what if i say i love you

Sanye couldn't care less about listening to Zuo Chuanlin's subtext. He felt very tired and didn't know how to live in the future. This man has a way, but he can't help him go back to Japan after all. Zuo Chuanlin is interested in him , but he is not his good match after all, maybe he also thought about it, as long as the two have affection, even if the road ahead is bumpy, there is still hope, as long as they are patient, there will always be a day of liberation, but looking at it now Come on, this is just what he thinks, Zuo Chuanlin is a romantic, he does have some affection for him, but this affection can't last long, maybe he will be abandoned in a short time, but this, it seems Fortunately, when the time comes, I hope that he will be able to send himself back to Japan with all his affection, so that there may be a glimmer of hope.

There was a new layer of estrangement between Sanye and Zuo Chuanlin. Both of them felt it, but they were thinking about their own plans and kept silent.

Back in Jincheng, Zuo Chuanlin was suddenly very busy. After placing Sanye in the room of the personal servant in his yard, he told him to stay in the yard and follow the servant to do some chores at will. The day doesn't come back.

This made Sanye heave a sigh of relief. He followed the servants in the yard to clean the yard every day, trim the flowers and plants, feed the chickens and dogs, and it was rare for him to relax for two days.Perhaps because Sanye was brought back by the master from outside, the servants noticed that this man was different from them, so they didn't dare to let him do some rough work.So Sanye often sat in the courtyard to bask in the sun after finishing the work ordered by the housekeeper.

This day was the day when the servants went home once a week, Sanye was the only one left in the huge courtyard, and there were still people free to chat with him on weekdays, the sun was warm today, but he seemed so lonely.So Sanye made a rare plan to go out to the market.

He has always liked these gadgets, dough figures, sugar figures, but he will not spend money on these things.The people in the market were all happy, and he felt happier unconsciously. He felt that the gloom of the past two days was just because he thought too much. There is always hope, isn't there?

When the sun was about to go down, someone closed the stall. At this time, Sanye realized that it was a little late, so he quickened his pace and rushed back.

As soon as he entered the yard, the housekeeper hurried up when he saw him, and dragged him to the house, "Master is back."

He froze, and was dragged by the housekeeper to Zuo Chuanlin's house.

The door opened, since the day Zuo Chuanlin brought Sanye back, the two hadn't seen each other again, Sanye stood silently in the room, Zuo Chuanlin walked over and closed the door.He seemed very tired, hugged Sanye from behind, put his head on the man's shoulder and took a deep breath.

"...Have you been drinking?" Sanye finally couldn't help asking.

Zuo Chuanlin smiled sullenly: "I drank a little, I am happy today." As he said, he moved slowly towards the table.Sanye couldn't take it anymore and pushed him away.Zuo Chuanlin was not angry either, and sat on the stool with his head supported: "It's the Chinese New Year, is there anything you want? Tell me."

Hearing this, Sanye raised his head and looked at Zuo Chuanlin. He seemed to have grown darker and darker, but soon he lowered his head again.

"Don't bow your head!" the man suddenly shouted.

Sanye was taken aback, and he held back and said, "I don't want anything."

But the man didn't seem to hear it, and just shouted unreasonably: "I told you to raise your head!" He suddenly became agitated for some reason, stood up and walked in front of Sanye, dragging his chin: "You always don't care about me!" Dare to look at me!... Did you do it on purpose?"

Sanye's fear of him was down to the bone, and he glanced at him anxiously: "I didn't..." He said, but just avoided the eyes of the man he had just met.

Sanye's body was almost as tall as Zuo Chuanlin's, but at this moment, someone twisted his shoulders violently.Zuo Chuan felt like Lin was going to eat people, Sanye couldn't stay any longer, he struggled: "You're drunk, I'll come back when you sober up."

Zuo Chuanlin couldn't bear this man's cowardly struggle, his mind was in a mess, and he didn't know what he wanted to do.

"Did you have a good time that night?"

Sanye froze when he heard the words, and finally looked at him.

"You duplicity guy! It was so cool back then, wasn't it?"

Zuo Chuanlin saw that the man's eyes were wide open, but he continued on: "You can really pretend! Why do you change your face like this under the bed? You are not a woman, so what are you doing all the time!"

He seemed to be about to cry, his lips were trembling, but he still only said: "...you are drunk, I, I will go first."

Until the man went out, Zuo Chuanlin seemed to explode suddenly, threw the stool over and slammed the door: "Idiot! Scum!...Bastard..."

. . .When the sun shone in through the window rail, Zuo Chuanlin got up from the ground, wiped his saliva, rubbed his head, went to the inner room, wiped his face twice, and sat on the bed.

What are you doing like a jerk?It's not him who is irresponsible.So drunk and come back to question, so what can I do?The man was still dead.

Zuo Chuanlin suddenly raised the corners of his mouth and smiled. Those women used to say that he was the one who put up his pants and refused to recognize anyone. Now he finally understands what it feels like, just like this...

He rubbed his face and told himself that now is not the time to think about these children.Because—the war is coming to an end.

Early in the morning, Zuo Chuanlin left again, this time for another few days.His drink was indeed a celebration drink, and now that he is sober, it can only make people look forward to the next success.

Sanye didn't know what he was doing until that day, a food delivery boy appeared in Zuo Chuanlin's residence. Qi Zijiang is the head of the family.Suddenly, he vaguely guessed something in his heart.

After more than a month, the Spring Festival came, and Sanye was the only one left in the huge maid's house.That night, Sanye got into bed early.He wasn't sleepy yet, but the housekeeper didn't have time to take care of him at all, he was too busy to be seen.In such a big house, no one thought of him. He was a little hungry, so he ate some biscuits casually. He also had a cold. One nose was tightly blocked, and the other nose was breathing hot air. He didn't know if he had a fever. .

Just when Sanye was dizzy and about to fall asleep, the door creaked open, and a man came in with cold air, pulled the quilt off Sanye, and threw his clothes over.

It was Zuo Chuanlin, who said, "Get up, I only have one night."

Sanye trembled a little, he gritted his teeth, put on his clothes and followed the man out the door.

The two of them left the yard, walked through the front hall, and walked towards Lu Jingping's yard.Sanye felt a little strange, until Zuo Chuanlin pulled him to lie behind the tree on the wall, he didn't know through the thin window that the housekeeper and his wife were together.He trembled in shock, but found that the person behind him was surprisingly quiet.

"You, did you already know?"

Zuo Chuanlin nodded with calm eyes.He jumped down and stretched out his hand towards Sanye.Sanye jumped down, and although he didn't fall down, the man's hand still helped him up.

"You have a fever."

Sanye touched his forehead, it was a little burning.Zuo Chuanlin pulled him: "Let's go, I have a medicine box in my room."

Sanye really didn't know what Zuo Chuanlin was thinking, how could he be so calm with his temperament.

After giving Sanye the medicine, Zuo Chuanlin suddenly said, "Actually, I already knew about it, and I didn't love her anymore."

Zuo Chuanlin looked serious, not knowing what he was going to say next, Sanye's heart beat wildly.

"The things I said last time were just drunken words, don't take it seriously. I sent Liu Suyun back to the Liu family and gave her a lot of money. Jingping now has someone to rely on, so I finally didn't feel sorry for her. Now I... There is a secret passage under my bed, I put some money at the entrance of the secret passage, starting tomorrow, if there is anything wrong, go to Jiangfeng Hotel as soon as possible, you know?"

Sanye opened his mouth to ask something, but he didn't ask anything because he was blocked by that person.The man's kiss was lingering and wanton, and the hands on his shoulders were so tightly grasped, for a moment, he was a little moved.But Zuo Chuanlin's hand was so eager to ask for it, he was a little uncomfortable, and he refused, because his throat was hoarse because of the fever, he refused intermittently, but the man didn't realize it.Sanye's heart went cold for the most part.

Maybe it's because Sanye's body is too hot this time, maybe Zuo Chuanlin feels a little strange tonight, in short, he repeated it again and again, regardless of whether Sanye's limp body can bear it.

The fireworks in the south of the city blew twice, and the red, green and green lights dimly illuminated Sanye's choking face. Zuo Chuanlin picked up the person under him fiercely, hugged him in his arms, and kissed him. A hot current is sent into it.Immediately, he let go of him, and without even having time to tidy up anything, he hurriedly pulled the loose clothes and ran out.

Sanye vaguely saw that the man climbed over the wall, just as the fireworks went off for the third time.He passed out completely.

Jincheng fell.The warlords headed by Zuo Chuanlin in the Jincheng area joined the Red Army, the last line of defense was disintegrated, the empire was destroyed, and the national army fled in embarrassment.At this time, the Japanese army withdrew a large number of troops. World War II was drawing to a close. The U.S. military dropped two bombs on Japan to force the troops to surrender. .

Sanye fled to Jiangfeng Hotel, and found out that the Zuo Mansion was sealed off the next day. Fortunately, all the people in the mansion were not in the mansion.He was leaning on the bed in a daze. The owner of Jiangfeng Hotel didn't know what he had to do with Zuo Chuanlin, so he let him hide here and prescribed antipyretics for him.

It was also learned from the boss that Zuo Chuanlin's senior brother and master died in this battle, and his senior brother was Lu Guang.Sanye felt that the name sounded familiar, and recalled that the day he and Zuo Chuanlin first met, this person went to meet their general, and now that he thought about it, there was a connection between them.He hasn't seen Zuo Chuanlin for many days. Many shocking events have happened in these days. Sanye already knows what the situation is like now, but there is no news about Zuo Chuanlin's current situation. .

His health was fine, but he was still a little tired after a severe fever. He wanted to go downstairs to eat by himself, but when he passed the VIP room, he heard Zuo Chuanlin's voice.

He thought a lot for a while, Zuo Chuanlin returned?When did you come back?Why don't you go see him when you come back?Does his current identity matter here?Had he put what was supposed to be done last night?At that moment, he really wanted to push the door open, but he didn't after all, he just passed by silently and walked down.

But the door opened from behind, and Zuo Chuanlin's impatient scolding stopped abruptly after seeing him, and Jiang Feng also came out, seeing this situation, he said nothing to make room for the two of them.

Yes, there is nothing to say, Sanye knows very well that Zuo Chuanlin just doesn't want to see himself.why?Sanye could probably guess that his master and brother were killed by the Japanese, and he was a Japanese.

"I have always been at odds with my senior brother. He is not very nice. He still likes to play with men, and he brought me up like this, but he has always been infamous. I, I don't know. He sent someone to kill me. It turned out that he was It is arranged, my master, my master has been proud all his life, he has bullet holes all his life, how many heroes he has cultivated in his life, but their death is really worthless, they don't even have their bodies, they were killed by a big soldier with a thunderbolt Those who died in the bombing, they, they worked hard behind the scenes all their lives, and they died so worthlessly in the end, so they were killed by an unknown pawn..."

Zuo Chuanlin couldn't go on talking, he choked up and collapsed on the chair, he was out of breath from crying, maybe no one will see him like this again.

The housekeeper told him that Zuo Chuanlin had lost his father since he was a child, and his father was killed by his own people. Fortunately, he had a tough mother, who cruelly threw him to the most miserable place in the military academy. There was the strictest master and the best opponent there, but before he could make it through, his mother was killed by someone, and it was also done by his own people.So he endured for many years, found the right opportunity, and dealt the most painful blow to those people, overturning the entire empire.

Perhaps in his heart, master and senior brother are more important than his parents.Sanye thought to himself.The two sat quietly in the room, and when Zuo Chuanlin's mood stabilized, he said wearily: "...you go back first, I'll...I..."

I don't want to see myself for now.That's right, it might have been an extrajudicial favor not to kill himself.