My golden finger is not right

Fives,

Life went back to normal, and the chaos of that night was like it never happened.Miss Keiko still wakes me up on time every day, prepares lunch for me and sends me to school. As for Yan Ye Shangsan or the unheard of Kyuubi, she never mentioned it again.And I didn't ask, because I knew she didn't want me to interfere in this matter.

Goblins or warlocks or something.

This is probably also a consensus reached with Yanye Madara. In order not to threaten the family's bloodline, and to completely avoid Yanye Shangsan's sight, starting from my generation, the entire Yanye family's secret arts will stop being passed on.

Until the next extremely talented Yan Ye appears, he will take on the mission of revenge and revitalizing the Yan Ye family.

It's... quite a terrible decision...

I took a bite of the sandwich in my hand, trying to suppress the inexplicable sadness in my heart.

The greater the ability, the greater the responsibility.

Using such heroic words to lure you is just to make you give up an ordinary and happy life and be willing to accompany pain and blood.

I live by myself, but I have to bear the responsibilities of others, the obsessions of others, and the dreams of others.

I also dreamed of becoming a hero and the most special existence among all living beings. Even when I first came to this world and faced the unknown and strange, under those fears and confusions, there was also a subtle feeling .

To have such an experience... I must be special... right?

But this kind of secret joy was broken before it existed for a long time.

So many stories, so many special humans and special monsters, but few start well and end well.

Just like Qingchi and Abuna, Sawada and Hachishi, Tamazamae's parents and herself, Agui and his daughter, Fusangshenbubu... They are all special, and their experiences and stories are not ordinary at all.

But the special result is that there is no result.

Later, I knew Yan Ye Madara had to go through a reincarnation without reincarnation, had to leave the boy who was always blushing, and had to experience the pain of losing a child in his later years because of the responsibilities that should have been borne by others , even shortly after he left, the real Yan Ye Chong passed away.

If the original direction of the world is followed, the Yanye family will eventually disappear completely in this generation.

See, being special makes life a joke.

He thought he was the hero who would carry the future of the family, but in the end he brought the whole family to destruction.

-

"How can there be so much fairness in this world." Miss Huizi just said indifferently, there was no hesitation or wavering in her bewitching gorgeous pupils, "If you don't do it, someone else will do it for you. You yearn for peace and happiness. Someone must stand in the way for you that keeps your desires from being fulfilled.

"What's more, this forbidden technique itself violates the rules. Once it starts, it will never stop."

"Before your grandfather, there was a Yan Ye who had the idea of ​​yours, and unfortunately, he happened to be the Yan Ye who was selected as the reincarnator because of the most outstanding talent in those generations. Let's call it He's ready for...Chijun." Seeing my face turning pale, Miss Huizi subdued the coldness in her tone unconsciously, and said in a different tone.

"In order to preserve the strength as much as possible, the reincarnated person will start the plan to extract the soul to directly enter the reincarnation at the age of 25, when the strength is the strongest."

"But this Chi Jun didn't know whether it was because of fear or other reasons, he was unwilling to accept reincarnation, and even betrayed his family because of this, and fled to a place where monsters gathered to hide."

"He naively thought that as long as he escaped, the family would have no way to perform the ceremony, and could only wait for a few hundred years until the next talented person appeared before performing the reincarnation ceremony."

"But he doesn't know that once reincarnation has started, it must never stop. Since the most talented person was born at that point in time, someone must accept reincarnation 25 years later in order to complete the entire cycle. .Otherwise, once there is a gap in circulation, it will be a gap that will cause the entire family to perish."

"But because his hiding skills are so good, the family can't find any trace at all, and the time for the ceremony is coming soon."

"His father, the head of the Yanye family, had no choice but to throw the youngest son, Chi Jun's favorite younger brother, into the reincarnation pool."

"Because the soul breaths of the two of them are very similar, although his talent and strength are not enough to bear the loss caused by reincarnation, as long as the cycle is achieved, his life alone is enough to save the entire family."

"One life is nothing compared to thousands of lives."

"It took a long, long time for that Chijun to learn the news from others—the younger brother he cared about the most, because of his relationship, had disappeared forever during the reincarnation process."

"That was a sin that he could not get rid of in his whole life."

"He returned to the Yanye family again, but because his father controlled the relationship between the speeches, his brother's death was branded as the reason for 'the delusion of becoming a reincarnation and secretly jumping into the reincarnation pool', and he himself did not even be punished in any way."

"All because he has the best talent."

"So in order for Chijun to better display his talent, no matter who it is, it will be used by Chijun's father as a tool for him to reach the top when necessary."

"No one knows how bad he has done himself, and no one knows that he almost destroyed the whole family. Because all the notoriety is borne by his youngest brother."

"The tribe regards his younger brother as an arrogant guy who deserves to die. Not only do they have no mercy, they even worry whether his death will affect Chijun's reincarnation and the whole family's reincarnation plan."

"The real hero bears the infamy and dies, but the villain who escaped enjoys the praise and honor."

"Chijun couldn't forgive himself, and his father even put a ban on him because of this, preventing him from telling others the truth in any form."

"He can't do anything but enjoy these tortured compliments numbly."

"In the end, he inherited his father's position and became the new patriarch, no longer restrained by his father."

"But he also became like his father."

"What he feels guilty can never be said, and he can only enter the coffin with this secret."

This story made me dumbfounded, and I suddenly remembered the crossroads dilemma: five people are tied to a railroad track, and a person is tied to another railroad track, and now there is an out-of-control train coming here, if you can change the direction of the train passing route, would you choose to send the train over the track with five people tied together or one?

Chi Jun's father chose the track of five people, and Chi Jun wanted to choose to tell the truth at first, so that another person on the track could survive, but in the end, his choice was the same as his father's.

I know why Ms. Keiko told this story, because I prefer to share the responsibility rather than put it all on one person.

But sometimes, there are responsibilities that you just can't bear.For example, the selection of the reincarnation can only be decided by the heavens, and human beings cannot intervene.

I don't have the talent to become a warlock, and no matter how hard I try, I can't provoke the family's important responsibilities, or be strong enough to kill Yan Ye Shangsan.

No I don't want to.

I can't.

So what I can't take will be taken by my children, and if my children can't take it, then by my children's children until the right one comes along.

Like a snowball, the bigger and bigger responsibilities will be borne by the right person.

For mediocre people like me, the only thing we need to work hard in life is to give birth to children who may be suitable for the family.

Be normal, like I always do.

-

"But Miss Huizi," I suddenly thought of something, and my tone became hesitant, "If that Chi Jun really brought the secret to the grave, then you..."

How did you know?

"It is impossible for a warlock to hide his tracks in the monster's territory without the help of someone who is very familiar with it." Miss Huizi drank the last sip of tea.

"So Miss Keiko is a friend of Chi Jun?" I took it for granted.

But Miss Keiko didn't answer, but just filled the teacup with new tea.

I suddenly felt a little strange, because she usually only drinks one cup of tea at a time, and she herself once said that drinking one cup is to relax the body and mind, and if it exceeds one cup, it will easily add to melancholy.

Is Miss Keiko worrying about something?

For some reason, it suddenly occurred to me that when I was young, Miss Keiko told me the reason why she became the patron saint of the Yanye family.

She owed a wish to a dead man named Yan Ye Chiren.

Could this Yan Ye Chiren be the Chijun she was talking about?

"He and I...we are indeed friends..." Miss Huizi stroked the rim of her cup, and she couldn't hear any clues in her tone, "That's why he came here at the summon of his descendants."

"But it's not so much that I owe him a wish, it's more like an agreement to meet, because once he uses the token, I can meet him again."

"He promised me that he would come to me, even though hundreds of years have passed, I still believe so firmly... I even guessed that he would accept reincarnation after returning to the human world, or survive in other ways, but I didn't expect... He chose to put his soul into the reincarnation pool because of guilt..."

"I knew it would be like this... I would never let him go anyway..." Miss Huizi turned her face away. I couldn't see her expression clearly, but I heard the extremely sad music from her.

It's like music played with a flute or something with a very delicate sound quality.

But that feeling of sadness and despair is something I have never felt before.

"He didn't use the token I gave him until his death, but took it into the grave together."

"He hates me so much...doesn't want to see me again?"

"Are you blaming me for being an accomplice in killing his brother...or...don't want anything to do with monsters anymore?"

I was silent, not knowing how to answer, and Miss Keiko didn't need anyone to answer her questions at all.

Because the person who can answer is gone forever.

"I waited year after year with great anticipation, eagerly looking forward to the day when I would meet him again. Even though the waiting time has exceeded the limit of human survival, I naively thought that since he accepted my token , then he will definitely keep his promise and come to see me, no matter what method he uses."

"Finally one day, I sensed the call of the token."

"But what I saw was not the boy who filled me with joy."

"...he is a complete liar..."

"At that time, I was so angry that I went crazy. I used all my talents recklessly, and used the forbidden technique of time reversal at the risk of my life."

"I must find him! He owes me a reason! I will never let him go this time, even if he dies, he will die by my hands!"

"The forbidden technique was successful, but it didn't go back to the day he left me as I thought, but the last day he lived."

"At that time, he was already an old man in his twilight years, and he was no longer the beautiful young man when I first met."

"But I'm still very happy, and I can't stop crying with joy. As long as he is alive, as long as I can see him again, as for the rest, I will always find a way to solve it."

"He was not surprised at my arrival, as if he had been waiting for a long time."

"He told me he was sorry for making me wait so long, and even more sorry that he was leaving soon."

"He said he owed his brother a never-ending debt, more than he owed me."

"So he can't leave with me, he has to go with his brother."

"How could I agree?! I want to take him away regardless, turn him into a half-demon or assimilate him into a monster. In any case, he must stay by my side and never leave!

"But what's the use of it..."

"My strength can only keep me there for a few hours at that point in time."

"I just ended up watching him leave me forever."

"Maybe this is the curse that the mountain god said... Too close between humans and monsters will only bring pain..."

"From the very beginning, I shouldn't have been so close to him...too close...so close that I can't bear the pain at all..."

So this is why Miss Keiko is clearly a great demon, but her strength is almost weakened, and she has to be transformed into a shikigami by Yanha Madara.

Things like reversing time are originally the domain of God.No matter who it is, once it gets involved, it is bound to kill itself.

Wu Tengu 1 originally possessed the power to manipulate time and space, but abruptly reverting back to hundreds of years ago is simply a gamble.

So Yan Ye Chiren must be a very, very important existence to Miss Huizi, so Yan Ye Chiren at least has deep pity for such Miss Huizi...

Because as long as no one uses that token, Miss Huizi will never know that the person she was waiting for is no longer there.

Perhaps he thought that Miss Keiko would despair in the endless waiting, and finally forget him.

But he didn't expect that in the end, Miss Huizi still endured the despair that he least wanted her to endure.

I packed up the crumbs of the sandwich and walked back to the classroom with the lunch box.