love gene defect

Ji Zhaoyuan continued to spend the next two days of vacation at the Chu family, and everything was as usual.Everyone kept silent about the previous "farce", as if it never happened.

Before leaving, Chu Jiuge was still confused, and when Xu Yun helped him pack his luggage, he followed behind him every step of the way.Xu Yun got impatient and gave him a light slap, "Go and mop the floor if you have nothing to do."

Chu Jiuge refused to leave, and slumped on the bed on his back, "Mom, do you agree?"

Xu Yun was folding his clothes, he didn't even bother to raise his head, "Agreed to what?"

"It's just..." Chu Jiuge didn't know what to say, "It's me... Ji Zhaoyuan and I..."

"What's wrong with you?" Xu Yun looked up at him, "I don't know anything now, but I just remember you said that you would tell me a secret four years later."

Chu Jiuge froze for a moment, then his eyes lit up.He rushed over excitedly and hugged Xu Yun, and kissed her left and right cheeks, "Mom!"

"Okay, okay," Xu Yun smiled and pushed him away, "Hurry up and rest for a while, there are still twenty hours of tossing on the plane."

After Chu Jiuge got the approval letter, he went back to the bedroom and continued to sleep with his head covered.

After they returned to California, they still lived their lives step by step, except that Chu Jiuge would naturally mention a few words about Ji Zhaoyuan during video calls with his family, and Xu Yun and grandma would also ask Xiao Ji to stay up late and pay attention to his health.

In March, Chu Jiuge took the third exam.Ji Zhaoyuan sent him to the examination room without saying a word of blessing, but his eyes were full of trust when he looked over.

The moment he handed in the test paper, he finally realized what Ji Zhaoyuan said "thank you" - this is what I deserve, and my efforts are worthy of the best results.

The grades were expected, just enough for him to apply to UCLA.

As May approached, Ji Zhaoyuan began to prepare various chores for his doctoral graduation, and Chu Jiuge also successfully received the offer.He held a thin piece of paper, his heart was surprisingly calm, and he felt like the dust had settled.

One night, Ji Zhaoyuan was sitting on the sofa, helping Love to smooth his hair, while looking at the employment information, Chu Jiuge leaned over and took a look, "Have you decided where to go?"

Ji Zhaoyuan shook his head, and conveniently stuffed one of them into the wastebasket next to him, "There are several research and development companies, but they haven't decided yet."

"R&D company?" Chu Jiuge was a little puzzled, "I thought you would choose a research institute."

Ji Zhaoyuan opened his mouth, seemed to want to say something and then swallowed it down.He sighed, took a deep look at Chu Jiuge, and then took Love by the back of his neck to bathe the dirty gray kitten.

Chu Jiuge thought for a while, and reached out to take the documents that Ji Zhaoyuan put aside.He quickly flipped through a few pages, and found that they were all biological research and development companies, but their market positions were far from each other, and the only thing they had in common was that they were all located in Los Angeles.

Chu Jiuge paused in his heart, as if he had noticed something.He leaned over to pick up the one in the wastebasket, completely confirming his guess - it was Stowers' invitation, but Ji Zhaoyuan refused.

Chu Jiuge didn't directly ask Ji Zhaoyuan the reason, but only made a few indirect remarks. After all, between him and Ji Zhaoyuan, Ji Zhaoyuan has always been the more mature and stable one.So he didn't care too much, he just thought it was his own carelessness.

Until a few days later, Ji Zhaoyuan said in a deep voice at the dinner table: "I am going to sign a company in LA that cooperates with HHMI."

Chu Jiuge put down his chopsticks, "Why?"

Ji Zhaoyuan put another spoonful of soup into his bowl, "Because the treatment and benefits are very good..."

"I clearly saw that Stowers sent you an offer," Chu Jiuge held his wrist and made him look at himself, "Baby, you said it yourself, your dream is scientific research."

Ji Zhaoyuan pursed his lips and did not speak.

Chu Jiuge stared at him, and asked word by word: "Is it because of me?"

Ji Zhaoyuan frowned, with a painful expression.He was silent for a while before he opened his mouth and said, "Yes."

Chu Jiuge wanted to sneer like the down-and-out swordsman in the martial arts drama, but his heart hurts even if he moved a little, so he could only sit there with his back hunched and stare at Ji Zhaoyuan in a daze.He jokingly brought up the topic of long-distance relationship with Ji Zhaoyuan before, but he didn't expect that it would arouse Ji Zhaoyuan's uneasiness again.

Chu Jiuge felt powerless, he and Ji Zhaoyuan looked at each other for a long time, then sighed and went upstairs.

He locked himself in the study, completely surrounded by frustration, like a trapped animal in darkness.If Ji Zhaoyuan had chosen to go to Kansas, he wouldn't have felt so uncomfortable, at most, he would be forced to meow a few more words because of the imminent separation between the two places, but now Ji Zhaoyuan has changed his life direction on his own, which he can't accept.

He kept asking himself what should he do?Ji Zhaoyuan gave him more and more feelings, heavy to the point of cruelty, making it difficult for him to breathe.

He sat cross-legged on the ground with his back against the door, his face deeply buried between his palms, as if he could avoid things he didn't want to face in this way.

After a while, Chu Jiuge gradually calmed down. He heard Ji Zhaoyuan's footsteps going upstairs, and then hesitantly stopped outside the door.

Chu Jiuge stared at the ground in a daze. He was so powerless that he wanted to ask for another day off. He would not be an orange baby or a man, so he would whine and dissatisfy for a while.

Ji Zhaoyuan gently knocked on the door twice, "Did we quarrel?"

Chu Jiuge was amused by his tone, and he could imagine a resentful villain in his mind holding a rose in his hand, and when he took off the odd-numbered petals, he muttered: "We quarreled." Be happy: "No noise!"

Chu Jiuge estimated that his cat had probably ruined 99 roses, but he was still not sure, so he came to ask him.He also knocked twice through the door, "There is no quarrel, we are in a cold war."

He was speaking in a joking tone, but stopped after finishing speaking.

Mrs. Mai Ting has repeatedly instructed that you can be angry and quarrel, but you must never use cold violence. Silence is the most hurtful feeling.

Chu Jiuge sighed, feeling that he could not take this leave again, and now he was going out to coax someone.He rubbed his thighs and stood up, just as he put his hand on the doorknob, he heard Ji Zhaoyuan turn and walk away.

Chu Jiuge was a little dumbfounded, and froze in place as he was about to open the door.

Chu Jiuge stomped his feet boredly, and Ji Zhaoyuan didn't come back after waiting for a long time.Just as he lost his patience and was about to rush out without hesitation, there was another rush of footsteps.

Ji Zhaoyuan squatted outside the door, and slipped a piece of paper through the crack of the door. The corners were broken, and although it was pressed flat, the original wrinkles could still be seen.

Chu Jiuge picked it up and looked at it, and couldn't help laughing.

It's still their love record sheet, which has been abandoned for a long time, and Ji Zhaoyuan's heart still stops at a little more than half of it.Chu Jiuge opened the door, leaned against the door and raised his head and asked, "Why give me this?"

Ji Zhaoyuan said, "Look at the back."

Chu Jiuge's heart softened when he heard the words and turned over the paper in his hand.

Ji Zhaoyuan drew a new watch for him, the structure was exactly the same as before, except that the coordinates of the two people were changed.This time, it was Ji Zhaoyuan who was waiting at the finish line.

Immediately afterwards, Ji Zhaoyuan handed over a card the size of a palm, and wrote only one sentence: [remember a quarrel (crossed out) remember a cold war]

"Baby," Chu Jiuge was left speechless by his writing style like a primary school student's composition, "This kind of composition that memorizes everything must write the reason and the result, for example, because I was hungry, I went to the kitchen and stole a chicken leg. Then hiccup~"

"I don't understand," Ji Zhaoyuan said, "I just made a choice, and we're in a cold war."

Chu Jiuge sighed, and pulled him into the study to sit down, "If I hadn't the guts to bring up the topic that long-distance relationships don't last long with you, how would you choose?"

Ji Zhaoyuan confessed, "Stowers, Kansas."

"So, if you can't do your favorite thing because of me, I will be very transparent about myself." Chu Jiuge took out a dark marker pen from the pen holder, and wrote it without hesitation. Ji Zhaoyuan drew another thicker line on that line, and the two full-level lines overlapped together, making it unbreakable.

Ji Zhaoyuan watched him sign his name next to him, lowered his head slightly, "I'm sorry."

"Don't apologize," Chu Jiuge held his face and kissed him, and then touched his nose embarrassingly, "It's kind of embarrassing to say, I actually started to establish my outlook on life when I was 20 years old... because you."

Ji Zhaoyuan was a little surprised, and pointed to himself in disbelief, "Me?"

Chu Jiuge smiled and blinked, "That day, you said you would take me to a real basketball game."

On that restless summer night in the Mojave, he was confused about the chaos of his life.The constant chirping of insects outside the window made people feel a little annoyed, but Ji Zhaoyuan stretched out a hand towards him and told him in a low voice: "This world is very bad and it may not necessarily become better, but this does not prevent me from doing my best. s hard work."

At that moment, a seed was unconsciously buried in Chu Jiuge's heart, and it germinated at an astonishing speed, which made him feel something settled in his body.At that time, he was still ignorant, until later when he learned to take responsibility and was able to firmly tell Ji Zhaoyuan how gentle the world is in his own way, he suddenly understood that the germinated seed was his outlook on life.

Love is so strange, it is both a seducer of evil and a healer, disturbing people's minds and filling their flaws at the same time.

"So I don't want to be your weakness," Chu Jiuge said, "I just want to be your armor."

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"It is both a seducer of evil and a healer." This sentence is inspired by "Seducer, healer, deityorthief, Iwillseeyousoonenough-intheshadowoftherainfall." - "Prayer" byDanaGioia