Xiao Sha Desolate

Zhao Cheng walked aimlessly on the street.When he came out, the reason he gave himself was to buy medicine for Qian Mo, but when he arrived at the pharmacy, he found that there was no shortage of medicines that should be used at home.Just looking for an excuse to escape.Even the final relationship was completely ruined by himself.

It seems that I should go back and apologize to Qian Mo, but I feel that apologizing is useless, anyway, Qian Mo will not forgive herself.After walking for a long time, I still hesitated.I feel more and more annoyed, when did I dawdle like this.After much deliberation, I should go back and apologize, but how should I speak?He never expressed any softening to Qian Mo.

Qian Mo is always apologizing to himself, although most of the time he has done nothing wrong.He knelt down, bowed his head, he said sorry softly, and asked the master to punish him.It was like the most perfect ceremony, from posture to expression, from tone of voice to the angle of bowing, there was nothing wrong with it.However, in that formulaic elegance, there seems to be a trace of unwillingness, a trace of sadness that is well hidden.

An apology seems like it should show a little sincerity.Zhaocheng walked into a shop on the corner of the street, and when he came out he was holding a teddy bear as tall as a person.I really don't know what Qian Mo likes, I remember that he asked me for a teddy bear when he was a child.

It's just a teddy bear, why did he have to make trouble with him at that time.Now, is it still too late for you?I'll give you whatever you want, but you won't ask me for anything anymore.

Put the takeaway on the dining table, and put the teddy bear on the sofa in the living room, and you will see it when you go downstairs.

"Qianmo, are you ready to wash?" "Qianmo, I bought porridge, can I go down and eat?" "Qianmo, can I go in?" There was no response.Be as gentle as possible, as patient as possible, and knock on the door over and over again.He is used to shouting at Qianmo, he is really not a patient person, he has been so subdued, what else does he think about him.

"Qianmo, I'm going in." After a while, she finally became impatient.

Pushing open the door and entering, before he had time to criticize, he saw Qian Mo fainted on the ground.The basin was overturned on the side, and the water all over his body looked icy cold.He was so focused on escaping that he completely forgot that he needed someone to take care of him.Zhao Cheng walked over, and touched Qian Mo's body with his fingers, feeling cold to the bone.Suddenly frightened, I hurriedly probed for his breath, only then did I feel a little more at ease.

Holding his too thin body, Zhaocheng actually felt like he was holding a pile of bones, every joint was abrupt and distinct.

Wrapped in warm water, his hands gently swayed over every part of his body, such an intoxicating touch... Consciousness gradually became clear, and when Qian Mo was finally able to open his eyes, he was really startled.He struggled desperately, didn't want to be here, didn't want to be treated like this.

The splashed water is light red.Zhao Cheng hugged Qian Mo even tighter, and comforted him softly, "I'm sorry, I just want to help you clean up." "I can't do anything." Kissed his forehead lightly, signaling him to calm down.How could he be willing to hurt him again? When he hugged that cold body, he couldn't care less about anything.She didn't care whether Qianmo was willing or not, whether he would forgive herself or not, at that moment she only knew that her body couldn't get warm enough to die.

Qian Mo relaxed, and sat down in the bathtub to let the master play with her.He didn't trust Zhao Cheng, he was too tired, his body couldn't resist such warmth.The warmth of the water, the warmth of the owner's embrace.I cut myself tens of thousands of times in my heart, but my body could no longer move an inch.It's so greedy that I can't let it go even if it's all over.

"Thank you, is this body still clean?" Slightly sighed.The bathroom was steaming with fog, and the atmosphere was a bit confused. He couldn't see the master's expression clearly.

Zhaocheng's heart stabbed fiercely, it was he who soiled his body, and in the end nothing was given to him.

Qianmo has no expression on her face, doesn't resist, doesn't pander, and doesn't want to talk.Until I got dressed, there was no response from beginning to end.

"Come on, Qian Mo, are you hungry? Let's go downstairs to eat." It was like treating a child, coaxing her softly, supporting her step by step carefully.

Qian Mo was supported downstairs by the owner, when he turned the corner of the stairs and saw the cute teddy bear, his face turned pale.

That was a young and ignorant age, and he had been with the master for less than a year.He still remembered that the weather was fine that day.The master wants to pick some clothes and call him to follow.After choosing the clothes, the owner rarely got off the car nearby, waved back the people who followed, and walked side by side with him.

Even in order to take care of his young age, he slowed down a little.They walk together like any pair of true brothers.

He was parked in front of a toy store window when the owner took a few steps and realized he was not following.There was a light brown curly teddy bear looking at him with big eyes.He was so fascinated that he couldn't move his feet.The owner turned back, leaned down and asked him, "Do you like it?" He said, "Back to the owner, Qianmo wants it." Then the owner walked into the store, swiped a thin card, and came out with the bear in his arms.He still remembered how delighted he was at that time, smiling and thanking the master.The owner didn't say anything, just made a phone call, and a car came to pick them up after a while.He hugged the bear, which was only half his height, almost thinking that that day was the happiest day in his life.

But when I got home, everything changed.

The owner put the teddy bear on the low cabinet by the wall, and he saw the owner step back and draw the gun.Shot through the teddy bear.So fast that he didn't have time to cry. "Xu Qianmo, I bought you, and I gave you everything. If you want to make me happy, I can give you anything. But you can't take what I don't give." The master's tone was as gentle as asking him Whether they like teddy bears or not, they even look the same. "Don't let me see what you like in the future, and don't let me see you expressing joy and anger. You know that you are just a toy. If I can smash this toy today, I can tear you up another day." "I won't punish you." You, good boy, if you fire a gun, today is over." The master handed him the gun, and there was an inviolable coldness in the gentleness.Qian Mo shook his hands, gunshots fired one after another, he didn't know how many times he fired until there was no more bullets in the gun and it continued.

a mess.

That was the first time he heard a gunshot, the first time he fired a gun.

All the while, he was too scared to cry, speechless, and barely able to stand.

Teddy bears don't bleed, but he clearly heard moans.

Maybe many years later, he will finally understand that the master is doing it for his own good, and he is on the road, and his obvious preference for happiness and anger will be death without a burial place.Maybe many years later, he will finally be able to hold a high position like his master, smiling and saying creepy things.Then who cares about the mood of that child back then.

From that time on, he knew that no one would care about him.Bringing it up now is just another reminder that he is just a toy and deserves to be treated like this, life and death are beyond his control.

And I actually thought for a moment that you loved me.

"Master, throw it away, or you want Qianmo to throw it away."

"I said, throw it away." Word by word, containing moisture.

"I'm sorry, I... really don't know what you like." Zhao Cheng realized how wrong he had done the moment Qian Mo's face changed.Isn't this a reminder of his hurt that time?Just remember that you liked the teddy bear, but thought you forgot the pain it brought you.You don't always act like you're hurt.

"I didn't know what to do in the morning so I went out. I thought I should apologize to you and bought it. I didn't expect it. I'm sorry...you wait, I will throw it away." Never explained to anyone so carefully, The tone is like a child who has done something wrong.

He grabbed the teddy bear and walked out of the villa. When he came back, Qian Mo was still standing there.

"Okay, I'll throw it away. Nothing can hurt you anymore." He hugged Qian Mo in his arms and pressed it tightly against his chest.The clothes on the chest were wet and cold.

The moment she was hugged by her master, tears burst out all at once, as if the tears she had endured for ten years burst out of a bank, and she couldn't stop no matter how hard she tried.Qianmo cried until her body trembled.

Ten years of grievances, is it worth changing this promise?

"In a while, let's go shopping after dinner and buy what you like, okay? You can do whatever you want." Zhaocheng followed Qianmo's back and comforted him gently.