She was a little unbelievable, but more joyful.

In fact, if he hadn't been dazzled by the so-called happiness at that time, then she would definitely have a premonition of everything in the future.

It was very cold that day, and it seemed to be very hot, so Shen Yi always remembered that that day later became a reason for her to insist on waiting for Lin Xin when she had no news from Lin Xin.

That day when he and Lin Xin came out of the KTV, she broke up with Lin Xin, because she felt that Lin Xin had never loved her from the beginning to now, and she also had her pride. To suffer beside her for not telling the truth.

But what was unexpected was that Lin Xin did not agree to break up, and even said that she liked her. Shen Yi felt that her world was all in warm colors at that moment. She looked at Lin Xin with some surprise, and then Lin Xin smiled at her , took off the school badge from the school uniform, and carefully carved their two names on the hard bus chair with a sharp pin.Shen Yi remembered that it was also that day when she kissed Lin Xin on the bus, she even remembered that Lin Xin's lips were soft and cold.

Perhaps fate once reminded Shen Yi that she and Lin Xin had no results, so after Lin Xin left, she took the No. 6 bus one after another, just wanting to read those words again , but eight years later, she never met that car again.

Shen leaned on the car window and looked at the scenery outside. In fact, there must have been a change. The coffee shop that flashed just now was opened recently. The supermarket at that intersection was opened five years ago, and the only one that still exists It's their favorite bookstore, but it's just here. The bookstore has been expanded and renovated, and now it's not so much a bookstore as it is a book bar.

It didn't take long for Shen Yi to arrive at their alma mater. Looking at the unfamiliar faces on the campus, even if there were still a few familiar faces, it could only remind her that the era when this school belonged to her is gone.

Shen Yi didn't think that the school had any major changes before, but after meeting Lin Xin today, she felt that apart from the iconic buildings, many other places in this school have changed a lot.For example, the former library has now become a dormitory, and the library that was disliked by them has now moved into a newly built building, and the decoration inside is very luxurious.

Shen Yi once again confirmed that she has been deceiving herself for so many years. She has always stubbornly believed that as long as she remains unchanged, nothing will change. Yes, Lin Xin said before that he is too idealistic. She thinks She should have taken Lin Xin's words to heart a long time ago, so she probably won't be like this now.

☆, Chapter 23

Shen Yi saw that Lin Shen used to live in it, but now it has become a dormitory for faculty and staff, and she was going backwards, as if she was getting farther and farther away from Lin Xin's world.Suddenly, Shen Yi felt that she had bumped into someone, and she hurriedly turned her head to see Zhou Yu who was frowning.Zhou Yu smiled and said, "Shen Yi, those days when you came to school to look for you again? Would you like to come to my place and sit down?"

Shen Yi smiled and said, "That's right, I'm not like you people who have dedicated their lives to school and create wonderful times in school every day, so I won't go there, I can't get into a pig's nest or something." go".

Zhou Yu said, "Ah, why do you look down on people so much? I am no longer the old Zhou Yu. Now I don't know how to live in a pig's nest. By the way, with my hard work, I now The staff dormitory is the one I lived in when I was a student. Do you remember that you came here a lot at that time. Why don’t you go and see what the dormitory has become now.”

Shen Yi hesitated for a moment and said, "Okay, then I'll go and have a look."Zhou Yu was Lin Xin's roommate in college, so he still knows a lot about Shen Yi and Lin Xin.Later, when Lin Xin went abroad, the relationship between Shen Yi and him faded away. If Shen Yi hadn't bumped into him today, then he probably would have greeted Shen Yi at most.

Shen Yi followed Zhou Yu back to the dormitory, and the feeling of the dormitory was still the same as before. When Shen Yi saw the house number 302, she felt kind.Shen Yi said, "I didn't expect this house number to still be there."

Zhou Yu opened the door and said, "That's right, it looks kind, but I'm the only person living in it now, and I'm really not used to living without the four of them."

Zhou Yu opened the door and let Shen Yi in. As soon as Shen Yi looked inside, she immediately felt that there was only one body left in the dormitory, and all the furnishings inside had changed.The six beds that used to be placed inside are all gone, and the furnishings inside are very homely, such as TV, sofa, desk, computer, and all the necessities in life.

Zhou Yu asked Shen Yi to sit on the sofa, then turned around and poured Shen Yi a glass of water, Shen Yi took the water and said, "This place is nothing like before, although the house number here is still 302."

Zhou Yu smiled and sat down next to Shen Yi and said, "Well, when I first came in, I knew that our 302 no longer existed, and my adaptability is still very strong."

Shen Yi said, "I know, you come from behind, you can get along well with those old residents in a few days, I just know it."

Zhou Yu pointed to the center of the ceiling and said, "I still remember, at that time, we asked you to help us in the dormitory cultural evaluation at that time. We all thought that you were a girl and you should be good at these things, but we never What came to mind was that you actually drew a human anatomy diagram in the center of our ceiling. What surprised us the most was that our dormitory got No.1, and your anatomy diagram contributed a lot.”

Shen Yi took Zhou Yu's words and said, "I still remember this. It's because you big boys are not trustworthy. You clearly said that if your dormitory won an award, you would invite me to dinner, but in the end it was nothing." .

Zhou Yu said, "Hey, it's not that we don't invite you to dinner, but because of your anatomical diagram. When Xiao Wu was not used to the existence of that diagram, one day he woke up in the middle of the night and looked at it by the moonlight outside. When it came to the picture you drew, I was so frightened that I fell ill in the end, and the prize money went to Xiao Wu to see a doctor."

Shen Yi said, "I heard that your dormitory was rejected by people in the next few sessions, and no one wanted to live in it. In the end, the school had to find a painter to clean up the painting, but because of this The name of this dormitory has been spread, so no one dares to live in it. Now I am sure of one thing, that is, you volunteered to live in this dormitory, and there must be many people who admire you."

Zhou Yu said, "Except for the few of us, no one knows the story of that painting. Because they don't know, they have inexplicable fear. It's like some people, the less they can't wait, the more they want to wait. He appeared, what do you think?"

Shen Yi put down the quilt in her hand and said, "Zhou Yu, Lin Xin is back, I met him today."

Zhou Yu was a little surprised, and then said, "It's God's will. You waited for him for so many years and he didn't show up. Now he shows up just half a year after you got married. I used to think that you would be together. At that time, you were so It's good, but you still can't escape your fate, so you can be regarded as destined to have no part."

Shen Yi put down the cup in her hand and said, "That's not true. He just told me today that he actually doesn't like me. Well, it should be said that he doesn't like me forever. He already has a girlfriend, so anyway, Nothing is possible between us."

Zhou Yu looked at Shen Yi and said, "I have always wanted to persuade you to let go. I know why you have been running to school all these years, but I don't know how to persuade you. I can be sure that Lin Xin loved you."

Shen Yi looked at Zhou Yu and said, "What's the use of saying this now, the result is already in front of me, what else can I do."

Zhou Yu sighed and said, "That's right, now you each have your own life, especially you, you should let go of the past and live a good life."

Shen Yi stood up and said, "I will, then I'll go first."

Zhou Yu hurriedly said, "Then I'll take you down."

Shen Yi shook her head and said, "I'll do it myself, I don't need anyone to send me away, I can do it myself."After speaking, he waved to Zhou Yu and went out. Zhou Yu sighed as he watched Shen Yi leave.

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