Tongzhuang

Rigo's tomb is at the foot of the mountain on the outskirts of the city.The winter grass and trees are withered, bare, and look extraordinarily lonely.

There was frost on the stele, and I touched a piece of cold water stains in my hand.It's so cold, does she feel cold too?

My tears couldn't stop pouring out.

She is so young.

When I close my eyes, I can see her bright smile, and her straightforward words can be heard crisply in my ears, as if calling me to talk and laugh together.

I owe her so much.I dare not think about the scene where she was raped by that old beast many times, I just want to vomit.

It's all for me!I knelt in front of the tombstone, feeling dizzy and swaying for a while.

"Han Chun!" Qi Feng gave me a hand.

I settled down and started lighting candles.In the dark night, I put two big candles on both sides of the tombstone.My mother said that when candles are lit, people will not be cold or dark in the ground.

——It's dark and cold, a girl in Rige would be scared.

Bits of snow were caught in the north wind, and the candle ignited for a while, then went out again.I click again.

Repeated several times, the wind became weaker.Bright red flames danced.

I knelt straight and closed my eyes. "Rui Ge, the case has been solved, and those who harmed you have deserved the end, you...you can rest assured..."

The only thing that is empty in the countryside is my voice.I think I said something in the past, and she would chirp back four or five sentences, and my tears flowed again.

It's so quiet here, so lonely.

Yes, and the pipa...how did I forget...I rolled up my sleeves, dug a hole by the tomb, and buried the pipa carefully.

Her pipa sound is beautiful, like the sound of nature, it will surely dispel loneliness and fear.

I rubbed my frozen hands and let out a sigh of relief.Looking around, Qi Feng had already left at some point.

It was so late, he should go back to rest.Thanks to him and Miss Xiaoluan tonight, otherwise I don't know how much trouble I would have had to spend... Both Rui Ge and I thought too badly of him before.

Is it because there is no distinction between good and evil, or is it that we don't know people?

The north wind picked up again, and the candle went out again with a "pop", so I had to relight it again and again.

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I built a thatched hut next to Ruige's tomb. It was very narrow and simple, and it was only big enough for me to live alone.I stayed by the tomb during the day and spent the night in the cottage at night.

She has no father or mother, nor is she married and has children. I don't know what I can do for her, so I can only guard her like this.What she did for me, I can't pay it back in my next life.

Not long after the thatched hut was built, Butler Fan from Tongzhuang came.Before, I only remembered his treachery, but when Tongzhuang was in crisis, his persistence made me admire him. "Mr. Fan, what's the matter?"

"The owner asked me to bring quilts to Mr. Han." He waved his hand, and one of his men brought out a set of good quilts, which looked very warm.

I hastily declined. "Thank you! I have my own quilt, so don't bother."

Steward Fan still had a smile on his face, "If Mr. Han doesn't want it, please accept it first. Whether to throw it away or give it away later depends entirely on Mr. Han."

ah?How can there be such a statement!I shook my head again and again: "What's the point? I really don't need it. You thank Qi Feng for me. I appreciate your kindness. Please take back the quilt."

Steward Fan said calmly: "My owner's temper, even if he went to report it, he must say so. Mr. Han, don't want the old slave to go twice."

I was at a loss for words, so I could only watch him put down his things and leave in a daze.I sighed, picked up the quilt and put it in the cottage.The quilts are light and soft, which should only be affordable by wealthy families.Qi Feng is really nice to me.But I just want to be rough and crude as possible. Rigo has suffered so much humiliation for me, and my heart is full of thorns. I always hope that I will suffer a little more so that my heart will not be so sad.Whenever the cold wind is piercing and the snowflakes cover my face and I am shivering, I can vent the pain in my heart.

If I could, I would die ten times in exchange for Rui Ge to come back to life.

In the days that followed, Xiaoluan and a few sisters from the brothel came to worship several times, and brought me some news, such as the person who committed the murder had confessed, Fu Ying was imprisoned and taken to the capital for trial, and the governor was punished for his outstanding achievements. Awards and more.Every time before they left, they would persuade me to be sad, and introduce girls to me, saying that although they were not as good as Rui Ge, they were not bad in appearance, and they would definitely be good wives.I thank them for their kindness.I'm not desperate because I can't get Rigo as a wife, I'm sad for Rigo's death, and I hate myself for being useless.

In the blink of an eye, the Chinese New Year is coming soon, and the crowds in and out of the city have obviously increased. From a distance, the city of Yingzhou is decorated with lanterns and festoons, and everyone is busy welcoming the arrival of the New Year.

The closer it gets to the end of the year, the colder it gets, and this is the coldest time of the year.It snowed heavily during the day and stopped at night, and a thick layer of snow had already been laid on the hillside.

The night sky was clear, the moonlight shone on the snow, and it was desolately white.I looked into the distance, and the city of Yingzhou was brightly lit. It seemed that everyone was already immersed in the joy of the arrival of the Chinese New Year.

Tomorrow is New Year's Eve.When I was a child, there were always delicious food and new clothes to wear, especially girls, who liked the New Year the most. They wore bright new clothes, went to the theater lively, and cut window grilles at home quietly... I look back Looking at the tombstone, did Rigo do the same when he was a child?

Suddenly, a hand clapped my shoulder.

I turned around in surprise.In the night is a girl's face, no, a girl's face.

Suddenly my face felt hot.

"Thought it was a ghost?" He laughed out of habit.

I shook my head embarrassingly, and smiled: "You...why are you here?" It really surprised me.

Qi Feng brought a jar of wine and put it in front of her, "Drink."

drink again?I was a little surprised: "Don't you want to drink when it's raining? Are you in a good mood when it's snowing?"

Qi Feng patted open the seal of the altar and filled the wine. "Snow and rain are almost the same, only a little colder."

That's right, he was forced by his father to practice hard when he was a child, and he could only rest in rainy and snowy weather.It seems that Haizi must be in a good mood and wants to drink.Maybe he was the happiest when he cut the knife. Thinking of this, I couldn't stop laughing.

He handed over the wine glass and stared at me: "What are you laughing at?"

"Nothing..." I quickly drank it all in one gulp.

"You laugh a lot," he remarked, pouring his own drink. "You look silly."

Is it my smile just now that made him dissatisfied?I quickly restrained myself and put on a serious look.

He glanced sideways at me, and said after a while, "...But, you haven't smiled for a long time."

It's been a long time...By the way, since Ruige was killed, I've been trapped in grief, anger, anxiety, and guilt, why should I laugh?My heart slowly sank, really heavy.

"Although it's silly, it's better than crying." Qi Feng said again.

Yes, my mother also said that when a man tears, he never flicks it lightly, but laughs at the wind and rain!But it's not always up to you to be sad.That's all, drink.I forced a smile and took another drink.I just tasted this wine. It is not the same as last time. It has the aroma of plums, sweet and a little sour.

After drinking a few cups, Qi Feng suddenly said, "Hey, when are you coming to Tongzhuang?"

I have heard this sentence many times since I met him.At this moment he mentioned it again, and I said for a while: "Can...can you live a little longer, I want to guard the spirit again..." I will definitely go to Tongzhuang, I owe Qi Feng too much, even if he wants me to go through fire and water I won't hesitate either!But now... I really don't want to leave Rui Ge's tomb so lonely...

Qi Feng was silent, and said after a while: "Drink."

I also want to continue drinking to get rid of the depression in my heart, but I can't drink anymore, my face is hot, my hair is dizzy, and my alcohol capacity is still so bad! "I'm drunk...I can't drink anymore..." I suddenly remembered what happened after I got drunk that time, and all the blood rushed to my face, and I couldn't sit still.

The red candlelight reflected on Qi Feng's face, a little hazy.He looked at me: "You think I'm going to kill you?"

"No no..." I shook my head again and again, "Of course not..."

"Have I ever hurt you before?"

"No..." I then shook my head.

He sneered, "Did I not harm you when you first went to Tongzhuang to ask for debts?"

I was taken aback.Well, he is indeed using a trick to trap people, and it is true that he is being fooled... "You are cheating, but your heart is not bad, at least you are not a big villain..." I am also wondering, Qi Feng, why did you do it all at once? Good deeds, how about doing bad deeds at once?Who are you?

"Then I'm not a good person, am I?"

I was speechless.

"I ask you, are you still my friend?" He became serious.

"Yes!" As a friend, I did too badly, "...if you don't mind, of course!" I firmly met his gaze.

"If you are friends, drink." He refilled me without any nonsense. "Come!"

I was so drunk that I lost consciousness.When I awoke, the sun outside was blinding my eyes.Last night Qi Feng dragged me into the hut, and even shook off the quilt to cover me.

The untouched quilt on the bed was fragrant, soft and warm, and the north wind didn't wake me up all night.I suddenly felt sour, just like that time when I fought with gangsters in Piaoxiang Building, Rui Ge came to care about my injuries.This kind of guilt and feeling makes me sad even more at this moment.

I folded the quilt again, put it aside, went back to Rigg's tomb, and lit the candle that was extinguished by the wind.Looking at the broken lamp left on the ground, I sat there in a daze, how can the righteousness of friends be both?What to do?If my mother was here, maybe she would give me some pointers, but I can only walk the road now.I have done a lot of mistakes, and I really don't want to make mistakes again.