south shore corner

On the last day of the year, You Xian's mother opened a video for You Xian, and You Xian avoided Pang Qingyu to go to the bathroom to answer the phone.

"I'm going to answer my mother's phone call. You can play by yourself for a while." You Xian said to Pang Qingyu.

Pang Qingyu looked at him and nodded.

"Hey, Mom."

"Xianxian, what are you doing?"

"Come out to play, didn't I tell you before."

.....

Pang Qingyu was absent-mindedly playing with her mobile phone on the sofa. In fact, the sound insulation effect of the bathroom is not good, and Pang Qingyu can probably hear everything.

He can hear You Xian's concern for his parents, he can feel that You Xian is a highly anticipated and loved child at home, and he can also feel... You Xian is not willing to announce the fact of his relationship... .

"How old am I! Don't always think that I brought a girl home, what if I don't get married in the future... You have heard me tell you which girl is pretty, and which girl I have a crush on My son?...Don't tell me, the chances of me not getting married are really very high, hey...I just want to make money...don't fall in love and don't get married... .”

But Pang Qingyu was not sad at all. He knew that many people were unwilling to tell their parents about this fact. Few elders could accept it. Being able to marry or not was considered loyalty to the other half.

Coming out forcibly can tear a family apart.

"What are you thinking about?" You Xian flicked Pang Qingyu's head, "Want to sleep?"

Pang Qingyu came back to her senses, seeing that You Xian was in a good mood, she smiled and said, "In a daze ~ don't you know that people who are more in a daze are smarter? Maybe I'm getting smarter now."

"Only you, a fool, can believe it." Pang Qingyu sat next to him, "This morning is New Year's Day. Do you have any New Year's wishes?"

"Can you make it all come true for me?" Pang Qingyu asked

"I can do anything except money." You Xian said in shock.

Although Pang Qingyu knew that this was You Xian's joke, she still drilled into it: "What about your heart? Can you give it to me?"

"Isn't it always with you?"

"I want everything." Pang Qingyu looked at You Xian's eyes and said seriously, "I want everything from you, can you do it?"

You Xian also stared at him, and said after a while: "No, I can't give it all to you."

Pang Qingyu's disappointed eyes were clearly evident. He watched You Xian get up, and quickly took his hand and asked, "Why?"

You Xian sighed, turned and squatted in front of him and said seriously: "I can only give you 50.00% of mine."

A little more than half.Love others first, love yourself, I love you a little more than I do.You are still in charge.Even so, no one can.

"For the rest, I want to love myself." You Xian kissed Pang Qingyu's hand.

Pang Qingyu didn't quite understand the meaning of this sentence, but thought of a sentence that a friend said before: "Don't love too much, otherwise both sides will suffer."

Pang Qingyu knew that You Xian was a natural and rational person, and everything he did fluctuated within the range he could accept, no accidents, nothing special.

Pang Qingyu smiled: "Then my heart is all about you."

You Xian was helpless: "You will be very tired in this way."

This sentence was the second time Pang Qingyu heard You Xian say it. "You will be very tired."

Pang Qingyu thought for a while, didn't he?am i tired

Yes, I am tired.I'm tired of my bad past; I'm tired of my business hypocrisy; I'm tired of worrying about whether my lover loves me; I'm tired of...  

But, it's okay, it's okay.Because it seems to be like this in the past, but generally speaking, Pang Qingyu is happier than before.

You Xian got up and lay down on the bed: "Come here, let's have a good chat tonight."

Pang Qingyu didn't understand what it meant, and looked at him curiously.

"Didn't I say before that after I finished my postgraduate entrance examination, I should have a serious chat? Sort out our relationship and future, otherwise conflicts will easily arise."

Pang Qingyu understood, and quickly turned into the bed.

"Well, where do I start first... Let me first talk about my true thoughts about you and my attitude towards our relationship, okay?" You Xian asked.

Pang Qingyu nodded.

"After getting along for so long, I know that you... have no adulteration in your feelings towards me.... Likes are true, love is true. But I have seen too many friends around me, love We can't be together, you understand?"

Pang Qingyu nodded.

"Even if you love me enough to make a lot of changes for me, I can't guarantee our future results. I know that you are afraid that I will leave you in the future, but I guarantee that the only way to break up is It's you, I won't leave if you don't tell me. Please remember this sentence in my heart. "

Pang Qingyu nodded.

"I like you very much, I love you very much, I don't say these words often, I will say them a few times today." You Xian held Pang Qingyu's hand.

"I like you, I have loved you for so many years. I can't give you my whole heart because this is the value I have achieved for more than [-] years, and I can't give my all for one person The price, I can only guarantee that most of my price will definitely be given to you."

"In fact, right now, right now, I feel that there is no end in sight for the two of us, and there is no distance. This is the result I am most afraid of but I feel it is a matter of course. But...but I don't want to, I don't want this result.....so, I want to talk to you more, to talk about my real thoughts, because I find that our communication sometimes doesn't reach a point at all, and I know it's because Our three views are different. You have seen more worlds than me, and I have seen more knowledge than you. But I think these can be changed slowly. The only thing I am afraid of is that you...you You made a mistake, you went straight to a corner and didn’t come out.”

"I'm afraid you'll think about what I'm thinking and what I've done. I'm afraid you'll be thinking about things that don't exist."

You Xian hugged Pang Qingyu for a while, "You will be tired like this, do you understand? You... have to trust me... I will try my best to trust you, and you should also trust me What I say, I don’t know how to talk about love, I don’t know how to make you happy, and I don’t know how to act like a baby. If you want to ask me, don't look at me directly, because you are seducing me; if you do this, it is a foul, and I will not know what I want to say."

Pang Qingyu smiled, "Really?"

"Really." You Xian nodded earnestly, "Anyway, the first time we met, it was during the Chinese New Year, when we met each other, I couldn't take it anymore, my heart kept beating there, I didn't know what to say, I was thinking about it the whole time , don’t let you go, don’t let you be overwhelmed.”

"Really?!" Pang Qingyu looked at You Xian happily.

You Xian nodded, "And you came to the library too, staring at me doing my homework, I made several mistakes in a row, and the efficiency in the first few days was terrible."

Pang Qingyu smiled innocently, expressing that she was very satisfied. "I'd like to hear more of these things if you talk about them."

"why?"

"It makes me feel like you like me too."

"Didn't I say that? I've always liked you, and you love me a little more."

"Then tell me a little more, I want to hear it."

You Xian was helpless, so he could only say a few more words, "And the bracelet you gave me when you came to school to see me." You Xian raised his arm to reveal the bracelet, "You said you came to me that time, but I didn't I'm wondering if you're interested in me, after all, even the best friends can't do that."

"What is original, it has always been..." Pang Qingyu said.

"Then who knows... Then you said that you came here to talk about things, so I dismissed this idea. In the end, you came and gave me a bracelet and was urged away..." You Xian has been playing Pang Qingyu small fingernails.

"You knew it then?"

He shook his head, "I just doubt it, but I still deny it in my heart, because I don't like to think of things so absolutely, I always think of the worst result, so I was not sure at that time."

"I'm sure it's the time when you want to video with me. I don't even understand it, so I'll let it go." You Xian said with a smile, "The relationship between two big men who want to video every day is too incomprehensible, if not You, I will never agree."

Pang Qingyu smirked, "I just want to see you every day."

You Xian nodded, "Yeah", and smiled embarrassedly, You Xian is still a pure-hearted person, and he would blush even if he expressed it frankly.Pang Qingyu was very happy to see it, and kissed him on his arm.

"Originally, I didn't plan to make any progress between the two of us before the postgraduate entrance examination, but... there is no way, the world is unpredictable..." You Xian was talking about the time he went to meet him.

Pang Qingyu looked at You Xian with apologetic eyes, You Xian covered his eyes with his hands and said: "It's over, I won't talk about it, from now on...don't do this in the future..."