kill a canary

Before Chen Ran left Beijing, he took Sisi to the cemetery to pay homage to her mother. He would take Sisi there every Qingming and Memorial Day.

Sisi burned the pictures she drew, the words she wrote, and the handicrafts she made to her mother. Chen Ran helped her, and silently talked to this woman he didn't know, but was very familiar with.When the sun was setting, Chen Ran stood up, picked up the girl who was playing with the grass, and led her by the hand towards the exit of the cemetery.

"Brother Ran Ran," Sisi suddenly raised her head, and the golden-red light of the setting sun shone on her round and tender face: "Why are we here today?"

Although Sisi's intelligence is not as good as that of ordinary children, she is very sensitive to time and color and has a good memory.She knows that according to the usual practice, today is not the day to see her mother.

"Because I'm leaving, Sisi." Chen Ran stopped, half squatted in front of the little girl, took off her sunglasses, and looked into her eyes seriously: "Do you want to go with me?"

Sisi tilted her head and thought for a while, then looked back at her mother's tombstone, shook her head, and whispered, "I don't want to. Mom is here."

Chen Ran nodded, carried her into the car.

Back at the care center, Chen Ran had another long talk with Luo Qian. Luo Qian repeatedly advised him not to take Sisi away now. Autistic children are extremely fragile and sensitive, and have a strong sense of dependence on familiar environments and people. However, once the adaptation and trust that has been built with great difficulty is broken, all previous efforts are likely to be in vain.In the end, she also emphasized that this is really a conclusion drawn from the perspective of Sisi's good, and has nothing to do with Mr. Shen.

Chen Ran felt embarrassed after hearing this, and said awkwardly: "Mr. Luo, don't get me wrong, I didn't mean that, I know you have always been good for Sisi."

"I'll listen to you. Sisi will stay here first. Let's talk about it after I settle down. I will ask you to take good care of her in the future." Chen Ran finally thanked Luo Qian a thousand times and urged her to do so. Barely relieved, ready to leave.

He went back to Sisi's room to say goodbye to the little girl. Sisi just looked at him and didn't say much. Finally, when Chen Ran was about to leave, she jumped out of bed, took out a crayon drawing from the deep drawer, and handed it to him. over him.

"Send it to you." Sisi said.

Chen Ran lowered her head, the painting showed a golden sunset, a gorgeous sunset glow, a path full of flowers extending to the horizon, and the back view of two men leading a little girl along the path...

This is a painting he drew by himself. He still remembers that after his birthday a year ago, Shen Yixiu accompanied him to see Sisi. Sisi poked randomly on the white paper with a crayon, and he accompanied him and drew this picture casually. painting.

Chen Ran's calm and unwavering heart was like being wet by raindrops, suddenly small ripples appeared in circles, past memories, good and bad, sweet, bitter, hopeful, and desperate, are actually still there, all of them It is an inseparable part of his life.

"Thank you." Chen Ran tightened his grip on the painting, he stroked Sisi's head, his voice was sour and hoarse: "Goodbye."

……

The day Chen Ran left Beijing, Shen Yixiu didn't come to see him off, maybe because he didn't want to put any pressure on him, or because he simply couldn't bear the parting scene, Chen Ran thought it was good, and he breathed a sigh of relief from the bottom of his heart.

Sun Yang sent him to the airport and asked him in the car: "Why do you want to go to Shenzhen?"

Through the window of the car, Chen Ran looked at the city where he had lived for seven or eight years. People came and went, and the traffic was as busy as before. He smiled lightly, and answered without thinking: "I don't know... I just remembered it all of a sudden. , Shenzhen's lychees seem to be particularly delicious."

Sun Yang was confused and looked at him from the rear view mirror: "Ran Ran, don't forget me."

"En." Chen Ran stretched out his hand, crossed the car seat, and squeezed Sun Yang's shoulder: "Tell me when you get married, and I will give you a big red envelope."

……

After Chen Ran arrived in Shenzhen, her new life started very smoothly, as if the past 20 years of troubled times were spent trying to save character for this moment.

As soon as he was looking for a house, an intermediary recommended him a single apartment. The location is good, the transportation is convenient, the environment is good, and it is quiet in the middle of the noise. The price is so cheap that the guy in the agency may feel that it is a bit unreasonable, and he can't find a convincing reason, so he ran the train and said: "The landlord believes in Buddhism and feels that I have a special destiny with you. It is not easy to meet in the vast sea of ​​people. You should cherish fate."

Huh, fate?Chen Ran smiled inwardly, but said nothing.

He wanted to find a doctor for further treatment. The attending doctor in Beijing called him directly and said that he had already greeted his old classmate in Shenzhen, the famous clinical psychologist Professor XX, and he just went to report his name. And like a kind uncle, he told him not to stop the medicine, and to call him at any time if he had any questions.

He was looking for a job, but somehow he received a lot of emails and text messages from headhunters recommending jobs. As soon as he filled out a job application on the recruitment website, the director of a large training institution called and said very sincerely: " Mr. Chen Ran, we saw your resume on the XX website. We just lack a teacher to teach children guitar here. We think you are very suitable. The basic salary plus meals plus transportation subsidies. Shall we discuss it in detail?"

Not long after Chen Ran went to work, his salary and bonus increased several times for no reason. In the training class, from the receptionist to the teaching assistant, from the supervisor to the colleagues, everyone greeted him with smiles, blinking their starry eyes, wishing to rush over to kiss him. He has two bites.

To pass the time at night, he went to the square to sing with his guitar in his arms. After only two or three days there, a decent-looking scout who spoke Hong Kong Mandarin came to chat with him: "Little boy, are you interested in entering the entertainment industry?" Where to develop?"

Chen Ran couldn't bear it anymore, and if he pretended to be stupid again, he would probably be a signed artist of a famous entertainment company in Hong Kong in a few days, and after participating in some activities, he "ran into" Shen Yixiu, a tycoon in the entertainment industry, and started a new life from then on. The invincible with golden thighs counterattacked Tom Su's path.

That night, Chen Ran called Sun Yang and said directly: "Tell him to stop worrying about me, help me find a house and find a job for me, after a while I want to find a boyfriend, will he help me too?"

Sun Yang relayed these words to Shen Yixiu verbatim.At that time, Shen Yixiu was revising the script with a few screenwriters, and his new movie coming back to the big screen was about to start.

Shen Yixiu gracefully stirred the coffee on the table with a small spoon, picked it up and took a sip, and said to Sun Yang who was standing beside him: "If he is looking for a boyfriend, what kind of forum did he sign up for, what kind of QQ group did he join? Yes, remember to register one for me."

That being said, Chen Ran's phone call helped a little bit, and his new life basically returned to normal after that, and he didn't sign up for a forum or join a QQ group to make a boyfriend, but occasionally went to the bar to sit Sit down, and chat with those who are close to each other, but it's all over.Chen Ran thought helplessly, although this was not his original intention, but after all, he had been with Shen Yixiu for several years, his vision was like an adolescent boy, unconsciously getting taller.

Chen Ran is very satisfied with the current life, free and peaceful, after a while, even the little devil holding Transformers in his heart doesn't bother him much anymore.

One winter morning, he woke up and looked at his watch. He was surprised to find that he was going to be late for work. There was a class for him at 10:9 on Saturday morning, and he fell asleep until 10:[-]. Chen Ran quickly got up to clean up , While brushing his teeth and laughing, he actually slept for a full [-] hours. This is a miracle that has not been seen for many years, and it is a blessing as big as the sky.

Chen Ran ran out with a guitar on her back, flew on a bicycle, and flew forward like a bird in the wet and cold mist of the southern winter.Flying all the way to the training center, the cutie at the front desk greeted him happily: "Mr. Chen, what's the happy event? I'm so happy today."

Teacher Xiao Chen hurriedly took a glass of water and brought it into the classroom, grinning at Meimei and said, "I slept very well yesterday!"

After class, Chen Ran saw a few female colleagues gathered together to gossip. He was in a particularly good mood today. For the first time, he walked over with his pipa half-hidden, listening to them chatting about new dramas, movies, and stars.While listening, I heard Shen Yixiu's name.

"Did you know? Shen Yixiu is about to star in a movie again! I heard it's a sensitive subject, same-sex love on Brokeback Mountain..."

"Really? Isn't he the boss behind the scenes? Hasn't he starred in a movie for many years? I'm looking forward to it..."

"Who is Shen Yixiu?" A young intern girl who was younger than Chen Ran frowned and asked, she heard everyone chatting enthusiastically, but she didn't even know who the protagonist was.

"You don't know Shen Yixiu?!" Xiao Cai, an English teacher who has always had a good relationship with Chen Ran and introduced him to her boyfriend, said with staring eyes, "That's my male god... But it's true, he turned behind the scenes It’s been so many years, it’s normal for you little girls not to know about it, but if I talk about a few movies, you’ll definitely know about it.” She took out her phone while talking, opened Douban, and enthusiastically chatted with intern Amway about Shen Yixiu’s movie.

"Ah! This is Shen Yixiu! It turns out that he directed this!" The intern's little sister's eyes lit up, with an expression of suddenly realizing that the fog was cleared to see the sunshine.

Chen Ran was listening, with a faint smile on his face. He unconsciously stroked the scar on his left wrist. It was very painful at first, but it gradually healed and no longer hurt, but it would itch when he moved. Now even the numb and itchy feeling is gone, Chen Ran looked down, the hideous broken dark red scar on his wrist seemed to have really faded, Chen Ran let out a sigh, the fading and shallowing is true , but it is impossible to disappear forever.

The author has something to say: try to finish it this weekend~~~