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In February, the most anticipated thing is the Spring Festival. I still remember that in the first year of work, I found out that the Spring Festival is so short. It used to last for a month, but now it has shrunk to a week.

Every few weeks before the Spring Festival, I feel very busy. It’s just a kind of busyness. I don’t pay much attention to work, but I am very concerned about miscellaneous things.

Their company had an annual meeting, and they took me with them. The young coach could tell our relationship at a glance, and the few colleagues who were close to her were used to it, although nothing was drawn to the end.

In the past two years, I have become more and more afraid of the holidays. Every time I think of being urged by everyone to find a partner, getting married gives me a headache.But there is no way to say it. Outsiders can retort, but to family members, it is not acceptable to say it lightly or seriously.

Thinking about celebrating the holidays but not wanting to celebrate the holidays is really a tangled mentality.

"Sister, do you have anything to buy for Chinese New Year? Let's go shopping on weekends"

"Well... yes, but don't worry, it's rice noodles oil wine, I have to see how many copies to buy, how about you?"

"I'll go back and buy it. It's fine to buy it now before I go to visit, and there are a lot of gifts from others at home, so it's okay to give it away when the time comes."

"I'll give you lucky money when I come back from the Chinese New Year, Coach Zhang."

"Oh, New Year's money? Hey, don't make trouble with my sister."

"No fuss, serious."

"Okay, then I'll wait, but it's agreed, no more than 200."

"True."

The day before the holiday, she stayed overnight.

"Have you packed everything, sister, go straight tomorrow?"

"Well, there's nothing to clean up. I get off work early tomorrow, so just go. Shall I take you to the station?"

"It's okay, no need, we let it go early, and we will be able to leave at noon tomorrow."

"Should I give some sister to my uncle and aunt? I want to take some, but I don't know if it's suitable."

I was also taken aback, she said that I had actually thought about this question, should I get something for her parents.

"No, when you go home in the future, let them know that you sent it, and they will be even more angry."

"okay."

"Then, what should I give my uncle and aunt?" I still asked.

"No, they don't care too much about this, and they will probably be even angrier if they find out."

"Hmm." There seemed to be nothing to do but smile wryly.

"Remember to miss me, sister."

Do you still need to say it, Zhang Yan, I miss you very much now.

Even if there are many problems in front of you.

She called at noon the next day, well, she didn't call during working hours.

"Sister, are you eating?"

"Just finished eating, what's the matter?"

"I want to see you."

"Then wait a moment, I'll go down now."

"Just come out, I'm here at the elevator entrance."

I immediately got up and went to her.

"Sister, we are on vacation."

"Are you going?"

"Ah."

"Tell me when you get home."

"it is good."

Suddenly I didn't know what to say, I just looked at her quietly.Normally, she would kiss me before leaving, but today it was obvious that she didn't mean it.

"Sister, go back, it's working time, go."

I stood still, she had no choice but reached out and hugged me: "Sister, go, it's not good for people in your company to see."

"Stop pouting and go."

I kissed her quickly: "I want to kiss you."

She pursed her lips and smiled: "Yeah."

"Go sister."

Watching her go, I was very reluctant, I only hoped to see her back less in the future.

After being together, her WeChat communication frequency has finally increased, but it is also limited.

"Coach Zhang, I miss you."

"Me too."

But she always sends pictures.

She cooks.

her meal

she watched tv,

She went to the door.

her bed.

morning sun.

Her little chicken.

It's nice to be with your family, and it's nice to be with them, if you can get rid of the unhappy things.

Without exception, my family was concerned about lifelong events. Although I knew their intentions were good, I was still very sad and wronged.

From childhood, everything was as my parents wished, but this matter, I can't.

Maybe if I didn't meet Zhang Yan, I would do what they wanted, but now I can't.

At the dinner table in the evening, they talked about this matter again: "Mom and Dad, don't rush, I will take care of my own affairs, and if I bring it back, you are not satisfied? Should I talk or talk about it?" Don't talk about it?"

"You! Are you deliberately angry with us?"

"I'm not mad at you, I must have arranged myself before the age of 30, okay?"

"You said it lightly. When you look for it yourself, you won't look for it, and if someone asks you to go on a blind date, you won't go. How do you solve it yourself?"

"Hey, Mom and Dad, let's not talk about it for now? Have a good New Year, and we'll talk about something after the New Year. It's finally a holiday, so be happy."

Probably also tired, sighed and stopped talking.

I don't know if I should be happy or not: I didn't mention this matter seriously throughout the Spring Festival, except when chatting with relatives, I would specifically ask who's child has a partner and who is a grandma again.When the topic turned to me, I sighed. This kind of atmosphere made me want to stay with her more and more, and just sit together without saying anything.

On the night of the Spring Festival, she called.

I can hear the wind over there, she's outside.

"elder sister."

"Ah."

"Happy New Year."

"Happy New Year."

I heard her chuckle.

"Zhang Yan, I miss you."

"Me too."

"Then eat more and see you in a few days."

"Wait a while, sister, I'll send you a video later, and I'll go to put flowers."

"Well, be careful."

After a while, she sent a video, very beautiful, very beautiful, after the city banned fireworks, she never saw it again.

Staring at the phone to see the end, the end of the video, although there is wind, explosion, and many people talking, I can still hear it very clearly, as clearly as what is being said in my ear.

"Sister, happy new year, I love you."

Holding the phone in his heart, he didn't even have the courage to hold it to his ear and listen to it a second time, for fear that the words would run away as soon as he let go.My heart and stomach were churning, and my heart was beating so hard that I was about to jump out.

But in an instant, I felt very sad, very funny, and it was obviously something that should be happy: I have a person I like very much, and a person who can go on, I really want to share my feelings with them, I want to Seeing them happy for me gives me someone to hold on to, a love.She gave me the desire and courage to love someone again.

But I can't tell them all this, and I have to do my best to hide it, because the fact that I have someone I love will make them sad.

On the day I came back, I mustered up the courage to ask my mother: "What if I am different from others?"

Mom didn't speak, just looked at me, just looked at me like that, as if she wanted to find out what was going on with me, her eyes were full of sadness.

In the end, my mother still didn't answer me. This reaction was the worst I wanted to live. She didn't speak or express her position.

Mom may or may not have guessed, but it turned out she didn't want to talk to me about it.

Whether it's arguing or refusing, it's all a reaction, and now it's like punching cotton. If I don't talk to you about this issue, it's like I didn't hear it.We could talk about other things just the same, but the subject would never come up.

It's hard to say whether this result is good or bad.

When I got home and put down my things, I asked her that she was coming soon, so I ran to the station to wait for her: I really want to see her and hug her.

Carrying a big backpack and a bag, just getting out of the car like this, in the eyes of others, it is only one in tens of millions, but to me it is indeed everything.

Seeing her walk over, with a smile on her face that I had been thinking about for a long time, I had already adjusted my emotions all the way, but I couldn't hold back all of a sudden, maybe Zhen Han and the others came to see me, and I could face it calmly.

In fact, it’s not a big deal, and the completion of the collection is expected, but in front of her, I can’t control it, and I can’t hide any grievances. I need her comfort.

Standing at the station where people come and go, we don't seem like we just came back from the Spring Festival, but we seem to be separated. I am crying and she is comforting.

Just standing like this, crying out all the grievances, we went home, it seemed that after crying for a while, we could cry out the water in our brains, and then we became much more awake.

We put down our things and went to cook together. She brought a lot of things, and I also brought a lot of things, so I can eat them as I like.The strangest thing is that I ate more than I should have been able to eat.Maybe it was seeing her, or maybe it was tired from crying.

Very tacitly didn't mention what happened just now, and couldn't be affected by the mood when eating.

After eating and drinking, I spread out on the sofa, and my mood has stabilized a lot, at least I can chat.

"Sister, I miss you so much."

"Oh, how much do you think?"

"I think about it when I'm cooking, I think about it when I'm eating, I think about it when I see a good TV, I think about it when I go to visit the New Year, I think about it when I go to bed, I think about it when I wake up, I think about it when I feed the chickens, I always think about it."

My little milk dog, full of love words, even if I don't like you, it is very likely that you will be teased if you are so talkative.

"When do you not want to?"

She tightened her arms: "No, I want to now."

She hugged very hard, but it made me feel extra at ease.

All we want with all our strength is peace of mind, because the protagonists of the TV series will be happy together after going through all kinds of hardships, but the reality is that being together is easy, because more difficulties appear only after being together.

We are at ease because we are sure to be needed, and we are at ease because we are sure to be loved.

The hard part is not being needed or loved, the hard part is being sure.

"Sister? Are you feeling better?"

"Ah."

"Then let's wash up, let's sleep together today, I miss you."

"Yeah." I know she's worried, but I don't know how to tell her about it yet, and she won't force me to.

"Hold me to sleep, Zhang Yan."

"Well, hold."

"hug for one night"

"Well, cuddle all night."

We all have a lot of deep-rooted ideas and obsessions, because people who love one person will try to accept another idea, those who are willing to change for you and try to tolerate people are the ones who love you and are worthy of your love people.

Zhang Yan, I've made up my mind.

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