glow boy

Yesterday I dreamed about the scene where Chen Cheng invited us to Maojiabu for dinner on that birthday. That day you were wearing a red-bottomed plum-blossom cotton cheongsam, and when you sang happy birthday, your eyes were so clear, I was completely attracted, Staring at you all the time, that day, you raised your head, your eyes met mine, I didn't escape, I know, you understand.

Xia Tian and Cai Xinming lived in the same space so quickly, and happy days always passed very quickly.In the twinkling of an eye, it is a new year, and this year is the sixth year from Xia Tian to You Zheng. As soon as this year came, Chen Cheng said at the New Year meeting that he would go out to start a practice.

Cai Xinming is not surprised that Chen Cheng has this idea, because Cai Xinming is very clear that Chen Cheng is still in a state of confusion, does not have his own independent personality, and many values ​​​​are influenced by his wife.

When Chen Cheng and Cai Xinming met, Chen Cheng was still driving a battery car and living in a farmer’s house. When he had no place to watch football games, he would spend the night in the bathroom. Now he has driven a BMW and has two apartments, but Cai Xinming can It is obvious that Chen Cheng at this time is far less happy than in the past. Many times, Chen Cheng's happiness is faked. No one can be so happy when he can't feel love. It's just that Chen Cheng himself is not brave enough to face it. to reality.

Many people born in the 70s were ignored by their parents, because China was really poor at that time, and their parents were struggling to make ends meet. Moreover, people were very ignorant at that time, and few people had independent personalities. Chen Cheng is the second son of the family, and there is a younger brother under Chen Cheng. The eldest brother has always been the pride of the family, and the younger brother is the most protective one in the family. Chen Cheng naturally became the one who was ignored, so Chen Cheng I have been living to prove myself, before marriage to prove to my parents, and after marriage, to prove to my wife, but in fact these proofs are meaningless, because the person he cares about has never been loved well , so he doesn't understand love at all, and he will never be able to get the love and care he wants.This is not the sorrow of Chen Cheng alone, but a sorrow of the times.

breakup meal

Wang Jun: "Ah Chen, if you are bullied outside, come back."

Xu Qiang: "Ah Chen is so treacherous, he can be bullied, it's not bad if he doesn't bully others."

Lin Dong: "You all succeeded, why did I fail?"

Zhang Xi: "You're still a failure. You don't have to do anything, just collect the rent every year."

Xia Tian: "That is, who wants to rely on strength when they can rely on their appearance to make a living. They are all forced to rely on strength because of their bad appearance. It's too late to envy you."

Wang Jun: "Fuck, Lin Dong relies on technology to make a living, okay? Technology is the real strength, do you understand?"

Xia Tian: "I don't have the right to speak about this, I don't understand."

Xu Qiang: "You ask your sister Xixi, she understands best."

Zhang Xi: "Cai Da's skills are still very good."

Ha ha ha ha, the audience laughed

Cai Xinming: "Damn, how do you know, we haven't tried."

Zhang Xi: "I have been applying for the annual card for so many years, and I have spent all the money I earned on you. If you say such things, you should be ashamed."

Wang Jun: "Damn, is it a human being? If you don't tell me such a good thing, it will cause me to go to other places to hold court every day. I'm almost exhausted."

Xu Qiang: "No wonder I said that Cai Da stays in the office every day playing cards, why did he change the car? So that's the case, Xixi, I'm younger than him, and this year the card is handled by me."

Lin Dong: "Look at your belly, are you still useful? I think I'm more reliable."

Zhang Xi: "You are all crazy about money, right now I only like post-90s fresh meat, and I have no interest in you old bacon."

Chen Cheng: "I just recruited a post-90s freshman, and he came back from the United States."

Wang Jun: "What's so great about coming back from America, isn't Zhang Xi's boyfriend just coming back from America?"

Zhang Xi: "Who said I have a boyfriend?"

Lin Dong: "Stop pretending, who doesn't know, anyway, we don't mind, as long as we give money."

Hahahaha, these people who are worrying about Zhengzheng can joke around, but Xia Tian obviously feels that Cai Xinming is unhappy in his heart. He is a very nostalgic person.

At the end, everyone had a drink together. After drinking, Cai Xinming said: "How can such a good colleague be willing to leave."

Everyone is in a high state, only Xia Tian heard this sentence.

Everyone had no intention of leaving that day. After drinking, they went back to the office to play cards. It didn't end until 12 o'clock. This was the first time since Xia Tian's blind date incident. Before leaving, Xia Tian Said to Cai Xinming: "Don't feel bad, Chen Cheng will come back when he understands what is the most important." Cai Xinming looked directly into Xia Tian's eyes.

What is the same kind? The same kind is what you care about the most. For example, there are many cases of true feelings between people. It's dirty, with his wisdom, if he is really willing to sacrifice his conscience, then the wealth he can have is not limited to this.

After that, Xia Tian became more and more aware of a truth, some people are richer than some people, not some people work harder than some people, but some people are more open-minded than some people, and they can do it.In an era where the poor are not laughing at the prostitutes, and only money is used to talk about heroes, if you tell others that a gentleman loves money and obtains it in a proper way, others will think you are sick.Therefore, in Cai Xinming's heart, there will be a kind of intellectual desolation, which is lonely before encountering Xia Tian.

I have never longed for someone to understand this sadness, just like you said, others will think you are sick.But I know very well in my heart that I am not sick, it’s just that many people are sick, but I don’t want to admit it, too many people are living with masks, I used to be one of them, few people’s smiles come from the heart , It is more of a kind of self-deception, making others feel that they are doing well, so that they can believe that they are really doing well.

Some people say that loneliness will accompany a person's life. I thought so before, until I met you, and let me understand that when you meet the same kind, you don't need to say anything, she understands.Meeting you made me return to my original self. I am grateful for God's arrangement. Even though I carry this sadness every day, this sadness makes me truly live.

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People's eyes are amazing, with one look, you can read my heart, this feeling makes me feel good...