flustered night talk

They are all dead and you are alive.said a calm voice.

I woke up with a start, and the teacher was still lecturing on the podium.

Why did the teacher say that?I couldn't help but ask.

what are you saying?Hannah looked at me strangely.

They are all dead, but you are still alive, what does that mean?I asked.

Hannah looked suspicious.

Are you dreaming?Did you not sleep well yesterday?Why did you suddenly doze off?she asked.

I don't understand why I fell asleep, let alone why I heard such a sentence suddenly.

As far as I can remember, I have been listening to the class carefully.

I received a call from an old classmate while I was eating, but I really didn’t want to answer the phone, because I didn’t want to think about the unhappy things in the past.The friendship of six years of classmates is gone, but I didn't care when I left.I don't know why she still called. I wondered whether to answer it, and what to say after I answered it.

How not to answer the phone?Hannah looked at me suspiciously.

No caller ID.I told a little lie, and the phone stopped ringing, and I breathed a sigh of relief.

It's been a long time since I went out to play, right?Suri asked.

Yeah, find some time to hang out!Feiyang said while putting food into his mouth.

Let's go to ktv, I'll buy one, you guys set a time.Suri said.

Okay, I haven't sung for a long time, and my voice is going to be hoarse.Feiyang applauded.

Neither Hannah nor I disagreed.

Sometimes sad, sometimes cheerful, sometimes roaring, sometimes calm, this is the song we choose.The colored lights in the box were brilliant and colorful, we touched the wine glasses in our hands and laughed unscrupulously.

To leave everything behind is what we wished for at this moment, and we did.The alcohol was slowly working its way through my body and I was starting to feel dizzy.

I'm so happy!Lin Juan beside me whispered in my ear.

I smiled and nodded, yeah, we haven't been this crazy in a long time again.

I still remember the first time I surfed the Internet all night in college, and I only dared to hide in the school's Internet cafe.Thinking about how stupid I was at the time, I was so nervous and scared. It was the first time I didn’t go home at night since I was a child. Suri said that it was the first time I tried what is called a youthful life.

I hope we can drink all night if we can.I said.

She smiled, happy, and her face flickered before my eyes, confused.

If you are so happy, I will be happy too.Lin Juan said.

I smiled and was very happy.

To always be happy like this, always be happy.Lin Juan said.

I can't frown anymore, I can't shed tears in sadness, and forget all the past, okay?Lin Juan said, I saw tears in her eyes.I don't understand, why is she suddenly so sad?My head started to hurt a little and I felt a little nauseous.

I got up to go to the bathroom to wash my face. I have never felt so dizzy and almost lost my balance.As soon as I got to the bathroom, I vomited, and the sky was dark.

all right!I heard a voice ask.I shook my head, looked up, and I saw myself in the mirror.

Is that really me?Why are you looking at me like that?What is that look?I reached out to wipe the mirror, and she did, but kept looking at me, not puzzled, but sad.I don't understand why the self in the mirror looks at me so sadly, that face, it's not my face, it shouldn't look so pure.Who are you?I couldn't help but ask the mirror.

She looked, didn't answer, then suddenly she laughed, mockingly, she was laughing at me.

I heard sobbing coming from the side, followed the sound, and I saw a little girl curled up and crying, she was leaning against the wall, very close to me, although the light was dim, I saw a scar on her body A bruised scar.

I walked gently to her side, she looked up at me, she looked like the person in the mirror just now.I reached out to wipe her tears away, but Hannah's voice sounded behind me.

Qingling, are you okay?When I turned to look at her, my hand was still outstretched, and when I turned around, the girl was gone.

I see a hurt girl.I said.

Hannah smiled.

That's normal, it's better to see a girl crying because she's hurt than a girl hiding in a corner and taking drugs.Hannah said.

No, it's a little girl.I quickly explained.

Yeah?Will the little girl also come to ktv?It's late now, don't parents care?Hannah said angrily.

I know she doesn't understand what I'm saying, and I know I can't explain it, neither of us is very sober.

We couldn't go back to the dormitory, but we were all so tired, so we went to the nearest hotel and asked for a double standard.

Neither of us spoke, just lay down.

Lin Juan didn't look tired at all. She helped Hannah and me cover the quilt and stood aside watching us.

are not you tired?I looked at her and asked.

I am exhausted.Hannah rolled over and fell asleep muttering.

Lin Juan shook her head.

I'm not tired, sleep well, I'm here with you.she said softly.

I smiled sweetly at her.

I'm so tired, my eyelids are out of my control, and they close gently.