south shore corner

After You Xian went back, he would not feel much emotion, as usual, his mood would no longer be out of balance due to anticipation and joy.

You Xian, who is always said to be a cold-blooded animal, actually understands that only by not expecting surprises can he avoid too much disappointment.

You Xian has never been in a relationship, and he told his friends why he hasn't.

"There is a person living in my heart. My upbringing does not allow me to talk about friends with another person. This is too irresponsible to another person."

The person who lives there, long time no see~

You Xian is quite famous in his school, he knows a little bit.

In college, he was always told by many people that he was difficult to get along with because of his appearance. In fact, it was not that he was difficult to get along with. It was just that he didn't like dealing with people.

It's strange to say, it's just that he doesn't like it, but everyone who knows him knows that he actually likes to laugh and is very silly. He has a high personality and emotional intelligence, and the relationship between men and women is relaxed. That's all.

Many men and women in the university expressed their love to themselves, but they were all rejected.

It’s not a bad word to say hint, after all, it’s too frivolous to say that I like you and love you right now, and those who want to understand slowly are basically stifled in the cradle.

You Xian doesn't like chatting, and doesn't like expressing his emotions and thoughts online. Every time he updates, it's because he's afraid of good-looking photos.

So whenever someone came to strike up a conversation, he would always answer in a serious manner. If he flirted, he would take it as a joke and pretend to be stupid and tease him back, or turn a blind eye and pretend he didn't know what it meant.

Therefore, after my friends saw these, they regarded them as the biggest straight man in the new century.

It's just that he never expected that this straight man was crooked.

You Xian didn't specifically explain this fact, nor affirmed or denied it.

After all, You Xian has never been in a relationship once, and he was told by his friends in the early days that it must be a lie. In the later stage, he said that you are not single and who is single.

You Xian, who was ridiculed as a straight male cancer, no one would think that he would like boys, and few people asked him this question.

You Xian lay on his back on the bed after washing, staring at the ceiling for a long time...

He always remembered that the relationship with Pang Qingyu in the third year of junior high school was actually not very good.

Even he didn't understand what was going on, but he just realized that the relationship was not awkward.

Maybe he and Pang Qingyu were classmates in junior high school. In the early stage, the two were still good friends, and they could play well in terms of personality.Later, because of You Xian's good grades in the senior high school entrance examination, he went to a best middle school and was placed in the science class, and Pang Qingyu paid a high price to enter the liberal arts class.

The two rarely met, and there was almost no contact due to various reasons. Pang Qingyu passed the single admission because of poor grades, and entered a good school by himself in the college entrance examination.

The first meeting after that was a junior high school reunion, a junior high school reunion after graduating from high school.

When he and Pang Qingyu got together three years later, Pang Qingyu didn't change much. He looked at him as soon as he came, asked him for a drink and added his contact information again.

But after the end, there was no chat history, but it was placed in his contacts, and his messages could be seen.

Maybe Pang Qingyu doesn't like to post feeds or maybe you are blocked by feeds, but You Xian still posts a set of photos of himself every week.

When playing games was popular in the sophomore year, You Xian was invited by Pang Qingyu to form a team when he was online, and he was invited many times.

The former is directly ignored and the latter is directly rejected.

Pang Qingyu sent a message to him for the first time and asked him, "Why is it so difficult to find you to play a game, and am I so annoying to you?"

In fact, he saw it right away, but he didn't know how to reply, and he didn't know how to explain it, so he just put down his phone and didn't reply to him until evening.

"No, I just made an appointment with my friends to form a team. It's not good for me to walk away suddenly. I have a chance to play together in the future..."

I haven't received a reply since I sent this message.

You Xian was very disappointed, but he also seemed to think it was normal. Anyway, after so many years, he would not feel sad because of this disappointment.

The second reunion is today.

He never knew what Pang Qingyu was doing, he hadn't specifically inquired about him, and basically had no contact with his junior high school friends.

Pang Qingyu felt that she hadn't changed, but she seemed to be not as handsome as before, and more masculine.

The day I realized that I like boys is because I saw an article one day in college, and thought of a sentence that I have always been brooding about.

A sentence that Pang Qingyu said in the third year of junior high school is still fresh in my memory.

It was only when he was in college that he realized that the relationship in junior high school was indeed ironic in You Xian's view.

At that time, a girl was chatting with Pang Qingyu, and they were talking about some hot topics at that time. He forgot what it was, but the chat was very lively, so You Xian also went to listen.

"Actually, our You Xian is quite handsome, but his face is a little shorter and rounder." The girl looked at him with a smile and said, You Xian vaguely remembered who this girl was.

He is one of the few junior high school classmates in his friend list.

It seems that he has been doing well all the time, and he is also quite beautiful.

Thinking of being thin, You Xian laughed while lying on the bed.

In the non-mainstream period in junior high school, thinness can really be mainstream, and it is still super thin.

Obviously, it was a period of development at that time.

At this time, Pang Qingyu turned her head to stare at You Xian, and said seriously: "That's right...and it would be great if you were a girl!"

You Xian didn't know what this sentence meant at the time, and said with a smile, "I also want to be a girl. Girls are so nice, but it's a pity that I was born with the wrong gender."

As a result, this sentence was imprinted in You Xian's heart and could not be erased. It was not until he accidentally opened an article about homosexuality that he realized that he might really be the same type of person.

This time is already a freshman.

He can't be sure whether he is born or acquired, because the article says that the vast majority of people are bisexual, but some are more heterosexual and some are more homosexual.

You Xian didn't know which side he was leaning towards, but he already fell in love with the same sex when he realized it, so he didn't bother with this issue.

What made him even more entangled at the time was that the person he liked was Pang Qingyu.

For the whole three years of high school, he didn't have any emotions other than friendship with anyone, after all he was busy studying.

Even friendships are easily broken.

So high school never thought about these questions...

It turned out that before hearing that he was playing friends with other girls, he would feel very disappointed, and it was because of this that he was unhappy;

It turned out that this was the reason why we smiled at each other after our quarrel and reconciliation;

It turns out that the reason for the embarrassment is also this;

It turned out that knowing that he deleted it made me feel very sad and also because of this.

In this way, I might like him the first time I met him. After all, I called Pang Qingyu my brother and brother when I first met him.

At that time, he was soaking himself with a water gun, wearing white clothes, and when he laughed, You Xian felt that this boy looked very good-looking when he smiled. The reason for his clean appearance was because of this——I liked it.

You Xian didn't accept it too quickly, but he didn't ignore this feeling, after all, it can be regarded as the apex of his unrequited love for several years that can't be forgotten in his heart.

If it were other people, they would not have contacted or recognized them for a long time, and they might not even remember their names. After all, they basically lost contact with their friends in middle and high school. Use the great Chinese culture to play the whole conversation.

Pang Qingyu sent a message to You Xian that night.

- how long have you been home

This means how long it takes to go home on vacation.

-I'll be back on January [-]th.

- it's pretty early.

- What are you doing on the street today?It's not like shopping for New Year's goods.

- No, go to the library to borrow a place to read, but I can't read at home.

You Xian buried himself in the quilt, the south bank is especially cold at night in winter.

- Do you want to take the postgraduate entrance examination?

-考

-Have you decided which university to take?

You Xian looked at the news and hesitated to come. He had already decided what university to take, the one in Shanghai had his favorite major there.

- No, learn to walk first.Let's talk about it later.